fgs-

that stands for: for goodness sakes, in case you guys didn't already know that. yeah I found out from my super lame sister but whatevs like it even matters.

so anyways I was thinking about my previous blog and mow that I do think about it I think I may have overeacted BUT just a bit. LOL I had a talk to my babe and told me that it was the PC so then I felt stupid but whatevs.

happy new year everyone :)

Jasmine.

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baby why you have to get me crying now? i did everything for you even the things i know i shouldnt have but i did it all for you. dont you see that? i just got scared and of you but what could happen and i was afraid of this and now it has happened... baby, please, just come back...

Baby

cant stop thinking about you....

this is what i hate about people. they be nice to you and shit and like tell you stuff and stuff and one day you get really close to em and all you think about is that person and spending time with her/him. and so im kinda annoyed at myself because i cant stop thinking about a few people in my life and i suppose its a good thing but its so distracting and i cant concentrate on anything.

but whatever. im just glad that those people do exist because theyre the reason i bother getting up in the morning and doing anything.

i lost a kg.
LOL

news

have not blogged in a while I wonder why ;)

anyways things have happened and well no one really cares cause even I
don't. so here's the thing I have a talent and I put it to use I just
don't know whether I'm putting it to good use or bad. I really want
someones opinion but I'm afraid to tell anyone cause i don't want to
be judged on the things I do and well yeah...

apart from that the new year is nearly here, lovely.

and someones back :)

and I engraved someones name on my ring how retarded is that.,,

whatevs, laters and byeeeeee

Merry Christmas

I got it wrong. Last night was pretty fun!
:D

Sent from my iPod

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Christmas Eve

I am pretty sure that I probably will not be online later on today because of my busy schedule and will probably not be on the computer until after 25 hours or so. Which is why I thought blogging now would be a good idea. Anyways over the past few weeks a lot/little has happened and I say that because to everyone else it would seem like a little only but to me it has allowed me a lot of change and well view things a lot differently. Plus my attitude towards things has changed a lot and you probably wouldn't agree with my way of seeing things but what can you do, it's my life.

So today is Christmas Eve. I doubt today will be very busy even though I'd much rather spend it at home with the family cleaning and bumming around on the cold floor trying to cool myself off from the heat rather than spending it with my mother's extended family. Like no offence to them but they bore me. Plus the fact that they don't really care that I exist and only ever realise that I do exist when I've accomplished something greatly, which is pretty low seeing as they are my family. There are a few exceptions in this family, even though my mother would probably disagree with me but she can't control who I can and cannot like. So Christmas Party with the family will be a total waste of my time and I will be looking forward to the Midnight Mass where everyone is quiet and don't have time to ignore me because they have to listen to the mass. I feel so negative seeing things this way but this is how I feel. And being neglected by my own family kinda sucks. Like my family overseas I know how they are and I miss those Christmases with them. They were fun. And they wanted me to be there. And they enjoyed having me there. I guess I'm just asking for too much.

On the bright side, we will be going out to my mother's indian friend's party and well I get to eat indian food, I'm so excited because I really love that naan and I hope that they have Cheese and Garlic so like I will eat that but yeah. Something different from what we usually do. Day after, Christmas we will be going to other family friend's party which I'm quite sure will be a joy. See, those group of people, they treat as more of a family compared to our actual family and I'm thankful for that.

I know what I'm getting for Christmas. I'm kinda excited but not, because I've tried to control my excitedness so that I'm not like super excited for it and counting down they hours and minutes (even though I am anyway for the sake of it). Apart from that present though I suppose it doesn't really matter. I just want two other things that I hope I will get, those are happyness and a boyfriend. Ahahhahaha, happyness yeah, I really want that, and boyfriend...hmmmm, we'll see. I'm not really in the need for one, but whatever, a girl can dream right.

Other things on the agenda is the fact that I miss my buddies who all seem to be in India. Jas, Sukh and Kar, why did you all go there and leave me behind. You all could've brought a piece of me in your luggage and then I couldnt have come along. This way different parts of me will also see different parts of India, hahahaa. But man, I miss you guys so much. And by the way, out of all of you Jasmine is the best because she actually comes online when I'm online and doesn't go on the comp like 10-15 minutes after I've effing left. Goodness me people. I stay up late wating for you guys yet you go online even later. Whatever I still miss you all. I'm excited for the new year...

