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Today is Jasmine's Birthday, tomorrow is Saturday and Sunday comes afterwards.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

I hope she had a wonderful day.

Better than mine I hope. Not that mine was bad, but it definitely could've been better.

That's all.

Blabb.

finally? or is it too soon to say that? i don't quite know but one thing's for sure. i'm v. happy & ecstatic that my holidays are beginning soon. not yet but soon. i love school certificate. the only time i can think for real without the worry of anyone else. hmmm. that didn't make sense at all but maybe that's what i'm trying to do. i need people to be smarter. i like having hidden messages. but that's for later.

i miss you all. i can't believe that i had to turn out like that. leaving you guys behind and when i really needed someone you've been there the whole time. i'm also v. thankful that you've noticed. i'm quite sure that no one else knows what i'm talking about and seriously stuff them because i'm pretty sure if they had noticed they would have told me by now and i love them even more. but i really do miss having you with me all the time. like circumstances have changed and so have i. the worst part it's been a change for the worst rather than for the better. i really do wish that one day we could have what we once had once upon a time. when things were good and fun was the only thing in my vocabulary. now i use words such as disappointed, gay, suck. those words aren't very nice, though truthful not what i want to be talking about. once again. thank you. i really do know who my friends are in this world. and im v. grateful for that. AND LMAO ! it's not even offensive. haha.

i have changed.

i miss going on the computer. i miss talking to people via instant messenger, both on yahoo and msn. i miss being able to be someone else and make up a whole new identity. i miss being on a totally different world. i miss the emotions. i miss the sleepless nights spent on the computer. i miss everything about the computer. i wish things were back to the good old days. and now...they can be.

i'm so good right now i'm going crazy with the computer i'm probably making record times with my awesome typing. this is probably the fastest i've typed EVER with hardly any typos which is like ... A W E S O M E

jasmine needs to go shopping:
- buy a dress
- buy jewellry
- book salon
- lose weight
ahahaha, i dont know what the last one has to do with shopping but whatever right? really i'm just happy.


should i ask or not?
should i bother or not?
am i even worth it?


ahhhh. i love you computer.
:D

chips ahoy !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUKHMAN !

seems to be the only nice thing i can think of saying right now.

Japanese Marshmallow Game

I can't help it. I just had to write a blog post. Like yeah. Stupid people no writing blogs because of the stupid maths test which was obviously OVER studied by everyone. At least it's over...for now. There's still quite a bit more work before year 10 is over but we live. I'm off to a relative's party which I really don't feel like going to at the moment because I'm pretty sure that it's gonna be boring and like there's gonna be no one to talk to and I'm just going to be bored to the max. I probably won't even be able to watch a movie on my iPod or something which sucks BIG TIME. I want to just stay home and watch movies all night and relax. Oh well. We can't always get what we want. Which reminds me today was a good day :) Don't want to mention anything except I'm happy. I know why and that's good enough. Hehe.

For those people who aren't feeling what I'm feeling right now though here's something just for you. It's another YouTube clip Fritz showed me last week and it's damn hilarious right and yeah. Just watch it. It's basically two japanese teams (one read, one blue) and they try to eat the marshmallow and watching it would just be the best thing to do. HAHA

Stop Hiding

Last night would have to be one of the best nights I've had in ages. He wasn't what I'd expected and like it was a good thing he was there because the other person just doesn't seemt to care anymore and so I liked it. It was good. Refreshing.

I'm sick of being me sometimes. I overdo things and I can't see how people are feeling and their reactions to what I'm doing and at times I go way over the top. I take things too far and obviously that's not fair to people. Anyways talking to my new found friend (and btw. did you read that, it's just friends. Nothing more nothing less, on my side of the whole thing anyway). He's really nice and kinda reminded me of those times, times when I'd have the person all to myself and no one else in the world existed and you can talk about anything non stop. I'm glad. Too bad today kinda well it wasn't like my previous night. Still great but you know not that best day ever. HAHA. I miss Jensen. Not that I talk to him often. Maybe that's why. Too bad we're seperated by 500km of land and another 300km of oceans and countries. And the fact that we are kinda close. Nothing would ever happen yet I know my parents that if I ever found someone like him they would approve and be happy because he's such a gentleman and knows how to make a woman feel like a damn woman and make her happy.

