She Ran Away

All she wanted to be was free from the world. The world she knew she didn't belong in, yet something kept her there. A force that wouldn't let her go. But this time she won't hold on. She knows what she has to do and that's set herself free from the isolation she has felt. Clearly this was meant to be.

Wow

A huge part of me is so excited to leave. The other I just want to kill so I have no worries and can leave this school happy and with no regrets.

It' nearly over

Personally, I can actually say that at the end of this year I'll be able to start over and become the person I want to be, the good person I want to be. I guess it's upsetting leaving so many people behind but then if I think about it, the future will have great opportunities for me (or so I hope) and there's no point being glum in something that occurs naturally in life, having to leave people behind but meeting new and different people.

What I'm really trying to say is, I should stop crying because there's no point anymore, there's no point crying over the same thing especially since there's other things in life that can be done instead of doing such sad things.

Uh

I feel pathetic.
I feel like a loser.
I can't control my emotions.
I can't hold back.

I don't know what to do.
It's like I'm lost.

It hurts.

Reality

I keep telling myself that he's not mine anymore, but it just makes everything worse.

I feel so empty

Who knew a lot could happen in just a little over a week. I don't know how to else to say this nor do I want to say this. I don't even know what to do, or say, or THINK. I'm confused to the max and I've lost all sense to do or want anything. I've been blinded and hurt yet I feel guilt within me. Everything's changed and for once I have no control over anything.

I feel useless.