Which brings me to the next topic: New Year's Resolutions
1. Meet and SEE Karan.
2. Be fit.
3. Stop being so horny and dirty.

I think those are good enough. I'll add more later.


So that's all from me.

Merry Christmas everyone !

blasted

i miss my indian kids :(

Miss

What does it really mean? No one will ever truly know.

JASMINE, miss you so damn much.

Stop being so stupid.

Christmas in a few days.


this guy, he's reading my blog right now.
he's pretty cool. he knows who he is too :P


:D

Stardust

It only exists on one side of the wall.


Gosh, I can't begin to describe the day I've had. It hasn't been really been eventful but rather the emotions I've been having which have been changing like crazy.

Everytime I write one of these I seem to get distracted and well lose interest in even bother writing a blog. And so I've decided that I will just keep this New Post page open so that if I ever remember something It'd be open.

oh crap. jasmine, that's not how it works. you silly silly girl. you don't get angry and pissed off at someone and just because they make you laugh or smile it doesn't mean it's all good again. it just shows how weak you are and easy to...what's the word, thing, persuade...i don't know something like that and well yeah. and stop wanting him (and not in that way; LOL) so much. it is so stupid and well, frankly just plain stupid.

i really am in love with leighton meester. gosh she's hot. gosh, shes's so hot it's pissing me off.

Whoosh

I deleted Dear Kid Notes. I just ran out of inspiration. Or well my inspiration ran out on me. Gosh I hate this. I mean I thought things were finally and awesomely good then I find ways to magically ruin things. It's so stupid of me yet I persist to do things like this.

Oh well, theres another good thing gone.

Six Days

In recent times technology has been letting me down and it's very unfair. I'm meant to be able to work through such problems and well i totally just forgot what i was talking about because a spider threw me off. sigh...

Anyways i need to stop waiting all the time. And get a life too.

Hmmm, i need to come up with New Years Resolutions, even though they never get completed anyway.

Awesomeness.

define: awesomeness.

Awesomeness. n. - [aw-sum-ness] awesome asian that's slightly shorter than me who brings me joy and hate at the same time.

katrina you annoying person. i can't believe you are going overseas to like every other person is in this crazy school of ours. but whatever you are getting me sunglasses because i don't want to find out that i wasted my time trying on sunglasses for half an hour so you could check which one suits me and the fact that you made me try on a dress which showed my oh so yucky curves.

somehow you manage to make the boring lifeless things, such as the movie-as you have already mentioned- turn out to be great and make it not so boring and lifeless and i may be ignorant but i still listen to you, i just choose not to respond to annoy you back. but you love it.

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whatever.

katrina.

just.

come back safe.

and you are one awesome one.

AWESOMENESS.

THIS IS A HIJACKING. NOBODY MOVE.

AS EXPECTED, I've lost the interest to blog on my own account. As well as to write. As well as to bych.

Anyway,

I'm Jasmine's frenemy. It's a love, hate relationship. Hence the fr"enemy", and don't worry, I'm not making this shit up, it was on tv.


__ confessionals! : Jasmine, I'm sorry that I don't read your blog often. It's because you know, I'm awesome and I can read your fucking mind anyway.
Also, a fly went up my nose the other day and I think it did some voodoo as that nose hole... or whatever you call it is always running.
ALSO, I went out with Jasmine on Wednesday! I ALSO hijacked their get together and stole jasmine to watch new moon, which sucked balls, however, seeing Jacob half naked and so bloody adorable was worth it.

For example, here, I asked Jasmine to throw my Boost at the screen:

Bella: your leaving?
Eddie: Yes. *frown*
Bella: why?
Eddie: To leave.
Bella: really?
Eddie: yes
Bella: I can't believe this.
Eddie: YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT BYCH CAUSE JACOB IS SO MUCH HOTTER THAN I AM.Yes, I am.
Bella: *starts to sniff*
Katrina: Is she crying? Seriously? Seriously? Dude, she looks like she's having an asthma attack.
Jasmine: ... *ignores*
Katrina: *THROWS BOOST AT HER*

Anyway, Sorry Jas I couldn't make this a serious post. It's cause I'm kinda high on... Ribena atm.

