Single-

Recently I've found myself to be more happy and light-hearted. I've seen the positive in life and can't help but just smile at all the little thing. Don't get me wrong, life isn't perfect, there are still those days where nothing is going your way or people go out of their ways to annoy you BUT overall it's been pretty great. The possible reasons this is the case could be:
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D

LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.

Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.

my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.

Another blog-
kid.

Well...

I was planning to blog about something but I forgot about what so instead I'm going to dedicate this blog for all you bitches out there. I just have one thing to ask you...why? Like is it really necessary. I mean if you have a good reason then it's ok, but just because they annoy you or something like that, really, I don't find that acceptable at all. It's stupid and very immature. I know I can't talk because I too can be acused of this which is why I'm part of this too. Another thing why do people annoy other people. Like they're always in you're way and manages to ruin your day. It's pathetic. Completely.

I want to cry.

I want to be happy.

Must you go,

And leave us.

The year's end is nearing and I kinda don't want it. I recall sometime last year my cousin, she got into year 12 and she put her facebook status as: The acronym HSC shits me hard. Now that I think about it, it does and I'm not even in year 12 yet and now I'm already getting quite anxious. I shouldn't be thinking about those things, JUST YET anyway. For now I must make the most of now because people are leaving, some coming back and others it may be the last time we see each other. That thought worries me because I've grown friendships with these people yet in a matter of weeks they will be gone, to a place where there will be different people, where they can have the opportunity they need. I really should just be happy for them. I know what it's like to go through such a thing and now reminscing about the past it's quite sad.

I LOVE YOU -

WHAT exactly does those three words mean. The moment they come out a person's mouth, the feeling, the emotion, what is it? The purpose of it. Is it real? Is it a joke? Or is this the answer to life. Love's meaning is quite endless in my opinion. But why say it...



I never knew just reading one things can cause me to question so many things. I love how the human mind works, it's curiosity about its surroundings and those around it. Just a fact of life, one that the whole population has learned to live and cope with; sometimes causing disagreements between two parties because they want it, they want it all.




to tell you the truth, i'm pretty sure no one understood that blog. like modernist poems, my blogs are in depth and have more meaning that what it may really seem. the only difference is, poets create artworks, masterpieces, unlike mine; words, words which create a mess, a mess which confuse people.






what has happened to me?



why have i changed. is this who i want to be, the person who will be me in the future. it may seem like i don't have a plan for the future and i have no aspirations and goals but like everyone else i have goals which i too want to achieve. things like having a family, a job and being able to support that family. a beautiful house with a nice car. i'm a normal person just like everyone else, but why do all of this? is it really necessary. necessary to ruin who you are as a person, the person who has been taught all the rights and the wrongs, a person who grew up with religious beliefs and expectations from the people around her. all of that gone, CRASH, because of ....

jasmine needs sleep-

later

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what else.

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music

mood

mysterious

mystical

magical

mighty

music

i need to get a life.



i love bus trips. oh how i miss the good old bus. 4625 ! the annoying little kids shouting the number as the bus approaches it's station. the talks, the moments, the good and the bad. now it's half of what was before and somehow it doesn't feel right but i know one day this will be the normal...

i love guys.

men.

boys.

whatever you want to call them. i just seem to click with them unlike women who i seem to have disinterest in them whatsoever. they're annoying attitudes and whinyness. gosh, i love men. one man in particular.




no, that last thing was a lie. i think this blog needs to end.



now.

Colors

I don't know.

What do you think?

Stupidity

My stupidity is quite endless. I don't know when to stop nor do I listen to others when they are telling me that what I'm doing is very stupid. oh well, right?


Clearly a great day. I don't know why but maybe because of two special people in my life. That or the fact that I'm just making excuses to bring the topic of me spending what's left of my savings. But overall a terrificly good day. Ahhh. I don't want to move on from this day but we must let go of the past. Once again, one of the good day's I've had in a while.

thank youuuuu :)
c'mon, you know who I am.. :P



i love presents. especially when they're from me. gosh i'm so awesome.




and DAMN IT people.
stop calling me dear.
seriously. it's not cool.
i dont mind kid, but dear?!?!?

Some people

stupid white kids.
they're such dickheads
well not all of them
just this one guy
gosh.
and it's all because i'm a stupid little asian
GOSH
i really do love indians right now
and jordan
AHHAHAHA, i swear i didn't forget his name


my blogs lately have been gay.
i want them to be not gay
but meh.
:P


I LOVE ♥

Fudge.

I just want to explode. But no.
I have to do italian first.




this will be fixed in 30 minutes.
from 8.07PM Aus time.


