I want to be able to give myself a fresh start which includes removing this. I guess Blogger is the only safe place I can put it where I know in the future I'll be able to look back at all the things which has happened in the past. I sound like a massive tool but like anyone cares.
Showing posts with label a lot of stuff. Show all posts
Showing posts with label a lot of stuff. Show all posts
Monday, November 21, 2011
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Boys Over Flowers
More like boys over me, or boys on top of me, LOL. Actually it's just a Korean drama that I started watching again after already watching it a few months ago. But it's pretty cool.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Five Letter Word
TRIALS, It's actually SEX letters but five sounds like a better number, actually seventeen is but that'd just make me look like an idiot. Anyways, my TRIALS or finals or yearly exams is in less than two days. It has gotten to me. Of course it has. And what am I doing? Blogging of course. It's just that time of the night where I cannot function or concentrate on what I'm doing. I'm a night person. Night person to partey and have fun. Aha, rarely happens, don't laugh. So I'll probably get over this phase, hopefully soon because I want to study bad. And tomorrow I will also study. Maybe at the library, if I can be bothered waking up early that is. If not, hello yet another unproductive day. Although I'm pretty sure it will be, because I'll be working my ass off for English to make my most favourite English teacher happy :) Yes I've decided that she is indeed the best English teacher I've had. Like no offence to my other teachers, but she's actually made me work my ass off. I don't think I've ever done as much work nor this much improvement in English. I'm quite amazed.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
eight months yo
hey baby, wanna get jiggy?
It's our 8 months of good times and bad times. And what a day. Hahaha, I love you. I hope we are together for a long, long time cause you know it takes a long, long time to satisfy me...If you know what I mean.
And sorry about yesterday's post baby. That was harsh but I'm glad today is our day and we're both happy. I know you're happy ;)
It's our 8 months of good times and bad times. And what a day. Hahaha, I love you. I hope we are together for a long, long time cause you know it takes a long, long time to satisfy me...If you know what I mean.
And sorry about yesterday's post baby. That was harsh but I'm glad today is our day and we're both happy. I know you're happy ;)
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Adore
I absolutely adore my boyfriend and not just because he's extremely good looking but because he's a good person. He brings smiles to people's faces and he's there for people. He's caring, he's lovely, he's also quite tall and must not forget the hair on this boy. Overall he's amazing. I feel lucky to have him not only as my one and only boyriend but also a best friend. I think without him, I would be a mess, an out of control mess with no limits (see how I incorporated maths, hehe) and he's the barrier preventing me from continuing with the mess.
He makes me feel special and I love saying that he's mine, because I know, well he said, that he's mine and only mine, frankly because I absolutely hate sharing especially this guy. I feel bad when I do things that I may or may not be aware that he doesn't particularly like because I know that this upsets him. That and because it reminds me of Jess's and Daniel's relo, haha. We are nowhere near like that. I also think that where we are right now, ON TOP OF ALL THE BULLSHIT that has happened is a good place and I'm really glad that we're still as strong as we are right now otherwise I would be really sad if we weren't. I would do anything for him and I have and I hope that he has noticed that and I just want to make him the happiest boy in the world. Boy/tranny/girl whatever you wanna call it.
I stalk him. A lot. I like to know what he's doing and where he's at. Maybe because I'm insecure but knowing these things just calms me and in a way does make me happy. I'm finally a girl with a guy who she can rely on and think about and worry about and just have. Yes, have, own, mine, because I bought him. I bought him with all my love (and maybe tits).
He knows how to make me cry and he knows how to make me feel better. He's very mean sometimes, other times I worry that he's turning into a chick. I don't think I've met a guy as lovely as him and I feel really really really REALLY lucky. I don't ever want to let him go at the same time I don't want to prevent him from his potentials because it's so obvious that he can do better (like a blow up doll).
To summarise, he's mine and please don't ever, anyone, take him away from me, because if anyone did, I would be in absolut sadness.
i hate it when you choose poker over me.
it kinda feels like that's more important to you than I am, and it's annoying how you say when you say you want to spend more time together.
He makes me feel special and I love saying that he's mine, because I know, well he said, that he's mine and only mine, frankly because I absolutely hate sharing especially this guy. I feel bad when I do things that I may or may not be aware that he doesn't particularly like because I know that this upsets him. That and because it reminds me of Jess's and Daniel's relo, haha. We are nowhere near like that. I also think that where we are right now, ON TOP OF ALL THE BULLSHIT that has happened is a good place and I'm really glad that we're still as strong as we are right now otherwise I would be really sad if we weren't. I would do anything for him and I have and I hope that he has noticed that and I just want to make him the happiest boy in the world. Boy/tranny/girl whatever you wanna call it.
I stalk him. A lot. I like to know what he's doing and where he's at. Maybe because I'm insecure but knowing these things just calms me and in a way does make me happy. I'm finally a girl with a guy who she can rely on and think about and worry about and just have. Yes, have, own, mine, because I bought him. I bought him with all my love (and maybe tits).
He knows how to make me cry and he knows how to make me feel better. He's very mean sometimes, other times I worry that he's turning into a chick. I don't think I've met a guy as lovely as him and I feel really really really REALLY lucky. I don't ever want to let him go at the same time I don't want to prevent him from his potentials because it's so obvious that he can do better (like a blow up doll).
To summarise, he's mine and please don't ever, anyone, take him away from me, because if anyone did, I would be in absolut sadness.
i hate it when you choose poker over me.
it kinda feels like that's more important to you than I am, and it's annoying how you say when you say you want to spend more time together.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Instead of English
I looked through my September 2009 Archive and found this: http://cuffsandheels.blogspot.com/2009/09/eyes-hurt.html
MY GOODNESS I LOOKED SO FAT AND UGLY THAN I AM NOW.
I haven't really improved much but still, I did not realise how fat I was. GAH
MY GOODNESS I LOOKED SO FAT AND UGLY THAN I AM NOW.
