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it took him 5 words, and i was over the moon...
am i really that easy?


I've come to realise that I'm stupid and I think that I like people way too easily. I don't know if there's something inside me which makes me feel extremely bad if i don't try to be friends with them at least, but I don't know.

I JUST WANT TO KNOW !

On a lighten note, I'm going to a wedding. And it's been so long that I've been waiting for this. YEY! Details later. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)

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i've gone insane

JUST TELL ME !

1,2,3

utterly confused?



I thought I knew what it felt like to know that you like someone, but over and over I again, I keep wondering whether do i? (or don't i?, da da dann!)[stupid sumeet, look what you did, I was all serious but now I've lightened the mood. HEY! that was a good thing, thanks mate] Anyways back to this. I really do want to know.



Today I could just some it up in a couple of lines:

House - curled section of hair (omg, someone thought I made a mistake and that's why i did it like that.)
Roll Call - quick yet good.
Period 1 - laughing then pissed
Recess - spent my time avoiding people
Period 2 -gay, still pissed PLUS seating plan
Period 3 - better, stupid class gave me an applause when I cam back from the toilet.
Lucnh - people pissed at me, oh well
Period 4 - good (:
Bus Stop - randomly random
Bus - sad, after realising that I might like someone and will miss them dearly.


Now, was just eating a very lovely and yummyy tuna sandwhich which I made myself (or did i ? da da dannn !) And I also realised that whenever I write this closing line that I'm always eating, which no wonder I'm bigger than small. HAHA, i still remember that.
So for now it's
Laters,..

FYI: I LOVE JASMINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (: [ LOL jasmine, do u get it ? ;) ]

pissed ?

i hate thursdays.
i wonder how many days of the week I will say this...


Today was what you call an very randomly fun day. It began with me curling my hair after deciding last minute because I had realised that my dad was at work, therefore I wouldnt get in trouble because no one would be angry. Laugh out loud ! Arriving at school and receiving compliments from everyone about my hair was quite good. But i thought to myself does everyone only think that im pretty when my hair is wavy? But yeah. I guess they do have a point. I must say myself it did look good.

First period began with History. For the first time I actually didn't pay attention during the whole lesson. It was so much more fun and easier. But I know by doing that I'm reducing my chances in achieving the highest possible marks I could get. Wasted so much $$ on texting someone who was already in class anyway but whatever. It was fun. Next period was italian and we had a test. Sitting there next to Kuya was quite cool. Feeling protected from those who tried to copy. Haha! No, actually Italian was pretty good even though it was a test but like yeah.

Third was dancing in PE. It was fun while it lasted which was pretty much till the end until someone had to ruin it for me. I'm not going into detail because I've pretty much cooled down now. At lunch we had the study group which was randomly fun, just talking and I wasn't paying attention because I don't see how it was going to help me. And last was Science and my FIRST ever fun science Lesson. I was actually laughing but managed to do my work at the same time but woah, the time flew by.

Then at the bus stop, it was random and fun too. When I got home I got ready to go for my run (because of Sumeet's stupid challenge, NO OFFENCE). It took me 10 mins walking with Sunshine just to work out how far it was I had to run, then two laps took me 9:36.4, HOW SLOW. To add to that I'm in extreme pain and all my joints are hurting like hell. But it's all good, at least i got exercise.

Now just sitting here, after Jasmine had told me to cool down and going to put the washing in the basket soon so better finish up.
Laters.

sorry, this is no longer Sumeet's page because it's getting to weird plus I think he minds it too, sorry Sumeet fans.

jasmine...

hmmm. jasmine, lasting a whole day without laughing:
merely impossible.

another day at school. with the history exam first up it was on everybodys mind, everyone of course but mine. HAHA. Like seriously if you studied and know all your stuff then why worry about it. Nerves just add more stress and stress gives you wrinkles. Okay. that just one of the amazingly random facts that I know. Afterwards was another IST lesson which was quite exciting. Sitting there next to Samantha (thats a code, kinda) and he gave me gum but the teacher was helping the guy sitting on my other side and I couldn't put the gum in my mouth because it was like 15 mins before he left. SHEESH !

