Check This

I think it looks too...
(finish the sentence, critically)

Sick of Everything

FFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKK!

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

This is me annoyed.

If that wasn't obvious enough.

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

Ah shit.

Now I'm swearing

Shit!

Something's wrong with me.

Oh gosh.

Hush Hush

I'm more relaxed now. That's good, wouldn't you say so?

I just want to be with you...

Anyways I've been reading people's blogs right and everyone has slow/lagging internet or computer and may I just say, sucked in people because I don't. I'm really mean but inside it makes me really happy because I remember those days when I was the one who always had the crappy computer which would always lag and it was impossible to get anything done. So yeah.

I don't want to stay another minute, I don't want you to say another word.

Allowable Deductions

I know what that is :)


This is what happened today. I was standing in the middle of the quad or whatever it's called, that place outside the hall. And I didn't know who or where to go and that's when I realised that for once I really was confused and I just didn't know what to do. I'm so sad.

Fortunately for me I saw the large building so I decided to go there and sit inside because it was warm there and I didn't know where else to go. I've just been confused especially since I've changes the way I think and it takes time to get use to. AHHAHAA, I'm saying as if it was a new car or something. LOL, How much for that personality and way of thinking? $5 please. HAHHAHA. But you know what, I'm still insane. One more thing, I know it's that time of month and people I know so many other people who have it now, so don't tell me that you have it too. We're obviously bound to coincidetally get it during the same time because there's only 28 days. Geez people.

That's it from my squawking. HHAHA, I'm a bird now too.

Tissue

Heres the thing. I QUIT

i dont want to be in any group because I know i don't fit in anywhere
and i know that
im just an extra now.
i know that

so don't tell me what i am and what i'm not
because
I KNOW.

that's it.

10 Things I Hate About You

Well I was actually planning to do a similiar thing to 10 Things I Hate About You but that would be breaching copyright, I can't think of 10 things and I only really wanted to say one thing, or maybe two...hmmm..


1. I hate it when you make me cry.
2. I hate it when you mention that.

That's two.


woohoo, i can count.
:D

Am I Monster

I thought I was ok.
But everytime, everytime I hear it,
it hurts.

And I just wish that it would disappear...

watching monster vs. aliens ^^

H1N1 Scary.

You are not alone...

How many times have I said that to me yet everytime I say it to myself it makes no difference. But whatever right?

I don't like:
- people who tell me what to do
- people who judge me
- people who think they're better than me and like kinda show it
- people who always think they know what's right for me
- people thinking they know what I want

Yeah, that's about it for now.

H1n1: it's not funny, so stop joking about it.

someone cudda told me it was N not 2.

Deep Breath

I feel like an extra.

maybe the gum
but extra.
not fitting in anywhere
but just being there.

continue later.

i forgot...

to say that i no longer have a fever so don't worry i'm fine. my muscles and joint aches and i still have that stupid headache.

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I also realised that this is my
200th post.

I am seriously insane.

My Head Hurts

Two things:

1. Bye Michael Jackson. In my eyes I saw nothing wrong with the things you've done. Everything was your choice and no one should judge you by that and rock on, or should I say pop on.

2. I'm sick. Horribly sick. Well not anymore. But the wors part was the fact that the doctor said I may have swine flu and the thought of that just freaked me out even more. At least now I'm getting better so I'm hoping that that means I don't actually have it. I have a headache though and last night i reached 40C which is really hot.

*i missed a day of blogging but who cares. I'm effing sick but I'm still annoyed at myself for being sick.

DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION

Jasmine, Anavi

Anavi, Jasmine

Anavi

Jasmine, Himmat, Sukhman, Jasmine

Himmat, Jasmine, Jasmine, Anavi

Himmat, Jasmine, Jasmine*

Anavi, Jasmine



Jasmine, Himmat, Anavi

Jasmine, Anavi, Jasmine

Anavi, Jasmine

I'm so good at ruining photos.

Unfair

THIS IS UNECESSARY!



This is what I get for telling someone I like them. The feeling of unworthiness and just not good enough. Do I not deserve to be happy? What did I do wrong to receive this? Sometimes I wish that I never went to Australia. Now I have double the problems I had before. At least I expected it, but everytime I read it and think about it...I still have the same reaction that same feeling of being unwanted.

I know what it reminds me of now. You know how in movies, just before people die they say their life flashes before them. This is similar to what is happening to me. All those good times we had, I keep seeing it and it just makes me sad becaseu I know I've ruined that and I also know that things won't be the same ever again. Now matter how hard he tries or anyone else because I know how stubborn I am.

This is the first thing that comes to mind: shit. Seriously, there's no point in those (i forgot) now. He was the reason I could stay happy and stay normal but without him there's nothing that can keep me together and you know how stupid I feel now very. I need a new blog. People know thise one and anyone can read it. Gosh! I want to cry. I am sad. I really am and I just want to cry. And I'm not ok. Just, just don't ask me why. Aaargh. Now I want to scream. On top of all that I'm fat and that doesn't help anything. Aaargh. Stupid me. I'm a fat loser who always get rejected by everyone. I mean I don't mind where I am now but I'm not happy. Not completely anway. I know that people can't have everything they want but I would sacri... No, I wouldn't because I know I still wouldn't get what I want. I should just stop wasting my time.

I am now alone, and that I'm sure of.

Legal

Jasmine now has her L's.
wonderful?

just watch out for me ><

and my picture is ewwwwy.

24-06-09

Taurus 23-06

There is definitely a breakthrough in store for you today, Taurus. It is
likely to be a communications breakthrough, by which someone unavailable becomes
available, or someone finally "gets it", or you receive an invitation or
assignment to someplace you've wanted to go. This may be considered as something
of a coup for you, and will lead to some major decisions before the day is over.
In that this is something that you've been passionate about, it should be an
exciting day.