I haven't really improved much but still, I did not realise how fat I was. GAH
Sunday, May 22, 2011
surprise surprise
Firstly happy birthday doshi, the only reason I'm actually mentioning this is because I just turned 18 last week and this little boy only turned 16 today, I would say that this is hilarious but that would be a complete understatement.
On a completely different note I've been feeling really, not really pessimistic but more realistic. I've just been thinking a lot, not of English though cause it's not like I have an assessment in two days, but of just life, my life and my boyfriend's life and how much I could possibly ruin things even more than I already have. I've been thinking of getting alcohol, the small bottles, 1 to build my cool bottle collection 2 because I found some that apparently taste nice. The problem is I don't actually like alcohol very much and drinking it by myself would just be sad. I also don't have that much money, LIE, I do have money but there's so many people's birthdays coming up and I can just see myself going broke and I don't want that to happen so I shall save up.
I cried last night, yeah that's all with that.
I really want to get this essay written so at least I feel like I've accomplished something but it's just so boring and I constantly am thinking of Sumeet and I want to be with him right now and just cuddle with him and have him hold my hand. And we could be studying together, like that when he came over and my parents made us sit in the front lounge room, he'd sneak a kiss here and there. I thought that was really sweet. I feel like things have changed so much and I keep looking back at the memories, good and bad however the good outweighing the bad and I wish that I could be with him for the rest of my life, well the good stuff anyway but like I don't actually think about the future, it just scares me. Truthfully I don't actually think further than a month, like I don't imagine things or anything like that because I'm afraid of getting my hopes up or just having a different outcome from what I had expected. Anyways no more from my very philosophical views and I shall do this english thing now because I wanna be off my face tomorrow night. LOL, jk my mum will have a go at me if she found out I was drinking EVEN though I am 18 now and could technically live on my own without them watching over me 24/7.
Yes, shuttup.
i love mysely.
laters bytchess.
On a completely different note I've been feeling really, not really pessimistic but more realistic. I've just been thinking a lot, not of English though cause it's not like I have an assessment in two days, but of just life, my life and my boyfriend's life and how much I could possibly ruin things even more than I already have. I've been thinking of getting alcohol, the small bottles, 1 to build my cool bottle collection 2 because I found some that apparently taste nice. The problem is I don't actually like alcohol very much and drinking it by myself would just be sad. I also don't have that much money, LIE, I do have money but there's so many people's birthdays coming up and I can just see myself going broke and I don't want that to happen so I shall save up.
I cried last night, yeah that's all with that.
I really want to get this essay written so at least I feel like I've accomplished something but it's just so boring and I constantly am thinking of Sumeet and I want to be with him right now and just cuddle with him and have him hold my hand. And we could be studying together, like that when he came over and my parents made us sit in the front lounge room, he'd sneak a kiss here and there. I thought that was really sweet. I feel like things have changed so much and I keep looking back at the memories, good and bad however the good outweighing the bad and I wish that I could be with him for the rest of my life, well the good stuff anyway but like I don't actually think about the future, it just scares me. Truthfully I don't actually think further than a month, like I don't imagine things or anything like that because I'm afraid of getting my hopes up or just having a different outcome from what I had expected. Anyways no more from my very philosophical views and I shall do this english thing now because I wanna be off my face tomorrow night. LOL, jk my mum will have a go at me if she found out I was drinking EVEN though I am 18 now and could technically live on my own without them watching over me 24/7.
Yes, shuttup.
i love mysely.
laters bytchess.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Oh Oh
Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
I think that line is absolutely nice. Also today I think I have alot more to say, which is a change because lately I haven't had the need to write and express myself and such. I know why and the cause of this whatever whatever but anyways no more rambling and get down to serious business.
While studying today, on my bed, Sunshine decided to annoy the cat and so it went into my room and sleep on my bed. It then started grooming itself and licking itself in places I do not want to mention. I did however start taking videos of it but I can't be bothered uploading it and sharing it with the world. But I just found it funny. Actually the cat did the same thing yesterday. It was on my bed and it licked itself everywhere and so I video-ed it and then last night I showed it to Alyssa who laughed with me. So see it actually is funny. But that wasn't a very serious topic thingy.
I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what's your name?
I wish I could answer that and say Jasmine, but firstly I ain't pretty and I can hear someone going against that but shuttup bitch, I don't care what you say. Remember idgaf, but YOU'D GAF. You better get that because if you don't...I'll explain later :)
I think I got used to being with you all the time now that you're not here, damnnnnn, I feel so empty. Please fill me up again ;) Oh that reminds me...
LOL, I found that so funny. Now everytime I see my bin, I laugh. Because it's just so funny. I wonder if that really happens. Yeah, I really found the most random things amusing. I don't know why. Oh another thing I remembered. The other night when Kat was here, we got up to mischief and drank pure cordial and after like 4-5 shots of it I started feeling a little weezy and it sure felt like I was getting a tad bit tipsy. I was even on cam laughing uncontrollably even though there was nothing. Anyways that night, omgosh, so horrible. Woke up with the shittest feeling ever, and my throat hurted and so on and so on. This is only here for future references. Next time that happens, it won't be with Kat but with you baby, and I'm pretty sure you'd be using it to your own advantage, if you know what I mean. HAHHAHAHHAH.
On a totally different note. What the freaking fuck is wrong with you? Like seriously. Get over it. Please. I know it's non of my business but when people dwell on such things that KINDA involves me it's annoying. Firstly I like to avoid such things but when you do that making people guilty and such, that's just a big NO-NO! Haha, but seriously. I thought I told you already, I don't care, so just I'm asking you one more time. Leave it. Oh boy, karma's gonna get me back for that. Yeah, dude, that really makes me feel good man. Uhm, and is it that hard to appreciate what you do have and just be happy with it? Seriously, I doubt you have the worst life on Earth and like yours may not also be the best, but don't you think you need to start seeing things on a brighter side or whatever the saying is.