The thing which was really on mind the whole day was Sumeet. Hmmmm, you wish. No, I was excited about basketball and after missing a week's sport I was pumped. And I also got dared (kinda) to not laugh the whole time during sport (explains the above thingo). Being me, of course, managed to last NOT even a minute of talking to Sumeet and fail. And everyone laughed at me for being a failure. But whatever keeps them happy, I don't mind. But yeah, we were told to divide ourselves into 8 groups. There was no 8 groups, so the teacher made a random 8 group and people got cut out of other teams, one of those was me, only because I was sitting at the back. I guess this decision of the teacher wasn't all bad. It gave me a chance to annoy Sumeet big time. And being with year 11 guys vs-ing year 10 guys, it makes your life so much easier. But yeah. I never knew it was so hard explaining how to be a girl. That was another thing I did during this time. After that first game, no one wanted to play where they were so everyone just randomised and before we knew it, we were playing again. I was going to cry from being pissed off at everyone not playing.

Anyways afterwards the basketball game I was going to catch the train with the guys and go to Kingswood along with Sumeet (OMG, wtf man. I think Sumeet hypnotized me or something, coz everything I say makes it sound like I'm totally in love with him). But before that, we managed to fit in a waterfight at the bubblers which I thought I wasn't going to be included in because, firstly I don't like being wet randomly. I only like it when I'm told that I'm going to be wet. And secondly, actually I don't have a secondly. PFFT ! On the way to the station, the guys were annoying because they were guys and they manage to be able to run. It was stupid of me to go running too because I was soooo tired (which also shows how unfit I am because it wasn't really that far). And on train I managed to ditch "my" group again to sit with the guys. Coz it was really funny, they all sit there and take out there lunch and I was just sitting there laughing, because it was like lunchtime but on the train. But lucky me, my stop was there before I could even begin a PROPER conversation and not stuff about wankers and them doing that to each other but I was there so they couldnt. HMM. random.

When I got home I was preparing to got to the Real Estate about Work Experience and I got all nice and looked like i was going for a job interview and I was there for like 5 mins, max. But hopefully I get to do it there, because I'm pulling my hair out, from all the trouble Work Experience is giving me.

Now I'm just sitting here, planning to start my school work, but distraction is not allowing me to do just that. So maybe later.
Laters,..

yey ?

thinking...

it doesn't get you anywhere.

I've put heaps of thought into this and I've finally come to the conclusion that I DO NOT like him. sighh. That feeling of freedom and not being put into burden of liking someone (if that makes any sense whatsoever) But yes. Infatuation, I've beaten you this time. HAHA.

Now less emotional and drama stuff. Today was OK. But the stupid kids in my Peer Support group was extremely annoying that I just wanted to cry but at least I kept it together by showing good example (btw, this is still emoti0nal--> LOL) and we all got LOLLLIES thanks to my awesome Co-Leader who helped me keep it together during the day. Italian and Commerce, same as one another because people were NOT just bugging me except for the teachers to make it clear to everyone. But I didn't want to cause an commotion so I just kept cool. On the other hang English was really and extremely cool and fun. Sitting there reading and listening to my man's music. (that's an injoke, if you didn't get that) and it was pretty fun. And i recall him saying that You're on your way to Manhood. Well he said it with less smartness and funnier way but I felt priveleged, to be his MAN.

Right now (na na) GEDDIT ? Laugh Out Loud! Anyway, as I said before, right now I'm just sitting here on my big fat ass trying to study for History. Oooh and I've also made a folder of my weight loss program. I'm hoping that I could succeed because I've added information about health risks, etc. And there are so many and once I do succeed I'm going to help my dad. He's not like Biggest Loser kind, but I don't want him to get there. (teary moment) I love my dad and having him healthy along with my mum and me and sisters would be good. One skinny family. HAHA, not with Sunshine. But yes. I plan to be his trainer one day.

Ok, anyway,

Laters,..

Dammit, I'm mad!