-Daily Horoscope, Facebook

It's Time

It's DDAY today and I guess it would be better for me to get it over and done with now while I'm prepared and ready to take my chances plus the fact I have the rest of the week to have a brea from all of it. That means all my problems will be pushed onto next week which I don't really mind.

Peoples, the disco is on tonight. I don't know why I'm not getting ready yet when I only have two hours left to get ready which is obviously not enough time but I like to provide my readers with something ro read, even though I'm pretty sure that no one actually reads this except for major losers. HAHA, I'm kidding and I love you all. I should like take a picture of how I look before the disco and after to see the huge contrast. I betcha I will have like dark eyes and eww face afterwards, actually I can imagine it now. Dayummm.

Ok, now I'm just wating for Alyssa to finish showering and I'm on my way to get ready. Party. :)

If I'm not happy afterwards the disco then something's obviously wrong with me.

Dazed

I think I'm insane. Some people are just out of my league. And some people are just not in the same country as you. Both these two things both have its ups and downs but I won't go either of those today. I just wanted to say this, while I'm still happy. Life is too short to hold back on things, so live your life.



After completing my english presentation just now it feels so good. That's one less thing off my chest and I can relax a bit more. Being at school today reminded me of all those times where I was loved by everyone. I was continually greeted by my friends and how much I was missed. I mean I expected it from a few people but not everyone. Gosh, it feels so good actually. That feeling of being loved. sighhh....



Disco tomorrow and Sumeet you know what that means.



Another thing which shocked me was the fact that I had only posted on blog entry today which compared to my other days is less than usual. Oh my gosh right?

SkypeMe!

Ok well seriously people. I have Skype right and what a big mistak it was. Well not mistake. I'm actually enjoying speaking to them. There's two guys:


Daniel:

• 35year old
• 185cm
• short dark hair
• dark brown eyes
• Danish
• horny

Yousef:

• 19 year old
• 179cm
• short dark hair
• dark eyes
• fair skin
• algerian
• likes football
• and writing messages of love

I showed them this picture right and Daniel thinks I'm a hot sexy chick or something like that. HAHAH. I'm such a retard.

Seriously

Am I doing the right thing or should I give it time. But I know it wont make a difference becase in the end I'm still the one that’s gonna get hurt. I wanna know though if im rushing things. He’s still in love with her. And adding this to his problem is just going to make things worse and that im sure of. At least after this I wont see him again for a while and that will give me a chance to cool off. But dayum he looks good. I don’t know what his problem is. If I stood next to him there will be a huge contrast and I will look like a maid next to him. That’s shit right?

this is what my sister said.

I Keep Hearing My Mouse Go Click

Oooh, see there it goes again.

I'm wondering, is this the right thing to do?
Please get back to me on that one.
Ooh, I just got an excellent idea.
I'm gonna make a poll, that you guys have to do, PLEASE?

My Hair's Wet

I realised that tomorrow is Monday. Yeah, I know, oh my god right. Ha, no, I'm just saying that the past week has been so relaxing for me with no school work to do and all that stuff but now I can just tell I'm in week of a rollercoaster ride with its ups and downs. I know what to expect, but how I'm going to handle it is a totally different thing. If only I was a real person. That's not right. I am a real person. I'm utterly confused right now. I'm in the middle of everything when I just want to be in a space of my own nothingness.

Discouraged

Just when I think everything is good the dog goes missing. I mean I may not be the nicest owner but I love Codie and if anything happen to her I'll be really sad. I may not show it but I will be. I don't know. I think I deserve this. I don't look after her very well. I don't even wash her. The only thing I do is feed her. And that's about it. I'm the worst dog owner ever.

Yummy.

I got hungry right and I need to lose weight so this is what i decided to go and eat:
- fresh apples chopped into cubes
- one banana also cubed
- 4 slices of cheddar cheese, sliced (LOL)
- half a carrot sliced
put all that in a bowl, ta-da.
its not as bad as i thought. and at least its healthy.
but then again that chocolate dipped banana i had the other day was healthy and that tasted so much better.

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note (1)

I'm happy.

VERY MUCH !

Overall Summary

Work Experience Summary Last Day

fun: 10
boring: 0
people: 10
stress: 0
work: 0

OMG, i'm gonna miss them, like heaps. I didn't do anything today excet scan photos for my boss's wife's 40th Birthday. It was really fun actually. I was trying to work out how the scanners work (I knew I should have listened during IST) and yeah. For lunch I had a grilled chicken burger and it was soo good. My boss, he's like why do you get to eat that. That's it, I'm getting one too and so he buys one as well. Damn. They're really cool and nice people seriously. They swear, they laugh and they joke. They're real people. Anyways I gave them cards and they liked it and that made me even more happier. Awww, I'm just sad now because I know I'm gonna miss them all. So yeah. Work Experience for me was pretty good. (Y)

I went swimming today, that was good too.

Work Experience

I'm just sitting here.
It's fun.
(Y)

I edited my blog. Is it nice? Still have some things to do but I’ll do it when I get home. Yeah, I’m at work experience. Last day. Damn. Gonna miss them. Hopefully they don’t catch me writing nice stuff about them. I’ll just be embarrassed.

Phew (2)

I've stopped following a lot of sites and now my Dashboard looks nice again. I'm sorry people but the presentation is so much better than content. Don't worry. Just cause I've stopped following doesn't mean I've stopped reading. Well it most likely does. So yeah. You know why? I won't answer that.

Taurus 18-06

Today you may be feeling better than you have in a long time, Taurus. It's not just the extra assertiveness or sense that you actually look better today, and it's not just the fact that things are going well for your love-life. You really are feeling a boost in your personal energy that is very beneficial. It would be a good idea to confine your activities to the love-life right now, because the extra confidence could cause you to make business errors that might be hard to fix.