Happy Birthday Vinori !

city2surf

Happy: enjoying or showing or marked by joy or pleasure

i'd like to say that today was fun with many memories happening today. but like ican't be bothered talking about it all.
thanks for everyone. special mentions to jasmine & anavi. details tomorrow. i'm tired & sleepy.

here are some pictures. (on the train only)

Sleeping. It's Quite Fun

It has never occured to me how sleep deprived I am. Maybe people hassling me to sleep at 1 in the morning finally hit me that 'hey, it is quite late'. And on top of that, waking up at 7 in the morning after only 4 hours of sleep you'd wouldn't really wonder why every few minutes you're yawning. Although this has been brought up I'm not changing who I am. If I want to sleep late and wake up early you can't do anything about it except join me or ignore my problem.

Frankly I was quite happy that today was going to be the SRC and everyone else Training Day. With the food and activities which was prepared for us, I was actually glad that it was held today. But seriously it was exactly what you had expected. A complete waste of time. Except maybe the Krispy Kreme doughnut (which I haven't had for a while) and the pizza we got to eat at lunch. Apart from that I could have, really just fallen asleep. But because I'm a good role model and I'm there to represent people I have to maintain poise and elegance so i just stayed fidgety. The day lasted quite long. Sad really. I didn't even get to do what I want to do because there are limitations in what I am allowing myself to do. At times I go to far and I'm just not being fair on myself so I have to take things slower. With that in mind I'm actually happy. Apart from a few minor things life's pretty good. I saw that and that made me smile and realise how good this life of mine is turning out. And the thought of it just keeps me smiling and helps me go continue the day (if that makes sense in anyway).

Before I leave you guys I must make a few notes:

1. stop with the random and weird laughs
2. think about others and their feelings
3. maintain your organization skills
4. exercise at least once a week
5. keep chocolate at a minimum

As they say in Spain; Adios amigos!

I Thought Wrong

Like always I've made another mistake. A mistake where it's too late and I can't go back in time. A mistake people come up with the unimaginable things such as time machines.

Finally, all those weeks and months that I've waited to get what I want and now that I have it, I don't want it. It's just made things worse for me. I thought this was going to change everything. And you know what it has. The change that I didn't want. It's not fair. Why can't I be happy and have what I want at the same time. Today I saw a replay of that one day I was in the toilet because of my maths half yearly mark. I couldn't control myself and I just felt so alone and stuck. I didn't want to be there but where was I meant to go. Ever since, I don't know when ever since but I don't want to go into the state of unhappiness. I really don't.

Wednesday. Arrived at school; late because of an overturned truck. Geography was somewhat boring but I managed to maintain interested as the lesson dragged on. At recess I, what's it called. Oh yeah, I had a breakdown and so for a few minutes I disappeared into the nothingness. That's when I saw Ivy & Fiona and Ivy herself was worried she looked like a retard in front of thingo. HAHA. For second period we had that meeting again for the subjects and I was just cold and wore two jumpers. At lunch was just talking to Anavi then telling her everything that I had asked, finally. LOL. Then sport. Basically it was just people getting hurt or hit by the ball every minute (literally) and me laughing at them nonstop. And the wonderful thing was I scored a goal. Too bad it was an own goal. But I nearly got this other goal right and no one was at the goals and I was like a metre away and guess what; I missed :) So sport was really good and funny. After school, plaza and got mama a present for her birthday and yeah. I have to make a cake I just remembered. Day was...a rollercoaster. That's when I realised why I was so moody. It was that time of month again.

B-bye.