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what is it backwards ?

hmmmm

i hate mondays:



waking up to the sound of my dad saying GET UP, it's late.
Groaning to that sound I did end up getting up and taking one of my daily bad for my hair showers.
Anyways I thought my day was actually going to be pretty good.
Because in my first two subjects it was.
With all the talking I did in IST but still manage to finish summarising the whole chapter
(obviously over a period of time).
And in English I managed to not do anything but,
two WHOLE sentences for my story
which I think I'm gonna start again anyway.
The other thing was the notes wrote on the paper. HAHA.

Science and Careers basically killed my mood,

so what else is there to say ?

It was extremely boring.

But luckily a couple of my favourite

(hehe, i have favourites, ssshhh !)

people saved AND made my day,

so at least I have them.

Right now,

just thinking about them makes me smile;

BUT NOT.

I'm meant to be in an angry mood so it's much easier to write this in that sense.

OH well, im failing anyway.

After school I finished Breaking Dawn,

actually more in the evening but whatever.

It's good but I don't see why everyone went Crazy over it

But whatever. I'm just not like everyone else.

Or am i? Da Da Dannnnn.

(sumeet this is YOUR fault)

((first time I mentioned a name... woah ! ))

(((you're gonna get stalked now)))

Anyways I'm meant to be angry now, but not in the mood so yeah.
Laters,..

today

im hungry;

that was the first thought which popped into my head as soon as my mum woke me up to tell me that it was 11 in the morning and that I should get up. The weird thing was in my dream Bella (that book that my sister made me read) was also hungry and it was so weird coz it felt so real and then I realise I was actually hungry and my tummy was really grumbling. HEHE if thats a word.

With a late start to the day i couldnt really do much so i began doing some of my homework which is extremely boring. I think i suffer from getting bored really quickly and easily disease which I particularly don't like because I feel bad for the people who are occupying me and I'm bored. Gets ? ok well yeah. Right now I'm pretty bored too and I'm jst listening to music and sing along to it, which does help but every now and then I hear my dad saying Jasmine, are you crying? And I find that so insulting.

HMMMMMMMM. I wonder.

I think I should change my profile. It's getting outdated. HAHA . 5 days. But to me that is actually quite long but yes. Anyways have to continue on with my life.
Laters,..

saturday

hmmmmmmmmm.

its late and its only 44 minutes before this post

wouldnt be posted today anymore, so im thinking I shoud be quick.

not much occured today but im reading breaking dawn now.

hmmm. and swimming was actually pretty good.

other than that.

im sleeping soon.

random

today was really random.

we got to wear mufti today and all the money raised was going to the victims of the recent bushrfires in victoria. the thought of what happened to them makes you think about your own life but then again it doesnt. but yes. today was random. the clothes i had worn today one of my guy friends actually chose i for me. which i found quite odd but he does have a good sense of fashion because I guess i did look ok. in first period was had to go to a formal assembly which was extremely boring but we did get to miss out on commerce and I guess that would be so much better anyway. next period was Italian, this was probably the funnest subject I had today because of two of my friends and my brother were sitting next to me and they were quite happy and so was I and the fact the teacher wasnt there and we had the most clueless casual teacher. Anyways one of my friend said something about two months later i was going to be going out with a guy who was sitting right next to her and I was just laughing but I was like it would be too late, but i still manage to grin.

next period was maths and we had a stupid casual but it turned out to be ok i guess, everyone was just talking in the end and she didn't seem to mind. Lunch was eventful, events which i particularly didn't like. who wants to go up to a guy who liked one of your close friends and ask them if they still do (I'm so sorry Jasmine, I have to let it out). And i guess i did feel bad asking him. But we had this conversation and I just didn't know what to do and all I could think of doing was crying. But I managed to hold my emotions back and talk to another group of friends. Bell rang and those stupid guys started saying I'm seeing double & another Jasmine ? and i just got to the point where I would and did explode so I hit two of them and the deputy principal just happened to be there and it was Just My Luck. There was trouble, she was just like, next time tell me. and I was just like OK. Then left for English and just about to explode into tears, but then makeup was like on today so I was like, aarhh. not today. In english it was fun. I was just wasting my time and money and my story/character description was awesome. HAHA.