This Is Me

I've been uploading pictures today. A lot of them. Here are more. I think these ones are random ones but I don't care right now. I'm just happy. Woah, it's already 7.20 and I'm still happy. That's good.









As you can see, these are actually pictures of me. But you already knew that. I'm so... I need a word to desrcibe me, seriously. I'm so bad at English and speaking right now.








At kea ngayon puro tagalog na lang ang gagamitin ko kasi alam ko na hindi naman lahat marunong na intidihin ito. Er, hindi ko naman kasi alam kong anong sasabihin ko. Basta maligaya ako ngayon kea wag nyo na lang ako kausapin. Mas mabuti pa yun. Kaso Jensen kasi bakit ayaw mag ol at makausap na kita.

BBye na.

Isn't it great

I've managed to stay off MSN for around a couple of hours now. Which I mean is a great thing. i've started my English thing and everythings AT THIS MOMENT is good. I'm happy. I'm scared though, that as soon as I log on to MSN this mood of mine will slowly disappear and so that's why I've decided not to go on it Just yet.

Work Experience Summary Day 4
Wow, work experience is coming to it's end especially now that I'm actually enjoying it. Why did I choose this date to do so, I know why but sighhhh.

fun: 8
boring: 1
people: 9
stress: 1
work: 1

Much more improvment especially compared to yesterday. Today was even more of a bludge and yeah. And I got to teach them stuff. Well Debbie. She wanted me to show her how to use Photoshop and Windows Movie Maker and I felt so good being able to teach her how to use it because she's 3 times older than me and I knew more than her. Too bad Kate wasn't there today (but she did come at one stage to send something off) so it was really quiet but David (my boss, their boss, THE boss; who really doesn't act like a boss) was singing and whistling and it was funny and random because Debbie was getting annoyed and I couldn't help but laugh. I'm gonna miss them so much. I don't want work experience to stop. I don't want to go back to school. I just like things the way they are now. I guess this can't happen. So yeah. Anyways right now I'm just making their THANK YOU cards. I've personalised each one so that they've been personalised and I really hope that they like the cards because I know I've put effort into them (unlike Deby; who handmakes ALL the cards that they send out). I don't have time to get them presents neither do I have money. I just hope I've put something into their business which has been a good and positive change.

:D

Pictures I Found

These are pictures I found while looking through the net for images to put on the card I was going to give my boss. They're random but it makes me laugh and it reminds me of people. HAHA

LOL ?

Laugh

For some odd reason this pic reminds me of Pat.

Hi Jasmine

Guess what, you're a fool.

And you've made a complete idiot of yourself. Well done.

Why must you be like this?

I guess I'll never know.

Pain

Work Experience Summary Day 3

fun: 7
boring: 1
people: 9
stress: 2
work: 6

My day today at work experience is so much better especially compared to yesterday. I did the usual and more which was nice. I was actually part of the team now and I felt like I was making a contribution which was good. I got to to a listing and if you get Australian Real Estate to advertise your house you'll get a card and guess who got to write one today. Not me. HAHA. You know why? Because I got to do two. I'm easily amazed by things. So yeah. The mood inside the room was really nice. Although to them it was really boring to me it felt so good. And Debbie right she asked me to show her how to use Photoshop and I felt smart because I was getting to show her how to do something. Oooh, I got to laminate stuff today and use the guilatine, or however you spell it.

The bad parts of my day. Dad comes to work right, like to where I was and asks my boss if he can speak to me and so we go outside and he shows me a piece of paper and it was a warning letter from the school, because I failed history and I didn't know what to do because crying wasn't going to be an option. So yeah I failed that which sucks, BIG time. But whatever.

Swimming. I broke down. I did. I couldn't help myself but I just had to. I was swimming the third thing of the first set and I just could't do it anymore. The only reason I didn't give up was because I'm not ready to die yet and drown. But I was crying. Underwater and swearing and I couldn't stop it. I was just annoyed at everything. And the swimming was so hard that I couldn't breathe which didn't help at all. But luckily the swimming slowed down and we were only doing 25 metres things so I'm fine now.

JUST TIRED.

Taurus:

If there hasn't been anything happening in the love life for a while, hang onto
your hat, Taurus, big things are about to happen. If you have someone special
that you have been interested in, this is the day to express that interest, and again, you may not have to, because today is so full of romantic energy that they might express their interest to you. If you are in a relationship already, expect to get more attention or affection than usual today.

- Facebook: Daily Horoscopes

ARGH

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I keep saying:

'I swear...'
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And it's bugging me so much. People know that there are couples everywhere. Most of these couples are my friends. Either one half of the couple or the whole thing. To tell you the truth, it's gay. It's stupid and I don't like it. I'm such a bitch but who gives a fuck. I obviously don't. I should ask my dad to change schools. But then he'll ask why. So I'm just gonna have to put up with all this rubbish.

Maybe, just maybe. I have an illness. You know those ones where people are insane. The people who surround me just wont tell me because their pitying me and they don't want me to start going insane in front of them and be embarrassed. Yeah. That's what's the problem with me. HAHA. I'm ill. HEHE.

I now DON'T want to go back to school.

Rabbit

I have a fetish for rabbits. I love rabbits. My bed buddy is a rabbit. My mouse is a rabbit. I love Bugs Bunny and isn't that picture just adorably cute?

If only I was as cute and adorable as rabbit. Then I'd probably get cooked on MasterChef HAHA, NO. I love rabbits. I think they're my favourite animals. You know what. They probably are. Why am I so clueless sometimes.

