Chou Yo Hana Yo

A BIG HELLO TO THE PEOPLE WHO WASTE THEIR TIME READING MY NONSENSE

Today was, well, how shall I put it. It was freakin' great. Yes, I know there was a Chemistry exam but you see as important as it may be, I like to see things on the positive side and will it benefit me. Okay, so now I'm just stupid because it obviously doesn't benefit me and now I don't even know what I'm going on about. But the main reason today was good because I pretty much kept my boyfriend to myself and made sure I shared him with absolutely no one else. As harsh as that may sound, I've hardly seen him in the past week nor have I had a proper conversation with him. It's not like I forced him to stay with me. He wanted to be with me too, I guess, I HOPE. Laugh out loudspeaker. Anyways yeah, HE SHOULD HAVE COME OVER THOUGH since I'm home alone right now and I have absolutely nothing else to do except you know study for my upcoming Engineering Exam which my whole class always manage to fail. And you know what I've noticed. I've never actually failed an Engineering exam before. All my marks have been 50%+ which I guess is an Outstanding effort because I said so. 

I guess there's nothing else to really talk about. I mean apart from the fact that I have managed to make my life seem like hell to myself, everything has been good. Oh, except I've just realised I won't get to see my boyfriend again for another week which REALLY does saddens me because I don't think anyone (apart from him) gets how much I love him and how much he means to me and just how much he makes me feel special. It really does make me feel selfish and that's why I've stuck to just him because I'm happy with just him, I don't need to be anymore selfish and pushing myself onto others. I'm really happy. That and because he makes me happy in all kinds of ways. I'm glad I can make myself smile, I know this is kinda off topic but I've noticed that whenever I'm down or someone else is down and I'm just talking casually to them, I suddenly bring up some lame or dirty joke and it kinda just relaxes the moment. I'm glad I'm actually amazing that way because most of the time, I really don't care about others. Not because I don't care but because I don't like sticking my nose in other people's problems. If I was needed I'd know or I'd be asked otherwise, I'll stay out of what's NOT MY BUSINESS.

So today's been good. I've also pretty much freed myself. From the things that have been dragging me down and I just wanted to be that carefree me again, the one who, well didn't care about what anything or anyone does. Just the me that's absolutely happy with the boy she loves and the people whom she care about the most. Gosh, I'm in a good mood, and I haven't even got sexed up yet. Laugh out loudspeaker.

Sorry for writing so much, didn't think I had it in me. And I was reading through my old posts right and I noticed that my writing was actually okay. Not the grammar but the way I presented it. It was interesting and it made me want to read what I wrote but yeah, I guess I'm just egotistic like that. I think I'm gonna read through it a bit more. It'd feel nostalgic going back in time though, oh well. Sometimes the past is good because it leads to where you are now.

No more writing. Save you the trouble of reading anymore. 

laters bychezzzz xoxo.

Enough is Enough

Exams are on this week and they've begun. Big woop!

Anyways, I'm sick of people talking about exams and stressing about it. I'm actually trying to relax and get myself prepared but everyone just keeps talking about it which is getting really annoying now. And don't you dare tell me that you failed that exam if I ask you how you went. There's a chance that you could have but don't tell me you failed until you have. Try to be optimistic because that will ruin your whole game. Take me for example, I'm happy and relaxed because I've prepared myself. Even if it may be in the last minute but I'm prepared. I'm not running around trying to get answers for this and that and stressing other people out. Firstly, it's not healthy and secondly, think about what the other person is feeling. Do they realy want to be disturbed, that's when you decide whether or not you should talk to them.

Enough about that. I didn't want to go into detail with that but in the end I do anyway. The main point I wanted to say was how annoyed I am at everyone. Right now I'm seeing them as fakes and I don't like it. I admit I'm a fake but I have reason to be. But other people, other people do it just to be a bitch and seriously it's not cool. I've noticed that now people are showing their true colours to me and they're proving to me that they ain't worth my time. People don't like me. I know that, but why won't they tell me? I'm not gonna go and eat you if you tell me you have me. Just give me constructive advice on how I could be a better friend or what I'm doing wrong. I mean I'm not going to completely change just for you. It's just not me. I am who I am so tough luck. But yeah, my main point was people don't like me and they're showing it good.

