Boys Over Flowers

More like boys over me, or boys on top of me, LOL. Actually it's just a Korean drama that I started watching again after already watching it a few months ago. But it's pretty cool.

Adore

I absolutely adore my boyfriend and not just because he's extremely good looking but because he's a good person. He brings smiles to people's faces and he's there for people. He's caring, he's lovely, he's also quite tall and must not forget the hair on this boy. Overall he's amazing. I feel lucky to have him not only as my one and only boyriend but also a best friend. I think without him, I would be a mess, an out of control mess with no limits (see how I incorporated maths, hehe) and he's the barrier preventing me from continuing with the mess.

He makes me feel special and I love saying that he's mine, because I know, well he said, that he's mine and only mine, frankly because I absolutely hate sharing especially this guy. I feel bad when I do things that I may or may not be aware that he doesn't particularly like because I know that this upsets him. That and because it reminds me of Jess's and Daniel's relo, haha. We are nowhere near like that. I also think that where we are right now, ON TOP OF ALL THE BULLSHIT that has happened is a good place and I'm really glad that we're still as strong as we are right now otherwise I would be really sad if we weren't. I would do anything for him and I have and I hope that he has noticed that and I just want to make him the happiest boy in the world. Boy/tranny/girl whatever you wanna call it.

I stalk him. A lot. I like to know what he's doing and where he's at. Maybe because I'm insecure but knowing these things just calms me and in a way does make me happy. I'm finally a girl with a guy who she can rely on and think about and worry about and just have. Yes, have, own, mine, because I bought him. I bought him with all my love (and maybe tits).

He knows how to make me cry and he knows how to make me feel better. He's very mean sometimes, other times I worry that he's turning into a chick. I don't think I've met a guy as lovely as him and I feel really really really REALLY lucky. I don't ever want to let him go at the same time I don't want to prevent him from his potentials because it's so obvious that he can do better (like a blow up doll).

To summarise, he's mine and please don't ever, anyone, take him away from me, because if anyone did, I would be in absolut sadness.

i hate it when you choose poker over me.
it kinda feels like that's more important to you than I am, and it's annoying how you say when you say you want to spend more time together.

Weekend

So today, IT WAS FUCKING GREAT. Ha, apart from my day, there's also the Royal Wedding which is to begin in less than half and hour, I think. That's what Sunshine said anyway. I'm kinda hyped, yes, call me a loser or whatever but I think it's a big deal. People, do you now know that one day this woman could be running the country. I mean it's not THAT possible, but it could still happen. Also the fact that I actually find her gorgeous and absolutely lucky to have met her man, who just happens to be the Prince of Wales. Back to reality, I also have a wonderful man, who IVY IN CASE YOU ARE READING THIS IS WAYYYYY BETTER THAN YOUR BOYFRIEND.

I want the whole world to know my boyfriend, actually not really because I'm scared someone might steal him away, yeah he's that hot and great and perfect. So anyways he's hairy and tall and kind and hairy and sexy and tall and loving and hairy and horny LOL and hairy. He has hair. Like seriously. Hair. Dude, I love you, and I know you'll be reading this so :P Uh he's hairy and I absolutely love him, like ABSOLUT VODKA hahah, I remember that night I swear if Kat hadn't been there you seriously would have gotten me to do whatever you wanted, but I was smart, oh so very smart. Oh why I like this guy and why he's so great? Because he makes me feel on top of the world even at the most unsophisticated and unclassy and dirty places. Of course that's in reference to what happened today. But what happened today is of course my DIRTY little secret. LOOOOL, not at that but another joke which I shall mention another day.

