Dazed

I think I'm insane. Some people are just out of my league. And some people are just not in the same country as you. Both these two things both have its ups and downs but I won't go either of those today. I just wanted to say this, while I'm still happy. Life is too short to hold back on things, so live your life.



After completing my english presentation just now it feels so good. That's one less thing off my chest and I can relax a bit more. Being at school today reminded me of all those times where I was loved by everyone. I was continually greeted by my friends and how much I was missed. I mean I expected it from a few people but not everyone. Gosh, it feels so good actually. That feeling of being loved. sighhh....



Disco tomorrow and Sumeet you know what that means.



Another thing which shocked me was the fact that I had only posted on blog entry today which compared to my other days is less than usual. Oh my gosh right?

LLOL

This is officially my last week of swimming in the Development Squad and I’m off to move up to Fitness Club. I’m kind of hoping that there even older people there because I’m sick of being with so many kids in my group. I don’t mind being the slowest but it’s just the fact that little children are beating me and I’m three times their sizes.

I feel like baking another cake but I don’t have any cake mix to use and I don’t want to make it from scratch cause then I’m going to be worried that it may not turn out and taste good.

It’s Jasmine’s Birthday in four days and like I don’t like her very much seriously. She has hair and teeth and eyes, LIKE far out. HAHAHA, I’m kidding. I think that kinda got obvious anyway.

I just had a nap because I was clearly tired and now my hair is messy.
I’m going to go now.

with sister.

I wonder everyday, when and how. But I know I'll never have the courage to. I just wished that I could push everyone away and I'd have no feeling of hurt and pain...

Why can't you leave me alone
and let me live my life
without the pain that
you are bringing upon me.

Today I didn't feel as lively as I was yesterday. Not that I was lively yesterday, but at least I could show SOME enthusiasm. To summarise up today:

Roll call was quick, probably because it was Wednesday.

First period was maths and it was quite random because half way through the lesson the teacher talks about his son but the whole point of the story was about his daughter-in-law and how she's a real good musician (btw look her up on youtube: Jess Chalker) and that she's performing with all these famous people.

Recess, bought another friggin muffin. Fudge imma get so fat again :( But i just can't help it. And the worst thing is no one will admit it to me that I am in fact really fat. Stupid, gay people.

Secons period was commerce and it was so boring. I would have fallen asleep but I really wasn't in the mood to get in trouble at that moment. And we have homework. Shoot.

During lunch I played basketball with Jasmine, Devesh, Pavan, Siddarth and this year 9 guy who left when we were about to start the game. It was pretty fun I fail, cause I suck. Didn't even get one shot in which is shameful for me because my dad is good and all that and i'm just this failure kid. Laugh Out Loud !

Sport yey, it was really fun. Well for like the first couple of minutes or saw. Then the excitement just died and I gave up. Couldn't even pretend to laugh from the gayness of it and the lack of effort people had put and my sleepyness. At least being the captain of the team, I was a major fail. I still managed to get some shots in, which i pretty much thought was a fluke because thos shots I didn't expect to get in. Yada, yada. Sport finished. I really wanted to go home, OH and HIMMAT, he slapped me! Well i did ask for it. HAHA. Me is loser.

After school had to go officeworks, was with sister. It wasn't that bad. Had a small fight then resolved it by buying Subway cookies. Then on the train Himmat, Shirine etc. was there so it wasn't that bad.

Arrived home. Decided ooh, I want to dye my hair again. So I did. Man this better be more obvious than the other one. It cost me $10.95 man. And I just got money from dad.

I fail. Cause I'm a failure. No doubt about that.

later lovelies,..