I Look Good

Work Experience Summary Day 2

fun: 8
stress: 4
boring: 1
work: 7
people: 9

i forget what else I put there but today it has been a great uplift compared to yestederday. And this time when I arrived there I went straight in and didn't wait outside the door for half an hour even though it was open. I walked in and David was there and he was like Debbie wasn't gonna be there instead Deby was. There's a difference ok. Once short for Deborah and one's not. Anyways he told me to just kill time so i sat down and watch videos and listened to music. When Deby came I got to sit on the big receptionist chair which is really comfortable and i got to use the computer. The things she told me to do was so simple she was surprised when I'd finished them quickly. At that point I felt quite proud of myself becasue I'm not failing and something for once. I put it heaps of data and stuff so yeh. Apart from that I also get to answer the calls. Ijust have to say Goodmorning/goodafternoon, Australian Real Estate, Jasmine speaking (call me 9834 1044). But I really don't like talking to people especially random ones and there was this one guy who was just I don't know, he hung up on me. So I didn't even pass the message on. Eventually she ran out of things for me to do which made me feel even better because I've dont a lot of stuff when really we hadn't even had lunch yet and everything was finished. So yeah. Lunchtime I went next door and bought some chips and gravy. Man the stuff they sell there is worth your money. I got the small one but i couldn't even finish it which is like :O So I tool that home. Anyways that only cost me $3.50 i think. For a small. Anyways after lunch she made me bind papers together. It was really fun because I got to punch the paper with the big machine thing which I've never done before. Then I got to use the thing yu use to put the biding circle on the side. So cool. I overtook the printer. Seriously. It had like a 30 minute headstart and I'd finish the binding all the papers at the same time it took to print like 4 pages. Except don't tell anyone I kinda stuffed up one paper which I don't think they know about because just as I was to fix it I had to leave. Oh, btw you guys should see Kate, she's so pretty and she's heaps nice. She keeps calling me sweety (ahhaaa) but yeh. She's awesome (Y).

I'm just eating now. Bet you already knew that.


BBBYEEE

*I swear if I say 'I swear ONE more time, i'm gonna hit someone, seriously.

I feel so much better now. I don't know what the hell happened last night but Iwish that I would just be not stupid and act normal. And I'm still thinking about. Thank you Sumeet, but I really think that you were meant to be a girl. Someone just made a mistake when they were making you.

270 degrees

on a nicer note here is a 270 degree of my very messy room, (i cleaned it now). And only 270 because one of the photos effed up.

i'm bored ok.

Ouch

I don't feel to good. I know why. I don't exactly know how I should be feeling. I mean I can't help a person's love but then again it could just be me. I don't really want to talk about it. Not publicly but I have to tell someone, so Jasmine hurry up and go online because I can't handle it anymore. I'm going to have a breakdown, like soon.

"MIND
BLANK"

I should just stop it. Maybe then nothing could happen. And I can't hurt myself no matter what. I don't want to cry about it. I don't want to be angry about it. I just want to be left alone and have no worries. But that would mean I'm living in a dream or a world of fantasy where everything would be perfect.

I think that cry wouldn't be so bad...

corn is yellow

work exerience day 1 summary

fun: 6
stress: 3
boring: 7
work: 5
people: 8

as you can see from my summary, my first day of work experience hasn't exactly been what I expected. I knew it wasn't gonna be excitingly fun but I kinda expected more. At least they're great people who have awesome personalities (i think that may be because they are REAL ESTATE agents and they have to be believable and persuade people) and they're really nice. Ooh, the boss of the place is really funny and they even said he's not your typical boss because he really isnt. I turned up this morning and he was wearing shorts with sandals? And I thought to myself why the hell am I wearing this for. But later on in the day he go changed so phew. Otherwise if he hadn't I so would have turned up dressed less like how I was. Anyways I got there 10 to 9 right and I was waiting there for like 20 minutes and then Kate ( i know her name but I didn't at that time ) just walks in and I'm just like OH! I seriously thought that door was locked but I didn't actually check if it was or not. It just had a 'Closed' sign so I assumed it was, but it wasn't. I totally forgot what I was talking about but like doesn't matter now. I'm just enjoying work experience because no school and no ENGLISH PRESENTATION that i must have to do. LOL, must and have don't mix. Right now I'm eating corn. It's cold. Stop wasting your itme blogging Jasmine. Ooh, you guys search Goodness Gracious Me on youtube. Funny stuff.

laters

Watch This

Ok, seriously. I love church and it's even more excitingly fun when Fr. Jun is the presider. Anyways during todays mass he showed us this video and telling us about people and how they are seen. But really I just wanted to upload it and show you guys. Enjoy.

If you guys want more, here is the link for the video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pTib5ic8cMI

Good huh?

Pointless

I suddenly feel meaningless and my existence is of no use. What i write won't change anything nor will it affect anyone in anyway. Gosh. That sucks.

Previous Blog

this is my dad being himself on the answering machine.

MESSAGE ONE
(indian accent) hello may i speak to jasmine
my friend
this is ur indian friend
good bye
END OF MESSAGES

Get better already.

I'm still sick but I feel slightly better than yesterday. I have to get better now because I have Work Experience in two days and I can't look horrible. Well sound horrible. Anyways my day has been the usual even though I have been sick. I can't complain because I want something and that is to go out a LOT during the holidays. So I better start the sucking up to my parents now.

This is just something funny that you have to listen to. It's my dad being, well my dad really. Just listen, listen carefully and there's nothing to see. It's just that I can't upload sounds and if i can I can't be bothered trying to work it out.

no offence to anyone, plus it wasn't me anyway.

bye. off to eat dinner and stuff now.

Feeling Horrible

I just want to spend more time with him...










* didn't feel too good today. But at least I looked the exact opposite of that. Thank you people for noticing and giving me compliments because it's so uplifting and makes me feel so much better, really :D.

WE next week. Hoorah

Swine Flu?

