More stuff.

I want to be able to give myself a fresh start which includes removing this. I guess Blogger is the only safe place I can put it where I know in the future I'll be able to look back at all the things which has happened in the past. I sound like a massive tool but like anyone cares.

Not Right

By now you'd expect things to be normal and perfect and happy. I wish that scenario was the case and I could live happily ever after. But no. At this time, or any time soon I don't think that will be my life. I've grown closer to a lot of people whilst others we seem to part as the days pass by. It's quite sad really because I fail at the whole friendship thing. I can't seem to keep much friends. It's not them, wait. Let me say it like this: It's not you, it's me. HAHA, that's so corny. I remember Jensen and he was asking me for an excuse to tell his now ex-ex girlfriend and me being the retarded idiot I am told him to tell her that. Luckily he didn't listen to me which was probably a good thing.

I'm kinda having thoughts on what, scratch that. I just don't like it. And uhm, well other people are awesome but not everyone is special. No one gets what I mean because I'm confusing so good. But if you do understand what I mean then you get me and no need to tell me and great work.

Really annoyed right now. At school, at people, at life.
it's true. I'm shit at life.

So yesterday right. I told everyone about the Pat and Sandon story. Well that's a lie. I summarised it and practically left out all the feelings and emotion in the story. Here's what really happened.

One fine day after Patrick found out that his true man has left him for some bogan he felt lonely and just couldn't live life anymore. Lucky for him, his bed buddy, Sandon, was there to make him feel better. In his quest he suggested that they play hit a ball with a ball. This required them to throw a ball at each other's balls. At first it was just simple fun and games but soon it turned into an event which everyone began to watch. It was a nailbiting game, many of the shots off the target by a few centimetres. The bags came off everyone was moving in closer to get a greater view, suddenly Sandon's bus arrived and Pat had the last shot. He shoots but Sandon decides to be a chicken and moves when the ball was about to get him. Wow, what an experience.

Stupid People

Firstly I'm not in love with Tomasso. Nor do I found him attractive. It was more of...well I had other things on my mind. Truthfully I wish I was attracted to him. It'd make my life easier. And now I feel so stupid asking him the questions I asked him. Posting it here wouldn't make much of a difference cause everyone already knows.

Tu hai a ragazza? - Do you have a girlfriend?
Come ti chiami? - What's your name?
Prendi mio a Italia? - Take me to Italy?

After those stupid questions I did realise, not that I hadn't realised before but still. I asked better questions, I suppose. I'm annoyed at him. Don't ask why. Next on my agenda is how great today was. Not. Actually maths was fun. Mr Cantlon decided that Maths is boring sitting in the classroom writing all the time, so he made activities for us and the first one was the best because we were outside, in the sun and i was lying down on the grass.

I'm excited for tomorrow and maybe the city2surf. I'm not quite sure but hey, it's too late now. Jasmine here I come. HAHHA.

Things have changed. I don't know if it's me or him but maybe it's the turn of a new leaf and there was never meant to be a me and a him. I don't know. I should just like not think about it so much. I don't want wrinkles. Or pimples. HA.

oooh. remembered this, yesterday with Anavi we were talking.

Curry buddy, that sounds funny :)

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p.s. Jeans for Genes day.

Lollipops are yum.

I'm on alyssa's computer.

I should get of it now 'aye? Uhm, maybe after I write this and check my email. I really don't want to be on the computer the whole day. It's bad for you. Btw, this lollipop tastes great. Reminds me of thursday and the memories I had on that day. A very random day. This lollipop is blue and it's very yummy.

Nothing done today.

Actually I did some maths. It got boring, so I gave up.

I can't hold it back because i've been waiting for so long...

I have your name in 14 blogs?

EEK !

Another day of my life wasted, doing nothing but cleaning and ironing and sucking on a lollipop. To make things worse, it’s currently raining and I would love to upload a picture of that too but I can’t because we’re already over the limit and it’s gonna cost us and guess who’s gonna get in trouble if that happens. Alyssa of course. Laugh Out Loud! A couple of days till Jasmine’s birthday and I still don’t know what to get her. I'm planning to just run away and suddenly disappear on her birthday and like come back the day after. But that’s like too slack. And the cake idea. I don’t feel like making it now. Plus it might turn out ugly and fugly so maybe just scrap that idea. I'm sorry Jasmine. I love you and all but the thing is I don’t want to bother anymore and I'm sorry. I think Jasmine’s angry at me now. Oh well. I'm gonna do some…stuff…now…

BYE

I JUST WANT TO BE HIS FRIEND!
That’s all that I could ever ask for.

Enough is Enough

Exams are on this week and they've begun. Big woop!

Anyways, I'm sick of people talking about exams and stressing about it. I'm actually trying to relax and get myself prepared but everyone just keeps talking about it which is getting really annoying now. And don't you dare tell me that you failed that exam if I ask you how you went. There's a chance that you could have but don't tell me you failed until you have. Try to be optimistic because that will ruin your whole game. Take me for example, I'm happy and relaxed because I've prepared myself. Even if it may be in the last minute but I'm prepared. I'm not running around trying to get answers for this and that and stressing other people out. Firstly, it's not healthy and secondly, think about what the other person is feeling. Do they realy want to be disturbed, that's when you decide whether or not you should talk to them.