How was my today.
Apart from the exams really nothing much occured as everyone was too busy with the stressing with the whole exams thing. It's not me and maybe that's the reason why I won't be talking to you because I don't like your aura and all that kinda shit. Hmmm, another thing was with the whole PJ thing. She wouldn't believe me at first and when I finally did get her to believe me I burst and ended up telling her the truth which kinda ruined part of the whole thing. But no more on that because it'll give away the whole thing. For now people, laters I'm not gonna study but I can't leave my blog opened for long because I'm risking my sister or mother reaading it.

"To love is hard."

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12.01

it's now monday.
just thought i'd let you know.



















exams.
the week peopele have been dreading.
no worries mate.
no worries.

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Wow, I'm Bored Once Again

You know how in every school there's a time when people have to do exams. Well this coming week is that time for our grade in our school. It sucks. Not literally because it doesn't suck on lollipops but you know what I mean, right. By the way, me changing font colours is the biggest disaster ever. I can't even get the whole world, LOL, word*. I'm just wasting time but that is already quite obvious. I really am just not in the mood for this studying thing. I'm not confident in what I know either but I'm getting sick of it and because I'm very smart, I'm the only one who knows how to have fun even though it's a stressful moment in our lives. More jibber-jabber but I'm currently insane and all I can think about is x = 2+5x(43-4x) and more but I don't want to bore people with more maths and more uneccessary things even I wouldn't read about. As you can see I'm just trying to extend this blog post longer but I'm not very good at making up random shit because I'm that type of person who gets straight to the point. Very much like my dad.

My mum, OMG, wth man. She got me so worried man. I thought something had happened to her. She wouldn't answer any of my calls and no one knew where she was. And later on my uncle didn't help much either acting like he cared when he was talking about my mum to me. He left us alone at home too. Which kinda left me in charge and I did a pretty good job of it, for once. I think I've grown up and finally accepted the fact that, I'm no longer a child and I can do responsibilities and I can be trusted, well depends what it is. Most of the time then.

I want to make plans to go out tomorrow. I don't think I'll be allowed though. I could like say that I'm gonna study with friends. But I don't think that's believable. Oh well, it won't hurt to try, right?

I'm friends with this person now. After that crazy me I'd gone through because I'm so stupid the wound between us has healed and once again made me happy. I love how some people can just do that even though it's not expected from them. Right now, I have 3 of those people. If you think it's you well it's not. Actually one of them may be you but it depends who you are. Apart from those 3 people there are 2 other people who are just too special to me that I can't actually categorise them. So maybe I think that might be you. But only one. LOL, if you get me, which I'm pretty sure you don't. So yeah.

This blog actually turned out longer than I expected. Not a good idea. I just wasted on valuable science reviewing time.

What is a current? It's the movement of positive charge. My bad, flow of positive charge.

Laters,.
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Alyssa said Stop Procrastinating

Just a few things I remembered:

1. There's this one person (I'm not saying whether they're are girl or a guy but it's one of those two) in my grade that I've realised is extremely annoying at times especially to me and my friends. I know it's kinda slack posting this publicly and that is why I'm not going to mention his/her name. But right now, just GET BACK! Lmao, and no it's not you just because I used your song.

2. "Now that curry I'll eat." This is just a quote which I actually said the other day and like I was talking to Anindita about it and now that i've remembered this is another person (him/her) from my grade who I'm having thoughts about at the moment. Actually that's a real giveaway. But yeah. OMG ALYSSA STOP TALKING TO ME! Back to the subject, this is so your fault Katrina but I love you no matter what.

3. I must study so leave me alone. Alyssa is telling me to type faster so that I can get off the computer sooner but like it's so hard because my fingers are getting so tired from typing really quickly especially my thumb. Ow. But woot, Neighbours is on so i can slow down a bit now because Alyssa's gone to watch. Today school was alright. I don't actually want to go through the details at the moment because it's just me being sick. But lucky me I got more gossip again. Not that it was very fascinating. HAHA

laters,..
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