Winter is here

As always I begin my posts by saying "a lot has happened since my last post" well duh, you only post every few months, of course a lot is going to happen.

Well since my last post, I've had my birthday and turned 20, amazing right? It hasn't quite hit me though how old that really is. Soon ill be 21, then 22, 23, 24 and so on and so on and one day (hopefully) I'll be getting married and having kids.

Anyways celebrated my birthday with a few close mates in my very cosy home with lots of drinks shared between me, Kat and shini. For some reason others weren't as keen to drink. Why? Who knows.

In that time I've also has exams which has been so hectic. I've never had so much pressure to not only pass an exam but also do well considering how poorly I had done in the mid semester exams. I suppose it'll depend on the markers now whether or not I'll make it throuh. On the bright side, I did pass Networking and managed to get 69% which I'm quite proud of because I struggled in the beginning.

On a more recent topic, I've been such a party girl lately and drinking to my heart's content. Not only did I drink at Sarah's party but I also slept over and got to hang out with my oh so very cool cousins. To be honest I finally felt like I belong. Even if it was just for a few hours And even though I spent the morning running to and from the toilet, throwing up everything I had consumed that night. It was nice.

The other night, for post-exams celebrations me and the girls decided to head off to the city for dinner and clubbbanng. And as always I was up to my silly antics, dressed head to toe like a slur but being in Kings Cross, this was the social norm however still managed to get a few glances from the locals, but which girl dress with a low cut top and ass showing skirt didn't get a look, from anyone. We started the evening for a fine dinner at Chef's Gallery and I must admit, it was worth it. Especially the "Piggy visits Totoro House" dessert, WORTH IT! after dinner, some of the girls has left and the rest of us got ready then headed off to the cross and went to Soho, FOAM PARTY where I made my debut in hooking up with someone I've never met before nor do i plan to ever again. No need to worry, it was just a few seconds of mouth to mouth action, which frankly I didn't even enjoy that much. (Not into tounging). I also vaguely remember introducing himself (don't remember his name) and I replied by saying my name is Hannah, which we all know is not. Then things got a little wild so I decided to put a stop to it.

After the incident I decided to take the girls to Trademark although a bit hesitant on the price, but managed to get free entry *cheering and to be honest I still love Trademark. I love the music, the setting and location. Overall it was a great night with the girls which was abruptly ended due to freshy Indians hitting on one of my girls. But the whole thing was a success.

And now, I'm just back to my bored Jasmine, who doesnt know what to do with life.

15th August

Nothing special about today, you know just two exams. Fun, fun, fun exams as we established last night. Also it was really cold today. Not cold just cool. And I finally got a seat with the damn heater and wasn't freezing my ass off during the exam. Amazing.

Long Weekend

Uhh, this long weekend is so bad. I'm not doing anything. I finished cleaning my room this morning. It didn't even take me the whole day. By lunch time I was finished and was eating lunch. And then I read some manga while watching Imagine Me and You which had lesbian chicks which I thought was cute and nice that people could accept that. Then around two started watching my favourite soap and soon realised I fell asleep. Or more like I fell into a trance where I knew what I was doing but I just couldnt control myself. Hahah, that makes no sense at all but whatever.

My weekends now empty. I'd made so many plans yesterday one for pretty much everyday of this extended weekened that I had, now all ruined and I'm having the most shitty time ever. Well not really I'm just chillaxing and stuff but still. I wanted to spend money and eat food all day...not that I haven't been doing that already. But the main thing is I made plan with friends and I cancelled. I hate it when that happens to me so I hate it when I do it to them. It's not like I wanted to. Family and stuff, don't really want to get into it because I can't find anyway of making it interesting to read. Not that this blog is even any interesting, which is a shame.

Blogspot is a lot better than Tumblr, this of course is a personal opinion because, well it's my opinion, duh. My reason for this is simple. I like writing about nonsense and nothingness and expressing what I truly feel. I guess you can do that on Tumblr too but sometimes it just feels like your just posting pictures that other people have already seen and it gets so repetitive and boring. Plus as much as pictures may be interesting and can say a thousand words, oh this is what I told my boyfriend: A picture can have a thousand words, but Jasmine has a million more. I don't know if he read that or found that the least bit funny but I thought it would be a sweet thing to say, again a personal opinion.

