My life is completely useless.

This is just something that I wrote yesterday. It was meant for yesterday but because I was too lazy to turn on the computer and type it up later. Fascinating I know. Just to let you know what I say does not have anything to do with me… Or maybe it does.

Here’s a question. Do you want to make a change in the world that everyone will appreciate in the future? My answer to that is no. I would rather sit or even better lie in my bed the whole day doing nothing except for maybe reading or listening to music. I am not emo or goth and I don’t have a death wish. This is just me. But my existence is nothing. No one seems to appreciate me anyway even if I tried to do something. And I also know that one day I’ll just be a memory at the back of people’s heads. This isn’t really a problem for me. I just felt like saying something. It doesn’t hurt to do it. Although it may cause a few tears it’s not the end of the world. But if I want to see the positive things in my life I could, and there are good things in my life. I don’t ignore it but sometimes it’s not balanced. No, most of the time it’s on the negative side.

Ok, so I have friends. I can talk to them, tell them everything I could possible think of and no matter what it is, at the end of the day we’re still friends. But I keep thinking what happens after school. Even before school finishes. Year12 is a very stressful year and I’m afraid that everyone will forget fun and focus their whole life on studying. I know that is what’s important but it’s not the way I roll. It seems selfish for me to want things out of them. I don’t know. What could I even do that they’ll choose having fun over studying for their whole life basically.

This is a simple recipe for chocolate cake.

-1 cup flour
-3/4 cup milk
-1/2 cup sugar

1. mix all the ingredients and removing any lumps.
2. Put into a cake pan. Place in a preheated oven (180°) for 25 mins.
3. Serve warm with cream or jam.

Two things: If you tried to make that, then woah your stupid because I made it up. Secondly if you read the title of it then the recipe it doesn’t actually contain chocolate. LOL

I get bored easily. That may be obvious with the random cake recipe that I’ve put in. I’m sorry. I lose interest in things so easily. Take studying for one. The coming week is our half yearly examinations and what am I doing, wasting my time doing nothing, listening to music and blogging.

I just made cupcakes. They’re quite delicious if I may say so myself. If you want some come to my house and I’ll give you a basketful. I’m going insane. That I’m sure of!

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