After school I was at the front wating with Kuya because, basically if i'd gone to the back I wouldn't really be doing anything anyway so i was just there. And I was glad to talk to him again. It seems like not complete me, but fixed a part of me which really needed a cool older brother who DOES care. Not that I can compare him to anyone else seeing as I dont have a blood brother. But soon they had to leave and I went to the back. Waiting there with people seemed to have made my mood change dramatically and I ended up being piss all the way home. Especially on the day they were all up the back having fun while I was being a silly little bitch sulking to myself and using music to cover up any emotion.

Now I'm just here, on the computer. I was reading but was told to clean up my room and I guess it's slightly cleaner. hehe. I'm gonna read some more, so I can read Breaking Dawn. I still don't see why everyone went crazy for the whole series of those books. HAHA
Laters,..

meh

boring ?

today was plain and boring

the only fun thing was when my friend opened her mega 10-layer present. that was funny. She's so lucky. she's got amazing friends (i do too, but she has me as a friend and how am I meant to be a friend of myself ?) and she also has a great boyfriend that every girl dreams for (like the way he acts towards her, like Romeo is to Juliet- ok, a bit exaggerated but still) and it was her birthday. Lucky Girl.

Did my hair differently today, maybe because I had time for once which was quite odd but whatever. Anyways, got many compliments, because I had also put make-up on. Not for any particular reason. I just wanted to look nice. HAHA. The best thing about today was how cool my Kuya is and actually noticed. But he still managed to tease me and said I was going to party after school and do the most random things. But wateva. Still Love MY KUYA.

wat else can i say?

sighhh

wednesday:

This morning I felt like basketball. But I knew the weather had something planned and it wasn't going to give me what I had wanted. Left house and walking in the slight sprinkle of the clouds above all I could think was BASKETBALL, BASKETBALL. Something which don't occur often in women's brains. In my hands I was also carrying a very flat basketball which was quite unsual but it was for a good cause.

Arriving at school I met my friends. All, excited for the day ahead. But during roll call, news broke our hearts. All Sport Cancelled! The cancelled repeated in my head over and over again. How did this happen, and why? Why today? The whole day I just dreaded it.

Double periods was gay. Then after school my friends and I went to the plaza and bought presents for my other friend who's extremely nice. It was fun. Then train; delayed coz people on the tracks. Went to H&R Block, got there to find out that it was closed.

Came home late. Procrastinated and didn't end up finishing homeork till 12 at night.
That's all.
Laters,..

tuesday :(

TUESDAY :(
another day gone passed of my very lifeless life.
Today, for once I was actually quite happy to go to school only because I was looking forward to the dance class we were going to have in our PE lesson. But the day didn't seem to live up to my expectations.

It began with Italian and receving the results of the "non-test" we had done the previous lesson. And to my dissapointment I had done better than I thought I would do, which I clearly didn't want to do. Afterwards was English and I wouldn't have to put up much with it because halfway through I would have to go to Peer Support. Getting to Peer Support I was just thinking and arriving there seeing the faces of the annoying little kids seem to had made me smile. The lesson was fun. Even though no one had listen. But who ever does ?

Finally it was PE and I got to dance. It was really fun and most people lacked enthusiasm. The white guys of course enjoyed it and so did my very tall friend. Dancing to the steps of the dances did have a downside, pain. But in the end I guess it was worth it.

Last period was Science. I thought, OH GREAT. I knew that this was not going to be fun. And I was sure of it. I was sitting along with my guy friends because I thought it might be a god change. But soon after the teacher comes along and asks Do you have any friends in this class? I kinda felt offended because I may have not been talking to anyone but it does not mean I'm some BIG TIME loser. This kinda made me really angry. So I turned to my music for some help. Again the teacher comes along and this time he's like stop wasting your time with music. What the hell was that suppose to mean. I have no friends because I listen to music too much? Finally one of my chick friends came along and the teacher didn't speak to me again.

