PMS

It's that time of the month again.

I'm a real bad ass. I make everyone cry, I even make myself cry. I don't know how I do it, and it's not even intentional, yet I'm so good at it. Another talent of mine that I've discovered. I constantly find myself bitching about people in my head and the worst part is, I'm not even bitching to anyone. I have no friends. Although I kinda like it this way because it is so much easier. Yes, everything I've done is to make my life easier, because I'm lazy like that.

I think I also blame others for things I know I've done wrong. Lol, jk. I wouldn't do that. To strain myself from hurting others and making them believe that they've done anything wrong I just keep to myself and don't say anything. Mainly because I don't really want to start anything, knowing that it won't be worth all the time wasting and because people's feelings are involved. The bad thing is, when I do keep things to myself I'm the one being affected. I constantly find myself thinking and just not focusing because I have so many things running through my mind and sometimes I guess that's why I just want to be left alone, so I can sort through my problems.

My mind is all over the place right now and I have no idea what I'm going on about. So like on the brighter side, my birthday is fast approaching and I'm super excited because I've waited 18 years for this day, haha, get it. And I finally get the freedom I want. I just hope people remember that it's my birthday and hopefully I get to spend part of the that special moment of my life with them. I know it's going to be such an insignificant for everyone else but I just want it to be the perfect day spent however I want. No party just partying, with people I care about and people who know how to have fun, because we don't want no party poopers. And I get to fucking drink, because I haven't yet. LOL. That and because I'm adult it gives me more freedom and, and I really won't have to care about what others say.

MAN, if only I could shut out the people I don't like. If I could, I would be so freakin' happy, but we all know that's impossible unless I was part of F4 hahaha. But yeah. I need to take advantage of my boyfriend man. He gets my so angry and makes me cry so much, I need to use that against him and make him my slave. Gosh, I miss that guy and the times when it's only just us two and no one getting in our way, things we're definitely so much nicer. But far out, parents, seriously, which brings me to my next point Tminus 46 days till D-day, which is the day I plan on telling my parents that I have a boyfriend, WHICH is also the day I turn 18 Man that's gonna be a full on day. I've also checked my assesment calendar, that's a full on week, so it's gonna be HECTIC hahah that guy so fucking hilarious; yeah.

Got nothing else to say so laters bychezzzz

Transformers: Return of the Fallen

Uplifting, wonderful, joyous, happy, enjoyable, etc. That's how I would describe today. It was really nice and different. It began quite early for me. Well not really. Compared to my usual days lately, I would have to say that it has been quite early. With 2 hours to get ready I still ran out of time to get ready and arriving at the bus stop I got there early which meant I got quite annoyed. Hmmm. At the station I was waiting for the train, because I missed the other one, and when I arrived at the station there were people there. We got there before 11 and so I bought chocolate yum.

We watched Transformers 2 whilst everybody else watched other movies, obviously. The movie was pretty good. Except beside me I kept hearing, Meagan Fox this, Meagan Fox that... Hmmmm. Movie was really good though and I'm quite happy about it.

Afterwards the movie it was just random wandering around the mall and who couldn't forget lunch with everyone around that single 4 seater table. Quite funny actually. Well to me it was. C'mon 9 people in two tables, we were kinda connected to the asians who was sitting on the other table but yeah. Fine doesn't matter. I was eating so slow too.

More walking around the shops and me and Anavi decided that we didn't want to go to Rebel and she wanted to get a dress so I went around with her looking for a dress and then finally we got to Hipster and found her this really pretty dress which I think makes her look damn fine actually. Makes me jealous. That also became her birthday present from me so that was pretty good. Once we purchased the dress we went back up to onFour and went Max Brenners and ate, well chocolate. What else? Haha. Man, the chocolates gives you food orgasms. Hmmmmmm. After that it was time to go and the we said goodbyes. On the train was just talking and talking. It was like a girl's day out on the train cept it wasn't the whole day on the train and it wasn't just girls on the train. If you know what I mean...

Image of the World

You know how people say that some people can be really influential towards others. I find that weird. I don't see the purpose of following people and copying what they do. I do it to, so I'm a hypocrite. My question is why do people, why do WE do these kinda things. Does it satisfy us? I believe that one day I'm going to be a really good person. HAHA. I was going to say questioner but that sounds weird. But when has that ever stopped me. LOL. Yes, because I like to question and I believe that my questions are suitable and approriate and they're the right questions to be asking. Questions with answers that people would want. I can do this.

I'm an image. I know that. Having sisters who copy everything I do proves that. I may not be the best image at times, but I still am an image and I'm very influential. I should tell people to stop listening to me and do what they want. Do something they want to do for the better.

Stop rambling. I'm excited for tomorrow. For many reasons. Reasons I will not bother typing.

Guitar Hero

Today was not expected. Basically I thought it was going to be another boring mama's friend party. And it's not that they're boring it's just that I don't usually have anyone to talk to. But today I made an effort to join in with the little kiddies. We played Guitar Hero and it was really fun because it was something different and it gave me a challenge. Man Eugene, he's like 10x younger than me and he's insane. Seriously. He got like 130 notes in a row or something like that and I was happy with 60. HAHAH. Low expectations. Anywho, they were very fun and I'm not a pedo just cause I enjoy hanging around little kids.

Need to save up money.

Stop making me happy.

Begin training for city2surf.

It's Time

It's DDAY today and I guess it would be better for me to get it over and done with now while I'm prepared and ready to take my chances plus the fact I have the rest of the week to have a brea from all of it. That means all my problems will be pushed onto next week which I don't really mind.

Peoples, the disco is on tonight. I don't know why I'm not getting ready yet when I only have two hours left to get ready which is obviously not enough time but I like to provide my readers with something ro read, even though I'm pretty sure that no one actually reads this except for major losers. HAHA, I'm kidding and I love you all. I should like take a picture of how I look before the disco and after to see the huge contrast. I betcha I will have like dark eyes and eww face afterwards, actually I can imagine it now. Dayummm.

Ok, now I'm just wating for Alyssa to finish showering and I'm on my way to get ready. Party. :)

If I'm not happy afterwards the disco then something's obviously wrong with me.