Quick

My time on Blogger have been rapidly decreasing because of this person who used up all the interner. Oh, well he pays for it anyway.

certainty, people like certainty...

I didn't know that people could be LIKE THAT and not notice the things they do. It's just too much in your face especially all the time. I wanted to complain. And I know someone who's speculating trying to work out who I'm talking about. Jasmine it's not who you think. Well, maybe it is but like whatever and I'm fine. But people, don't be in MY FACE, cause I really DON'T like it.

certainty, people like certainty...

15 days and I'm 16 years old. Dayum! How the time flies and I'm not even enjoying it. Well parts of it yeah, but you know I'd just wish I didn't have so many regrets, but what's life without regrets.

certainty, people like certainty...

One more thing, I had a talk with Katrina about a couple of things. But like what I'm talking about is relevant to me and what I always think about. Just one question, would it be such a good thing if it happened?

certainty, people like certainty...

I've changed a lot over the past couple of weeks. I wouldn't exactly say it was matured and some of the changes, especially my attitude towards other people haven't exactly been, positive. Sometimes I feel that I'm doing the wrongs things. Like during IST, things which occur during class is not something you'd expect to come out of me, but why is this happening. I really don't know and I should concentrate on half yearlys which are in 4 weeks so wish me luck.

laters,.
;]

Nakakainis

Meron ditong babae nakaupo, katabi ki xa at super gulo nya pero yun lang ang gusto qng svhin, HEHE. Anyways my day was pretty good. Things happened and didn't happen. Hmmm, yeah I guess it's all good then, huh ?

;]

School.

Back to school once again.
It's not that bad.
Well, at least I can breathe now.
I could before,
but I was running.
HAHA.
geddit ?

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Cupcake

Last day of the school and holidays and well it just doesn't seem like it. After watching Days of Our Lives i've realized I'm gonna miss a lot of things while I'm at school but then again school will be bring me more and good opportunities so I shouldn't be so down about it. I'm going to finish Inkheart then off to play basketball against those two sisters of mine.

laters,..

;]

Boring

These holidays have been quite a drag.

I'm actually quite glad that they will be over in a matter of days.

Somebody HELP me.

;]

Not at Home

I'm not actually at home right now but I need ti get this done so like I wont forget later, so yeah. Anyways woke up this morning heaps sleepy. Maybe that was cause I stayed up late till 3 in the morning playing Rollercoaster Tycoon...geez jasmine, wtf is wrong with you.

Today has been quite good. People came over then afterwards played 21 with dad and sisters. It's this heaps fun basketball shooting game. But like, apart from that I just organized the external hardrive and other files on my computer.

Now i'm at a dinner, get together with family friends and watching The Simpsons. Quite funny even though they're reruns, and I'm planning to either watch Independence Day or some filo movies but yeah...

Ralph: Are you jealous of Mr. Homer?
Ned: No it's okay. I'm fine.
Ralph: Well, I'm jealous of girls cause they get to wear dresses.

hehe. funny stuff.

laters,..
;]

Life, It Can Never Be How You Want it to Be

These past few days have been making me think. I guess it does help to be isolated from the world at times because then I could actually be myself and think about things and how they have been occuring lately. I don't know. I kinda feel happier right now, more lighter and less stress. Although theses holidays I have gained a lot of weight which I plan to lose soon by exercising daily, which I know will be a fail becauseI will forget or can't be bothered. But back to the subject, although I have gained a lot of weight I haven't had much pressure on how I look and appear especially around the house because no one here cares. No one will talk behind my back. My family I know they'll always be there for me no matter what. That's when it hit me. Why am I so scared of facing new people. I don't have to be the perfect stranger that they meet at a birthday party or at the mall. I could just be me and it doesn't matter what they think. As long as I have family, it's all good.