No more of that mean stuff. My holidays have been really uneventful except when Kat came and the fact that I kinda got my boyfriend back. I should be a bitch and CRY everytime I don't talk to him. Or don't get an email.
FROM NOW ON, If sumeet does not email me or msn me or communicate with me, I SHALLL CRY.
HAHAHHAHHAHAHA, that's blackmail, but I love it. Hahah, nah, babe, don't worry. I'm kidding. I understand. And look at that, see how special you are. You got a special mention on here.
ਇ ਲੋਵੇ ਯੋਊ
Yes, I know how to write in another language now. Cause I'm so talented and multi-lingual. If it's another language I know, It would have to be Korean, considering all I've really done during these holidays is watch Korean Drama, which is really sad, so don't judge.
That's all for now bychezzz.
xoxo.
♥
p.s. ਯੋਊ'ਰੇ ਫਟ.
I think that line is absolutely nice. Also today I think I have alot more to say, which is a change because lately I haven't had the need to write and express myself and such. I know why and the cause of this whatever whatever but anyways no more rambling and get down to serious business.
While studying today, on my bed, Sunshine decided to annoy the cat and so it went into my room and sleep on my bed. It then started grooming itself and licking itself in places I do not want to mention. I did however start taking videos of it but I can't be bothered uploading it and sharing it with the world. But I just found it funny. Actually the cat did the same thing yesterday. It was on my bed and it licked itself everywhere and so I video-ed it and then last night I showed it to Alyssa who laughed with me. So see it actually is funny. But that wasn't a very serious topic thingy.
I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what's your name?
I wish I could answer that and say Jasmine, but firstly I ain't pretty and I can hear someone going against that but shuttup bitch, I don't care what you say. Remember idgaf, but YOU'D GAF. You better get that because if you don't...I'll explain later :)
I think I got used to being with you all the time now that you're not here, damnnnnn, I feel so empty. Please fill me up again ;) Oh that reminds me...
The first time we had sex, HE broke the bin.
LOL, I found that so funny. Now everytime I see my bin, I laugh. Because it's just so funny. I wonder if that really happens. Yeah, I really found the most random things amusing. I don't know why. Oh another thing I remembered. The other night when Kat was here, we got up to mischief and drank pure cordial and after like 4-5 shots of it I started feeling a little weezy and it sure felt like I was getting a tad bit tipsy. I was even on cam laughing uncontrollably even though there was nothing. Anyways that night, omgosh, so horrible. Woke up with the shittest feeling ever, and my throat hurted and so on and so on. This is only here for future references. Next time that happens, it won't be with Kat but with you baby, and I'm pretty sure you'd be using it to your own advantage, if you know what I mean. HAHHAHAHHAH.
On a totally different note. What the freaking fuck is wrong with you? Like seriously. Get over it. Please. I know it's non of my business but when people dwell on such things that KINDA involves me it's annoying. Firstly I like to avoid such things but when you do that making people guilty and such, that's just a big NO-NO! Haha, but seriously. I thought I told you already, I don't care, so just I'm asking you one more time. Leave it. Oh boy, karma's gonna get me back for that. Yeah, dude, that really makes me feel good man. Uhm, and is it that hard to appreciate what you do have and just be happy with it? Seriously, I doubt you have the worst life on Earth and like yours may not also be the best, but don't you think you need to start seeing things on a brighter side or whatever the saying is.
No more of that mean stuff. My holidays have been really uneventful except when Kat came and the fact that I kinda got my boyfriend back. I should be a bitch and CRY everytime I don't talk to him. Or don't get an email.
FROM NOW ON, If sumeet does not email me or msn me or communicate with me, I SHALLL CRY.
HAHAHHAHHAHAHA, that's blackmail, but I love it. Hahah, nah, babe, don't worry. I'm kidding. I understand. And look at that, see how special you are. You got a special mention on here.
ਇ ਲੋਵੇ ਯੋਊ
Yes, I know how to write in another language now. Cause I'm so talented and multi-lingual. If it's another language I know, It would have to be Korean, considering all I've really done during these holidays is watch Korean Drama, which is really sad, so don't judge.
That's all for now bychezzz.
xoxo.
♥
p.s. ਯੋਊ'ਰੇ ਫਟ.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Alone
I'm so exhausted. I know why. It's because I stayed up late last night talking to the one person who I manage to be able to say anything to and relates to it and jokes about it and is just so nice to talk to. That and because of my new and surprising daily routine, and because of this he now owes me, BIG TIME.
Yes, I know I should be studying for my Engineering exam. I don't feel confident nor do I think that I know what I will do tomorrow but I do know that if I just think everything carefully through I can get it done and manage to pass like the 3928487562034 tests that we've done in the past. Plus writing in my blog always seems to help me refocus when I return to studying. And I like to get distracted, it happens quite often but at least it's better than constantly straining my brain on something that I don't even understand. Man, I love this subject. I knew it was the right thing to do to keep it. Am I weird that way, liking a subject which I don't do well in but still enjoy it. Whatever.
So news update. I'm home alone again. This is becoming a reccuring event which I don't particularly like. I've had so many opportunities to have people over yet no one will come over. PEOPLE, I BITE, but it doesn't necessarily mean that it'll hurt. And now because I felt like it, I got myself acup of wine, like 10mL of wine diluted in a litre of apple and blackcurrant juice and it's still so disgusting. How am I gonna be able to drink when I'm older D: which is fast approaching. I feel like puking. Am I stupid or what.
