kmdkn

I don't know why you do it.
It's not like I planned to "hurt" you.
Fuck, and you wonder why I'm such a bitch.


RAGE.


And this is why I don't like to share.


Oh and how many "bestfriends" do you need? Are you that insecure that you need to label your friends and make other people bad from "taking" them away from you?



OHMYGOSH RAGGEEEE.

where the fuck are you sumeet.

Weekend

So today, IT WAS FUCKING GREAT. Ha, apart from my day, there's also the Royal Wedding which is to begin in less than half and hour, I think. That's what Sunshine said anyway. I'm kinda hyped, yes, call me a loser or whatever but I think it's a big deal. People, do you now know that one day this woman could be running the country. I mean it's not THAT possible, but it could still happen. Also the fact that I actually find her gorgeous and absolutely lucky to have met her man, who just happens to be the Prince of Wales. Back to reality, I also have a wonderful man, who IVY IN CASE YOU ARE READING THIS IS WAYYYYY BETTER THAN YOUR BOYFRIEND.

I want the whole world to know my boyfriend, actually not really because I'm scared someone might steal him away, yeah he's that hot and great and perfect. So anyways he's hairy and tall and kind and hairy and sexy and tall and loving and hairy and horny LOL and hairy. He has hair. Like seriously. Hair. Dude, I love you, and I know you'll be reading this so :P Uh he's hairy and I absolutely love him, like ABSOLUT VODKA hahah, I remember that night I swear if Kat hadn't been there you seriously would have gotten me to do whatever you wanted, but I was smart, oh so very smart. Oh why I like this guy and why he's so great? Because he makes me feel on top of the world even at the most unsophisticated and unclassy and dirty places. Of course that's in reference to what happened today. But what happened today is of course my DIRTY little secret. LOOOOL, not at that but another joke which I shall mention another day.

I do feel bad though. Yesterday I full dogged you at 11.30 and I wanted to cry. I mean I wanted to see you but like I couldn't cause I had to stay in class and pay attention. I don't want to fall behind, please understand. And I did TRY to sext Sukhman but he ignored my message and wanted you to think I totally forgot all about you so that you'd fall into his arms while you were vulnerable and take you away from me. I know his intentions, I can see it in his eyes. But I'm too good and yeah. So hopefully I've made up for the wrong I've done. And also, sorry about today. I can't freaking believe that I still failed religion. I studied a fair amount for that exam because 1. I wanted to do well and 2. I had to. Yet my efforts weren't given with the mark that I deserved although, I have been breaking so many rules of my religion and I guess this is what they call, Karma and yes I prolly did deserve the mark that I did get. I'm just not happy but I'm glad that I'm not the ONLY ONE to fail. Not that failing is any good. Yeah so sorry about that part of today. I'm pretty sure I've made up for it though. If not be prepared on Monday :D I sure will  be.

Nothing else to really say. Uh, weekend, which in my mind just means two days of not seeing Sumeet which is a negative thing. I'd rather put up with school and all the troubles it creates as well as stress JUST SO I can be with him during recess and lunch. Fuck, I really am into this guy and I find it so lame. HEHHE.

Also I just remembered, Justin Bieber's concert, second one in Sydney is today. I can't belieb I'm not there right now so Sumeet better give me a good show for me ahha, and he also said that he's gonna watch Never Say Never with me. Awww what a sweet boyfie. Heheh.

Okay, for real, that I got nothing much else to say.
Laters bychezzzz.
♥


p.s. this is for you babe. TICK ONE OF THE FUCKING BOXES, so I know if you like my blog entries. And so I know if you've read it or not. Which I'm pretty sure you read em anyway. loveyou

FFFFFF

Fuck school
fuck this assignment
fuck everything
fuck you.


For some reason I can't seem to control my emotions. I swear if this is the pills then I am indeed in deep shit, but it's just too fucking much. I leave the house, ecstatic, lively, happy and I come back crying to myself, for who knows what reason. I just find it too... I don't know I suppose random.

Anyways I have an Engineering assignment to do, it's due tomorrow. I'm nearly finished so might as well get it done now.

Also I thought the first day of school was good. Got home, and then realised how shit it really was.

LOL jk.

too bad it wasn't april fool's day.
but it was a great day
:)


im weird.

Sour

You keep giving me a very sour feeling,

That doesn't make sense at all but when have I ever.

