It's that time of the month again.
I'm a real bad ass. I make everyone cry, I even make myself cry. I don't know how I do it, and it's not even intentional, yet I'm so good at it. Another talent of mine that I've discovered. I constantly find myself bitching about people in my head and the worst part is, I'm not even bitching to anyone. I have no friends. Although I kinda like it this way because it is so much easier. Yes, everything I've done is to make my life easier, because I'm lazy like that.
I think I also blame others for things I know I've done wrong. Lol, jk. I wouldn't do that. To strain myself from hurting others and making them believe that they've done anything wrong I just keep to myself and don't say anything. Mainly because I don't really want to start anything, knowing that it won't be worth all the time wasting and because people's feelings are involved. The bad thing is, when I do keep things to myself I'm the one being affected. I constantly find myself thinking and just not focusing because I have so many things running through my mind and sometimes I guess that's why I just want to be left alone, so I can sort through my problems.
My mind is all over the place right now and I have no idea what I'm going on about. So like on the brighter side, my birthday is fast approaching and I'm super excited because I've waited 18 years for this day, haha, get it. And I finally get the freedom I want. I just hope people remember that it's my birthday and hopefully I get to spend part of the that special moment of my life with them. I know it's going to be such an insignificant for everyone else but I just want it to be the perfect day spent however I want. No party just partying, with people I care about and people who know how to have fun, because we don't want no party poopers. And I get to fucking drink, because I haven't yet. LOL. That and because I'm adult it gives me more freedom and, and I really won't have to care about what others say.
MAN, if only I could shut out the people I don't like. If I could, I would be so freakin' happy, but we all know that's impossible unless I was part of F4 hahaha. But yeah. I need to take advantage of my boyfriend man. He gets my so angry and makes me cry so much, I need to use that against him and make him my slave. Gosh, I miss that guy and the times when it's only just us two and no one getting in our way, things we're definitely so much nicer. But far out, parents, seriously, which brings me to my next point Tminus 46 days till D-day, which is the day I plan on telling my parents that I have a boyfriend, WHICH is also the day I turn 18 Man that's gonna be a full on day. I've also checked my assesment calendar, that's a full on week, so it's gonna be HECTIC hahah that guy so fucking hilarious; yeah.
Got nothing else to say so laters bychezzzz
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