Apart from distraction, the whole point of this blog entry is to just rave on about people's poor sense of uniqueness or their timing. There's quite a lot of people who do it and I must admit I myself am a culprit of this. But like sometimes in this world people copy each other and maybe because it's a good thing but other times it's just our desire and what not, people where is your SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY, we were made to be different yet some of us just choose to copy others. What is wrong with you. I've separated myself from others to not fall in the trap of conforming to society and allowing myself to explore the world and surroundings by doing things how I want to and whenever I want to. Now if you think about it, it is kinda selfish but it's allowing you to take advantage of the life you were giving. Live your life for goodness sakes.
I apologize for overreacting, I think it was just from a post I read and from a picture I saw. People these days, well some you kinda just expect better. But I've learned to accept the fact that I AM nearly 18 and that I should grow up and be mature and not worry about little things like that. There are bigger problems in today's society and I shouldn't let insignificant people hold me back from doing what I want to do.
I am also listening to: Today my Life Begins by Bruno Mars because titface told me to listen to it. It is soothing and sweet actually. It's my kinda of song.
I guess this can be my motivation. Once these exams are over I'm gonna start over and let my life begin to a better and good one. One where I have him in it and one where I'm happy and carefree.
I'm weird. My posts are weird. What the freak is wrong with me. I guess I'm just lovesick. I'm also aging. I'm starting to see wrinkles and uneven skin tone and the 7 signs of aging. I think I should go buy Olay now. I can't have this happening to me, I need to be vibrant and lovely and edible, most of which I'm not. I'm so superficial that I care so much about my looks and wanna cry about it now. If that was true I'd probably crying right now but it's now. But I am aging. I've just realised how freaking close my birthday is. It's in less than 60 days. LESS THAN 60 DAYS, wait. I shall count how long away it is. 54 DAYS AWAY, you know how unsoon that is. But i've been waiting 17 years and 311 days for this day and it's fast approaching. After this, I'm gonna be an ADULT, a real life ADULT. I just don't see it happening. Yeah if I had a car I wouldnt be complaining about it this much.
laters bychezzzz
Yes, I know I should be studying for my Engineering exam. I don't feel confident nor do I think that I know what I will do tomorrow but I do know that if I just think everything carefully through I can get it done and manage to pass like the 3928487562034 tests that we've done in the past. Plus writing in my blog always seems to help me refocus when I return to studying. And I like to get distracted, it happens quite often but at least it's better than constantly straining my brain on something that I don't even understand. Man, I love this subject. I knew it was the right thing to do to keep it. Am I weird that way, liking a subject which I don't do well in but still enjoy it. Whatever.
So news update. I'm home alone again. This is becoming a reccuring event which I don't particularly like. I've had so many opportunities to have people over yet no one will come over. PEOPLE, I BITE, but it doesn't necessarily mean that it'll hurt. And now because I felt like it, I got myself a
Apart from distraction, the whole point of this blog entry is to just rave on about people's poor sense of uniqueness or their timing. There's quite a lot of people who do it and I must admit I myself am a culprit of this. But like sometimes in this world people copy each other and maybe because it's a good thing but other times it's just our desire and what not, people where is your SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY, we were made to be different yet some of us just choose to copy others. What is wrong with you. I've separated myself from others to not fall in the trap of conforming to society and allowing myself to explore the world and surroundings by doing things how I want to and whenever I want to. Now if you think about it, it is kinda selfish but it's allowing you to take advantage of the life you were giving. Live your life for goodness sakes.
I apologize for overreacting, I think it was just from a post I read and from a picture I saw. People these days, well some you kinda just expect better. But I've learned to accept the fact that I AM nearly 18 and that I should grow up and be mature and not worry about little things like that. There are bigger problems in today's society and I shouldn't let insignificant people hold me back from doing what I want to do.
I am also listening to: Today my Life Begins by Bruno Mars because titface told me to listen to it. It is soothing and sweet actually. It's my kinda of song.
I guess this can be my motivation. Once these exams are over I'm gonna start over and let my life begin to a better and good one. One where I have him in it and one where I'm happy and carefree.
I'm weird. My posts are weird. What the freak is wrong with me. I guess I'm just lovesick. I'm also aging. I'm starting to see wrinkles and uneven skin tone and the 7 signs of aging. I think I should go buy Olay now. I can't have this happening to me, I need to be vibrant and lovely and edible, most of which I'm not. I'm so superficial that I care so much about my looks and wanna cry about it now. If that was true I'd probably crying right now but it's now. But I am aging. I've just realised how freaking close my birthday is. It's in less than 60 days. LESS THAN 60 DAYS, wait. I shall count how long away it is. 54 DAYS AWAY, you know how unsoon that is. But i've been waiting 17 years and 311 days for this day and it's fast approaching. After this, I'm gonna be an ADULT, a real life ADULT. I just don't see it happening. Yeah if I had a car I wouldnt be complaining about it this much.
laters bychezzzz
Monday, March 21, 2011
Chou Yo Hana Yo
A BIG HELLO TO THE PEOPLE WHO WASTE THEIR TIME READING MY NONSENSE
Today was, well, how shall I put it. It was freakin' great. Yes, I know there was a Chemistry exam but you see as important as it may be, I like to see things on the positive side and will it benefit me. Okay, so now I'm just stupid because it obviously doesn't benefit me and now I don't even know what I'm going on about. But the main reason today was good because I pretty much kept my boyfriend to myself and made sure I shared him with absolutely no one else. As harsh as that may sound, I've hardly seen him in the past week nor have I had a proper conversation with him. It's not like I forced him to stay with me. He wanted to be with me too, I guess, I HOPE. Laugh out loudspeaker. Anyways yeah, HE SHOULD HAVE COME OVER THOUGH since I'm home alone right now and I have absolutely nothing else to do except you know study for my upcoming Engineering Exam which my whole class always manage to fail. And you know what I've noticed. I've never actually failed an Engineering exam before. All my marks have been 50%+ which I guess is an Outstanding effort because I said so.