Oh! OOOOH! I have an idea! I'll tell you what kind of person Jasmine is!


Jasmine is :

SOMEONEWHOIGNORESME someone who worships the ground I walk on,
SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LISTEN TO ME ... oookay.

She has long puffy hair, that she straightened, so now she has puffy straight hair. Also, she needs to learn to be meaner. NOT TO ME. But to other people. After reading bits of her blog she may seem like one of those people who paint their nails black and wear too much eye liner and have tats. However! I assure you, she's quite the opposite. she giggles too much and makes these really weird jokes that cause people to look at her in weirdness ( AHHH the things we have in common).

Also, she's sad when she really shouldn't be cause she's so fucking awesome and I'll miss her while I'm in the philippines.

Maybe tomorrow she'll find there's a window open in every corner, or that the wind whistles her name as she walks past. Because were blinded of these facts, with sheer ignorance, and defacement of the bitch that is life.

Today, we'll start living like tomorow, because the past will always be one step behind.


________Katrina :)

Night

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMSY !

miss you so much :)

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i love the night
and how it's so bright
it fills up my life.
the feeling of freedom
it's endlessness.

oh how i love the night.

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ones feeling doesn't leave for another person when they leave, it simply goes stronger. at times it brings fear for the person as if something is escaping them; a hole getting bigger in their mind and heart. this is what you've done to me...

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not seeing you
not knowing how you are
not being able speak with you
yet knowing that we will never be...

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age is nothing to me.
ít's simply a number that the ancient people put beside your name to remember how many punches they need to give you on your birthday.
so stop talking shit about how you are older than me because i really don't care. you're awesome and you can't do anything about it and i'm not gonna do anything about it now because i've grown too close and attached to you it's gonna hurt me one day...but now i'm just going to make the most of being with you...

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this feeling which is filling me up, amazing. complete and utter amazement. i never knew but jasmine i mean i was right. that person in the future will be lucky and many ways your imagination could never come up with. oh my just laughing to myself about this great finding. amazing, i swear. i do have a talent, a talent that i suppose may be useful...one day, in the near future, i hope not.

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BTW, you're a FN FISHHEAD. I know you ain't reading this but might as well tell you anyway, cause one day you're gonna realise it and well that's not how you treat a man. LOL, no woman but still, so yeah. just wanted to tell you that.

i've realised that blogs about my day is simply useless to anyone who reads this and i've worked out that if i write something interesting like poetry or storys or stuff then people might actually want to read it..so yeah, these btw are messages to people BUT i ain't telling you who :P

ignore this please

how could i be so blind ?

of course. it was very predictable.

i just chose to ignore it.

gosh you idiot.

yeah, i don't know what's wrong with me but i just can't seem to ignore the fact that i like what i do even though it's wrong and even though i know that in the end i know that i will get hurt. plus the fact that it's quite stupid and a complete waste of time expecting something from someone whom i don't even know or even met. gosh how pathetic do i sound right now. i don't even know how i feel, confused whether i should be angry or sad. clearly i don't know.

12.11

I waited till it was the 14th to create this blog.


What a week. To begin this I must first mention that WOAH, it's been a week since I have blogged. Explaining the first line. And that's so crazy because it doesn't feel like it's been a week yet. Man how time flies. Well anyways it's been quite a hectic week, to tell you the truth - not really. Just a few events which occurred. No big deal. I think.

Monday was well, the usual - Monday. Something about it is wrong though. I can't quite remember but whatever.

Tuesday I was at school but did no work. That was a pretty long day. I hardly saw myself and it was her last day before she went off to the abyss. Exaggerated just a bit. To another country and will not be back till next month. It was also Variety Night and this saw me helping with the event. It felt really great that I was actually helping with something for once. It made me feel really good cause i was contrubuting to SOMETHING :D That was pretty awesome. I don't care what other people think, because it's the first one I've gone to. That was a long day because I didn't go home. My goodness this blog post seems so useless but whatevs. LOL, love it.

Wednesday was excruxiating but rather lovely because if I hadn't stayed home because i was sickkk.... I would have never met my friend Isai. Dude, that is amazing but I dont meet him till Saturday BUT theres a story to it.