WOW. i'm so good with my timing. Actually went back on blogger 30 minutes like i said in the note above. Anyways just a few things. Firstly why are people so racist. I mean grow up it's the 21st century nobody cares what colour or race you are anymore. EVERYONE IS AN EQUAL. It even says so in the Human Rights thingy. Gosh. Secondly don't judge people by how they look. Once again this ties in with the whole racism thing. Like seriously grow the fuck up. UH, another thing JASMINE,....YOU GROW THE FUCK UP. Seriously you're practically older than all your friends yet you act like a stupid 5 year old and the things you do are so stupid that you should be ashamed of yourself. Seriously. It's time to just grow up.

Apart from that today was good.
saw kochie & bridie carter and other people which i don't know they're names nor they ever existed.
overall it was pretty good.


gosh, the rain loves me.


who calls someone because they're number was on a paper aeroplane?
not me.
i just text :P

BAHHAHAHHAHHA !

not again.

i can't believe it's gonna be that time of the month again. the two weeks of unhappiness and major bitchyness. and all i can do about it is play. gosh. i'm so hopeless.



driving is so uplifting
so is a few other things ;)

Disaster.

I don't think that was the word I was looking for but I can't be bothered coming up with the right one and well it starts with D same as the word I had originally thought of so it's close of enough. Am i right? Of course I'm right. I is always right. See, left doesn't have I in it. Bahahaha, get that ?

I can't believe even after the formal I'm still having an argument with my parents about who chose my dress. I know which dress I wanted and it was clearly not that one, but they continually say that I WAS THE ONE WHO CHOSE IT. gosh. I really don't want to complain because 1. it's a waste of my time 2. it's too late now and 3. no one really gives a shit anymore. I just wish that sometimes they'd listen to me. And I know for a fact that I'm not the only one with this problem and maybe if parents put themselves in their children's shoes they'd understand how they feel. I mean I've learnt to put myself in other people's shoes and because of that I treat people the way I feel the way they need to be treated. BUT WHATEVER. so much for anyone's opinion counts. it so doesn't.


After today. I don't know. It was really hot but the school day was pretty good. Uh, geo, stuff went down if you get my drift, commerce consisted of STEP & STAB recalling that i don't actually have commerce on my timetable for today :P, PE which turned into GARDENING 101 and sitting in the airconditioned room for half an hour and science where our table fell asleeep during the film, btw, LITERALLY. so as you can see it was better than staying at home and cleaning the house because there wasn't actually any thinking or writing done just chilaxing. AFTER SCHOOL things got even hotter. and it was on. Let's just say, while waiting at the bus stop at the bus station i was very happy and satisfied. hmm, doesn't sound right but whatever. ;)


i'm quite glad i can still make myself smile.

no i have to make brownies, cz i owe someone some.

i swear 90% of the time i'm correct, my thoughts, my opinions, the facts i know, they don't fail me. yet people continually deny what i say. well people SUCK ON THAT. gawd.

Epic.

Wasn't what I expected.

Possibly could have been better.

But good enough.

Satisfied.

Though I still think I looked scary/


Memorabubbles:
the food, the pictures, the last danceeess.
gotta love that...









it ws rigged.

i am going to cry

tonight.
well tonight is the formal and well...
i'm not gonna be the prettiest
nor the most gorgeous
or cutest.
i'm just going to be this insignifact person
attending a formal
a formal where all the other people
are gonna look their best and
be the best.

my mother keeps saying that i chose the dress
when i told her what i want
but she kept saying it makes you look fat
and doesnt look nice on you
it wasnt simple
it was nice.
it was what I WANTED
yet NOW, she says that i wanted this dress
that I CHOSE this dress
it's not fair
it is MY FORMAL
I'M THE ONE WHO'S MEANT TO BE CHOOSING EVERYTHING
it's not fair.

on top of that i did bad and bad things
too many in fact.
many of you know half of those bad things
and the other half
things i don't ever want to mention
because it's a disgrace to me
and to everyone else i know.

now i'm just bored.

Gosh Sukhman

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that pretty much sums up my day.