I really want to do something. I'm not even going out tomorrow. I don't want to clean because that's gonna take me like what, a few minutes and then what after. I'm just gonna be bored again. Oh, I've realised that lately I've well not enjoyed but I like it better when everything's clean and neat. I'm not a neat freak but I think I might be turning into my dad. I'm growing into his cleaning habits which is quite odd because I use to be so close to living in a pig sty. I guess it's not that much of a problem. At least I'm clean and I'm no a dirty, dirty girl. Ha, yes I just had to put that okay.

To think that I couldn't write that much today, I've written quite a fair bit, yet again. Before I forget, RIP Elizabeth Taylor. I haven't watched many of your movies but I really liked the movie Taming of the Shrew where you played Katherina. Yeah, I really liked that. You had a great lifetime. I wish I could live a great lifetime too but of course in my own way. You really are a great person.

No more writing. Glad to hear from my that boy, whom I still haven't met. Far out, whatever he does though he's just so funny and nice and caring and why does he keep calling me cute when he too hasn't seen me because I know one thing for sure, my personality ain't nowhere near cute. Nothing about me is cute. I'm a sophisticated, classy, edible woman.

:)

laters bychezzz

Miss

What does it really mean? No one will ever truly know.

JASMINE, miss you so damn much.

Stop being so stupid.

Christmas in a few days.


this guy, he's reading my blog right now.
he's pretty cool. he knows who he is too :P


:D

Single-

Recently I've found myself to be more happy and light-hearted. I've seen the positive in life and can't help but just smile at all the little thing. Don't get me wrong, life isn't perfect, there are still those days where nothing is going your way or people go out of their ways to annoy you BUT overall it's been pretty great. The possible reasons this is the case could be:
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D

LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.

Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.

my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.

Another blog-
kid.

Stupidity

My stupidity is quite endless. I don't know when to stop nor do I listen to others when they are telling me that what I'm doing is very stupid. oh well, right?


Clearly a great day. I don't know why but maybe because of two special people in my life. That or the fact that I'm just making excuses to bring the topic of me spending what's left of my savings. But overall a terrificly good day. Ahhh. I don't want to move on from this day but we must let go of the past. Once again, one of the good day's I've had in a while.

thank youuuuu :)
c'mon, you know who I am.. :P



i love presents. especially when they're from me. gosh i'm so awesome.




and DAMN IT people.
stop calling me dear.
seriously. it's not cool.
i dont mind kid, but dear?!?!?

Tone: Poetry

Your past haunts you when you least expect it.
That's what I said to Jasmine moments ago.


But I'm joyous. And that's great.

Tell later.
make the most of now.


Purp. YOU ARE EFFING GAY. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THOSE THINGS.

glad :D

really and truly am glad.
how lovely is it today.
ive done such a wonderful deed and made everyone happy including myself.
the real question is should i take this another step forward or would that just be too far. although it kinda is pointless as i've told myself over and over again but just that satisfied feeling is what i feed on and i like that feeling. hmmm. must wait for myself to come back and talk to me then.

oooh. oh so awesome.

Japanese Marshmallow Game

I can't help it. I just had to write a blog post. Like yeah. Stupid people no writing blogs because of the stupid maths test which was obviously OVER studied by everyone. At least it's over...for now. There's still quite a bit more work before year 10 is over but we live. I'm off to a relative's party which I really don't feel like going to at the moment because I'm pretty sure that it's gonna be boring and like there's gonna be no one to talk to and I'm just going to be bored to the max. I probably won't even be able to watch a movie on my iPod or something which sucks BIG TIME. I want to just stay home and watch movies all night and relax. Oh well. We can't always get what we want. Which reminds me today was a good day :) Don't want to mention anything except I'm happy. I know why and that's good enough. Hehe.

For those people who aren't feeling what I'm feeling right now though here's something just for you. It's another YouTube clip Fritz showed me last week and it's damn hilarious right and yeah. Just watch it. It's basically two japanese teams (one read, one blue) and they try to eat the marshmallow and watching it would just be the best thing to do. HAHA

Awesome

Today was and is still a wonderful day. Wait, cross that out. night. HAHA. Betche I know what Alyssa's thinking right now. WTH HECK IS WRONG WITH MY SISTER?!