Anyways holidays are nearly over soon and like there's two days left. I have a tonne of assignment and shit that needs to get done and I have no motivation to go any of it. I have been doing it, it just seems like there's no point starting it now after procrastinating during the entire two weeks. Though I may say that it hasn't really been putting things off because I haven't put my baby off, I've been trying to spend most of time doing anything I mean absolutely anything about him, even if it's just thinking about being with him. I feel like that past few weeks have definetly changed my outlook on not life but how I see people as the person they are and frankly, I couldn't give a damn who they are because it ain't my life. Oh except I prefer it when people shave their long asssss beards, just saying, NOT REALLY AIMING IT AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR, like ANYONE I MIGHT SEE IN THE NEAR FUTURE, I like trimmed or not hairy basically and when I make out with SOMEONE I'd prefer if it was as smooth as a baby's bottom. HAHA, damn, I really should SHAVE I mean save those links that he gives me, they're funny as and well I just like like the thought that it was from him. Gosh, I'm so lame these days and boring. I don't do anything fun anymore or go out or talk to people. i've been completely anti-social and anti-social. LOL, but yeah. I like it when people shave, JUST SAYING.

I love you...


:)

NB

Just so you all know.

Sumeet's mine.

And I don't share.

Hey baby

Na na na na.

So I was gonna post something sexy for you from our favourite website, but instead got carried away and just kept reading. HAHAH, so I will share it with you later.

I love you.

You make me say not much. Far out.


:P

I dont have any pictures of you,...If you know what I mean..Like normal ones so you owe me that AND last night I actually thought I looked rather lovely so I took heaps and heaps of pics just so you can see how I did look. :)

Why is it blurry? I have no idea why. But next time I post a post with picture I want it to be a picture of us. So GIVE IT TO ME already. Hahaha, I'm in need for You desperately, again,. if you know what I mean. I like speaking in code. Oh, btw... 85 90 74 ♥ That's my favourite. Hehe.

Cookies

Im kinda jealous.

But I'm getting more than enough so I really should just be satisfied. Plus it's not like I'm not happy. I feel like I'm out of this world. So happy. Hehe

Oh Oh

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus


I think that line is absolutely nice. Also today I think I have alot more to say, which is a change because lately I haven't had the need to write and express myself and such. I know why and the cause of this whatever whatever but anyways no more rambling and get down to serious business.

While studying today, on my bed, Sunshine decided to annoy the cat and so it went into my room and sleep on my bed. It then started grooming itself and licking itself in places I do not want to mention. I did however start taking videos of it but I can't be bothered uploading it and sharing it with the world. But I just found it funny. Actually the cat did the same thing yesterday. It was on my bed and it licked itself everywhere and so I video-ed it and then last night I showed it to Alyssa who laughed with me. So see it actually is funny. But that wasn't a very serious topic thingy.

I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what's your name?


I wish I could answer that and say Jasmine, but firstly I ain't pretty and I can hear someone going against that but shuttup bitch, I don't care what you say. Remember idgaf, but YOU'D GAF. You better get that because if you don't...I'll explain later :)

I think I got used to being with you all the time now that you're not here, damnnnnn, I feel so empty. Please fill me up again ;) Oh that reminds me...

The first time we had sex, HE broke the bin.

LOL, I found that so funny. Now everytime I see my bin, I laugh. Because it's just so funny. I wonder if that really happens. Yeah, I really found the most random things amusing. I don't know why. Oh another thing I remembered. The other night when Kat was here, we got up to mischief and drank pure cordial and after like 4-5 shots of it I started feeling a little weezy and it sure felt like I was getting a tad bit tipsy. I was even on cam laughing uncontrollably even though there was nothing. Anyways that night, omgosh, so horrible. Woke up with the shittest feeling ever, and my throat hurted and so on and so on. This is only here for future references. Next time that happens, it won't be with Kat but with you baby, and I'm pretty sure you'd be using it to your own advantage, if you know what I mean. HAHHAHAHHAH.

On a totally different note. What the freaking fuck is wrong with you? Like seriously. Get over it. Please. I know it's non of my business but when people dwell on such things that KINDA involves me it's annoying. Firstly I like to avoid such things but when you do that making people guilty and such, that's just a big NO-NO! Haha, but seriously. I thought I told you already, I don't care, so just I'm asking you one more time. Leave it. Oh boy, karma's gonna get me back for that. Yeah, dude, that really makes me feel good man. Uhm, and is it that hard to appreciate what you do have and just be happy with it? Seriously, I doubt you have the worst life on Earth and like yours may not also be the best, but don't you think you need to start seeing things on a brighter side or whatever the saying is.