GOSH NO

like OMG today i had to do the dishes and it was like the end of the world. you know why... there was tomato sauce on the plates AND, don't forget the AND, and sweet chilli sauce :O. OMG, it was like ewwwy...



ah yes, there's my short story for today. thank you alyssa for that great inspiration for this story. well, the whole story LOL.



today was lovely. belive it or not i had fun, even though i didn't look it. just very tired. i wonder why? probably those late nights up. bahahhaha. a v. bad habit. and now that i think about it im pretty excited (though not completely) about the formal. too bad i don't get to sit with myself if you know what i mean which you do. but i'll just steal myself from him. bahahahha. this is only awesome if you gets what i mean.
BAHHAHHAA.
i feel so awesome :D


i love thee ankita :)

Yahoo does Answer

ok, this might sound retarded but i read yahoo answers and answer the questions people ask. BUT only because it's like reading FML and MLIA cept you have more of a variety and you know or well, you can tell if they're real stories or not. anyways the point of this blog is my browser is slightly retarded and whenever i go on the site it takes me to yahoo india. how that happened in the first place i dont know. but like i've made two friends of the site both of whom i have not told any personal information but like what really not irritates but makes me wonder is when they assume that i'm indian and they won't believe me that i'm not indian, no offence, i'm just saying what makes me so indian. like really ? i need to spend time with me own kind man. again no offence. just yeh. so yeah that. i'm apparantly indian to randoms. hmmm, not fascinating.



another late blog. 12.43PM


and yesterday on the bus. i saw a bird drop from the sky. nothing had hit it.
how odd.

Question Mark.

....

it's 1.03 in the morning.

now what heck am i doing still up.

V.

very.
very. very.
very. very. very.

that was the day.

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nothing lasts forever.

except for friends and families, or families and friends however you may want to look at it

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today was:

• fun
  
• exhilirating
• thrilling
• unexpected
• ticklish
• owww
• my golly
• handball
• friend

:)

it was hotttt tooo.

oh my. i was melting.

literally...kinda.

hehe, exam tomorrow
hoorah.

XXXD

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i think luck may have just found me.

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Chi- Force, not G-Force

right now i would really love to blog but the problem is the thing i love the most doesn't have the same feelings towards me and plays with me for days on ends, as well as nights. it's gotten to a point where i'm considering to break the relationship i have with my love. but why do this to me. why now. i mean if you don't act like this to me maybe then  wouldn't be considering such horrid things. but no. you're being so unfair to me. like yesterday you were fine with me and today you seem to have a problem with me. why, oh why must you do this to me, i can no longer handle it and it's too much for me to bear. it's just not right and i want to live my life too.

OH MY GOSHNESS. this is really stupid.

the day has been quite odd. like really. it's been v. good but just v. odd. the school day, the events, the nothingness, the randomness, the everything about it. it's all been odd. good, BUT odd.





THAT IS IT.
i cannot put up with this.
will do proper later.
i love how i blog.
and it's continuous.
and you can expect a blog from me everyday
if not the day after
but the fact i never disappoint.
im so awesome.

19/20 is it ever good enough

i was just thinking to myself as per usual rather than doing someting productive, once again as per usual. back to  what i was saying, is what we do ever good enough. i mean why do we have such high standards of other people when sometimes even you can't live up to standards of other people and you complain endlessly of how unfair things are. i must admit, i do that. and i tell myself off countlessly because if there's one thing i don't like it's hypocrites and i am a hypocrite. though why can we never be good enough? is it because of something that we've done or do people simply dislike us to a point where you do anything to just make them leave you alone. i don't really know where i'm headed with this blog, but like life it's just going to keep going until something, or someone ends it. but that will be not now. i still want to continue. NOT BEING ON THE EFFING COMPUTER FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS HAVE BEEN HARD ON ME and i just gotta keep typing. otherwise i'm gonna eat someone.

there was something else on my mind which i just wanted to discuss but it's managed to escape me. sometimes i even manage to amaze myself with all the crazy jasmine things that i do. quite odd really.

it's time to let go. but that's not me. as in. i've already done that. it's your turn.

nothing lasts forever

my, my, that was the stimulus for english, but yes. nothing lasts forever and i think it's time that you let go of me too. i don't need to be your safety net anymore. you have another one now. plus you always have a backup anyway, though that sounds quite odd. but like i said, i dont need to be that safety net anymore but someone else is there so you can let go. trust me. and this way no one gets hurt. everyone is happy. i just want everyone to be happy so in the end i can get what i want. i'm sick of putting everyone in front of me (i dont always do that though, just in-a-way-metaphorically speaking) and i just want to be that person whom everyone wants to make sure is happy and satisfied and not have to worry about anything because people got it, they've handled it. but that can't happen and so my plan is to make everyone happy first and then because they're happy and no longer need to be any happier, they will realise i need to be happy too and treated the same way i have treated them, with love and care and with REALNESS. no fakeness no nothing that i dont want. i just want fairies and butterflies and rainbows.

WOWOWOWOOW !


i'm so out of it.
i need chocolate.
gawsh....



awww. damn it.
i miss you
talking to you endlessly
about anything
your jokes
my adventures
everything.
be there ...
for me.