I do feel bad though. Yesterday I full dogged you at 11.30 and I wanted to cry. I mean I wanted to see you but like I couldn't cause I had to stay in class and pay attention. I don't want to fall behind, please understand. And I did TRY to sext Sukhman but he ignored my message and wanted you to think I totally forgot all about you so that you'd fall into his arms while you were vulnerable and take you away from me. I know his intentions, I can see it in his eyes. But I'm too good and yeah. So hopefully I've made up for the wrong I've done. And also, sorry about today. I can't freaking believe that I still failed religion. I studied a fair amount for that exam because 1. I wanted to do well and 2. I had to. Yet my efforts weren't given with the mark that I deserved although, I have been breaking so many rules of my religion and I guess this is what they call, Karma and yes I prolly did deserve the mark that I did get. I'm just not happy but I'm glad that I'm not the ONLY ONE to fail. Not that failing is any good. Yeah so sorry about that part of today. I'm pretty sure I've made up for it though. If not be prepared on Monday :D I sure will  be.

Nothing else to really say. Uh, weekend, which in my mind just means two days of not seeing Sumeet which is a negative thing. I'd rather put up with school and all the troubles it creates as well as stress JUST SO I can be with him during recess and lunch. Fuck, I really am into this guy and I find it so lame. HEHHE.

Also I just remembered, Justin Bieber's concert, second one in Sydney is today. I can't belieb I'm not there right now so Sumeet better give me a good show for me ahha, and he also said that he's gonna watch Never Say Never with me. Awww what a sweet boyfie. Heheh.

Okay, for real, that I got nothing much else to say.
Laters bychezzzz.
♥


p.s. this is for you babe. TICK ONE OF THE FUCKING BOXES, so I know if you like my blog entries. And so I know if you've read it or not. Which I'm pretty sure you read em anyway. loveyou

Oh Oh

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus


I think that line is absolutely nice. Also today I think I have alot more to say, which is a change because lately I haven't had the need to write and express myself and such. I know why and the cause of this whatever whatever but anyways no more rambling and get down to serious business.

While studying today, on my bed, Sunshine decided to annoy the cat and so it went into my room and sleep on my bed. It then started grooming itself and licking itself in places I do not want to mention. I did however start taking videos of it but I can't be bothered uploading it and sharing it with the world. But I just found it funny. Actually the cat did the same thing yesterday. It was on my bed and it licked itself everywhere and so I video-ed it and then last night I showed it to Alyssa who laughed with me. So see it actually is funny. But that wasn't a very serious topic thingy.

I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what's your name?


I wish I could answer that and say Jasmine, but firstly I ain't pretty and I can hear someone going against that but shuttup bitch, I don't care what you say. Remember idgaf, but YOU'D GAF. You better get that because if you don't...I'll explain later :)

I think I got used to being with you all the time now that you're not here, damnnnnn, I feel so empty. Please fill me up again ;) Oh that reminds me...

The first time we had sex, HE broke the bin.

LOL, I found that so funny. Now everytime I see my bin, I laugh. Because it's just so funny. I wonder if that really happens. Yeah, I really found the most random things amusing. I don't know why. Oh another thing I remembered. The other night when Kat was here, we got up to mischief and drank pure cordial and after like 4-5 shots of it I started feeling a little weezy and it sure felt like I was getting a tad bit tipsy. I was even on cam laughing uncontrollably even though there was nothing. Anyways that night, omgosh, so horrible. Woke up with the shittest feeling ever, and my throat hurted and so on and so on. This is only here for future references. Next time that happens, it won't be with Kat but with you baby, and I'm pretty sure you'd be using it to your own advantage, if you know what I mean. HAHHAHAHHAH.

On a totally different note. What the freaking fuck is wrong with you? Like seriously. Get over it. Please. I know it's non of my business but when people dwell on such things that KINDA involves me it's annoying. Firstly I like to avoid such things but when you do that making people guilty and such, that's just a big NO-NO! Haha, but seriously. I thought I told you already, I don't care, so just I'm asking you one more time. Leave it. Oh boy, karma's gonna get me back for that. Yeah, dude, that really makes me feel good man. Uhm, and is it that hard to appreciate what you do have and just be happy with it? Seriously, I doubt you have the worst life on Earth and like yours may not also be the best, but don't you think you need to start seeing things on a brighter side or whatever the saying is.