I Can Do You Like That, That, That

We all know that today was the first day back to school. I expected it to be quiet and not as joyful. At a few times this was the case but then again, on days when everyone is there those 'moments' occur too. Especially if you're me. Today was also my first day in SRC. I don't know if I should be writing it here but this is how I feel and thought. At first I thought SRC would be a great and fun experience and have the chance to represent my grade etc. Once I did get the position I started feeling regretful because I didn't quite expect to receive a position as such. It wasn't right and I don't like it when things aren't right. I don't know. I don't think this is the right time to say it and I will leave it for later. Gosh, I feel so stupid today. Not just because of this but nothing would register and I found myself just staring at the wall or the ground or whatever and whenever people spoke to me I would just be in a world of my own. I was hopeless and I really did not like it. No more gay things. Today was good. People, leave me alone, seriously, let me do what I WANT to do.

Something came to mind when I read Exclamation Mark's blog. The one from the 14th. I didn't like it. Not as in it was a bad thing but it was more of a sad thing. But as I was told it's a person's blog and they should be able to express their own feelings. Well this is how I feel. Some people may look like they're taking their life and family for granted but inside it worries them shit. Because for me I try not to think about death and death altogether because it's not a funny topic. The thought of that happening to my family is sad and I don't want to talk about it. But I just want to make the most of now. The time I have with them. The time when I can be happy and have no worries because one day I will have worries but I don't want to waste this time. I just want to feel good and satisfied and lucky, lucky to have all that I have. Why make more problems when there's enough problems out there. AAAHhh, I've overdone it again. Stuff it.

GOODBYE.

Flowers blooming.

I met Tim.

It's not him.

But he's not dim.

:D

I feel sorry for people sometimes. Seeing their hearts broken. But these things happen for the better right. I mean look at other people. Being broken up with someone usually leads them to someone else who in the ends becomes their true love. It's not always the case but it does happen. That's the story if Timmy. Ha, I don't know. I don't even know who he is. All I know is he is Tim from Penrith.

Transformers: Return of the Fallen

Uplifting, wonderful, joyous, happy, enjoyable, etc. That's how I would describe today. It was really nice and different. It began quite early for me. Well not really. Compared to my usual days lately, I would have to say that it has been quite early. With 2 hours to get ready I still ran out of time to get ready and arriving at the bus stop I got there early which meant I got quite annoyed. Hmmm. At the station I was waiting for the train, because I missed the other one, and when I arrived at the station there were people there. We got there before 11 and so I bought chocolate yum.

We watched Transformers 2 whilst everybody else watched other movies, obviously. The movie was pretty good. Except beside me I kept hearing, Meagan Fox this, Meagan Fox that... Hmmmm. Movie was really good though and I'm quite happy about it.

Afterwards the movie it was just random wandering around the mall and who couldn't forget lunch with everyone around that single 4 seater table. Quite funny actually. Well to me it was. C'mon 9 people in two tables, we were kinda connected to the asians who was sitting on the other table but yeah. Fine doesn't matter. I was eating so slow too.

More walking around the shops and me and Anavi decided that we didn't want to go to Rebel and she wanted to get a dress so I went around with her looking for a dress and then finally we got to Hipster and found her this really pretty dress which I think makes her look damn fine actually. Makes me jealous. That also became her birthday present from me so that was pretty good. Once we purchased the dress we went back up to onFour and went Max Brenners and ate, well chocolate. What else? Haha. Man, the chocolates gives you food orgasms. Hmmmmmm. After that it was time to go and the we said goodbyes. On the train was just talking and talking. It was like a girl's day out on the train cept it wasn't the whole day on the train and it wasn't just girls on the train. If you know what I mean...

Image of the World

You know how people say that some people can be really influential towards others. I find that weird. I don't see the purpose of following people and copying what they do. I do it to, so I'm a hypocrite. My question is why do people, why do WE do these kinda things. Does it satisfy us? I believe that one day I'm going to be a really good person. HAHA. I was going to say questioner but that sounds weird. But when has that ever stopped me. LOL. Yes, because I like to question and I believe that my questions are suitable and approriate and they're the right questions to be asking. Questions with answers that people would want. I can do this.

