Pupil Free WHAT ?

Today, pupil free day for the selective schools in the area. I thought wow this is a great day to whatever I want. But instead I'm force to do what I don't want to do such as go out of the house. I just wanted to stay indoors under my warm blanket, but that couldnt happen because Sunshine turned the lights on and I was on the top bunk and ow my eyes hurt. Well before anyway.

I've done quite a lot of work today but I feel like something's missing and maybe that's because there's no school today and I totally missed out on the TV show I wanted to watch so therefore nothing. Just nothing. Haven't exercised for a while either. That should be done soon before I get more fatter. That reminds me I must check my BMI to see if I'm fat or not. I am, but I just gotta prove it to everyone.

Yesterday I found out how much people love me and I was telling my sister how I hated it that they do. Like I don't know. Being loved is such a nice feeling but there's so much work to keep up. Just another topic that I have to put out there. Must people try hard to be loved? When you get the answer to that please tell me.

A lot of thoughts came to my mind and it's just a yes or no. But whether it's the right thing to do or not then I don't know. I should think things through before I make any more bad choices. sigh.

laters,..
;]

Not at Home

I'm not actually at home right now but I need ti get this done so like I wont forget later, so yeah. Anyways woke up this morning heaps sleepy. Maybe that was cause I stayed up late till 3 in the morning playing Rollercoaster Tycoon...geez jasmine, wtf is wrong with you.

Today has been quite good. People came over then afterwards played 21 with dad and sisters. It's this heaps fun basketball shooting game. But like, apart from that I just organized the external hardrive and other files on my computer.

Now i'm at a dinner, get together with family friends and watching The Simpsons. Quite funny even though they're reruns, and I'm planning to either watch Independence Day or some filo movies but yeah...

Ralph: Are you jealous of Mr. Homer?
Ned: No it's okay. I'm fine.
Ralph: Well, I'm jealous of girls cause they get to wear dresses.

hehe. funny stuff.

laters,..
;]

with sister.

I wonder everyday, when and how. But I know I'll never have the courage to. I just wished that I could push everyone away and I'd have no feeling of hurt and pain...

Why can't you leave me alone
and let me live my life
without the pain that
you are bringing upon me.

Today I didn't feel as lively as I was yesterday. Not that I was lively yesterday, but at least I could show SOME enthusiasm. To summarise up today:

Roll call was quick, probably because it was Wednesday.

First period was maths and it was quite random because half way through the lesson the teacher talks about his son but the whole point of the story was about his daughter-in-law and how she's a real good musician (btw look her up on youtube: Jess Chalker) and that she's performing with all these famous people.

Recess, bought another friggin muffin. Fudge imma get so fat again :( But i just can't help it. And the worst thing is no one will admit it to me that I am in fact really fat. Stupid, gay people.

Secons period was commerce and it was so boring. I would have fallen asleep but I really wasn't in the mood to get in trouble at that moment. And we have homework. Shoot.

During lunch I played basketball with Jasmine, Devesh, Pavan, Siddarth and this year 9 guy who left when we were about to start the game. It was pretty fun I fail, cause I suck. Didn't even get one shot in which is shameful for me because my dad is good and all that and i'm just this failure kid. Laugh Out Loud !

Sport yey, it was really fun. Well for like the first couple of minutes or saw. Then the excitement just died and I gave up. Couldn't even pretend to laugh from the gayness of it and the lack of effort people had put and my sleepyness. At least being the captain of the team, I was a major fail. I still managed to get some shots in, which i pretty much thought was a fluke because thos shots I didn't expect to get in. Yada, yada. Sport finished. I really wanted to go home, OH and HIMMAT, he slapped me! Well i did ask for it. HAHA. Me is loser.

After school had to go officeworks, was with sister. It wasn't that bad. Had a small fight then resolved it by buying Subway cookies. Then on the train Himmat, Shirine etc. was there so it wasn't that bad.

Arrived home. Decided ooh, I want to dye my hair again. So I did. Man this better be more obvious than the other one. It cost me $10.95 man. And I just got money from dad.

I fail. Cause I'm a failure. No doubt about that.

later lovelies,..