Things in life change all the time. I've noticed a lot of changes in everyone. Some changes may not be one that I like but what can I do. Nothing really. All I can do is sit back and watch because if I do anything it could become something worse than planned. Changes in my friends I've thought that maybe if that's what they want then good for them. I'll be the friend who'll just be there no matter who they are and what they do. Okay, well maybe not all the things they do. That could depend on what they do, but you get the whole idea.

I know this topic is kinda too out-there and not usually what I write about. But I've come to realise that my holidays have bee quite boring and not very eventful. Writing about a whole different topic has opened a whole new world to me and I like it. Only a couple more days till school and I'm quite excited though now that I am in year 10 in kinda scares me. So many exams and assignments. I know that I can do it. Anyone could, they just have to WANT IT. That's a good idea actually...

I WANT IT!

more than anyone else does.

Spending less time on the computer would also help me to accomplish this so I think I'm going to go now. Even though it's is just watching TV a change of scenery would still be good and healthy. That reminds me, I did exercise today. I lost 118 calories of doing 4 reps of 2.30minutes max, 1.30minutes min on the stationary bike. It felt good.

laters,..

;]

I Don't Have to Be Here

Right now, I don't have to be here.

Sitting on my big ass, you know what even my parents were saying how big my ass was and they were wondering who did i get such a fat ass from cause no one in their family has a big ass. But yeah. Back to my story, I don't have to be here. I could be at Blacktown shopping, eating, hanging with friends. Basically everything but what I'm doing right now which I find really gay cause I don't like not doing anything. Even though I'm not actually not doing anything but it would be better if I wasn't at home all the time. I want to go out. And this song I'm listening to sounds nice. Let me check what it's called.

Heartrate by QT

Nice song, listen to it.

Anyways I'm just planning to play Rollercoaster Tycoon because I have nothing better to do with my life right now so yeah. Anything else I should say. Let me think... uh, no. Ok done.

laters,..

;]

Me, my life and myself

LOL, i'm such a gaybo. Firstly with this blog and secondly the blog heading. But the truth is i'm just bored. Like really. And it also sucks that im not going to the movies tomorrow (even though they're watching a movie I already have and watched) and i'm stuck  at home to be with my annoying little sisters.

Hmmm, i'm currenly on safari and it's quite odd using it. Not bad, it actually looks better but i'm so use to Internet Explorer that like i'm use to it. Plus the fact that I have updated my IE so that i can just use Shift + Enter when i'm typing something in the address bar. I just love being a computer nerd sometimes. HEHE. Retard.

I think that's all i want to say right now so i'm off. Better miss me.

laters,.
;]

Fast and Furious 4 Review

Fast & Furious 4
Starring : Vin Diesel, Paul Walker
Rating: 4 out of 5 stars

Review:
Another movie from this thrilling movie of cars, racing, girls and money. Compared to the other movies it brings all the excitement and action from the first three movies. Though there are less racing and more talking you can still expect the suspense as you sit on the edge of your seat.

When Letty dies from being murdered by one of the 'bad-guys', Dom decides to give payback for what they did and along with Bryan their back to their good old days. The romance between them is still hot and in the end you will enjoy this movie.

My review kinda sucks and is very amauteurish...ah stuff it. Point of this: sick of people asking me, hehe and im lazy, very.

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Roof

today right i woke up and like i heard this sound from above
and i was dreaming too
and hmmmm
i was dreaming of this guy
haha. I wish i knew him
but he's only a girl's dream
well he exist but like i'll ever meet him
let alone any guy that's right for me
but they guy from hana kimi
aka. sekime ?
hmmm
yeah that name
....
apart from that
today was kinda ,,,
er.
uneventful.
yeah that's the word.
watched
How to Lose Friends and Alienate People
and the start of
Hana Kimi (jap)
again, coz i felt like it
and now:
Fast and Furious 4
So yeah.
I think, i'm going now.
just had to post a blog.
LOL

:D

laters,.

;]

Worse

My holidays are going down the slide so fast, it's no fun at all.


Maybe that's how my life is doing.