After school I'd forgotten my sport uniform in my locker and so I got it. On the way back I saw my friend, A, and just stood there watching him. A few minutes later my friend, B, comes along and asks me what I was doing there. I told her I saw A so I just stood here and I'm also listening to music. Then she assumes the worst and says Do you like A? And I was like NO. But she never believes me. Plus there's already a D in my life. LOL, not yet. But I'm working on it.

Now I'm here sitting on my chair and pigging out on pizza. And I wonder why I'm so fat.
Anyways Laters,..

gay day

i woke up...

...late and to only find out that it was Monday morning, again. The day which I dread the most. I never quite figured out why. Maybe it's because it's the start of another school week, or maybe just because of this whether that seems to fail me. But whatever it is, I don't like Monday and especially not mornings.

Wating at the bus stop was cold but heat seem to move around inside me. I could feel all my anger being bottled up and I knew that I would explode, but I wasn't sure when. Finally the bus had arrived and I could get school over and done with. First period was science, yes, not. What a way to add to my horrible Monday morning. Right now all I could think about was history. I knew it was the only subject which could lighten my mood. So I sat there in Science, just quiet and listening to my music.

BRRIIINNNNGGG ! At recess, I was glad. The sun was shining, finally. I'd been waiting for it to shine, like forever and all I could feel was happiness. Maybe this was the turning point of the very sad day. I'd stood there in the sun, trying to absorb as much heat as possible and while talking to one of my friends I could hear the guys calling our names. I guess my mood had really lightened up. In class all that everyone was doing was laugh and bludge. I liked that. I do. During then my pencil case and my poor Baby Bear was held for hostage for a 'Camp Note', a camp not!. This was ridiculous but I guess it was still quite fun. Moments like these, I'd just wish they last forever, but in this case, it would never happen to me. Of course the sound of the bell wasn't what I had wanted to hear.

Maths was a drag. It really was. It just seemed to last forever with nothing occuring but the sound of the teacher talking in his monotone voice. I could tell my day was going down again. I knew I'd used up all the fun in me during History. sigh. I just left Maths alone. I knew I couldn't do anything about it.

For the rest of the day that's how I seemed to feel. I was hoping that wating at the bus stop with all my friends would change how I was. But that didn't do anything. Though the cakes some of my friends made were quite delicious. On the bus my bottled up emotions finally exploded when, of course my sister, had annoyed me. I could tell she was the one who was going to bring it out. And sitting there on the bus, I tried to calm myself down by listening to music. I knew that the most ot could do was keep me distracted and at that moment, it was good enough.

Arriving at home, with the a bad mood, I just went to my room and read. That's the most I could do. And somehow it had worked but still moody. The best thing I could do right now is just stay out of people's way hoping that they won't do anything that'll provoke me to do anythign back to them.

I hope tomorrow will be so much better.

Laters,..

stupid emotions

i don't know how i feel right now

should i start crying, or laughing

but I just don't think that

he gets me right now

not that it has to do

with any of this

but i know it's not helping me cope

with all these emotions

running through my head.

sad - happy - angry - surprised - joyful - depressed - monstrous

just thoughts.

- i like hugs, but then again, I don't

- sometimes ice cream is the only thing that can make me feel better

- people make me happy; especially friends

- some people make me sad, though it's not entirely their fault

- i get pissed off, best thing to do: leave me alone

- books, i get into it and its scary

- i cry... a lot

- taking MY music is not a good idea

- non competitive

- floater

- i prefer to stay out of problem, but sometimes it just seem to follow me

- loves her computer

- does not like rain very much

more thoughts later.

can't be bothered now

thanks to this weather

finally

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Waking up this morning and seeing the sunlight shine through my window had made me a little excited. But after realising that it wasn't actually going to be sunny today was the buggest upset. I know I'm not much of an outdoor person but I still love the sun. I don't know why, maybe it's the warm feeling the it gives while being around it or the brightness which shines on everyone. sighh. I guess today's not the day.

After breakfast, shower and some cleaning it was back to sitting on my big ass and on the computer again. I know it's stupid spending most of my time on the net and basically doing nothing. I did get to talk to some on my special people though and it made me feel much happier after that big let down from the weather. How long can this go on?