I guess there's nothing else to really talk about. I mean apart from the fact that I have managed to make my life seem like hell to myself, everything has been good. Oh, except I've just realised I won't get to see my boyfriend again for another week which REALLY does saddens me because I don't think anyone (apart from him) gets how much I love him and how much he means to me and just how much he makes me feel special. It really does make me feel selfish and that's why I've stuck to just him because I'm happy with just him, I don't need to be anymore selfish and pushing myself onto others. I'm really happy. That and because he makes me happy in all kinds of ways. I'm glad I can make myself smile, I know this is kinda off topic but I've noticed that whenever I'm down or someone else is down and I'm just talking casually to them, I suddenly bring up some lame or dirty joke and it kinda just relaxes the moment. I'm glad I'm actually amazing that way because most of the time, I really don't care about others. Not because I don't care but because I don't like sticking my nose in other people's problems. If I was needed I'd know or I'd be asked otherwise, I'll stay out of what's NOT MY BUSINESS.
So today's been good. I've also pretty much freed myself. From the things that have been dragging me down and I just wanted to be that carefree me again, the one who, well didn't care about what anything or anyone does. Just the me that's absolutely happy with the boy she loves and the people whom she care about the most. Gosh, I'm in a good mood, and I haven't even got sexed up yet. Laugh out loudspeaker.
Sorry for writing so much, didn't think I had it in me. And I was reading through my old posts right and I noticed that my writing was actually okay. Not the grammar but the way I presented it. It was interesting and it made me want to read what I wrote but yeah, I guess I'm just egotistic like that. I think I'm gonna read through it a bit more. It'd feel nostalgic going back in time though, oh well. Sometimes the past is good because it leads to where you are now.
No more writing. Save you the trouble of reading anymore.
laters bychezzzz xoxo.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
When I say SCREW, I mean YOU
That title was mean to copy my lovely friend's one just to iritate her more but I don't think I got the right words and I'm just too lazy to check it now. oh baby I Love You.
Once again the weekend is over and start of another school week. And as I was lying down during my boredomness times and I thought to myself the first two days of school were horrid, imagine the next 5. DAYUM. So yes, I'm not really looking forward to this, thing that we call school because I know what I'd rather be doing and who with. AHHAHHAHAH. That's a joke. Not. Or maybe it is.
Ah get over yourself.
Me llamo...hahhaah
me llamo jasmine :D
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Jasmine
That's my name.
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Throughout these holidays I can't really say I've been very productive especially that they're my last months of freedom before I have to maintain my focus on my studies. Nor can I say that they were the best and that I've had the most fun. Sad to say that I haven't been happy throughout it except during some moments with very special people but I can truly say that I am thankful for these holidays and what it has brought to me.
You know how sometimes people wonder, What goes on in her head? Well I can tell you it's not a lot. Ever since you came along my life seems so dull unless you're in it. And I can't believe you listen to what I say. Most of the time anyway. Plus after what I did to you, it just doesnt seem fair on you but I'm glad that I still have you. You take my breath away, in many more ways that one. haha But seriously I don't think you understand how much I want you. And if you did well you'd be happy? I suppose. haha Whatever, mahal kita and you can't do anything about it. Laugh out loud.
I want to run away-
I think that's the solution to everyone's problems. I wouldn't disappoint anyone and I cant eff anyone or anything up. Plus a lot of people would be much happier. I could run away to another country, if you know what I mean. Maybe watch the Winter Olympic Games haha. Too bad it's on the other side of the tower that I wanna see. Again if you know what I mean. Fudge what is wrong with me. My humour standards have sunk to an All Time Low. Oh my effing gosh. That was just dry.
Goodbye my friends.
My enemy has come to get me. School we meet once again. Whatever you have for me this upcoming year just bring it because I'm ready for you and whatever you plan to use against me to take me down.
Adios y te amo.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
level 100000000
shucks I never knew that it'd be this hard. I knew that it'd be a bit hard but because I'm on vacation it's like yeah it'll be all good but it doesn't work when only one half is trying or am I just trying too hard. or maybe I'm just wanting too much expecting more. I feel so stupid now and SAD as in the loser sad and not the emotion sad. like if you think about it it's like really? seriously? WTF?! that's like not right, not one bit. I am way over my head and need to take things slowly but I just can't help it. i wasn't forced into anything I was asked and things were checked but I really don't know. why am I so impulsive like this was never the plan yet somehow this happened and well now I really am not sure. the thing is this is what happened last time and maybe I should just not think about it so much and well if I did that then hopefully it just might last longer do you get what I mean? it just doesn't seem right for something to be over when it's
barely just started so that's it I'm just gonna try not worry about it then maybe I won't be so like this.
apart from this I really have nothing in my head. it's like taken over me completely but it just makes me so happy and I really don't want to forget everything. hehe. I miss you already. I really truly do and well I just want to talk to you right now because nothing else seem to matter to me without you here and I kinda feel stupid saying that because I know that you can't be here but still. I just want you here with me, beside me, in your arms... bahahahhahahaha that's hilarious !
barely just started so that's it I'm just gonna try not worry about it then maybe I won't be so like this.
apart from this I really have nothing in my head. it's like taken over me completely but it just makes me so happy and I really don't want to forget everything. hehe. I miss you already. I really truly do and well I just want to talk to you right now because nothing else seem to matter to me without you here and I kinda feel stupid saying that because I know that you can't be here but still. I just want you here with me, beside me, in your arms... bahahahhahahaha that's hilarious !
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Baby
cant stop thinking about you....
this is what i hate about people. they be nice to you and shit and like tell you stuff and stuff and one day you get really close to em and all you think about is that person and spending time with her/him. and so im kinda annoyed at myself because i cant stop thinking about a few people in my life and i suppose its a good thing but its so distracting and i cant concentrate on anything.
but whatever. im just glad that those people do exist because theyre the reason i bother getting up in the morning and doing anything.
i lost a kg.