Blabb.

finally? or is it too soon to say that? i don't quite know but one thing's for sure. i'm v. happy & ecstatic that my holidays are beginning soon. not yet but soon. i love school certificate. the only time i can think for real without the worry of anyone else. hmmm. that didn't make sense at all but maybe that's what i'm trying to do. i need people to be smarter. i like having hidden messages. but that's for later.

i miss you all. i can't believe that i had to turn out like that. leaving you guys behind and when i really needed someone you've been there the whole time. i'm also v. thankful that you've noticed. i'm quite sure that no one else knows what i'm talking about and seriously stuff them because i'm pretty sure if they had noticed they would have told me by now and i love them even more. but i really do miss having you with me all the time. like circumstances have changed and so have i. the worst part it's been a change for the worst rather than for the better. i really do wish that one day we could have what we once had once upon a time. when things were good and fun was the only thing in my vocabulary. now i use words such as disappointed, gay, suck. those words aren't very nice, though truthful not what i want to be talking about. once again. thank you. i really do know who my friends are in this world. and im v. grateful for that. AND LMAO ! it's not even offensive. haha.

i have changed.

i miss going on the computer. i miss talking to people via instant messenger, both on yahoo and msn. i miss being able to be someone else and make up a whole new identity. i miss being on a totally different world. i miss the emotions. i miss the sleepless nights spent on the computer. i miss everything about the computer. i wish things were back to the good old days. and now...they can be.

i'm so good right now i'm going crazy with the computer i'm probably making record times with my awesome typing. this is probably the fastest i've typed EVER with hardly any typos which is like ... A W E S O M E

jasmine needs to go shopping:
- buy a dress
- buy jewellry
- book salon
- lose weight
ahahaha, i dont know what the last one has to do with shopping but whatever right? really i'm just happy.


should i ask or not?
should i bother or not?
am i even worth it?


ahhhh. i love you computer.
:D

SC

today has been v. uneventful

gosh sukhman. whyd u read it?



check out fresh new notes on DEAR KID NOTES.
i like em v. much :)

BITCH

define bitch;

-noun

1.	a female dog.

2.	a female of canines generally.

3.	Slang. a. a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman. b. a lewd woman.

4.	Slang. a. a complaint. b. anything difficult or unpleasant: The test was a bitch. c. anything memorable, esp. something exceptionally good: That last big party he threw was a real bitch.

  Now it's very obvious that, that definition is missing something and that is the following:

5.       a Jasmine S.


want to quote Kid: fantasy :)



yeah, there's no doubt about that. but at least i tell the truth and don't make stuff up. im not aiming this at anyone. just what someone told me today and gosh you're v. good at making me feel horribubble. oh well, i owe you. now they don't owe you.



today...was fricken awesome.
i did nothing.
at all.
just wasted time
and spent the day with the person who's the most awesome and meaningful to me. yet no one knows who that is but still. gosh, i'm not some dirty little girl though. no matter what my v. awesome friend tells you. that's all a lie. didn't read the whole context.

oh my.

:)

Sunshine.

sometimes i'm not glad that she's my sister but other times she just lights up my life. get that? anyways just wanted to post her name because it's so bright as in smart. woo! i'm on a roll with my effing awesome puns. anyways im off.

How

How come...

....I complain about my problems,
it's my fault.

...I ask my sister for help,
it's my fault.

...I help,
it's my fault.

...I have a problem with you,
it's my fault.

 ...I have to tell you everything cause you wanted to know and you get hurt,
it's my fault.

...I'm the one at fault,
when really it's your fault.

Dedicated to those who are simply blind and thick-headed.

My, after the conversations I had today I've not felt this good in a while. Actually I have, yesterday and the day before. Anyways my point is I was talking about how some people are just so thick-headed that they don't realise they're own wrong doings. Ok, so right now I don't really have a reason to have a go at these people but in the future when do they annoy me I probably would not be in the mood to talk about but rather than just get angry at them and stuff. So here's the deal. I'm going to summarize the things they do and ways they can overcome this...problem which they have.