I'm still sick. But don't worry I'm pretty sure I don't have the swine flu or the normal flu, so people relax. Except I can't really relax because I don't like being sick at all THAT much.

Today was good. And if i may say so myself I looked pretty damn good today especially that I was and still am sick. So yeah. It was also cold and I missed out on the extra lesson of health and I really wanted to join in on the fun. Damn :(

I failed history but awesomely ok in IST (which btw we also did our stupid IST presentation, hopefully we get ok marks for that) and I topped the class in the report marks. So it feels really good. Wow, I should study for more subjects because the feeling of being on top is soooooo good.

:D

My hands are freezing so no more blogging.

Router is now working: WIRELESS !!

A Real Blog Post

Ok, my previous blog posts have been randomly not making sense. Maybe that's because I've been lazy and I obviously can't be bothered to do so. I just wanted to say a few things about today and hopefully after that I can go do some other thing which is more fun than wasting my time on the computer. Finish watching 'The Nanny Diaries' maybe. So here's how my day went.

I woke up and I just felt horrible. All grogy and everything, although I don't think that was the right word to use, oh well it sounds good anyway. It was damn cold this morning and I was literally freezing. Even my own breath couldn't keep me warm anymore. I seriously need someone else to keep me warm now, if you know what I mean. HAHA, no but it was cold because of that wind thingo. First period was maths. Ivy was doing work because of me and because I wouldn't talk to her. Well I would have but everyone was going too fast with their work so I slowed down they ended up giving up. LOL, so in the end Ivy decided to give up too. Maths was uberly fun except the teacher was really really really REALLY random, like it was just odd. Recess, freezing and a thousand thoughts went through my head. Anyways science comp during period 2 so I didn't go to Commerce and get my mark, which I knew was going to be low anyway but whatever. I stuffed that comp because I just couldn't be bothered and a massive headache seriously. It was not nice. So that's basically a fail. Then afterwards I had to get my commerce mark back which wasn't very good for my standards but I wasn't in the mood to mourn my failure, even though it wasn't really a fail esp. compared to others so I should be happy and I guess I am so people don't get angry at me. Sport, was not particularly fun. A massive let down actually. I just wasn't feeling it today and someone had to ruin the mood for me as well. Not gonna mention any names but it's probably quite obvious who it was anyway. At least I get a break from everyone next week. A whole week man. Isn't that exciting. Damn, I just realised something, and now I'm quite sad about it.

Well, who cares about that. Went to plaza afterwards after planning to get a few things, ended up only getting like one or two of them. One of them is the following pictures. Is it nice? Please say it is, well tell me the truth actually.

And the following picture is a picture of my very messy table I took a picture of while taking a picture of moì. And also talking to PJ at the same time. I'm such an awesome multi-tasker.

continue later.

and apparantly, I'm pretty. HMMM..

It hurts

The feeling pain surges through my body.
What did I do to deserve this?

*sigh

....



it's all because of
YOU

Another thought

Does anyone really care about me...

would anyone wonder if i disappeared.

if i didn't answer their calls.

or just not reply to anything anyone say to me.

would you stop me if i tried to jump of a bridge

if i cried my little heart out

or sat there by myself, alone.

Well here's what I think:

If I was me then i would just wonder what the hell is wrong with her?

She has a wonderful life that many people would want any day.

Not everyone may want it but a lot of people would see how lucky I am. To have what I have. To be with the people I'm with. Throwing all that away would be a complete waste and it's not worth it.

So basically, hi :)

I'm so good at ruining the mood.

Missing My Cousin

She's so damn cool right. Like I haven't seen her in ages. Last time I saw her was in Philippines. Obviously, but like I remember the good times when we'd go shopping. Ooh, and that one day on my birthday we were a Mall of Asia right and I went on a shopping spree along with her but like we get back to the restaurant where we had to meet up everyone and I full got into trouble. But it was fun spending time with her. I want her to come here to Australia because if she does then we can live together in our own flat without parents. But the thing is she has a boyfriend and I don't think she wants to leave him. Oh well. At least he's cool. Short but cool. HAHAHA.

I miss you ate, a lot...

Hi There

Another day, another blog...

key events:
Fiona's Birthday!
math's exam (y11)
results for science
indoor hockey
cold
me & anavi are now together.

Uhm, oh yeah. You have to see this things I wrote while watching 'The Nanny Diaries'. It's so funny and random. Ok, not funny. but defintely random.