Laters,..

si, sei pwede

YES I CAN

I've always dreaded Saturday mornings and today was no different. Waking up early to the sounds of the rain pouring on the roof, and through the little slits of the blinds I could see the water running down the window. Oh well, not everybody gets their way. It was that time of week again, swimming and it's very fun, like trust me but sometimes I just get to a point where I can't do it and I push myself real hard to work.

Anyways I was just sitting on the bench at the pools waiting for my lessons to start and I'm sitting there, just thinking and looking around. Then I saw that no one from my group has arrived yet. I thought it was still early. I wasn't worried of going and there was no lesson, I was afraid of having a one on one session with my cool swimming instructor. Really, she's very awesome and extra nice, but it's the pressure that would be put on me. I was looking around and finally, people came, and I was like, whew. The lesson began and I was actually quite excited, but before that my instructor had informed me that she'd be away for 4-6 weeks and that we'll be having a different instructor. I didn't like that, because I liked her being my instructor. During the lesson, I'd tried, of course I tried, I didn't want to fail anyone, especially not myself. But the part which brought my mood up was the fact that she'd said what a great job I did in my breastroke. Perfect she said. After this was home.

Arriving home wasn't the best thing which had occured. As soon as I had got there I had to put up a temporary clothesline because the weather wasn't helping with anything. It took me a while to work out what I was doing (and after my dad had told me what to do). Lunch. Then I was just watching a movie Gotta Kick It Up. That's where si, sei pwede came from. Meaning Yes, I Can. It seems motivational maybe that's why I decided to include that in here, but whatever the reason it's good. Afterwards, with my luck my mum told me to hang the clothes up, on my great clothesline. That's when I started thinking again. Looking around, it made me feel like I was in Forks and how they always had poor, rainy weather. But I guess people there like it.

Now I'm just sitting on my big fat ass, writing this blog. It's kinda exciting. It's allowing me to be free from my emotions and still not telling the whole world. Technically, yes I am. But not many people read this; good.

Laters,..

another day

RAIN RAIN GO AWAY COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY

After just three days of this blog thing, I'm starting to get the idea that it might just be a little pointless, but what the hell. I really don't care right now seeing no one cares about my feelings. Starting the day with the quick rush of getting ready though it was made harder because today was School Photos Day. Things couldn't have gotten worse but Sunshine with her forever wasting of time not allowing me to straighten my hair. Finally arriving at school trying to seem calm and relaxed but this couldn't be helped when Isuggested to the people around me that we should play the Keep A Straight Face game. By then, no one could keep themselves from laughing and I saw the joy that I had brought to the people around me, and this made me feel good.

Commerce was a drag, it wasn't helping as it was just slowing down the time of day, yet Iwas anxious to get my pictures taken. The gloomy weather didn't help, it just added to blue-ness of the day which made me bored and this forced me to use the wonderful technology and text during class, these days this is very common and as I observed many people was doing this with me. Next period was English, another assignment :( but my mood seemed to chnage because I knew that the lesson would only last for 3o minutes and then *click; pictures were going to be taken.

The thought of having your picture taken isn't that bad. I do wonder why people dread getting their pictures taken, maybe it's because everyone knows other people from their grade will see their pretty face, but again what's not desirable about that. First was the group photos and standing next to one of my close friends thinking that I would get to stand next to them made me even more excited, but this excitement was soon taken away from me, like someone took a lollipop out of a child's hands. Oh well, this separation did have a positive outcome with me getting to stand up next to two very awesome people and standing behind me were very handsome, young men. Okay, maybe that's just getting a bit creepy. Three shots was all it took and after that was the long wait for the individual photos, and when I say long wait, I MEAN IT. But the wait wasn't that bad, socialising with people and seeing people with their pretty faces and all dressed up just for this one day. Soon my moment arrived and in my head, I could hear myself saying Jasmine, don't stuff this up, just smile and you'll be done, hoping that I wouldn't laugh. Done, wheew.