Fast,

down

and

boring.

and no one even knows how i feel.
if only.

if only that person could come here

and save me from this hell-hole

this sadness im in

yet, i feel so light

but i can feel the pain,

pain withing me

...slowly...

...slowly realizing...

...maybe...

...this is how it was meant to be...

can't do anything about it now...

It's all too late.

laters,..

;]

p.s. what i just wrote, doesnt mean anything :D

sorry if i gave out the wrong idea.

Just Great

today...
as soon as we came home back from church
i sat in the cat
and now it's injured and limping
and everyone blames me for it
and keeps saying it was on purpose,

hmmm. what a life.

my day can get worse.

word: shit

;]

SWIMMING

swimming was fun.
but dayum
JULIA is moving to WA.
new instructor.
:(

word: disappointed.

;]

What a Let Down

Compared to yesterday, today was such a let down
hmmm.

I LIKE:
Never Let You Down - Frankie J (and this other guy, whom i cant remember)

word of the day: wondering

sorry, no link today, I cbb.

laters,..

;]

Puff Daddy

exhausted, really all i feel like doing is going to sleep but like, this blog must be done. today, something fun occurred and i don't know if i should write about it. Here's what I did with people today:

• watch people play fooseball and suck at it
• watch people air hockey and suck at it
• shot some hoops and listened to people saying I sucked at it
• greeted late-comers and saw something but i should shuttup about it
• played Tekken 5 and sat there
• i think we ate lunch first
• ate lunch; spaghetti & chicken & garlic bread & etc...
• went to the park
• played soccer naked...feet
• went to the playground and sat there with someone cz it was so hot
• went home
• played Truth or Dare which turned into Truth
• people left :(
• cleaned up house
• now, tired

Hmmmm, interesting. I would LOVE to put in so much more detail but putting in more detail is the worst thing i could do and im actually quite tired right now.

ONE more thing. Maybe i'm over him...

*sigh.

i guess i might be. that's a good thing. But theres a thing in my little heart which has space for him. But im not waiting. I've Been Waiting for a long time. LOL, i havent just had to put the song name.

Word meaning of today: Conceited
btw, today's word is not how I feel, but a word which became a topic of the convo a lot today.

but right now it's all good and im happy
and quite tired actually.

so

laters,...
;]

LONELY

im home alone
eating
and watching Days of Our Lives
come over?
hah, too late
by the time u get here
'rents will be back
:P

laters,..

1 sleep to go
:D

;]

OH SHIT

I forgot everything
damn.

;]

Room is DONE

ive now changed rooms
and it been accomplished in 4 days
WELL DONE JASMINE
but not im bored
and 3 days till they come
hmmmm,
should i change my mind.

LOL
laters,..

;]

4 days

theyre nearly coming
but the waiting is boring me
im not doing anything
except clean up this house
and move all my stuff
from outside
to inside
to the room

but at least ive been getting a lot of sleep lately
esp. in the afternoon
hmmmm.
lovelyy.


laters,..
;]

lazy

cbb posting long blog
room is empty
:p

laters,..

;]

quick post

busy packing up and cleaning my room as i'm swapping rooms with alyssa, therefore i've been busy lately and ive been going to church a lot. today was good friday. i liked it.
:D

*stations of the cross
*good friday mass.

laters,..

;]

tired

how about,
i'll write about it some other day
when i'm not sleepy
and when no parts of my body is aching.
hmmmm.
laters,..

Word:

"hurting"

;]

cross country '09

hmmm, tired. but not
13th.
still thinking about 'em
omg-osh
wtf is wrong with me
everyone thinking something
something i dont want to know
please
just go away
stop being so effing there.
tennis.
hot
tiring
boring? nah.

2 hour nap from tiredness
poo.
chicken for dinner
yum

swapping rooms
pack clothes.
sleep.
bye


WORD: "TIRED"

thanks for dictionary.com for all the word meanings, for those people who don't know what these words mean.

