Unfair.

The following two monologues are towards two different people. It is about a girl thinking about two people who she's unsure what they are to her. Basically it's just her talking to herself or in this case monologuing to herself. Enjoy. Uh, another thing, this is written in my language as in the way I speak because well that's how I speak and that's how I write and that's uh, how I make it interesting. Actually I don't think it's a monologue. Let's just call it a thingy. AHHAHA, a thingy.

Thingy #1

You don't spoil me. No matter how much you think you do, you truly and utterly don't. Although you are quite an awesome person. For once I can believe someone whom is new and different. Someone who lied about their age though. I still can't believe you'd do that just cause you thought you had the blood of an 18 year old pumping through your veins. But the things you do and say. It's very funny and I'm glad that well you Answered my question. Of course only you would know that but really I know your problem. And for the last time I'm not in love with you even though it may seem like it I'm just here as a friend just as you are towards me. I also know that you are in fact in love with her. I just don't see why you don't trust me that you can't tell me who she is or the fact that you complain to me about yourself and how you're opening up to me. It's ok. Really. Being able to open up to others is great because it allows you to release all those feelings which has been building up inside you. You don't want to explode from the overload of all the things which has causing you stress. Anyways off the topic (gosh, i do that in real life and my stories) back to the thingy (ahahha, thingy) oh my i have forgotten. Just stay awesome. And i believe in you. And I also believe that if you tried hard enough then maybe it could just happen. But what is my opinion. I'm just a kid.

Thingy #2

It took me a while you know. A really long time actually. Which is why I'm asking. Why now ? Why after all the things I had gone through would you do that to me. It actually is pretty hard. Especially for me. You know all the things I had to go through. Yet I'm glad that after all that we're still friends. Pretty good friends. Which is why, DAMN IT, why are you causing me trouble. The signals, the signs, the message, whatever it is that you are trying to tell me it's al wrong. And you're very awesome. Great. Although not many people can see you that way I do I'm glad that I do. Because really you are one of the nicest persons out there. Just stop being so unfair and please...let me move on with my life.


GAH. That's like fail. I need to try harder. Next time ?

Take Things Slow

I've been quite busy lately, although I haven't beena acting like it and it's stressing me a bit. I mean not to the point where I'm pulling my hair out but enough to startle me and make confused and lost with whatever I am doing. Not that I can complain. I should be happy to have this life because it's what I asked for, right ? Well today it was really fun. Mainly during the middle of the day beginning at maths when Gabriel (the american exchange student) was in my class. And you know how I have a thing for the American accent, well I just fell in love with him. HAHA. I tried to talk to him as much as I could but I practically failed. And it was cool how we played with the chatterbox except he called it Cootie Catcher or something like that :) Overall that was good. And at lunch we was just in a circle laughing and talking. Something nice.

I'm happy to have Jasmine & Shirine back too. LOVE, ANGEL ;)

Another thing. I promised to write PJ a story in IST ;) So here goes. Actually; a summary.

All she wanted was to be popular. No one saw this coming. Georgina, 16, and a complete loser. She didn't want it anymore and when she moved school she changed herself and her total outlook on life. It's not that she was teased or anything. She just wanted more, more and more. Somehow what she had just wasn't enough for her. She would use the people around her and take advantage of the ones who didn't know better or was just too nice to say anything. It kinda reminded me of this other chick too. I do wonder, how can they be so thick...

Working progress PJ.


Goodbye.

July

A lot of things this month, too many that I'm not going to bother mentioning any because even that I'm too lazy to do. School, parties, life, all those things will change. Especially my life. It already has, for the better, I'm not so sure about that but you never know.

Is that all you can do?

I cry, I cry till I see myself in the mirror, seeing who I've become because of what you've done to me. Hey, I know, life's not fair, but neither are you. I want everything, but I'm not getting anything because I don't deserve it. I don't work for it. If only I could run away and leave everything as it is. Things would be better for everyone and one day, people would act as if I never existed. That would be nice, although that won't happen, I'm not fair.

I'm not making sense, neither is this stupid life of jasmine.

Which reminds me, my friend, I read your blog. There's no need to say anything more. I understand just as you hopefully understand me. Apart from that learn to just listen, listen to what I want and now what you think I want. I think that's it and I'm sorry.

My Story

Jasmine here is a special link for you because there’s other stuff that go with it but yeah.

**The moral of the story, sometimes what you want may just be in front of you.

Obviously the ending goes something like this…

One day the girl brings up all her courage to tell the guy for her growing feelings for him. They’re standing together in the middle of the oval at school in the pouring rain. To her, it felt like it was just the two of them, standing there. There was no people around them playing no balls flying everywhere. Just the two of them. She looks at his eyes and tears began to well up in her eyes. Then she says it. She says I like you, I like you more than a friend. She begins to cry and he caresses her face and says…

Well I don’t want to ruin it for you guys so wait up and maybe soon there’s an ending to that.

The Drop – Kick of the Ablessnormal Chiq.

One day, this chick wanted to kick the ball and she was told to drop kick it. So she dropped the ball the waited for it to bounce. Then she kicked it. Suddenly two bystanders were laughing at her and she felt like she had to do something about it. So she practised and practised with the help of the bystanders. And soon she was a pro and could drop-kick the ball. But after trying so hard, at some of the times she had fell on her butt and hurted it a lot. She was sad. Because her butt was hurting and wet. The End.

By The World Record Holder of the Fastest Long Jump Time. ;D

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