Afterwards, I was walking with my 6ft tall friend and the not so 6ft tall friend, we were all laughing and just enjoying and having a casual conversation as my tall friend was fixing my tie. Maths wasn't that bad, I was with my not so tall friend and with her silliness, she had managed to make her white-out leak all over herself, to me this was very funny, but laughing was not an option when the teacher would have a go at you. But it was funny.

Lunchtime wasn't very eventful except for the hide and seek game we had played, very childish yet fun. It hadn't lasted long as we soon found out that we weren't actually being seeked so our game was soon ended. The rain, still continuing made me see the school differently. For once I saw that the people still got along and the gloomy weather hadn't affected them at all. After realising this I had come to a conclusion that I think I've gone crazy. Seriously, who thinks about these kind of stuff, but oh well.

Science, don't wanna talk about it AT ALL. At the bus stop, there was a different mood that surrounded everyone else. I guess in a way it had affected me, positively and again the bus was late but this caused me no worries. Finally the bus had arrived and happiness popped into my head, weekend, yes. On the bus trouble came to me. There's an important thing everyone must know about me, actually a few, but one of them is, don't take my music. Please don't and don't be offended if I say no. It's just me. But this occured on the bus and the worst part was they had said I HATED them, only because I wouldn't let them listen to my music. I knew the only thing I could do was move away and think about the happy things. My stop arrived and with my super unco-ness, I managed to lose my balance just before I get off the bus, but that was no worries for me.

Now, here, sitting here, wishing that this weather would change. Or at least move to the south where its much more needed, but I guess when it comes to nature it can't be helped whatever happens.

Anyways, laters,..

If you want to be happy, be

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Don't care what people say

Just follow your own way
Don't give up and lose the chance

To return to innocence

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valentines at Penrith

INSIDE YOURSELF OR OUTSIDE, YOU NEVER HAVE TO CHANGE WHAT YOU SEE ONLY THE WAY YOU SEE IT ...

I guess you could say that today was another normal day. And I guess I will although mini events which had occured such as an evil fairy took the seat of my prince charming but it didn't make any difference because thanks to technology I can communicate with him whenever and wherever. Today was like every other day but with one difference, everyone had the craze for Valentine's Day and excitement was seen through everyone's faces, or so I thought. I wouldn't exactly call it exciting because it seems that most of the people are getting over the whole Valentine's thing except of course for the year 7, those little noobs.

Once again I feel like I've accomplished what I needed to do for the day and feeling happy once again thanks to the help of my brothers and of course friends. I just didn't think that your own brothers could be nice when you least expect them too, but you may not understand what I'm going on about unless of course you are one of my brothers. But thanks to them I've realised that just because doesn't mean anything. HAHA ! Hmm, I don't think that made much sense but no worries.

My notes are very helpful although I don't think it's going to be done. So to add to that here is my to-do list:
1. stop saying sorry: being constantly asked why'd you say that and stop saying sorry, kinda gets you annoyed too so maybe I should stop.
2. try harder, if you know what I mean, most of you will think that you know what I mean but I'm pretty sure that you don't so don't bother thinking your heads off trying to work out what I do mean.
3. must clean room

anyways sisters do get in the way, that's why I must be off now.
Laters,..

Beginning-

New beginnings, I guess I'm going to have to re-do this because I don't actually what I had previously written was very bloggish, (haha). Anyway so much to do and think about but right now all I can say is I'm happy. And anyone who has this feeling knows that they can't complain because what more could you ask for.

I'd never thought that some people could live just the way are although its was possible for me to see this. OK, I think that maybe I'm insanely happy that I don't even know what I'm going on about so maybe it might be a good idea that I shut my mouth up, just for now anyway.

For now I'll leave myself three notes:

1. must improve on this blog thing and at least make it more interesting.

2. start being more friendly and nice, not that I'm not nice but I just want to make it seem more real for me.

3. buy a dress for kuya's wedding :D

anways i'm hoping that this blog is so much better than the other one I'd done but I hadn't actually told anyone about it so it should be no problems for me.

Laters,..