A few days to my birthday, yet why do I feel like this.
So today I had a change of heart and like I feel much lighter on the inside now and I'm back to normal again, I suppose. I hope so anyway. It may be because of Austin but he's just I don't know. He's a real person, a person so far away that he may as well be a fantasy. It's quite sad that I am unfortunate enough to be unloved by people whom you think loved you but really, well they don't. It doesn't matter. I'm happy. My boys make me happy and I guess I can't really complain when I have something that makes me happy. I shouldnt be selfish and ask for too much and so there's a complete equilibrium in the world around us.
It's unfair that some people have so much negativity in their lives and it just seems that they have all the bad luck in the world. I know I may be sad at the stupidest things but I would be happy to share some of my happyness because I believe in equality between everyone no matter what race, gender, sexuality.
Sometimes I just think too much.
I LOVE YOU BOY :)
although you've made me spend so much money and time on you, it's all been worth it...now only if you were here right now...
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Clumsy
I've been wanting a lot of things, this is not one of them.
She lets out a sigh of reliefe after finally returning to her home after the trauma she's been through. It simply hasn't been an easy time for her and now she feels relaxed and free from all the troubles.
Once again it's been a while since my last post and that's probably because I haven't had the chance to go on my computer, wait I'll say that again...Haven't been bothered to go on the computer and actually do computer stuff. I don't see the point of it unless I do homework which clearly I'm not going to be doing that anyway.
Things have changed. People have changed. I've changed.
Most of these changes have been good but with some things I just can't cope with it and it's somewhat unfair on me. I find a way to help myself but then I'm at fault for hurting others in doing so. Why can't I be selfish for once and just do and have what I want. I've been there whenever you needed me so just let me be me and do as I please. Is that too much to ask for.
FUN COUNT: 5 to this date.
booyeah!
Éxams are quickly approaching and I'm actually looking forward to it. The thought of being put amount great amounts of stress gives me an adrenalin rush which I just seem to love. That and sneaking out would be the two things that keep me feeling great. I'm just so awesome sometimes.
Once again, will blog whenever I can.
She lets out a sigh of reliefe after finally returning to her home after the trauma she's been through. It simply hasn't been an easy time for her and now she feels relaxed and free from all the troubles.
Once again it's been a while since my last post and that's probably because I haven't had the chance to go on my computer, wait I'll say that again...Haven't been bothered to go on the computer and actually do computer stuff. I don't see the point of it unless I do homework which clearly I'm not going to be doing that anyway.
Things have changed. People have changed. I've changed.
Most of these changes have been good but with some things I just can't cope with it and it's somewhat unfair on me. I find a way to help myself but then I'm at fault for hurting others in doing so. Why can't I be selfish for once and just do and have what I want. I've been there whenever you needed me so just let me be me and do as I please. Is that too much to ask for.
FUN COUNT: 5 to this date.
booyeah!
Éxams are quickly approaching and I'm actually looking forward to it. The thought of being put amount great amounts of stress gives me an adrenalin rush which I just seem to love. That and sneaking out would be the two things that keep me feeling great. I'm just so awesome sometimes.
Once again, will blog whenever I can.
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