with sister.

I wonder everyday, when and how. But I know I'll never have the courage to. I just wished that I could push everyone away and I'd have no feeling of hurt and pain...

Why can't you leave me alone
and let me live my life
without the pain that
you are bringing upon me.

Today I didn't feel as lively as I was yesterday. Not that I was lively yesterday, but at least I could show SOME enthusiasm. To summarise up today:

Roll call was quick, probably because it was Wednesday.

First period was maths and it was quite random because half way through the lesson the teacher talks about his son but the whole point of the story was about his daughter-in-law and how she's a real good musician (btw look her up on youtube: Jess Chalker) and that she's performing with all these famous people.

Recess, bought another friggin muffin. Fudge imma get so fat again :( But i just can't help it. And the worst thing is no one will admit it to me that I am in fact really fat. Stupid, gay people.

Secons period was commerce and it was so boring. I would have fallen asleep but I really wasn't in the mood to get in trouble at that moment. And we have homework. Shoot.

During lunch I played basketball with Jasmine, Devesh, Pavan, Siddarth and this year 9 guy who left when we were about to start the game. It was pretty fun I fail, cause I suck. Didn't even get one shot in which is shameful for me because my dad is good and all that and i'm just this failure kid. Laugh Out Loud !

Sport yey, it was really fun. Well for like the first couple of minutes or saw. Then the excitement just died and I gave up. Couldn't even pretend to laugh from the gayness of it and the lack of effort people had put and my sleepyness. At least being the captain of the team, I was a major fail. I still managed to get some shots in, which i pretty much thought was a fluke because thos shots I didn't expect to get in. Yada, yada. Sport finished. I really wanted to go home, OH and HIMMAT, he slapped me! Well i did ask for it. HAHA. Me is loser.

After school had to go officeworks, was with sister. It wasn't that bad. Had a small fight then resolved it by buying Subway cookies. Then on the train Himmat, Shirine etc. was there so it wasn't that bad.

Arrived home. Decided ooh, I want to dye my hair again. So I did. Man this better be more obvious than the other one. It cost me $10.95 man. And I just got money from dad.

I fail. Cause I'm a failure. No doubt about that.

later lovelies,..