basically today's blog will be about me and the positive things. The main reason I'm doing this is because I've been told of for being negative about myself and not caring about myself when hello, I do. But they meant mentally, so like, yeah.
firstly, i'm so good. The fact that I can keep this blog up specially when I'm a very busy person and have so much homework and assignments and commitments that i must do. So, i'm just saying that, I'm good at this blogging thing and maintaining it. (is that how you spell it?)
next, today at school, felt down that usual. Maybe because of the clouds and how it always brings my mood down. Luckily, not many people notice except for some, which at time, I can lie my way through things that they do end up beieving me. Commerce was great, except for the dead mood which everyone seemed to have. Or did my aura happen to affect everyone else and also the fact that I was distant and away from where I usually sit did affect me in a way. I can't continue about this anymore. Recess was gay, long and lasted a while. Just listened to music. That was basically what I did the whole day. At least in English I got one of my class homework back and we had to write a short story and we had to use clothing with the description and it was such a relief that I had achieved a higher mark than my previous work. That helped me with my mood but I guess nothing could really change it. (Well I know what would have, but that would just be pushin my luck). Afterwards was Maths and Julina wasn't here today so I found myself sitting next to Ivy, I think I missed Ivy. What happened between us last year wasn't a major thing but it did kinda separate us. But now I'm happy that we're friends again.
Lunch time we thought we had to go to that study group thing and then we asked the teacher what we were meant to do and then she told us that it was meant for mentors only and then me and Ivy left and ran and giggled. Haha. We were both like; Like we could be mentors, we'll probably just confuse ourselves. Good times. Sitting in that semi-hobo seats reminded me of the old times, when everyone was happy. But I managed to listen to music again while sitting with them (and i think I'm going deaf from the loudness of the volume). And I wasn't emo, just distant from evryone.
Last period, science and i thought I was going to sleep. I could feel my eyelides just slowly closing but I told it to keep awake. Therefore science was boring and nothing could be done about it.
At the bus stop, Katrina told me news which had relieved me but I kinda knew already but yeah, thing doesnt like me. And I was glad. But Katrina just gave me a look which I thought she was worried about me, because for once it was someone good and I was like totally not agreeing with her. She also said: Can't you see the big picture?. And my reply of course, no one would get except for Jasmine? and maybe Devesh? Don't worry, I have an even bigger picture in my mind. Laugh Out Loud!
Came home; i was early so i ate ice cream. Mum was like no you can't open the mango ice cream so i had to eat the vanilla ice cream. Then later Sunshine comes and she opens the mango ice cream and I was just like :O. But whatever I had some afterwards. Later, i went for a jog or run, it was ok. I wanted to run. As i have been lately. But I don't know I got a stitch, cramp, something that hurted in my stomach and I was in pain. It was hurting. Couldn't reall complain though, firstly because there was no one to complain to and secondly I don't like complaining. it makes me look weak. I don't like being weak. The worst part was my time was slower than my previous run by 14 seconds which is shameful but I have to be positive so maybe it was just because I've been tired lately. And i can improve a lot more and I just have to be patient. OMG i suck at this being nice to myself thing. But yeah.
Now just sittin here taking alyssas go on the comp. I'm so evil.
Question: How would you approach and tell the person you like that you like them and can't stop thinking about them and it's affecting you very much etc.?
please help me with this question because I'm going insane.,
laters.
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