shucks I never knew that it'd be this hard. I knew that it'd be a bit hard but because I'm on vacation it's like yeah it'll be all good but it doesn't work when only one half is trying or am I just trying too hard. or maybe I'm just wanting too much expecting more. I feel so stupid now and SAD as in the loser sad and not the emotion sad. like if you think about it it's like really? seriously? WTF?! that's like not right, not one bit. I am way over my head and need to take things slowly but I just can't help it. i wasn't forced into anything I was asked and things were checked but I really don't know. why am I so impulsive like this was never the plan yet somehow this happened and well now I really am not sure. the thing is this is what happened last time and maybe I should just not think about it so much and well if I did that then hopefully it just might last longer do you get what I mean? it just doesn't seem right for something to be over when it's
barely just started so that's it I'm just gonna try not worry about it then maybe I won't be so like this.
apart from this I really have nothing in my head. it's like taken over me completely but it just makes me so happy and I really don't want to forget everything. hehe. I miss you already. I really truly do and well I just want to talk to you right now because nothing else seem to matter to me without you here and I kinda feel stupid saying that because I know that you can't be here but still. I just want you here with me, beside me, in your arms... bahahahhahahaha that's hilarious !
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