I mean, today was good because it just was. Went to Blacktown and watched GI JOE with sister, and two awesome friends, SUGAR AND FRITZ. and they're real. Seriously I know people with the best names ever. I have a sister with an awesome name. Ok, chillax. I think it might be from the sugar overload because the lady from Gumballs gave fritz too much sugar in his drink then I ended up drinking it for him. It was funny too cause he bought a Child ticket when he's like 25 years old and got away with it. LOL.

For dinner went to Ate's and Kuya's house and I just laid in the their bed and just lazed off. It was so hot and it was kinda random plus the kids were getting really annoying especially Eugene with the constant I'm bored, let's do something, i'm bored. But apart from that pretty awesome. So much food consumed over the past two days. I'm now bloated. Gosh.

Oh, BTW: movie was OK, i guess.

:D

Stop Hiding

Last night would have to be one of the best nights I've had in ages. He wasn't what I'd expected and like it was a good thing he was there because the other person just doesn't seemt to care anymore and so I liked it. It was good. Refreshing.

I'm sick of being me sometimes. I overdo things and I can't see how people are feeling and their reactions to what I'm doing and at times I go way over the top. I take things too far and obviously that's not fair to people. Anyways talking to my new found friend (and btw. did you read that, it's just friends. Nothing more nothing less, on my side of the whole thing anyway). He's really nice and kinda reminded me of those times, times when I'd have the person all to myself and no one else in the world existed and you can talk about anything non stop. I'm glad. Too bad today kinda well it wasn't like my previous night. Still great but you know not that best day ever. HAHA. I miss Jensen. Not that I talk to him often. Maybe that's why. Too bad we're seperated by 500km of land and another 300km of oceans and countries. And the fact that we are kinda close. Nothing would ever happen yet I know my parents that if I ever found someone like him they would approve and be happy because he's such a gentleman and knows how to make a woman feel like a damn woman and make her happy.

Happy Birthday Vinori !

Maxwell St

Waking up late to a an eventful day, one which I hadn't expected. I'm so happy right now and this is probably why.

Well if I were to talk about my WHOLE day it would take me forever. So I'll just start at 4pm of Thursday 8th. I caught Anavi's bus right and we went to her house. I'm pretty sure her brother thinks I'm some kind of retard because everything that came out of my mouth seemed pretty stupid. Such as, is there a pole there? When there was no pole in sight. But yeah. At her house I was too, I don't know. I asked her permission for every single thing I did. We also had a snack which was just milk for me and cereals for her. LOL. Then she got changed and couldn't decide what to wear over her clothes and so I helped. Skip all that. Finally got to the car and in the car we were just talking about anything really. We couldn't stop laughing either and we started taking pictures. It began on Maxwell St and from then on, there was pictures. It was a long drive and soon we got there. Actually, Anavi's dad went straight past it and I knew where it was but I was no help at all. So we walked to the Barracks and it went really quick. We got our stuff and the lines were pretty short. On the way out I got these 'Business' Cards and free Gatorade (4 of them) and we went back to the car. Thats when Anavi's mum decided to stay back longer and shop and also eat dinner which was fine with me because I'm not the one driving. So we went to MYER and while her parents where shopping, me and Anavi looked around at the dresses and what dress to get for the formal. Once we went through most of the floor we went dowstairs to smell the perfume and there was this nice one. BOSS Hugo Boss's latest perfume and it smelt good. I still have the card with me. Then we left and went to the Apple Store and and we took photos right. After we got help. HAHAH. It was so fun. After that we had dinner at this curry restaurant and ate this nice bread thing which actually tasted nice. I was eating so slow and I felt embrassed cause they'd already finished and I was still eating taking my time. We left once I finished and when we got back in the car I was just so tired I wanted to sleep. I was telling Anavi how she succeded to get me tired and make me fall asleep early. Came back home at 9.20 which wasn't long ago. And now I actually am really tired. Until tomorrow.

More details on Anavi's blog. If she writes one. Which she will.

