Finally, all those weeks and months that I've waited to get what I want and now that I have it, I don't want it. It's just made things worse for me. I thought this was going to change everything. And you know what it has. The change that I didn't want. It's not fair. Why can't I be happy and have what I want at the same time. Today I saw a replay of that one day I was in the toilet because of my maths half yearly mark. I couldn't control myself and I just felt so alone and stuck. I didn't want to be there but where was I meant to go. Ever since, I don't know when ever since but I don't want to go into the state of unhappiness. I really don't.
Wednesday. Arrived at school; late because of an overturned truck. Geography was somewhat boring but I managed to maintain interested as the lesson dragged on. At recess I, what's it called. Oh yeah, I had a breakdown and so for a few minutes I disappeared into the nothingness. That's when I saw Ivy & Fiona and Ivy herself was worried she looked like a retard in front of thingo. HAHA. For second period we had that meeting again for the subjects and I was just cold and wore two jumpers. At lunch was just talking to Anavi then telling her everything that I had asked, finally. LOL. Then sport. Basically it was just people getting hurt or hit by the ball every minute (literally) and me laughing at them nonstop. And the wonderful thing was I scored a goal. Too bad it was an own goal. But I nearly got this other goal right and no one was at the goals and I was like a metre away and guess what; I missed :) So sport was really good and funny. After school, plaza and got mama a present for her birthday and yeah. I have to make a cake I just remembered. Day was...a rollercoaster. That's when I realised why I was so moody. It was that time of month again.
B-bye.
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