Thursday- mufti day yeah yeah boring did nothing the whole say and got free milkshakes ROFL. fritz came over in the evening and we got crazy we took pics and made a rad dance clip :P

GRADUATION FRIDAY man it was horrible. most boring thing ever, random song that i did not understand why everyone was laughing and it was nowhere near emotional. did not shed a tear. maybe because you were trying so hard to hold it back oh shuttup you again this was another long day because i went home and left soon after because we were off to para. man was i in complete in utter pain after doing something for the first time. oh and i had dinner at dayummm I forgot what it's called. But it's one of those italian restaurants at parra with woodfire oven. stefanos pizza or something italiany. :P so goood.

saturday was uneventful until i received a text. im so annoyed but on the otherhand i was quite happy. anyways this guy whom ive been emailing for like 1 or 2 days (LOL not very long - lol, thats what she said :P) he was online and well i was on my phone obviously because it was still like 10 in the morning and well we were texting each other right and it was so awesome. like i dont really want to post what our conversations were about but trust me, it's rated NOT FOR BLOGS lol. and well that went on for 2 hours and the thing which annoyed me was the fact that im already on a $29 cap with $150 of credit and at the beginning of the day i was on $60 and at the end of our 2 hour texting session i was left with $2.18. I know. i spent so much and i wont be getting recharged until two weeks time which is like crazy because i love texting i really do and having no credit sucks to the max. CRAP but yeah. apart from that saturday was just normal.

sunday went drving pretty average. miss my friends though. especially now i dont have anyone to talk to about shit. yes i said shit because in theory it is shit, but not SHIT SHIT like shit shit if u get what i mean :P

so yeah thats my week. pretty unhectic. so yeah.
laters.

Early

This is crazy. I'm blogging too early. I'm just not quite in the mood and I find it quite odd that I am in fact blogging at 9.01PM. Ahhhh, things have just been crazy lately and well none of it involves me...which is a good thing but somehow isn't. I know what I'm talking about so it's all good. What to blog about. OH yeah.

People, please let me make my own decisions. Stop bugging me for everything. If I don't say yes then that means I didn't say YES and just leave me alone. If I say maybe or no that means NO. For goodness sakes. I think I'm allowed to make up my own mind.

Oh yeah one more thing I actually miss talking to Brenden man, good old times.Sigh* stupid stupid me.


that's all.


a paper falling to the ground made me scream....


i think you shud just eff off cz everytime i see or hear you or even near your presence of any kind it ticks me of. goodness im so aargh.

Don't.

There comes a time when you realise all that you have done wrong and how you truly regret those mistakes that you know you will never repeat. Yet somehow we manage to fool ourselves and believe that the things we do our right and forget that we've ever done them and lose sight of what we really need to do and begin focusing on what we want.

no more lies.

no more hatred.

no more backstabbing.

no nothing.

To move forward we must first believe that we are capable of doing so and this is a step we all must take.

I've been blogging quite late recently. Oh my :/

Just

Doesn't Mean Anything

...it never did.

Alicia Keys (2009)

S- not again

I have just found discovered something.

JASMINE HAS A NEW CRUSH !!!

lololol. obviously it's someone no one knows (that reads this blog) so that is why it's posted on here. so anyways i was looking through pictures of my friends' formal and well i knew him before...maybe...maybe not...but like he was different before and so was i and i didn't talk to anyone then. BUT now looking at his pics, MY GOODNESS he's so damn fineeeeee. the downside is, he's got a girlfriend, one of my friends from that school. sigh* oh well nothing wrong with looking at pics right.

do i really have to go through camp.
highlight: sleeping where possible.

downlight: not being able to sleep during the day.

could it have been better: wayyyyy better.

how did i feel: like something was missing, because there was.

GOSH-


jasmine you are despicable. stay away from me and your disgustingness. it's not morally right. and just because one believes its right doesnt mean everybody else does BECAUSE not everyone is as awesome as that special person...

aww shucks.
person sick.

and sometimes not knowing something is the best solution.

i vow to keep my cool no matter what.

RollercoasteD

Aha, thats my play on words.

the past two days have been somewhat rollercoastery.


idk.


hopefully my family has fun overseas.
and.
today was epic
in a way that wasn't EPIC.

hahahah.

no computer for two days D:
scary.