Sayounara

p.s. that retarded one was meant to be a scenery of Paris but it got fudged up.

Sleeping. It's Quite Fun

It has never occured to me how sleep deprived I am. Maybe people hassling me to sleep at 1 in the morning finally hit me that 'hey, it is quite late'. And on top of that, waking up at 7 in the morning after only 4 hours of sleep you'd wouldn't really wonder why every few minutes you're yawning. Although this has been brought up I'm not changing who I am. If I want to sleep late and wake up early you can't do anything about it except join me or ignore my problem.

Frankly I was quite happy that today was going to be the SRC and everyone else Training Day. With the food and activities which was prepared for us, I was actually glad that it was held today. But seriously it was exactly what you had expected. A complete waste of time. Except maybe the Krispy Kreme doughnut (which I haven't had for a while) and the pizza we got to eat at lunch. Apart from that I could have, really just fallen asleep. But because I'm a good role model and I'm there to represent people I have to maintain poise and elegance so i just stayed fidgety. The day lasted quite long. Sad really. I didn't even get to do what I want to do because there are limitations in what I am allowing myself to do. At times I go to far and I'm just not being fair on myself so I have to take things slower. With that in mind I'm actually happy. Apart from a few minor things life's pretty good. I saw that and that made me smile and realise how good this life of mine is turning out. And the thought of it just keeps me smiling and helps me go continue the day (if that makes sense in anyway).

Before I leave you guys I must make a few notes:

1. stop with the random and weird laughs
2. think about others and their feelings
3. maintain your organization skills
4. exercise at least once a week
5. keep chocolate at a minimum

As they say in Spain; Adios amigos!

Take Things Slow

I've been quite busy lately, although I haven't beena acting like it and it's stressing me a bit. I mean not to the point where I'm pulling my hair out but enough to startle me and make confused and lost with whatever I am doing. Not that I can complain. I should be happy to have this life because it's what I asked for, right ? Well today it was really fun. Mainly during the middle of the day beginning at maths when Gabriel (the american exchange student) was in my class. And you know how I have a thing for the American accent, well I just fell in love with him. HAHA. I tried to talk to him as much as I could but I practically failed. And it was cool how we played with the chatterbox except he called it Cootie Catcher or something like that :) Overall that was good. And at lunch we was just in a circle laughing and talking. Something nice.

I'm happy to have Jasmine & Shirine back too. LOVE, ANGEL ;)

Another thing. I promised to write PJ a story in IST ;) So here goes. Actually; a summary.

All she wanted was to be popular. No one saw this coming. Georgina, 16, and a complete loser. She didn't want it anymore and when she moved school she changed herself and her total outlook on life. It's not that she was teased or anything. She just wanted more, more and more. Somehow what she had just wasn't enough for her. She would use the people around her and take advantage of the ones who didn't know better or was just too nice to say anything. It kinda reminded me of this other chick too. I do wonder, how can they be so thick...

Working progress PJ.


Goodbye.

2009-July-31

Firstly I find it pointless that I write blogs everyday just for the sake of it and who would want to read that. Secondly today was full of events, events which I will talk about.

Actually I just want to say that today was fun. Here are the main events.

• Himmat trying to hack Beves's laptop in commerce.
• Boring extension information thing.
• Chemistry quiz, once again; boring
• Finding out the italian guy was in my english class while i wasn't there and he even read parts of the play and sigh*
• mr. cantlon not encouraging us to do any sort of gambling
• Ducking the ball
• Traits we have in science
• Staring at the italian guy; non-stop. He would be the answer to get over any guy. Seriously. I can't take my eyes off you...
• Mum's friend Juliet and her fianceè/husband (i'm not sure) named Romeo.

So basically I'm in love with this really cute italian guy and I know that's like a never because who would fall in love at first sigh with me. Hmmm. And yesterday was Subject Selections evening and Fiona was supposedly at my house but I was kinda stressing cause I didn't want her to get into trouble. LOL. Left early to eat all you can at the band club. So yeah.