I'm an image. I know that. Having sisters who copy everything I do proves that. I may not be the best image at times, but I still am an image and I'm very influential. I should tell people to stop listening to me and do what they want. Do something they want to do for the better.

Stop rambling. I'm excited for tomorrow. For many reasons. Reasons I will not bother typing.

A New Found Craze

I'm such an idiot. I pressed Enter instead of Tab.

Well, lately I've been bored out of my mind, confused and not knowing what I should do next. Everyone else seems to be lucky always going out and have fun-filled holidays unlike me who is always sitting down making money for one day of movies with my friend. Not that it's a bad thing but I want something more exciting and vavoom if you know what I mean. Back to my story I decided that I would borrow tito's PSP because he hardly uses it now ever since he got his new phone. I swear he has so much technological stuff I'm ashamed of myself because I'm the younger one (also the one who is less smarter, that's now what I was gonna say but I can't say it now) But yes. His PSP is cool and the fact that it has built in Wi-Fi is even better because then I can surf the net while I'm on it. It's so cool and I've been very distracted from my life ever since I started playing with it, which was just last night.

Because of my very persuasive brother I also began to watch Gossip Girl. It's not that bad. Actually it's pretty good. After just watching three episodes I'm hooked onto the show and I want to watch more. Too bad I can't download anymore because then I'll get to the point where I'll get into super trouble. But the chicks are pretty and skinny while the guys are macho and to die for. Makes you wish you where there. Plus the clothes. So pretty. But we musnt forget the bitchiness. It's always there wherever you go and on Gossip Girl it's extreme. Ha.

Reminder: Download more Gossip Girl episodes.

Relax

I don't know where to begin. I seriously don't.

Sigh* I thought about it. Not really but after 5 minutes I still don't know where to begin. So I guess it would have to be the start. Right?

I woke up, like I usually do. It was freezing. I don't know why but lately I've been getting the chills so easily. I do wonder why this must be but that later. I did my hair. Interesting huh. No not really. It's just curls and it would have been the cause of me being late to the bus stop again but it's more important for me to look good than miss the bus. WOW I'm quite distracted. I totally forgot that I was writing a blog. How about I just say the following:

Jasmine is happy. Once again. She is scared that because she's been getting all these good and happy things lately that there will be a massive bad thing that wil occur soon or later in the future but something major will happen and she doesn't want it to.

Still like that person. Hey I can't help who I like. Uhm happy that I got SRC. Italian was good. I mean it wasn't how I planned it but I didn't actually plan it so yeah. And Sumeet and Anavi, you guys are so cute, but the things I heard, gosh you two. Apart from that I'm really happy and I'm scared something will happen. Like Mr. Beves said with Negative Gearing: High Gain, High Loss.

The holidays are here. I don't know why I'm leaving so much gaps in this blog. Maybe I'm just out of it. Probably. So many things planned. I don't know where to begin so I won't begin. I'll just wait for it to happen and be satisfied with that. Until then, laters.

Pyrmont

"Can I ask for anything more?"

To tell you the truth I enjoyed my day and so that it can be ruined don't tell me about your day, how good or bad it was because for once I want to feel like I'm the only one who had a really good & perfect day and no one can ruin it. Although I received a few facts from people and who can blame them, they are facts. And the fact that I spent so much money on random shit, like always but who can blame me, I'm me.

You guys should read this. Sukhman was telling me about it this morning and may I just say, What a way to die:

A man fell into a vat of hot melted chocolate and has died at a factory in New Jersey, a spokesman for the local public prosecutor said.

The 29-year-old man was among four workers on a platform above the vat who were dumping in pieces of solid chocolate to be melted down, said Jason Laughlin, spokesman for the Camden County Prosecutor's Office.

"He somehow slipped and fell into the vat," Laughlin said.

Laughlin said the vat at the Cocoa Services Inc plant in Camden was around eight feet (2.5 metres) deep.

"At this point there's no suggestion of foul play," Laughlin said.

Laughlin says a co-worker tried to shut off the machine and two others tried to pull Smith out of the 8-foot-deep vat.