LOL
this is what i hate about people. they be nice to you and shit and like tell you stuff and stuff and one day you get really close to em and all you think about is that person and spending time with her/him. and so im kinda annoyed at myself because i cant stop thinking about a few people in my life and i suppose its a good thing but its so distracting and i cant concentrate on anything.
but whatever. im just glad that those people do exist because theyre the reason i bother getting up in the morning and doing anything.
i lost a kg.
LOL
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Christmas Eve
I am pretty sure that I probably will not be online later on today because of my busy schedule and will probably not be on the computer until after 25 hours or so. Which is why I thought blogging now would be a good idea. Anyways over the past few weeks a lot/little has happened and I say that because to everyone else it would seem like a little only but to me it has allowed me a lot of change and well view things a lot differently. Plus my attitude towards things has changed a lot and you probably wouldn't agree with my way of seeing things but what can you do, it's my life.
So today is Christmas Eve. I doubt today will be very busy even though I'd much rather spend it at home with the family cleaning and bumming around on the cold floor trying to cool myself off from the heat rather than spending it with my mother's extended family. Like no offence to them but they bore me. Plus the fact that they don't really care that I exist and only ever realise that I do exist when I've accomplished something greatly, which is pretty low seeing as they are my family. There are a few exceptions in this family, even though my mother would probably disagree with me but she can't control who I can and cannot like. So Christmas Party with the family will be a total waste of my time and I will be looking forward to the Midnight Mass where everyone is quiet and don't have time to ignore me because they have to listen to the mass. I feel so negative seeing things this way but this is how I feel. And being neglected by my own family kinda sucks. Like my family overseas I know how they are and I miss those Christmases with them. They were fun. And they wanted me to be there. And they enjoyed having me there. I guess I'm just asking for too much.
On the bright side, we will be going out to my mother's indian friend's party and well I get to eat indian food, I'm so excited because I really love that naan and I hope that they have Cheese and Garlic so like I will eat that but yeah. Something different from what we usually do. Day after, Christmas we will be going to other family friend's party which I'm quite sure will be a joy. See, those group of people, they treat as more of a family compared to our actual family and I'm thankful for that.
I know what I'm getting for Christmas. I'm kinda excited but not, because I've tried to control my excitedness so that I'm not like super excited for it and counting down they hours and minutes (even though I am anyway for the sake of it). Apart from that present though I suppose it doesn't really matter. I just want two other things that I hope I will get, those are happyness and a boyfriend. Ahahhahaha, happyness yeah, I really want that, and boyfriend...hmmmm, we'll see. I'm not really in the need for one, but whatever, a girl can dream right.
Other things on the agenda is the fact that I miss my buddies who all seem to be in India. Jas, Sukh and Kar, why did you all go there and leave me behind. You all could've brought a piece of me in your luggage and then I couldnt have come along. This way different parts of me will also see different parts of India, hahahaa. But man, I miss you guys so much. And by the way, out of all of you Jasmine is the best because she actually comes online when I'm online and doesn't go on the comp like 10-15 minutes after I've effing left. Goodness me people. I stay up late wating for you guys yet you go online even later. Whatever I still miss you all. I'm excited for the new year...
Which brings me to the next topic: New Year's Resolutions
1. Meet and SEE Karan.
2. Be fit.
3. Stop being so horny and dirty.
I think those are good enough. I'll add more later.
So that's all from me.
Merry Christmas everyone !
So today is Christmas Eve. I doubt today will be very busy even though I'd much rather spend it at home with the family cleaning and bumming around on the cold floor trying to cool myself off from the heat rather than spending it with my mother's extended family. Like no offence to them but they bore me. Plus the fact that they don't really care that I exist and only ever realise that I do exist when I've accomplished something greatly, which is pretty low seeing as they are my family. There are a few exceptions in this family, even though my mother would probably disagree with me but she can't control who I can and cannot like. So Christmas Party with the family will be a total waste of my time and I will be looking forward to the Midnight Mass where everyone is quiet and don't have time to ignore me because they have to listen to the mass. I feel so negative seeing things this way but this is how I feel. And being neglected by my own family kinda sucks. Like my family overseas I know how they are and I miss those Christmases with them. They were fun. And they wanted me to be there. And they enjoyed having me there. I guess I'm just asking for too much.
On the bright side, we will be going out to my mother's indian friend's party and well I get to eat indian food, I'm so excited because I really love that naan and I hope that they have Cheese and Garlic so like I will eat that but yeah. Something different from what we usually do. Day after, Christmas we will be going to other family friend's party which I'm quite sure will be a joy. See, those group of people, they treat as more of a family compared to our actual family and I'm thankful for that.
I know what I'm getting for Christmas. I'm kinda excited but not, because I've tried to control my excitedness so that I'm not like super excited for it and counting down they hours and minutes (even though I am anyway for the sake of it). Apart from that present though I suppose it doesn't really matter. I just want two other things that I hope I will get, those are happyness and a boyfriend. Ahahhahaha, happyness yeah, I really want that, and boyfriend...hmmmm, we'll see. I'm not really in the need for one, but whatever, a girl can dream right.
Other things on the agenda is the fact that I miss my buddies who all seem to be in India. Jas, Sukh and Kar, why did you all go there and leave me behind. You all could've brought a piece of me in your luggage and then I couldnt have come along. This way different parts of me will also see different parts of India, hahahaa. But man, I miss you guys so much. And by the way, out of all of you Jasmine is the best because she actually comes online when I'm online and doesn't go on the comp like 10-15 minutes after I've effing left. Goodness me people. I stay up late wating for you guys yet you go online even later. Whatever I still miss you all. I'm excited for the new year...
Which brings me to the next topic: New Year's Resolutions
1. Meet and SEE Karan.
2. Be fit.
3. Stop being so horny and dirty.
I think those are good enough. I'll add more later.
So that's all from me.
Merry Christmas everyone !