Enough about that. I didn't want to go into detail with that but in the end I do anyway. The main point I wanted to say was how annoyed I am at everyone. Right now I'm seeing them as fakes and I don't like it. I admit I'm a fake but I have reason to be. But other people, other people do it just to be a bitch and seriously it's not cool. I've noticed that now people are showing their true colours to me and they're proving to me that they ain't worth my time. People don't like me. I know that, but why won't they tell me? I'm not gonna go and eat you if you tell me you have me. Just give me constructive advice on how I could be a better friend or what I'm doing wrong. I mean I'm not going to completely change just for you. It's just not me. I am who I am so tough luck. But yeah, my main point was people don't like me and they're showing it good.

How was my today.
Apart from the exams really nothing much occured as everyone was too busy with the stressing with the whole exams thing. It's not me and maybe that's the reason why I won't be talking to you because I don't like your aura and all that kinda shit. Hmmm, another thing was with the whole PJ thing. She wouldn't believe me at first and when I finally did get her to believe me I burst and ended up telling her the truth which kinda ruined part of the whole thing. But no more on that because it'll give away the whole thing. For now people, laters I'm not gonna study but I can't leave my blog opened for long because I'm risking my sister or mother reaading it.

"To love is hard."

;]

Alyssa said Stop Procrastinating

Just a few things I remembered:

1. There's this one person (I'm not saying whether they're are girl or a guy but it's one of those two) in my grade that I've realised is extremely annoying at times especially to me and my friends. I know it's kinda slack posting this publicly and that is why I'm not going to mention his/her name. But right now, just GET BACK! Lmao, and no it's not you just because I used your song.

2. "Now that curry I'll eat." This is just a quote which I actually said the other day and like I was talking to Anindita about it and now that i've remembered this is another person (him/her) from my grade who I'm having thoughts about at the moment. Actually that's a real giveaway. But yeah. OMG ALYSSA STOP TALKING TO ME! Back to the subject, this is so your fault Katrina but I love you no matter what.

3. I must study so leave me alone. Alyssa is telling me to type faster so that I can get off the computer sooner but like it's so hard because my fingers are getting so tired from typing really quickly especially my thumb. Ow. But woot, Neighbours is on so i can slow down a bit now because Alyssa's gone to watch. Today school was alright. I don't actually want to go through the details at the moment because it's just me being sick. But lucky me I got more gossip again. Not that it was very fascinating. HAHA

laters,..
;]

WTF

Today, compared to other days was not that good.

Going to a party you'd expect it to be fun, exciting and a time when you can socialise. Well come to my family parties right, I totally don't fit in and that makes me real sad because I don't have anyone to talk to plus I'm bored to then extreme. The worst part was Papa wasn't even there so I didn't have him there to annoy. Yeah, so right now I feel good sitting here typing and being with my friend the computer. And hey I'm not an anti-social LOSER. I have friends it just that they're not actually part of my extended family. I wish they were though.

School again tomorrow. I can't believe the weekends are so short and i'm up to day 2 of being a 16 year old. Plus I've officially began my HALF YEARLY's studying because I couldn't sleep last night so yeah.

I'm gonna do something else now, just didn't want to miss another day of blogging, cause I've only done that once. Don't want to make it twice now do i.

Laters,.

;]

Mother’s Day 2009

To tell you the truth, i was sleeping and i didn’t really care that i wasn’t there with the rest of my family watching my mum open her presents. Mainly because i don’t like seeing people open presents i give them in front of me because i hate seeing the disappointed looks on their faces. And the fact that i could hear them in my room anyway kinda proved that i did ok this year, but not the best.

The rest of the day was what you call, really uneventful. Although most of it was doing stuff mum would usually do but it was mother’s day so we had to do it. Oh well, i had nothing better to do anyway. Except I’ve finished wide reading and I can begin my half yearly revision. It feels so good.

Went to church today so now I feel refreshed and clean. I don’t know. Sometimes the things I do, I just don’t understand why I do it. I wish I did though.

5 days to go.

Sumeet is a bitch.

laters,.
;]

Slow Down

Things have just moving too fast for me lately.

Today, really uneventful. Except that i read this book, it's called The Boy Book, and it only took me three hours and I'm just like woah. What a NL. HAHA. But it's a really good book. If you want to read my review and sections of the book, click on the link. If that doesn't work, the you'll just have to borrow the book. The author is E. Lockheart. But yeah it's a really nice book for teenage chicks. Very helpful too.

I've done my wide reading and Study Guide. Just have to do the research thing and I can move onto a different subject. It feels so good that I've accomplished things. I'm very weird. I just told the truth today. But no one knows what or what about (which is exactly the same thing) except for Jasmine. I don't know if I should have done that but I guess now I feel much better than before.

Wish me luck for the rest of the weekend.

six days till birthday.

i can drive soon.

laters,.

;]

Boring

These holidays have been quite a drag.

I'm actually quite glad that they will be over in a matter of days.

Somebody HELP me.

;]

I Don't Have to Be Here

Right now, I don't have to be here.

Sitting on my big ass, you know what even my parents were saying how big my ass was and they were wondering who did i get such a fat ass from cause no one in their family has a big ass. But yeah. Back to my story, I don't have to be here. I could be at Blacktown shopping, eating, hanging with friends. Basically everything but what I'm doing right now which I find really gay cause I don't like not doing anything. Even though I'm not actually not doing anything but it would be better if I wasn't at home all the time. I want to go out. And this song I'm listening to sounds nice. Let me check what it's called.

Heartrate by QT

Nice song, listen to it.

Anyways I'm just planning to play Rollercoaster Tycoon because I have nothing better to do with my life right now so yeah. Anything else I should say. Let me think... uh, no. Ok done.

laters,..

;]

hey ?

happy birthday anna (:



i'm gonna keep this short and quick
today was ok compared to yesterday
and to make it worse
i'm sick and it's ewww.
actually i didn't find today
no good whatsoever.