This is just something I'm writing while i'm watching 'The Nanny Diaries'.
I've watched this movie before but like not the start. I totally forgot if I've
watched the end or not. But like you know whatever right? And you know what it
has Alicia Keys in it so like it's even more cooler but Scarlett Johansson is so
pretty, like OMG. AHAHHAA. I'm up to the part where she has freedom finally from
her parents. Dude, it's so funny. I can't believe I'm wasting my time typing
this up at the same time I'm watching this movie. Oooh, her name is Annie and it
rhymes with Nanny.You know what I feel like living in Manhattan now, just as
much as I want to be in Uni right now instead of high school. It's so cool
there.No naps, during the day? How mean is that. And why is there so many rules,
like anyone even cares. What's the point of having a child if you're not gonna
live with it. Man, those kids are such stuck up snobs. And a father's business
card into a security blanket. LOL, this is so funny. She has pink panties and
that guy. Far out, he's hot. Harvard Hotty. Yummy. And the little kid is just
adorable. Hehe, I wish I was cute too. Reminds me so much of Sunshine, because
that little kid is so annoying. How come she's s skinny and sexy but she eats so
much. Far out. I hate how much I look. Well, I look good but like I'm so fat.
I'm really annoyed at myself because I try to lose weight but then I
continutally keep giving up. Stop being mean to you mom, Annie. Some people are
just so stuck up it's really anoying and it's getting to me right now. Oooh, he
wants to eat sushi too. Alyssa, why did you have to eat the green wrapper for
the sushi. Eating food out of the jar, yummy. Man all these commentations I'm
making are so odd and random. I want a secret name. Grover. Oooh, I know what
mine can be. Bobby. That's a good secret name. Why won't it show his face.That's
such a mean dad. That's probably one of the good things about this family. Papa
is too cool to be too mean. Frere jacques frere jacques, dorme vous dorme vous,
sollez ne mattini sollez ne matini, ding dang dong ding dang dong. They have to
dress up. They look funny. That's a good joke. At least I'm fully dressed now.
Man, i'm enjoying myself instead of doing my English assignment.The party looks
fun. I want to join in. I know who the father is now. Man, he's so ugly and he's
cheating on the wife. That chick is being used and he's such a bitch. Where's
the love? Adultery in the upper east side is ignored. Oooh, that's so
fascinating. Haha, she's in love with Grover. I wonde if I'll ever get the
chance to say that to anyone. Why are you so cruel to me? You're so mean. Stop
it, stop it, please. Makes you wonder what that's about because it doesn't make
me wonder about it at all. Please don't leave your personal items with our
belongings ever again (looks at the see through lacy dress) Funny stuff. I wish
I had a nanny like her. She's so cool. There's dinosaurs in the museum. Oooh,
I've never been to one of those. Well I have but not to a cool one like this
one. Gaah, Mrs. X is such a bitch and I really don't like her. Anxiety with
leaving your kids with strangers. What the hell. Why would you get nannies in
the first place. Nanny cam. That's not an urban myth. Just to let anyone know
who plans to be a nanny when they're older. Alicia Keys, dayum, she looks good
and hot. I'd so tap that. Woah, those guys are so hot. Harvard Hotty, oooh la
la. Hoorah. Alyssa just came in the room right and tells us that we now had a
router. Isn't that amzingly awesome. Ok, now I'm just hoping that it works
because if it doesn't especially on MY laptop that will be so gay. And she
ruined my movie man. I was like in the best position and currently enjoying it
and she just runs through the door AYAYAY. Now I have to get up and close it so
I might as well get me some food and drink and peeing would be good to.
BRB.

Quite random. :P

Annoyed

At multiple things:
- waking up to find out I slept in my sisters room. urgh
- cleaning up. urgh
- having to stop watching movies to connect the router. urgh
- failing to connect the router. urgh
- it's cold. urgh
- school tomorrow. urgh
- regrowths. urgh.

list could go on.

i watched movies today.
* 10 things i hate about you
* the nanny diaries.


^urgh is your fault jasmine.

Hi

After reading numerous blogs I've noticed that:
-people like to post heartfelt stories
- recounts of their days
- quotes
- pretty pictures
- the most random things ever
But my question is, what are my blogs about ?

Please answer me that question. Cause I'd really like to know the answer to it.

Click

I must remind myself to:
- write an essay
- finish homework
- write another essay
- start english.

I think that's it for now.
I'm shitting myself atm, because I'm worried that I got ecstatic about my half yearly result for science and like what if it turns out they made a mistake and it's lower than it really is.

*People don't like me. As I don't like people.

I dont like him.

Just Do It...But what must I do?

Ok, I found this picture right:

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I just don't get it.

Idiot

I'm currently on 20GB download a month. So I decided to download a movie. I got Angels and Demons. Silly me, got a documentary on it. Now i feel like quite and idiot. Oh well.

*People are such fakes. And I don't like many people now. I've narrowed the list down. The list doesn't need to be know by everyone. Just by me.

- I'm not a nice person.

Blogs

It's just another thing which comes into fashion. At first everyone wants it, then slowly it dies down and everyone just forgets about it. I think most things in life goes through this cycle. That pen on your desk, this computer, you. But has it ever occured to you why people are like. Well, to me, it actually hasn't. And I don't know why I'm asking this now, but I'm just wondering. Why can't we like something and actually keep liking it without losing interest. Sometimes it's a good thing and you feel that you've just let go of another stage. But other times it makes you feel incomplete. I don't know. I'm just in another one of those moods where I have to question everything I can think about. For once I should just relax and set myself free from all of this. I've been planning to actually but where and when...

Cimammon

In the backround at this moment, I can hear the Game Plan playing and it's so funny cause Sunshine is up to the part where he eats the cookies which had cinammon and he happened tobe allergic to.

I woke up to find out that I wasn't in my room. I fell asleep on the floor of my parents room. Next to my parents on their bed was Sunshine and on the other side, on the floor was Alyssa. Woah man. This was only because I was sleeping there. I continued to sleep after that because I knew I didn't have to go swimming this morning and so I slept in.

I havent done much today. Started some of school work and I also got a very painful Flu Vaccine. Hmmm, not really just making it sound worse to Alyssa and Sunshine. HAHA. The best part was afterwards she gave us jellybeans. Yum.

I just finished watching Valkryie and now I'm off to do some research so I can get my English speech started and done, like soon so I can practise it and stuff. Because I don't want to fail English. I need to bring my mark up. ASAP.

Bye for now.

p.s. I'm so good. I told my dad about the dress I wanted to buy and wear to the disco. Here's how the convo went:

Me: papa, can i buy a dress for the disco. It's $30.
Papa: where are you gonna buy it from?
Me: Jeanswest.
Papa: and when are you gonna buy it?
Me: when you give me the money to buy it.
Papa: What?! are you kidding me?
Me: no. what else am i gna buy it with.
Papa: YOU'RE money.
Me: but that's my birthday money. I'm meant to save it up.
Papa: but it you don't spend it the value goes down.
Me: Fine, give me at least half.
Papa: ok, that's fine.