What's wrong:

• people say you are doing something yet you don't realise
• you make a joke and hurt someone's feelings, yet you continue to laugh about it
• continuall talking about yourself when it's obvious no one cares
• you ignore the problems other people may have
• not everyone has to talk to you yet you manipulate them to
  

Ways to overcome the problem:

• observe other people and look at how they feel, their reaction to the things you say
• ask them if you are causing them problems
• be concerned in a way that you are not being overly sympathetic but in a good way
• just don't make small talk when it's clearly not needed
• be silent
  

This is just a summary of the overall thing but it gives the basic idea of the message. It also makes me feel better because I have said what I needed to say. Just that the other people need to do their part and be more considerate of others and see that other people have problems too and that sometimes you just need to see things in their shoes.


wannabe gangsta, soccer, rain, IST conversations, hitting people, running down high street. the day was somewhat awesome. no need to complain. i'm sorry to everyone which i have complained to and said some, well not particularly nice things. the fact that there are things which are worse than the problems I have it just makes me feel better about my life (sorry to you know who you people are). It's just now that I know my life is fine then it's all good. Gosh, hate talking about nothing.


i'm not a whore.

not said by sukhman (^that thing above)

GOSH SUKHMAN

best damn thing ever. so effing funny. CLICK




that's pretty much all I wanted to say.
:D

Complicated

Things are always different.

A new adventure everyday, is what many people believe.

Well I believe that to have any fun in life you gotta make it fun. And I believe that today was fun and well different. And that's different in a good way.


Just want to smile.
Especially about the rollercoaster.

Unfair.

The following two monologues are towards two different people. It is about a girl thinking about two people who she's unsure what they are to her. Basically it's just her talking to herself or in this case monologuing to herself. Enjoy. Uh, another thing, this is written in my language as in the way I speak because well that's how I speak and that's how I write and that's uh, how I make it interesting. Actually I don't think it's a monologue. Let's just call it a thingy. AHHAHA, a thingy.

Thingy #1

You don't spoil me. No matter how much you think you do, you truly and utterly don't. Although you are quite an awesome person. For once I can believe someone whom is new and different. Someone who lied about their age though. I still can't believe you'd do that just cause you thought you had the blood of an 18 year old pumping through your veins. But the things you do and say. It's very funny and I'm glad that well you Answered my question. Of course only you would know that but really I know your problem. And for the last time I'm not in love with you even though it may seem like it I'm just here as a friend just as you are towards me. I also know that you are in fact in love with her. I just don't see why you don't trust me that you can't tell me who she is or the fact that you complain to me about yourself and how you're opening up to me. It's ok. Really. Being able to open up to others is great because it allows you to release all those feelings which has been building up inside you. You don't want to explode from the overload of all the things which has causing you stress. Anyways off the topic (gosh, i do that in real life and my stories) back to the thingy (ahahha, thingy) oh my i have forgotten. Just stay awesome. And i believe in you. And I also believe that if you tried hard enough then maybe it could just happen. But what is my opinion. I'm just a kid.

Thingy #2

It took me a while you know. A really long time actually. Which is why I'm asking. Why now ? Why after all the things I had gone through would you do that to me. It actually is pretty hard. Especially for me. You know all the things I had to go through. Yet I'm glad that after all that we're still friends. Pretty good friends. Which is why, DAMN IT, why are you causing me trouble. The signals, the signs, the message, whatever it is that you are trying to tell me it's al wrong. And you're very awesome. Great. Although not many people can see you that way I do I'm glad that I do. Because really you are one of the nicest persons out there. Just stop being so unfair and please...let me move on with my life.


GAH. That's like fail. I need to try harder. Next time ?

Smiley Wiley

I could not stop smiling today that it got to a point where i just had to laugh crazily in my head and resort to biting Sukhman. That obviously wasn't what happened today but the smiling was true.

There is not a lot of things I wanted to say today but if you are ever bored try this helpful website which provides you with great advice. I think so anyway. Enjoy :D

HELPFUL ADVICE WEBSITE

Destiny.

We just can't be seperated. Every second of every minute of everyday, we are always together. Afraid of being separated from one another. The pain it brings when it does happen. Licking it, tasting everysingle flavour it has created. It just turns me on... LOL


GOSH I LOVE CHOCOLATE.


really.

and in case you dumb idiots haven't realised that thing above was chocolate and not a person. laugh out loud. Ok seriously I'm messed up. Chocolate has messed my head up and i've been going crazy during the weekend not being able to resist the temptation of chocolate. That's so unfair though. The past two weeks I've been working so hard to flatten my oh so not flat stomach and because of Halloweeny it's gone to a waste and down the drain it all goes. sigh*



school tomorrow.




i made myself notes that i must show myself tomorrow.

rara wtf is wrong with you. seriously. sigh* im glad that you have that thing. That great persona. I don't know. There's something about you that i really think is quite awesome and stopping me from completely hating you. I'm also quite sure that you don't read this which is great because I dont really want to talk about this with you especially those conversations lately have been quite odd. Not odd, but odd because it's you. Ha, i'm glad no one knows what i'm talking about, nor who. And no people I'm not crazy and have an imaginary friend this is a real person, so don't be mean.



internet, my my, it's oh so gayyy.

it's working now.

i'm glad it is.