No more of that mean stuff. My holidays have been really uneventful except when Kat came and the fact that I kinda got my boyfriend back. I should be a bitch and CRY everytime I don't talk to him. Or don't get an email.

FROM NOW ON, If sumeet does not email me or msn me or communicate with me, I SHALLL CRY.

HAHAHHAHHAHAHA, that's blackmail, but I love it. Hahah, nah, babe, don't worry. I'm kidding. I understand. And look at that, see how special you are. You got a special mention on here.

ਇ ਲੋਵੇ ਯੋਊ

Yes, I know how to write in another language now. Cause I'm so talented and multi-lingual. If it's another language I know, It would have to be Korean, considering all I've really done during these holidays is watch Korean Drama, which is really sad, so don't judge.

That's all for now bychezzz.

xoxo.
♥

p.s. ਯੋਊ'ਰੇ ਫਟ.

Eighteenth April

Yesterday was really special, even though there was nothing to celebrate.

Just kidding bitch. Didn't get to see you but like whatever. I was happy enough that I even got to talk to you. And as sad and lame as it may sound, I look forward to getting emails every morning because it makes me really happy and they're so sweet. I constantly smile to myself thinking, fuck, I sure am lucky. And everyone knows it.

I'm basically out of things to say, to everyone else anyway because I've pretty much said all that I can to my hunny bunny. Gosh, I'm so happy. I still cry at night though, but this time because of happiness. I'm filled with good memories that I just want to cherish and I want to build up this collection because it's one thing that I can do that is useful to me and won't upset me one bit.

Yeah anyways


Dear bitch,

I hate love you.

I can't fucking wait for next month.

I'm so happy.

You're the best.

Love always, me.


♥

i'm sorry baby

Firstly, I did not know you actually read this.
Secondly, I was just being over the top.
Thirdly, no matter what you do, I'd still love you...

You're what gets me through every single day.

On a much happier note :P 5 weeks left of my childhood. Need to start living it to the fullest and no more holding back, not that I haven't already but like you know, whatever. So excited, I don't actually know what to do on the day yet but I sure hope it will be fun as fun as ever. Another thing approaching is 6 + 9 + me + you = ♥ Man, time flies when you put it on fast forward haha, but yeah that long alreayd sheeeeeesh. Yeah got nothing else to say. Too damn happy. Thank you for making my day, two days in a row now. heheheh

much love.
jasmine.

It's been a while

I've lost the motivation to write.

It seems like you don't trust me and when you do that I feel that I can't trust you as well and I don't feel like telling you anything. It's kinda making our relationship rocky. I don't like it.

I wish I could just end things, I don't want to though.


YOU MAKE ME CRY.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU.

and then you ask my why I drink.

I'm so angry.

It's not fair.

Is this all karma?

Post

just so you know, i still care.

I can't stand seeing you get hurt, especially cause of me and for some reason it makes me happy seeing you happy. I was and still am stupid but what's done is done and let's just let time heal itself. Until then be happy...

Fuck, that was lame, but got nothing to write. I'm still somewhat pissed and I don't get how you can be so blind to something so obvious. I don't know how we work but we really both are stupid and weird. One thing's for sure though,

I LOVE YOU ♥

Fool's Day

Yes, I absolutely do feel like a fool right now. On the brighter side, 1st of April has no significance to me whatsoever unlike two other people I know. Glad I changed that.

Recently, I just haven't had the motivation to write anything. I'll just keep things simple. Today was the last day of school spirit week and frankly, this being my last school spirit week ever, it was just plain shit and stupid. I'd much have rather just normal school with normal everything because it wouldn't have made any differences. Anyways got results back. I'm somewhat disappointed in myself because I expected better from me, but hey we don't always get what we want right. So mathematics you piss me off and same with chem. Although it wasn't THAT bad, but still. The amount of study I put in I think doesn't really equal the results which I did receive. Eh, whatever. It's too late now.

Another thing was okay, so like I dress real nicely, like I basically was a super try hard today, all just for my boyfriend. I mean I even woke up early. And all my efforts were pretty much a waste because it went unnoticed. I guess I'm just fat and ugly to him. I want to spend more fucking time and I hate always having to say everything, just sometimes is it not obvious that that's what I want. I hate this.

bye.