;]

under the cloudy sun

it was really cold today and it still is
i think that im getting
CLOSER
to thing
haha. which i find is a really good thing
and it's made me really happy
see, if everyones happy my happyness
DONT MATTER
cause i will end up being happy
thats how it
but, I
STILL
THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY
and dont be
MAD
at me, if i do that
...

my eyes, i think i need glasses
or something cause they get blurred so easily
it was funny today cause of many things
but the highlight is during 4th period
and we were watching year 12's do public speaking
and this curry guy
EVERYTIME
he spoke, he'd do the head bobbing thing
:P
everyone was cracking up to themselves
it was funny. watching everyone was funny too.
haha. must not be slack. OK
...
LET ME LOVE YOU
because
I HATE THIS PART RIGHT HERE
it hurts me,
RIGHT HERE...
and don't be so
HEARTLESS
..........


ok i'm so lame. the only reason this blog is so odd and emotional is because i tried to use song names and fit it in the thing, so yeah. good stuff.

WORD : LAME


;]

waaa

im really happy

word thing:
"happy"

that's all im gna say


;]

sundae yum

daylight saving ends.

wooo, another hour of sleep. so after weeks & weeks of only getting 5 hours of sleep, for once i got 8 (: But still had to wake up early to go church which i found was good and fun, but i was still sleepy. HAHA but then again, im always sleepy.

actually i don't feel like blogging now.

apart from that nothing interesting happened anyway except i finished my health assignment which i found really awesome cause I finally did it. Just have to do Italianooo and IST.

I missed out, by a big shot. I think, I must stop thinking about it. Hmmmmmm.

psht. im hungry.

;]

HAHA, i'm not laughing

Over and over again
cause it's all in my head...

I woke up this morning, up and ready to go swimming. Lately, waking up in a Saturday morning I've felt more enthusiastic about going swimming. I don't know why this is the case but it's a good thing. I got there and Julia was back. Yey? And because I was there early she asked if i wanted to join the early class and I did it, which meant i finished earlier. Woo, I could do all the things she said EXCEPT for the fact that I couldn't breathe, but that's just me. So yeah.

Now i'm at home and like I'm doing the first part of the Healthy Assignment which I find a complete waste of time because it is. So yeah. While looking for info I came upon this (http://www.reachout.com.au/default.asp?ti=1866) I thought it was a good website and it really gave me help on what was wrong with me.

Why I'm feeling crap:

• You have experienced one or several big or small stressful events or tough times.

So yeah. It may have been cause by one of the following:

• Family problems
• Relationship or friendship problems - breaking up with someone or fighting.
• Starting at a new school or job.
• Being a carer or living with someone with a mental or physical illness.
• Feeling bored or unstimulated, e.g. in the school holidays.
• Not eating well
• Not getting enough exercise
• Not getting enough sleep
• Illness - being sick, or fighting off illness, can make you feel run down and unwell
• Hormonal changes in females during your menstrual cycle can make you feel crap. This may happen a few days before you get your period and you may not make the connection immediately.

As you can see it's not all of it, it's a few of those reasons. I'm not going to go into detail into that but yeh. I'm going to admit it. I FEEL CRAP. And the only thing I can do about it which will work is to express my feelings, but that will cause me to feel more crap and make the whole everything worse. So i will just deal with it and keep my mouth shut. My happiness doesn't matter, just as long as everyone elses is fine.

And just to get things straight now, I'm not emo. I don't fucking cut myself or even listen to emo music. I don't even dress emo. So fuck off. I'm not fucking emo.

Must finish this.

laters,.
;]

p.s.

WORD FEELING OF THE DAY:
"CRAP"

FRIDAY DAY DAY

it was sunny today

and i was happy

Last day of school spirit week it was very excitingly fun and sunny and such a bludge. LOL, it began with commerce and i did work, sumarized work LOL and it was very funny and exciting then i realised i was hungry and totally out of it and that commerce wasnt really fun. HAHA. Do i have to go through my day. Like seriously. Right now, as in RIGHT NOW i realised something. But maybe i shouldnt include it in the blog because this is a public blog and thi is a very private thing. But i'm really happy and like totally getting ober him. HAHA. I don't know why I'm laughing but like whatever. But theres something else connected to that, that only a few people know the reason to. Like I only get over people a certain way, and yeah. If you really want to know ( YES, im talking to YOU ...) then ask me, I may tell. But then again, I probably already told you. So yeah.


