Hey baby

So anyways, firstly I didn't want to make a new post to show that I'm barely ever on this site, but it's quite obvious I'm just finding ways to procrastinate as my exams draw closer. I'm actually shitting my pants but not really. I'm obviously not since I have time to make the creation I did on my cuffsandheels blog v2.0. I actually changed the URL, it's now http://sexoclock-v2.blogspot.com I think it just needed a change and to be vamp up because I don't know. Something just hit me, and on top of that it was getting quite boring. As you can probably tell, that's my boy, my 2/3, my love, my everything and (insert more cheesy, lame stuff here) and I don't know, since he's the one who checks it most I guess it's like for him (for you babe) and I really hope you like it. I actually, embarassingly enough put heaps of effort in that and it still looks pretty bad and amateurish. This is the downside of not having photoshop anymore.

Apart from the design changes, I've also decided to update my Blog layout and my about me information, as you can probably see, my name is not jazzyfizzle anymore but just plain jazzzzz okay not so plain but I thought I needed a better blogging name. Also, I've changed the Rate boxes thing, like it used to be Good/Bad, now it's What you think? Y3H/N0 It's kinda lame but I would love to know what my few readers think especially you Sexpot Portman. I guess that's about it. I should probably start doing real work before you come home, I thought that was you LOL, false alarm.

This was from earlier today, I really liked this message and yes, I know you're not annoyed/mad/angry at me but who knows you might be one day, so feel free to go back to this page and read it.

Yeah, so I don't think I really have that much more to say, except maybe I love you so much baby and I really wish I could be with you right now. It's okay there's only 35 hours to go before I get to see you again. We can make that time shorter if you want ;)

Always, your favourite blogger (LOL)

♥ jazzzz

♥♥♥

Earlier post:

since youre not online and I can't tell if youre angryannoyed or just not online i'll leave you a message here just to show not only you but the world how much I care about you
and I how much I miss you
and how much I want to be with you right now.
Come online soon so we can chat.
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Love you baeee,
♥

Don't feel like studying anymore...

Because I've just lost the motivation and because I seem to have used all the intelligence I had left on that English paper I did. #waste.

Anyway Kat brought something amazing up. What happens after school, after HSC, after all this hardwork and effort we've done.

I've come up with a list of things I personally want to do beginning with getting a job so that I can do the rest of the things I'm gonna write that. After getting a job the list will probably look a little like going clubbing every week to make up for all the times I've said no to my cousins which I'm pretty sure is gonna pile up because of TRIALS AND HSC, buy and indugle myself with good food. I would actually travel everywhere just to eat food. Which brings me to travelling. Although I would like to travel the world, I don't think now is the time for me. Like you know how you can tell if something feels right, well travelling now just doesn't. But on the other hand I really do want to go Philippines or America, even Melbourne. Just to get away from the ugly faces of everyone. Kidding, but yeah. I just realized (ages ago actually) that after school, I get to choose who I see and don't see which I'm really excited for because I want to do new things and just new everything. I'm sick of everything in the NOW. And wow look at that. I planned a mini future. Short term future? Whatever it's called that's what I'm intending on doing. I hope so anyway.

And must not forget, take Kat clubbing on her birthday!

So

I've decided, that to make my boyfriend happy I need to be nicer, not just to him but everyone else. So I'm gonna put more effort in not being a bitch and keeping my mouth shut.

That's all.

Overall a pretty great first week of school, even though IT IS school and it just means that Trials is fast approacing and it's kinda giving me the shits. Not really. I don't think I worded that properly.

My conclusion is, trials is coming soon. FUCK ME.

DEAR SUMEET

I lied,

I'd be angry if you left me for whatever reason.
But I wouldn't be angry at you, I'd be angry at myself for giving you a reason.


On a brighter note, I love you.
I'm so happy we've lasted as long as we have.
It still amazes me.
And I had a great night.

♥

eight months yo

hey baby, wanna get jiggy?

It's our 8 months of good times and bad times. And what a day. Hahaha, I love you. I hope we are together for a long, long time cause you know it takes a long, long time to satisfy me...If you know what I mean.

And sorry about yesterday's post baby. That was harsh but I'm glad today is our day and we're both happy. I know you're happy ;)

I’m not anti-social…I’m just not user friendly.

It’s Anavi’s birthday J

I have nothing more to say especially cause I need to do homework, like ASAP.

Dear blog followers:

If you don't like what you see then why do you keep coming back.

On a side note:
I LOVE SUMEET

Mouse

You lying, manipulative, desperate bitch.
So glad to be out of your life.


Actually just glad to be out of everyone's lives.

Why her?

really.

Yes!

How lovely.
It's not even afternoon yet and my day is already ruined.


whatever.

Lame

Everything's just getting worse. Woke up this morning feeling absolutely horrible. My head was hurting and my body was aching. As soon as I got up I began coughing like crazy and sounded very much like a seal. It's actually quite embarrasing. On top of my that I'm worried that I might actually have something wrong with me and it's all because I don't look after myself. I'm probably one of the luckiest people to have all that I have and my needs given to me yet I don't take advantage of it and instead sabotage my own health.

I just wanna cry...Nothing is working for me. I hate these holidays so much. But I'm really tired and just had a coughing fit. Will finish whatever this is tomorrow.

Watching Chuck

Watching Chuck is probably the only thing keeping me together right now. I feel like I'm all over the place and my temper, it always gets the better of me. I'm crying every other night, I don't know why. And on top of that I'm sick which makes everything hurt so much more. If this is karma, then what the fuck. Do I really deserve to cry as much as I do, to experience the envy and jealousy I have. Why can't I just be carefree and not care about anything. That way everything would be so much easier.

Anyways Chuck, Ellie is sooooo awesome. But then again she is Mrs. Awesome hahahah. She's so pretty and I love her. And when she was in that episode of Scrubs I was so happy. And now Chuck is playing Uno for his life. Gosh I love this show so much. One of the few things that actually make me happy.

Yeah better chill and stay anti-social.

I love my boyfriend

I've had a pretty good couple of days. I think last night was actually really good. Good for a long time. And today was so good. Actually got some sort of study completed and also shopping AND FOOD. I mean isn't that just amazing. (Me mouthing words, WITH EMPHASIS, like a loser :P) But yes. And macaroons,.. the ones from Cupcakes on Pitt taste the same. Like they have "different" flavours, but when it comes to actually eating it, it has the same taste. OH WELL, still pretty good.

LOVEYOU DOUCHE.
♥

These holidays...

are the worse.
I feel so lonely.
and I'm always bored.

It's like I have no purpose in life and what's the point in me existing.
I'd like to say that I wish I could disappear but I know how upset my parents would be and I wouldn't want to inflict that sort of pain upon them.