Whoosh

I deleted Dear Kid Notes. I just ran out of inspiration. Or well my inspiration ran out on me. Gosh I hate this. I mean I thought things were finally and awesomely good then I find ways to magically ruin things. It's so stupid of me yet I persist to do things like this.

Oh well, theres another good thing gone.

Relax

I don't know where to begin. I seriously don't.

Sigh* I thought about it. Not really but after 5 minutes I still don't know where to begin. So I guess it would have to be the start. Right?

I woke up, like I usually do. It was freezing. I don't know why but lately I've been getting the chills so easily. I do wonder why this must be but that later. I did my hair. Interesting huh. No not really. It's just curls and it would have been the cause of me being late to the bus stop again but it's more important for me to look good than miss the bus. WOW I'm quite distracted. I totally forgot that I was writing a blog. How about I just say the following:

Jasmine is happy. Once again. She is scared that because she's been getting all these good and happy things lately that there will be a massive bad thing that wil occur soon or later in the future but something major will happen and she doesn't want it to.

Still like that person. Hey I can't help who I like. Uhm happy that I got SRC. Italian was good. I mean it wasn't how I planned it but I didn't actually plan it so yeah. And Sumeet and Anavi, you guys are so cute, but the things I heard, gosh you two. Apart from that I'm really happy and I'm scared something will happen. Like Mr. Beves said with Negative Gearing: High Gain, High Loss.

The holidays are here. I don't know why I'm leaving so much gaps in this blog. Maybe I'm just out of it. Probably. So many things planned. I don't know where to begin so I won't begin. I'll just wait for it to happen and be satisfied with that. Until then, laters.

Pointless

I suddenly feel meaningless and my existence is of no use. What i write won't change anything nor will it affect anyone in anyway. Gosh. That sucks.

WTF

Today, compared to other days was not that good.

Going to a party you'd expect it to be fun, exciting and a time when you can socialise. Well come to my family parties right, I totally don't fit in and that makes me real sad because I don't have anyone to talk to plus I'm bored to then extreme. The worst part was Papa wasn't even there so I didn't have him there to annoy. Yeah, so right now I feel good sitting here typing and being with my friend the computer. And hey I'm not an anti-social LOSER. I have friends it just that they're not actually part of my extended family. I wish they were though.

School again tomorrow. I can't believe the weekends are so short and i'm up to day 2 of being a 16 year old. Plus I've officially began my HALF YEARLY's studying because I couldn't sleep last night so yeah.

I'm gonna do something else now, just didn't want to miss another day of blogging, cause I've only done that once. Don't want to make it twice now do i.

Laters,.

;]

poo

jasmine,
no need to worry, it's all for the best and you know that you wanted to happen this anyways so there's nothing you can do about it and just be happy. Even though you know that what you really feel is hurt and gayness. Far out, why do I have to be like this. Maybe a little cry in the corner might help me. Actually all I can say is Oh Well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well, oh well and OH SHIT ! I jsut remember something but *sigh, it's not my life, so i don't have any say.

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

I hope my run will help me with my mood. Although I thought I was in a good mood. HAHA, mood swings, jasmine is such a weirdo like seriously. Maybe if i just think about the pain of the needle then maybe that would hurt more than what I feel right now. But it doesn't hurt, not as much as this...

off to run, hope at least that will make me feel better.
I feel like crying.
nope, im crying.
gay shit.
im gay shit.
oh great.
must run, now.
away from all of this.
I NEED A BREAK FROM EVERYONE, AWAY FROM IT ALL !

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