WORD OF THE DAY:

"BUBBLY"

note: I hate lunchtimes, I figured out that this is the cause of the downturn of my very good moods, so think about what you're going to do or say to me, before you do, because it could be you that changes me.

I caught the train. Laugh out loud.

laters,.
;]

:P

What I Want:

1. a pretty beanie
one that fits me, with nice colours and preferably with a good design.

2. iPod speakers
I already have one but I need portable ones, so like if we have school events that we go out we I could bring my speakers and listen to the music, like everyone and not just me.

3. polaroid camers
i'm sick of the digital camera like its good quality and all but like it's not instant enough, plus i've always wanted a polaroid camera.

4. a new outfit
i don't care what outfit, i just need a new style. Like seriously, I don't even think I have a style. I just wear whatever and hoepfully it looks good.

5. shoes
nice shoes. and not formal ones.


MUST SAVE MONEY, otherwise I'll never be able to get any of these.


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More Rain

"Don't lie, it'll just make you cry"
I made that up, and it rhymes..


Today because of this stupid weather everyone's mood seems to be pretty gloomy. Actually I should just speak for myself but like, because I'm in this stupid phase again when the stupid weather is affecting how I am during the day.

Firstly today Mexican day and it wasn't a mufti day so I just stuffed it and like yeah. I got to school but yet wet and we had to take photos for a school brochure and I found it extremely retarded like why do we have to be walking, exactly?! Then first period was health which turns out we had to set up the hall for sport selection and I was just like YES! Because I really just wasn't in the mood to be Healthy. I chose Social Tennis with Ivy and Fiona and it turns out that Sukhman is doing it too, so at least if Ivy and Fiona give up I'll have someone else to play with. Hehee. My brother is so damn cool. SO yeah, and it turns out that I could take down an elephant. Hmmmm, i'll get back to that...

I don't want to go through my day. Except in IST it was not ew, but I just really didn't expect it and I don't want to go back into it. Seriously. English, out narratives were due and like yeah. Then all we had to do was sit there and at least look like we were doing work, then Blackout. Yeah I know. It wasn't really scary cause the windows were open so there was natural light already there. Lunch was wet. And then history. Stupid teacher,I don't like you. The day went on, etc, etc, I really don't want to talk about it. I just woke up from short nap and I'm NOT feeling refreshed at all, just worse than before. So that's gay.

MOOD WORD OF THE DAY:

"INDEfFERENT"

and while you're at it, Read this:


Stress less
Need a reason to take time out? Studies have shown that stress is directly related to a bulging belly. When the brain is stressed, it produces cortisol, which heads straight to the stomach (where there's a high concentration of cortisol receptors) and activates fat-storage cells. Stress also lowers levels of oestrogen, the hormone responsible for womanly curves.


So yeah, that's why I don't study much, because if i do, then I get stressed then I'll get wrinkles. And I so don't want that.

Hmmmm, on more thing. Everyone seems to be so happy So I guess I should feel happy for everyone and that their lives are all good. Right now what I think shouldn't matter because it's not my place to be talking about anything. So yeah. Happy :D

I need a new song to listen to.

;]

just keep swimming

remember dory. from finding nemo.

yeah well, remember how she said

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.

I know it didn't actually have any meaning to it but i guess,

I could add a meaning to it now.

That would make me feel so much better.

But yeah.

Just keep swimming,

Basically it could have two meanings to it.

1: Keep trying, and trying.

But in my case I don't need that meaning.

So onto meaning 2: Move on with life.

Yeah. That's a good one.

