Christmas Eve

I am pretty sure that I probably will not be online later on today because of my busy schedule and will probably not be on the computer until after 25 hours or so. Which is why I thought blogging now would be a good idea. Anyways over the past few weeks a lot/little has happened and I say that because to everyone else it would seem like a little only but to me it has allowed me a lot of change and well view things a lot differently. Plus my attitude towards things has changed a lot and you probably wouldn't agree with my way of seeing things but what can you do, it's my life.

So today is Christmas Eve. I doubt today will be very busy even though I'd much rather spend it at home with the family cleaning and bumming around on the cold floor trying to cool myself off from the heat rather than spending it with my mother's extended family. Like no offence to them but they bore me. Plus the fact that they don't really care that I exist and only ever realise that I do exist when I've accomplished something greatly, which is pretty low seeing as they are my family. There are a few exceptions in this family, even though my mother would probably disagree with me but she can't control who I can and cannot like. So Christmas Party with the family will be a total waste of my time and I will be looking forward to the Midnight Mass where everyone is quiet and don't have time to ignore me because they have to listen to the mass. I feel so negative seeing things this way but this is how I feel. And being neglected by my own family kinda sucks. Like my family overseas I know how they are and I miss those Christmases with them. They were fun. And they wanted me to be there. And they enjoyed having me there. I guess I'm just asking for too much.

On the bright side, we will be going out to my mother's indian friend's party and well I get to eat indian food, I'm so excited because I really love that naan and I hope that they have Cheese and Garlic so like I will eat that but yeah. Something different from what we usually do. Day after, Christmas we will be going to other family friend's party which I'm quite sure will be a joy. See, those group of people, they treat as more of a family compared to our actual family and I'm thankful for that.

I know what I'm getting for Christmas. I'm kinda excited but not, because I've tried to control my excitedness so that I'm not like super excited for it and counting down they hours and minutes (even though I am anyway for the sake of it). Apart from that present though I suppose it doesn't really matter. I just want two other things that I hope I will get, those are happyness and a boyfriend. Ahahhahaha, happyness yeah, I really want that, and boyfriend...hmmmm, we'll see. I'm not really in the need for one, but whatever, a girl can dream right.

Other things on the agenda is the fact that I miss my buddies who all seem to be in India. Jas, Sukh and Kar, why did you all go there and leave me behind. You all could've brought a piece of me in your luggage and then I couldnt have come along. This way different parts of me will also see different parts of India, hahahaa. But man, I miss you guys so much. And by the way, out of all of you Jasmine is the best because she actually comes online when I'm online and doesn't go on the comp like 10-15 minutes after I've effing left. Goodness me people. I stay up late wating for you guys yet you go online even later. Whatever I still miss you all. I'm excited for the new year...

Which brings me to the next topic: New Year's Resolutions
1. Meet and SEE Karan.
2. Be fit.
3. Stop being so horny and dirty.

I think those are good enough. I'll add more later.


So that's all from me.

Merry Christmas everyone !