♥ Tomasso

I Can Do You Like That, That, That

We all know that today was the first day back to school. I expected it to be quiet and not as joyful. At a few times this was the case but then again, on days when everyone is there those 'moments' occur too. Especially if you're me. Today was also my first day in SRC. I don't know if I should be writing it here but this is how I feel and thought. At first I thought SRC would be a great and fun experience and have the chance to represent my grade etc. Once I did get the position I started feeling regretful because I didn't quite expect to receive a position as such. It wasn't right and I don't like it when things aren't right. I don't know. I don't think this is the right time to say it and I will leave it for later. Gosh, I feel so stupid today. Not just because of this but nothing would register and I found myself just staring at the wall or the ground or whatever and whenever people spoke to me I would just be in a world of my own. I was hopeless and I really did not like it. No more gay things. Today was good. People, leave me alone, seriously, let me do what I WANT to do.

Something came to mind when I read Exclamation Mark's blog. The one from the 14th. I didn't like it. Not as in it was a bad thing but it was more of a sad thing. But as I was told it's a person's blog and they should be able to express their own feelings. Well this is how I feel. Some people may look like they're taking their life and family for granted but inside it worries them shit. Because for me I try not to think about death and death altogether because it's not a funny topic. The thought of that happening to my family is sad and I don't want to talk about it. But I just want to make the most of now. The time I have with them. The time when I can be happy and have no worries because one day I will have worries but I don't want to waste this time. I just want to feel good and satisfied and lucky, lucky to have all that I have. Why make more problems when there's enough problems out there. AAAHhh, I've overdone it again. Stuff it.

GOODBYE.

Transformers: Return of the Fallen

Uplifting, wonderful, joyous, happy, enjoyable, etc. That's how I would describe today. It was really nice and different. It began quite early for me. Well not really. Compared to my usual days lately, I would have to say that it has been quite early. With 2 hours to get ready I still ran out of time to get ready and arriving at the bus stop I got there early which meant I got quite annoyed. Hmmm. At the station I was waiting for the train, because I missed the other one, and when I arrived at the station there were people there. We got there before 11 and so I bought chocolate yum.

We watched Transformers 2 whilst everybody else watched other movies, obviously. The movie was pretty good. Except beside me I kept hearing, Meagan Fox this, Meagan Fox that... Hmmmm. Movie was really good though and I'm quite happy about it.

Afterwards the movie it was just random wandering around the mall and who couldn't forget lunch with everyone around that single 4 seater table. Quite funny actually. Well to me it was. C'mon 9 people in two tables, we were kinda connected to the asians who was sitting on the other table but yeah. Fine doesn't matter. I was eating so slow too.

More walking around the shops and me and Anavi decided that we didn't want to go to Rebel and she wanted to get a dress so I went around with her looking for a dress and then finally we got to Hipster and found her this really pretty dress which I think makes her look damn fine actually. Makes me jealous. That also became her birthday present from me so that was pretty good. Once we purchased the dress we went back up to onFour and went Max Brenners and ate, well chocolate. What else? Haha. Man, the chocolates gives you food orgasms. Hmmmmmm. After that it was time to go and the we said goodbyes. On the train was just talking and talking. It was like a girl's day out on the train cept it wasn't the whole day on the train and it wasn't just girls on the train. If you know what I mean...

Guitar Hero

Today was not expected. Basically I thought it was going to be another boring mama's friend party. And it's not that they're boring it's just that I don't usually have anyone to talk to. But today I made an effort to join in with the little kiddies. We played Guitar Hero and it was really fun because it was something different and it gave me a challenge. Man Eugene, he's like 10x younger than me and he's insane. Seriously. He got like 130 notes in a row or something like that and I was happy with 60. HAHAH. Low expectations. Anywho, they were very fun and I'm not a pedo just cause I enjoy hanging around little kids.

Need to save up money.

Stop making me happy.

Begin training for city2surf.

Relax

I don't know where to begin. I seriously don't.

Sigh* I thought about it. Not really but after 5 minutes I still don't know where to begin. So I guess it would have to be the start. Right?