Move on with life.
I realised yesterday when I came home, that I'm quite lucky in a way. But sometimes they're just not big events that I see it. For example yesterday, I was running late for school and like I was in extreme hurry to leave the house and I put my Jasmine necklace on. I came home and my mum's like where's your necklace? And i felt my neck for it and shit, it wasn't there. I was worried a lot, but then i realised I knew I hadn't lost it because then how would my parents know that it was missing and it's not like theyre gonna ask me a random question like that. So i was very relieved that I hadn't lost it and it was an expensive thing too which I really would have been in deep shit if my mum hadn't found it.

Another example is last friday, again, me being me, was running late for the bus again. But this time it was because I was being an idiot and walking as slow as I could to the bus stop and then I saw one the kids who catch my bus and he started running and i was like WTF. Then I got to the corner and I saw that the bus was there and lucky me, I hadn't missed the bus. But puffed out, because of my total unfitness.

One more. Today, i caught the train yeah. And i wanted to catch the normal train i would normally catch to be on time for the bus and so i ran to the station and i made it and lucky me, lara was there too so i had someone to catch it with. Along the way, other things occured which, apart from me, no one will really care about. Let's just say, I CHOSE THE RIGHT ONE. HAHA. and I made the bus and I got home early. As you can see there is luck with me. I just don't see it and use it well enough, or notice it.

New Life
Ok, when i say that. I don't actually mean like, suicide etc. Because firstly I'm scared of that. To prove it, I'm to scared to cut myself and I'm too scared of falling off sukhman's back even though it's only like 30cm off the ground. I couldn't even fall off the gym first gym step. Back to the subject, I think i need a new school again. With new adventures and new people. Something different. I need a change, yeah that's what I need. I'm fine with my family life right now, well maybe except for the fact most of them are in Philippines, but i'm coping.

Ok new TO DO LIST:

1. need a drastic change, can be anything
2. keep up my good organization skills and other school things
3. improve with my fitness
4. lose 5kg by 10 weeks

I think that list is good enough. Hmm, i wonder what day this blog will get posted. WEDNESDAYYY. Therefore the need of a new word for tomorrow will not count.

To describe how i am at the moment.

BORED

Off to sleep now. 12:13AM. Great job jasmine, late for bus again...

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SCHOOL SPIRIT WEEK ;]

this week is school spirit week, I only realized this now because i just looked at someone's blog, but like how can anyone forget that it is school spirit week. Maybe because of this horrible weather or maybe because of that fact that no one is in the mood to be having school spirit. But whatever it is, it's just so crap. This is my worst School Spirit Week yet and I don't like it. Especially today, because my hair wasn't even wacky because if i did anything it would just die because of the rain. Anyways enough of that. Far out, I'm so annoyed at my dad because he took so long on my computer yesterday that I was so sleepy and couldn't be be bothered wating for him to finish and AAARGH, so i missed one day of blogging which far out, i havent done yet. But now ruined. So yeah, but im all good now. OH wait, no im not. NOW i have to write about today AND yesterday. But actually I wont.

Basically it rained today and we had double periods. And like it was quite funny + boring + random + depressing + high on sugar (subway cookies)... I caught the early train with Lara at Kingswood and saw other people at the next stop. yeah, yeah... all the usual.

Yesterday, it was raining too. We had mufti though. I wore clothes. Someone looked hot ;) Dude, sukhman frgn piggybacked me. I was freaking out because I thought I was gonna fall, BUT I was NOT crying. So yeah. Uhm peer support is so over and i'm so happy about that. pe yesterday too, BEEP test. Didn't try then dodgeball i tried. Now my arms are aching. LOL, i deserved it. I observed intense flirting (haha, only I and jasmine know). Apart from that. Oh yeah and that night before yesterday. talking to pat on msn, and playing truth. It was effing disgusting and let's not ever speak of it again. NOT LOL !

laters,..
;]



WORD OF YESTERDAY: ANNOYED
WORD OF TODAY: JUMPY