I'm so happy because now I've saved myself $15 to buy anything else I want. I'm so good.
:D

mouse

i wonder, does anyone in the school actually like me because of me and not because they want to seem like a very friendly person who doesn't hate or dislike anyone. Because lately that's what it seems like. Well not everyone but I've been observing and that's what it seems like. And when I observe I know, because I'm good at that. I can read people.

What is said about today being a let down especially compared to yesterday, it wasn't that bad. I mean after receving our english marks back you know. I was disappointed but I expected it. I'm not good at it so I don't know why I'm going to wish that I get a really good mark. I mean I would take a good mark if it were possible but I know that there's a small chance that could happen. Basically today was just full of the most random shit ever and I just kept telling everyone how good my day was yesterday. Mostly to Ivy because I knew how much she would have wanted to go and she did. She kept telling me that I should have told her and stuff and I was like, ok, next time. We also planned the trip to city and we're both very excited about going. Hoorah.

I'm really confused, like I miss one day of school and a whole lot of things happen. I don't know maybe people don't want to tell me or I'm just realy slow or not noticing it in the first place. I'm quite annoyed at that though.

I had to do health exam in Science. And we were outside, like 4 of us and we started talking as soon as the teacher closed the door. Man, that test was so hard. OMG. Oh well. it's only health right? Anyways when I finished the exam I went inside the classroom and I got my results back for science. Ok, I better not get my hopes up or anything but here's what I got:
one word answer: 9/10
multiple choice: 14/18
long answer: 25 / but im not sure what out of
so as you can see those are the results I received. I really want to get over 90 THAT badly but yeah. As long as I'm top of class or near the top it's all good. It was funny, because Bahroze was complaining about how I only beat him by 1 mark.

I needed chocolate therapy so i bought chocolate. Now i'm all good.

bye-bye-bye-bye

AH SHIT

FUDGEE

:@

UNSW Engineering Day

My day today was awesome. No doubt about that. And for once I'm blogging about something that no one else has on their blog which is nice because it hasn't been original for a while now, with everyone talk about the same topics, the same funny moments and the same everything. So, no more blabbing about nonsense, here's how my day went.

I had to wake up early right because I had to catch an early bus to make the early train to make the time we had to arrive at the University. At the station I caught a train right and made a last minute decision to get off at Blacktown and I thought that was a big mistake because I got lost and I had no clue where I was. Luckily later(like 5-10 minutes later) I see Sumeet, Bahroze and his sister and I was saved from being lost. And so we went our ways (basically, his sister caught a different train) and we sat there in the train. The train ride was long, had silent moments, which would then be filled with good funny moments. Like how I was going on about something totally cut, then they asked me again and I forgot, and I'm not gonna say the rest because I sounded so stupid. We got to Parra and saw Devesh and Siddarth there. That's when the train to the city came and so we were on the start of our great journey.

Arriving at Central, there were people everywhere and it was so easy to get lost. Not that I would get lost because I'm pro at navigation. So we went to the bus station across the road and went to the Uni, which was about a 20 minute ride. Unbelievable. At the Uni, Oh MY EFFING GOSH! It was humongous and you had to walk so far and there were so many stairs. That's when I noticed that there were no fat people there. Probably because of all the walking they had to do. We got to the main building and that's where we had to get registered and we all got name tags, but my name didn't have a capital letter which kinda disappointed me but it's only a tag that EVERYONE will read. That's when we also got our own itenerary for the day and I found out that I was with Sumeet for 2/3 of the things and the first one we were both lonered, kinda. So there was an introduction at the beginning (of course) and then we got separated into our first session.

First session: Electrical Engineering & Telecommunications
Being alone, I thought that this would be a good opportunity to clear my mind and let it wander as I was in the thing by myself. I actually found it quite fascinating and I was interested in it. There were little groups in the thing were we had to go around each thing and see the displays they had. There was a satellite they were making, measuring gravity using sound, ananoneonmeter (haha, i totally forgot what it's called), a robotic segway, and a human controlled segway (which i totally did NOT get a turn on, so unfair) but it was really good. Got me interested, that's for sure. And not bored.

Recess: Yummy
When the first session concluded, we went back outside the main building where we had been before. As I approached it, I saw MUFFINS. And the only reason I saw it was because it was bigger than my hand and man it tasted good. Not as good as the cakes I make but still good. I also got this drink and the water bottle was shaped so cool-ly. HAHAH.

Session 2: Petrolium Engineering
Ok, that may sound so boring but during the talk thing there was points where it did. But being a petrolium engineer pays. Or as the teacher said You need big pockets. He also said that our previous Prime Minister went to California to see the Terminator. AHHAA. He was a funny old man. But yeah being a PE is good and I think it might be a future option in my career. Oh and Sumeet and Devesh. Immature. Starts laughing cause one guy's name is Mohammed and the other guy full has a Kiwi accent. And I just shake my head at both of them. This was also where I found out Devesh's true sexuality...gay.

Lunch: There's AWESOME FOOD waiting.
When I heard that it made me all happy which made Sumeet and Devesh laugh which made me grumpy at them. But at least the energy I had from being happy helped me get up all the stairs. Talk about a big school. Like I said. No one there is fat. Anyways. Back at the main building again, I saw food but what a let down man. I thought there was gonna be awesome food. Well there wasn't. It was just a plain BBQ which was too plain for me. It didn't have enough variety. But one can't complain. AHHAA. I got another water bottle. But i finished it so I chucked it away. OMG, the guys during lunch continued making fun of me. I don't see the need for them to do that but like, they're so mean. I made up words for them. Weirdarded (weird + retard) gaynie (gay + meanie ) yeah.