I woke up, like I usually do. It was freezing. I don't know why but lately I've been getting the chills so easily. I do wonder why this must be but that later. I did my hair. Interesting huh. No not really. It's just curls and it would have been the cause of me being late to the bus stop again but it's more important for me to look good than miss the bus. WOW I'm quite distracted. I totally forgot that I was writing a blog. How about I just say the following:

Jasmine is happy. Once again. She is scared that because she's been getting all these good and happy things lately that there will be a massive bad thing that wil occur soon or later in the future but something major will happen and she doesn't want it to.

Still like that person. Hey I can't help who I like. Uhm happy that I got SRC. Italian was good. I mean it wasn't how I planned it but I didn't actually plan it so yeah. And Sumeet and Anavi, you guys are so cute, but the things I heard, gosh you two. Apart from that I'm really happy and I'm scared something will happen. Like Mr. Beves said with Negative Gearing: High Gain, High Loss.

The holidays are here. I don't know why I'm leaving so much gaps in this blog. Maybe I'm just out of it. Probably. So many things planned. I don't know where to begin so I won't begin. I'll just wait for it to happen and be satisfied with that. Until then, laters.

Pyrmont

"Can I ask for anything more?"

To tell you the truth I enjoyed my day and so that it can be ruined don't tell me about your day, how good or bad it was because for once I want to feel like I'm the only one who had a really good & perfect day and no one can ruin it. Although I received a few facts from people and who can blame them, they are facts. And the fact that I spent so much money on random shit, like always but who can blame me, I'm me.

You guys should read this. Sukhman was telling me about it this morning and may I just say, What a way to die:

A man fell into a vat of hot melted chocolate and has died at a factory in New Jersey, a spokesman for the local public prosecutor said.

The 29-year-old man was among four workers on a platform above the vat who were dumping in pieces of solid chocolate to be melted down, said Jason Laughlin, spokesman for the Camden County Prosecutor's Office.

"He somehow slipped and fell into the vat," Laughlin said.

Laughlin said the vat at the Cocoa Services Inc plant in Camden was around eight feet (2.5 metres) deep.

"At this point there's no suggestion of foul play," Laughlin said.

Laughlin says a co-worker tried to shut off the machine and two others tried to pull Smith out of the 8-foot-deep vat.

He was hit and fatally injured by the agitator that mixes the chocolate.

Very random. I could talk about how my day was really good but I've already said that so here are just some of the highlights from my day:

• Being on the train in the morning all by myself. I sound like such a loser and a loner but it was nice. I didn't have to try communicate with anyone and I could do anything I wanted without being judged by anyone. Walking to school by myself was a plus too I guess because I just listened to music and I decide the pace I wanted to walk and where to go next. The 'next' was actually McDonalds where I had breakfast because I didn't have enough time in the morning (probably because I had to dry my hair then straighten it)
• The bus trip on the way to the city was a highlight too I guess because I just sat there talking to everyone about the most random things. I swear I saw Ankita and Sarah looking at me multiple times, they looked dodgy. Lucky for me and Sukhman the seats he got us had extra legroom which means our legs didn't have to be cramped up in the seats, the down side to that was because my legs weren't long enough to reach the other seats that when the bus comes to a halt I would fly forward and slip off my seat.
• Pyrmont, well wherever we were was nice. I mean the rain didn't help because I didn't want to get wet but as soon as the sun came out, the day turned out to be even more perfect, which is just the way I like it. Walking around and seeing the city was nice. I mean the class would get a stare from one of the locals every now and then but who gives a shit about what they think. I didn't realise that the buildings in the city had so much meaning to it well I kinda did but not that much. Being on that wharf was pretty good too because it had this nice park which is actually new (Urban Renewal?). On top of that we got free lunch which didn't make any difference to me because I still managed to spend around ten dollars today.
• The bus trip home was pretty good too. We had more space because half the people were staying back (I wanted to as well but I was not given permission by my very own parents). It was funny because this guy set his Bluetooth name to Hi nigga and sent Aimee random pictures. It was funny as. On the bus we also ate lollies, the lollies which I bought, which in the end actually made me feel sick. Maybe because it was the orange flavour. Probably.

My day, to you may not be interesting but to me it was really good and like I said before don't ruin it for me. Please.

I like how the way things are between me and him.

I don't want anything to change.

This feeling is enough for me and it may be that feeling they call satisfaction.

So, I don't want anything more nor do I want anything less...