Another Year 2013

Wow, it's already March 2013 and a lot has definitely happened since my last blog post but to go through everything would just be tedious. Right now, something simple such as expressing my true feelings would complete this post as well as allowing me to feel a little more free.

Horrible.

That is how I feel, but it does tend to juggle with happiness, joy? grief...jealous. I'm filled with mixed emotions unsure of whether it's just part of being a woman or I have been deeply affect. I'm constantly feeling stressed from the pressure of the people around me. Though it would seem like it is just me who is putting this so-called pressure on my imaginary bubble.

Someone, burst my bubble.

No, my hair no longer looks like that.

Zaboob.

It's Lara's birthday today. 

Gosh, I love that girl. A picture speaks a thousand words, I guess these would be a million.

Boys Over Flowers

More like boys over me, or boys on top of me, LOL. Actually it's just a Korean drama that I started watching again after already watching it a few months ago. But it's pretty cool.

HAHA, i'm not laughing

Over and over again
cause it's all in my head...

I woke up this morning, up and ready to go swimming. Lately, waking up in a Saturday morning I've felt more enthusiastic about going swimming. I don't know why this is the case but it's a good thing. I got there and Julia was back. Yey? And because I was there early she asked if i wanted to join the early class and I did it, which meant i finished earlier. Woo, I could do all the things she said EXCEPT for the fact that I couldn't breathe, but that's just me. So yeah.

Now i'm at home and like I'm doing the first part of the Healthy Assignment which I find a complete waste of time because it is. So yeah. While looking for info I came upon this (http://www.reachout.com.au/default.asp?ti=1866) I thought it was a good website and it really gave me help on what was wrong with me.

Why I'm feeling crap:

• You have experienced one or several big or small stressful events or tough times.

So yeah. It may have been cause by one of the following:

• Family problems
• Relationship or friendship problems - breaking up with someone or fighting.
• Starting at a new school or job.
• Being a carer or living with someone with a mental or physical illness.
• Feeling bored or unstimulated, e.g. in the school holidays.
• Not eating well
• Not getting enough exercise
• Not getting enough sleep
• Illness - being sick, or fighting off illness, can make you feel run down and unwell
• Hormonal changes in females during your menstrual cycle can make you feel crap. This may happen a few days before you get your period and you may not make the connection immediately.

As you can see it's not all of it, it's a few of those reasons. I'm not going to go into detail into that but yeh. I'm going to admit it. I FEEL CRAP. And the only thing I can do about it which will work is to express my feelings, but that will cause me to feel more crap and make the whole everything worse. So i will just deal with it and keep my mouth shut. My happiness doesn't matter, just as long as everyone elses is fine.

And just to get things straight now, I'm not emo. I don't fucking cut myself or even listen to emo music. I don't even dress emo. So fuck off. I'm not fucking emo.

Must finish this.

laters,.
;]

p.s.

WORD FEELING OF THE DAY:
"CRAP"

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it took him 5 words, and i was over the moon...
am i really that easy?


I've come to realise that I'm stupid and I think that I like people way too easily. I don't know if there's something inside me which makes me feel extremely bad if i don't try to be friends with them at least, but I don't know.

I JUST WANT TO KNOW !

On a lighten note, I'm going to a wedding. And it's been so long that I've been waiting for this. YEY! Details later. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :)

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