Third & Final Session: Computer Engineering
This was a pretty good session because we got to see robots in action. Man, that Uni is heaps good. They've won so many trophies around the world and everything. It just makes me want to go there to school there etc. But it's really fun. Like it was funny because one of the robots started kicking the goal posts because it thought it was the ball (only because it was looing for the colour orange and the posts looked orange because of the poor lighting). After the session we got free pens right, that were meant to have LED lights which worked but I got a fail one, but at least it can still right because the ink works. (the guy said it was because they came from china and that's why they're like that).

This was the end of the day and we had to go back to the main building and we got a bag with a pen and a booklet. (Woo another free pen) We also had to fill in this survey and like it's all good. On the bus me and sumeet were looking at where the security cameras were placed on the bus and everytime it was on the one I was on it, I would look at the screen and wave at it. I also said somehting but yeah.

We missed the train. Basically it was because we were late. What other reason could it be? That's when we decided to just eat food then catch a later train. And so we did. (My hands are so tired and I'm so tired. Like seriously) And yeah. We had to catch a limited stops one so then I got lonered on the train early but oh well. Soon I got home.

* Must not forget: there were white guys too but we didn't really talk to them much because they were doing different things and because they racists. HAHA, nah, they good. Another thing, Sumeet is stuck with writing a report about our day now because he volunteered because no one else would do it. And so, I thought he would have done it by now but I guess not so I couldn't use that to put up instead which is such a shame.

So overall my day was heaps good. Way better than being at school and being stuck in class doing work and stuck with everyone and eating low class food. At the uni, there was like a whole 50+ people in a group all drinking beer and I was just amazed. DAYUM !

happy (y)



bye.


p.s. i'll try to get a picture of bahroze.

yeah baby

today was awesome (Y)

more later.

HB JASMINE

I can’t believe that on all the days that I'm hardly on the computer is the day of my friend’s birthday. But don’t worry, I'm hoping I can still post a blog. And if this is being read by people apart from me then obviously I have not missed blogging on this very special day.

Anyways I woke up right, like really early. Uhm, 5.30. Because I wanted to prepare Jasmine’s cake like early so I can still do other stuff. Fail. Got nothing done. Practically was late for the bus but the cake was done. Only thing I accomplished in the morning. Oh and getting her the prettiest rose we had in our garden. Look at the cake. Yum.

The night before. More like midnight, I stayed up late trying to make a friggin paper rose. But well done to me. I did it and accomplished it. Another photo opportunity. I'm gonna summarize the rest of this blog.

Jasmine’s day was awesome. Both of ours actually. I hid from her in roll call, which didn’t work. And yeah. I'm gonna be in trouble if I stay in the computer any longer but JASMINE, mate happy birthday, like that hasn’t been said enough but too bad. Not gonna say anymore about her birthday because I know a lot of other people are gonna write about it. Just visit Anavi’s or Jasmine’s page and I'm pretty sure they’ll give you better detail.

Tennis today. Walked to OFFICEWORKS. Uhm, waited there for like an hour. Got bored.

Oooh, you must see my new mouse. Another photo.

Hehe. Bye.

CHOOSE-DAY

WARNING
The following may contain blood scenes and coarse language.

I'd never thought that i'd be so happy about getting my periods but i am. ok. i got them just now and here goes another emotional rollercoaster ride for the week. Hmmm, i wonder if that made sense. If not, you get what I mean anyway. But, the only reason I wanted to get it was because I don't exactly feel like going to swim tomorrow even though Jasmine wil be there and so I get to see her, but I'm just lazy right now and I don't feel like moving up. I know it'll be harder and it'll be a new challenge but you know it's all going too fast.
BTW. I DON'T THINK YOU NEEDED TO KNOW ABOUT THAT :P

You'll never guess what day it is tomorrow. HAHHAA. Well I decided that she told me not to get her anything that I won't get her anything except for that large card that is not actually for her (if you know what I mean). I would make the cake right but i'm too lazy maybe I'll make it for the day after. Yeah, good idea. I'll make the cake for thursday instead.

Today was good. Normal and good. Just the way it's meant to be. No big dramas; nothing like that. It felt good. Wait except the green eyed monster was unleashed and *sigh. It shouldn't really be a bother but whatever right. I told Anavi, now it feels so good. I understand what Katrina meant by telling someone else now. It just feels so much easier and ligther. Thank you ANAVI :D THAT'S ALL!

p.s. i found italian good today. I mean i got a pretty average mark but that's when things occurred to other people and not me. I felt bad for some whilst others just scared me, but it's not my life and so what can I do about it ? and I mustn't forget to say that mahal na mahal ko ung isang kapatid ko na lalaki, kaso nga lang hindi nya alam. :P

I'm not translating that, do it yourself if you really want to know.

Musn't forget:
Beves: Who am I gonna make pregnant?
Kaitlin: ooh, ME ! ME ! (realises what he said in another way) ewww.
LOL

I'm Listening to Relaxing Music...Desi Girl

HAHA, Sunshine's right here next to me and she's currently doing her homework or at least I thought she was. Instead she's looking over my shoulder and reading what I'm writing, so SUNSHINE GO AWAY!

Today was average. I mean the weather it wasn't raining but neither was it sunny so it was quite an eventful day. Maybe because it was I wasn't with the people who I wanted to be with the most but we all know there's only person to fill that job (right Katrina) and btw, WTF with curasians and seriously NO! Not gonna happen. It's just the big difference between two people which will make sure that this can never occur.

According to Anavi, I'm supposedly pregnant, with Emma's baby. (Therefore Katrina, no curasians) and yeah. Funny stuff. I felt lazy today, like really. You know, if only the day had been more eventful then maybe it would have been more action, if you get what i mean. But right now, I don't mind the boring events of my life. Because of the boring events in my life, I'm not stressed and i can just chillax (ty rollercoaster + elliot) HAHAHA.

BYE.