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Single-
Recently I've found myself to be more happy and light-hearted. I've seen the positive in life and can't help but just smile at all the little thing. Don't get me wrong, life isn't perfect, there are still those days where nothing is going your way or people go out of their ways to annoy you BUT overall it's been pretty great. The possible reasons this is the case could be:
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D
LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.
Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.
my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.
Another blog-
kid.
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D
LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.
Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.
my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.
Another blog-
kid.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Unfair.
The following two monologues are towards two different people. It is about a girl thinking about two people who she's unsure what they are to her. Basically it's just her talking to herself or in this case monologuing to herself. Enjoy. Uh, another thing, this is written in my language as in the way I speak because well that's how I speak and that's how I write and that's uh, how I make it interesting. Actually I don't think it's a monologue. Let's just call it a thingy. AHHAHA, a thingy.
Thingy #1
You don't spoil me. No matter how much you think you do, you truly and utterly don't. Although you are quite an awesome person. For once I can believe someone whom is new and different. Someone who lied about their age though. I still can't believe you'd do that just cause you thought you had the blood of an 18 year old pumping through your veins. But the things you do and say. It's very funny and I'm glad that well you Answered my question. Of course only you would know that but really I know your problem. And for the last time I'm not in love with you even though it may seem like it I'm just here as a friend just as you are towards me. I also know that you are in fact in love with her. I just don't see why you don't trust me that you can't tell me who she is or the fact that you complain to me about yourself and how you're opening up to me. It's ok. Really. Being able to open up to others is great because it allows you to release all those feelings which has been building up inside you. You don't want to explode from the overload of all the things which has causing you stress. Anyways off the topic (gosh, i do that in real life and my stories) back to the thingy (ahahha, thingy) oh my i have forgotten. Just stay awesome. And i believe in you. And I also believe that if you tried hard enough then maybe it could just happen. But what is my opinion. I'm just a kid.
Thingy #2
It took me a while you know. A really long time actually. Which is why I'm asking. Why now ? Why after all the things I had gone through would you do that to me. It actually is pretty hard. Especially for me. You know all the things I had to go through. Yet I'm glad that after all that we're still friends. Pretty good friends. Which is why, DAMN IT, why are you causing me trouble. The signals, the signs, the message, whatever it is that you are trying to tell me it's al wrong. And you're very awesome. Great. Although not many people can see you that way I do I'm glad that I do. Because really you are one of the nicest persons out there. Just stop being so unfair and please...let me move on with my life.
GAH. That's like fail. I need to try harder. Next time ?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
my, my, my
oh fudge apple.
everything is all wrong.
this means that EVERYTHING IS NOT RIGHT.
i didn't plan anything
except i had expected things to be different
you know where the princess gets her happy ending
i'm not going to say it again because this topic which i'm thinking of probably has a life of it's own because of its repetitiveness and that well and truly sucks you know. i dont like the idea of me thinking about it but everytime i do it kinda is the right answer although to myself i'm not making any sense. some people are right and some are just plain wrong. they are just selfish and sometimes can't see what a person is going through. maybe if people had tried to open their eyes and saw things the way i do, that way i get hurt and the way i see myself being totally something. this is such a complete waste of my time. but because i dont really have anything worth spending it on this is the most useful way to spend it. i don't even know why i bother sometimes.
towers you effing suck
i dont even know why i'm even doing this,
esp. when i know that i dont have to.
everything is all wrong.
this means that EVERYTHING IS NOT RIGHT.
i didn't plan anything
except i had expected things to be different
you know where the princess gets her happy ending
i'm not going to say it again because this topic which i'm thinking of probably has a life of it's own because of its repetitiveness and that well and truly sucks you know. i dont like the idea of me thinking about it but everytime i do it kinda is the right answer although to myself i'm not making any sense. some people are right and some are just plain wrong. they are just selfish and sometimes can't see what a person is going through. maybe if people had tried to open their eyes and saw things the way i do, that way i get hurt and the way i see myself being totally something. this is such a complete waste of my time. but because i dont really have anything worth spending it on this is the most useful way to spend it. i don't even know why i bother sometimes.
towers you effing suck
i dont even know why i'm even doing this,
esp. when i know that i dont have to.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
We All Want Something
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Firstly I found this picture a while ago. I was planning to put it up but I guess I never got around to it and I suppose now would be a good time. So yeah.
Next thing on the agenda it's
LARA's BIRTHDAY today.
along with Kuya Bon's
but neither of these birthdays did I have a chance to celebrate with them because of personal reasons. Happy Birthday to you both.
I feel good. I donated blood today. A total of 400mL. AHHAHA. I was really oh so very anxious but there was actually just a little pinch but apart from that all good. The thing is we get a free milkshake afterwards and I was really looking forward to it but like I went to the Refreshments room and got my milkshake. I sat down had a sip. The I closed my eyes next thing I know I had really bad leg cramps and I was lying on the ground and one of the ladies was picking me up. What happened in between I have no idea but obviously it wasn't good. I didn't get to have the rest of my milkshake and they made me lie down for a whole hour so they didn't let me go back to school. Apart from that the other guy was the one who saw me fall down and I probably looked like the biggest idiot. Damn. Who cares. I donated blood and I want to do it again. They ended up taking me home.
I thought this was a good time to just express my self but I'm starting to get a bit of a headache so I think I'll just take it easy. Nah I'll do it now, because I'm not sleepy yet.