He was hit and fatally injured by the agitator that mixes the chocolate.

Very random. I could talk about how my day was really good but I've already said that so here are just some of the highlights from my day:

• Being on the train in the morning all by myself. I sound like such a loser and a loner but it was nice. I didn't have to try communicate with anyone and I could do anything I wanted without being judged by anyone. Walking to school by myself was a plus too I guess because I just listened to music and I decide the pace I wanted to walk and where to go next. The 'next' was actually McDonalds where I had breakfast because I didn't have enough time in the morning (probably because I had to dry my hair then straighten it)
• The bus trip on the way to the city was a highlight too I guess because I just sat there talking to everyone about the most random things. I swear I saw Ankita and Sarah looking at me multiple times, they looked dodgy. Lucky for me and Sukhman the seats he got us had extra legroom which means our legs didn't have to be cramped up in the seats, the down side to that was because my legs weren't long enough to reach the other seats that when the bus comes to a halt I would fly forward and slip off my seat.
• Pyrmont, well wherever we were was nice. I mean the rain didn't help because I didn't want to get wet but as soon as the sun came out, the day turned out to be even more perfect, which is just the way I like it. Walking around and seeing the city was nice. I mean the class would get a stare from one of the locals every now and then but who gives a shit about what they think. I didn't realise that the buildings in the city had so much meaning to it well I kinda did but not that much. Being on that wharf was pretty good too because it had this nice park which is actually new (Urban Renewal?). On top of that we got free lunch which didn't make any difference to me because I still managed to spend around ten dollars today.
• The bus trip home was pretty good too. We had more space because half the people were staying back (I wanted to as well but I was not given permission by my very own parents). It was funny because this guy set his Bluetooth name to Hi nigga and sent Aimee random pictures. It was funny as. On the bus we also ate lollies, the lollies which I bought, which in the end actually made me feel sick. Maybe because it was the orange flavour. Probably.

My day, to you may not be interesting but to me it was really good and like I said before don't ruin it for me. Please.

I like how the way things are between me and him.

I don't want anything to change.

This feeling is enough for me and it may be that feeling they call satisfaction.

So, I don't want anything more nor do I want anything less...

Decisions

So many things, so little time. Aaaah, Mary Kate & Ashley. I still remember the good old times. But who cares about that. Just that I can't make up my mind. I'm too picky with people and I don't think I know what I want...just yet. Does this mean I'm confused? Most probably.

Today was rather eventful. Actually if you think about it, it really wasn't but who gives right? PE was quite enjoyable though. The feeling of happiness I had, it was nice to have that feeling once again. Thanks Madison & asians. LMAO. Gym was really good then afterwards we did dodgeball so it was all good. Lunch was the same. Sitting in the middle of the oval talking to Jess and I get paranoid so easily like I'm always looking around to see if there are any balls that's going to hit me. HAHA, then I decided that I wanted to join in, but I was playing with the asians and not the currys which was a change, for once. No big difference 'cept they're asians. HMM. Apart from that all good.

SRC voting tomorrow. I'd just like to say:

People vote for me, please because it would be nice to win something and get what I want...FOR ONCE...

Smile

Whenever I think of you all I can do is
smile.

Wimbledon

I'm currently watching Wimbledon Championship. Federer needs two more games to win the match and make it into his 7th Wimbledon Finals in a row. Anywho, I should watch it now. I will post who wins so I'm hoping that it finishes soon.


Currently (12.04pm) Federer 40-30 [2 sets up, 4-3 games]
Ok, this stat is quickly changing. LOL



Federer won.
7-6, 7-5, 6-3

Happy Birthday Sunshine !
I'm currently making her cake.

Vote Me for SRC

LMAO, it would be nice if you did.
(:

As each day passes by, I can see myself returning to that person I once was. I'm just possessive because I need to be, I remember this guy who was asking me if he was possessive. Well he's not and neither am I but I'm taking it to the next level now.

Once again:

VOTE JASMINE SEALTIEL for SRC !

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I'm happy.

VERY MUCH !