No more of that mean stuff. My holidays have been really uneventful except when Kat came and the fact that I kinda got my boyfriend back. I should be a bitch and CRY everytime I don't talk to him. Or don't get an email.

FROM NOW ON, If sumeet does not email me or msn me or communicate with me, I SHALLL CRY.

HAHAHHAHHAHAHA, that's blackmail, but I love it. Hahah, nah, babe, don't worry. I'm kidding. I understand. And look at that, see how special you are. You got a special mention on here.

ਇ ਲੋਵੇ ਯੋਊ

Yes, I know how to write in another language now. Cause I'm so talented and multi-lingual. If it's another language I know, It would have to be Korean, considering all I've really done during these holidays is watch Korean Drama, which is really sad, so don't judge.

That's all for now bychezzz.

xoxo.
♥

p.s. ਯੋਊ'ਰੇ ਫਟ.

Chou Yo Hana Yo

A BIG HELLO TO THE PEOPLE WHO WASTE THEIR TIME READING MY NONSENSE

Today was, well, how shall I put it. It was freakin' great. Yes, I know there was a Chemistry exam but you see as important as it may be, I like to see things on the positive side and will it benefit me. Okay, so now I'm just stupid because it obviously doesn't benefit me and now I don't even know what I'm going on about. But the main reason today was good because I pretty much kept my boyfriend to myself and made sure I shared him with absolutely no one else. As harsh as that may sound, I've hardly seen him in the past week nor have I had a proper conversation with him. It's not like I forced him to stay with me. He wanted to be with me too, I guess, I HOPE. Laugh out loudspeaker. Anyways yeah, HE SHOULD HAVE COME OVER THOUGH since I'm home alone right now and I have absolutely nothing else to do except you know study for my upcoming Engineering Exam which my whole class always manage to fail. And you know what I've noticed. I've never actually failed an Engineering exam before. All my marks have been 50%+ which I guess is an Outstanding effort because I said so. 

I guess there's nothing else to really talk about. I mean apart from the fact that I have managed to make my life seem like hell to myself, everything has been good. Oh, except I've just realised I won't get to see my boyfriend again for another week which REALLY does saddens me because I don't think anyone (apart from him) gets how much I love him and how much he means to me and just how much he makes me feel special. It really does make me feel selfish and that's why I've stuck to just him because I'm happy with just him, I don't need to be anymore selfish and pushing myself onto others. I'm really happy. That and because he makes me happy in all kinds of ways. I'm glad I can make myself smile, I know this is kinda off topic but I've noticed that whenever I'm down or someone else is down and I'm just talking casually to them, I suddenly bring up some lame or dirty joke and it kinda just relaxes the moment. I'm glad I'm actually amazing that way because most of the time, I really don't care about others. Not because I don't care but because I don't like sticking my nose in other people's problems. If I was needed I'd know or I'd be asked otherwise, I'll stay out of what's NOT MY BUSINESS.

So today's been good. I've also pretty much freed myself. From the things that have been dragging me down and I just wanted to be that carefree me again, the one who, well didn't care about what anything or anyone does. Just the me that's absolutely happy with the boy she loves and the people whom she care about the most. Gosh, I'm in a good mood, and I haven't even got sexed up yet. Laugh out loudspeaker.

Sorry for writing so much, didn't think I had it in me. And I was reading through my old posts right and I noticed that my writing was actually okay. Not the grammar but the way I presented it. It was interesting and it made me want to read what I wrote but yeah, I guess I'm just egotistic like that. I think I'm gonna read through it a bit more. It'd feel nostalgic going back in time though, oh well. Sometimes the past is good because it leads to where you are now.

No more writing. Save you the trouble of reading anymore. 

laters bychezzzz xoxo.

If you want to be happy, be

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Don't care what people say

Just follow your own way
Don't give up and lose the chance

To return to innocence

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