People damn you all. You know how pissed off I get, and really easily too. Like I don't expect you to do what I want but sometimes can't you just see that I exist and I would like to be happy too you know. It's just not fair. And this is too all of you again stop acting like you know everything because seriously if you knew everything you wouldn't be at this school. So if you're going to tell me something because you think you know it or assume that I don't already know or just want to tell me but it has no sense whatsoever then think again because I extremely don't like it. I'm a hypocrite but at least I don't always do it. Many people do it and that's what pisses me off a lot. When it's done too much. Another thing, I believe that in a friendship there should be trust between the people within that relationship but like lately I haven't been seeing it and it's questioned my friendship with everyone and every single person in the whole entire world beccause something's not right. Maybe I woke up on the wrong side of the bed but then again there's only one way out of my bed. Maybe I fainted. And just lost sense of everything. Whatever it may be I know that something isn't right and it's bugging me so much. I just want to tell everyone off right now. Telling them what to do because lately no one seems to know what they're doing. I for one have an idea because I notice these things. I just wish everyone else does. sigH*
LASTLY: to all the couples out there. I think you know who you are. Well because it's pretty clear that to be a couple you have to have a partner of either the opposite OR the same sex of whom you share an attraction towards one another. I really truly do NOT like it when you make out in public. Not exactly that but when you're doing it right in front of me. If you want to shove your tongues down each other's throats in front of me you may as well have sex in front of me. I find it really disturbing maybe because I haven't matured yet but please have the consideration to just not make out in front of me. I do my best to avoid watching these things in movies and tv shows etc. but real life people still manage to do it in front of me. So again I'd greatly appreciate it if you didn't.
you stupid people you just dont get it do you. when everything is perfectly fine you ask me what's wrong with me yet when I'm not with it you seem to manage to ignore such problems and that's so stupid. like right now I feel weak. not physically but emotionally. maybe seeing that i can't handle things well compared to other has opened my eyes to who I really am and like i've kinda seen things differently but in a way the same as before. the little things are now more obvious to me and i don't know. seriously if you ask someone a question and they tell you an answer once is enough. maybe twice but no more because what do you expect the person to do. suddenly come to a change of mind because you won't stop hassling them. that's stupid. let people be. if that's what they want let them. you can't and shouldn't do that. it's their fucking life. gawd.
extremely moody although i don't have my periods yet...
i'm starting to feel faint yet again.
GOODBYE
Firstly I found this picture a while ago. I was planning to put it up but I guess I never got around to it and I suppose now would be a good time. So yeah.
Next thing on the agenda it's
LARA's BIRTHDAY today.
along with Kuya Bon's
but neither of these birthdays did I have a chance to celebrate with them because of personal reasons. Happy Birthday to you both.
I feel good. I donated blood today. A total of 400mL. AHHAHA. I was really oh so very anxious but there was actually just a little pinch but apart from that all good. The thing is we get a free milkshake afterwards and I was really looking forward to it but like I went to the Refreshments room and got my milkshake. I sat down had a sip. The I closed my eyes next thing I know I had really bad leg cramps and I was lying on the ground and one of the ladies was picking me up. What happened in between I have no idea but obviously it wasn't good. I didn't get to have the rest of my milkshake and they made me lie down for a whole hour so they didn't let me go back to school. Apart from that the other guy was the one who saw me fall down and I probably looked like the biggest idiot. Damn. Who cares. I donated blood and I want to do it again. They ended up taking me home.
I thought this was a good time to just express my self but I'm starting to get a bit of a headache so I think I'll just take it easy. Nah I'll do it now, because I'm not sleepy yet.
People damn you all. You know how pissed off I get, and really easily too. Like I don't expect you to do what I want but sometimes can't you just see that I exist and I would like to be happy too you know. It's just not fair. And this is too all of you again stop acting like you know everything because seriously if you knew everything you wouldn't be at this school. So if you're going to tell me something because you think you know it or assume that I don't already know or just want to tell me but it has no sense whatsoever then think again because I extremely don't like it. I'm a hypocrite but at least I don't always do it. Many people do it and that's what pisses me off a lot. When it's done too much. Another thing, I believe that in a friendship there should be trust between the people within that relationship but like lately I haven't been seeing it and it's questioned my friendship with everyone and every single person in the whole entire world beccause something's not right. Maybe I woke up on the wrong side of the bed but then again there's only one way out of my bed. Maybe I fainted. And just lost sense of everything. Whatever it may be I know that something isn't right and it's bugging me so much. I just want to tell everyone off right now. Telling them what to do because lately no one seems to know what they're doing. I for one have an idea because I notice these things. I just wish everyone else does. sigH*
LASTLY: to all the couples out there. I think you know who you are. Well because it's pretty clear that to be a couple you have to have a partner of either the opposite OR the same sex of whom you share an attraction towards one another. I really truly do NOT like it when you make out in public. Not exactly that but when you're doing it right in front of me. If you want to shove your tongues down each other's throats in front of me you may as well have sex in front of me. I find it really disturbing maybe because I haven't matured yet but please have the consideration to just not make out in front of me. I do my best to avoid watching these things in movies and tv shows etc. but real life people still manage to do it in front of me. So again I'd greatly appreciate it if you didn't.
you stupid people you just dont get it do you. when everything is perfectly fine you ask me what's wrong with me yet when I'm not with it you seem to manage to ignore such problems and that's so stupid. like right now I feel weak. not physically but emotionally. maybe seeing that i can't handle things well compared to other has opened my eyes to who I really am and like i've kinda seen things differently but in a way the same as before. the little things are now more obvious to me and i don't know. seriously if you ask someone a question and they tell you an answer once is enough. maybe twice but no more because what do you expect the person to do. suddenly come to a change of mind because you won't stop hassling them. that's stupid. let people be. if that's what they want let them. you can't and shouldn't do that. it's their fucking life. gawd.
extremely moody although i don't have my periods yet...
i'm starting to feel faint yet again.
GOODBYE
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Gosh
two things:
1. my dad's angry at me, I don't know why.
Maybe because I nearly crashed the car.
2. Note to ANY READERS, if there are any:
Sorry for the inconvenience but I'm going to take a break on blogging everyday. I'll still blog but there might not be a new blog there. I've decided to focus more on studying and not wasting time on my computer as other people do. It's you ! HAHA, i'm kidding.
ANYWHO, TAKECARE PEOPLEZ !
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