fgs-

that stands for: for goodness sakes, in case you guys didn't already know that. yeah I found out from my super lame sister but whatevs like it even matters.

so anyways I was thinking about my previous blog and mow that I do think about it I think I may have overeacted BUT just a bit. LOL I had a talk to my babe and told me that it was the PC so then I felt stupid but whatevs.

happy new year everyone :)

Jasmine.

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baby why you have to get me crying now? i did everything for you even the things i know i shouldnt have but i did it all for you. dont you see that? i just got scared and of you but what could happen and i was afraid of this and now it has happened... baby, please, just come back...

Baby

cant stop thinking about you....

this is what i hate about people. they be nice to you and shit and like tell you stuff and stuff and one day you get really close to em and all you think about is that person and spending time with her/him. and so im kinda annoyed at myself because i cant stop thinking about a few people in my life and i suppose its a good thing but its so distracting and i cant concentrate on anything.

but whatever. im just glad that those people do exist because theyre the reason i bother getting up in the morning and doing anything.

i lost a kg.
LOL

news

have not blogged in a while I wonder why ;)

anyways things have happened and well no one really cares cause even I
don't. so here's the thing I have a talent and I put it to use I just
don't know whether I'm putting it to good use or bad. I really want
someones opinion but I'm afraid to tell anyone cause i don't want to
be judged on the things I do and well yeah...

apart from that the new year is nearly here, lovely.

and someones back :)

and I engraved someones name on my ring how retarded is that.,,

whatevs, laters and byeeeeee

Merry Christmas

I got it wrong. Last night was pretty fun!
:D

Sent from my iPod

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Christmas Eve

I am pretty sure that I probably will not be online later on today because of my busy schedule and will probably not be on the computer until after 25 hours or so. Which is why I thought blogging now would be a good idea. Anyways over the past few weeks a lot/little has happened and I say that because to everyone else it would seem like a little only but to me it has allowed me a lot of change and well view things a lot differently. Plus my attitude towards things has changed a lot and you probably wouldn't agree with my way of seeing things but what can you do, it's my life.

So today is Christmas Eve. I doubt today will be very busy even though I'd much rather spend it at home with the family cleaning and bumming around on the cold floor trying to cool myself off from the heat rather than spending it with my mother's extended family. Like no offence to them but they bore me. Plus the fact that they don't really care that I exist and only ever realise that I do exist when I've accomplished something greatly, which is pretty low seeing as they are my family. There are a few exceptions in this family, even though my mother would probably disagree with me but she can't control who I can and cannot like. So Christmas Party with the family will be a total waste of my time and I will be looking forward to the Midnight Mass where everyone is quiet and don't have time to ignore me because they have to listen to the mass. I feel so negative seeing things this way but this is how I feel. And being neglected by my own family kinda sucks. Like my family overseas I know how they are and I miss those Christmases with them. They were fun. And they wanted me to be there. And they enjoyed having me there. I guess I'm just asking for too much.

On the bright side, we will be going out to my mother's indian friend's party and well I get to eat indian food, I'm so excited because I really love that naan and I hope that they have Cheese and Garlic so like I will eat that but yeah. Something different from what we usually do. Day after, Christmas we will be going to other family friend's party which I'm quite sure will be a joy. See, those group of people, they treat as more of a family compared to our actual family and I'm thankful for that.

I know what I'm getting for Christmas. I'm kinda excited but not, because I've tried to control my excitedness so that I'm not like super excited for it and counting down they hours and minutes (even though I am anyway for the sake of it). Apart from that present though I suppose it doesn't really matter. I just want two other things that I hope I will get, those are happyness and a boyfriend. Ahahhahaha, happyness yeah, I really want that, and boyfriend...hmmmm, we'll see. I'm not really in the need for one, but whatever, a girl can dream right.

Other things on the agenda is the fact that I miss my buddies who all seem to be in India. Jas, Sukh and Kar, why did you all go there and leave me behind. You all could've brought a piece of me in your luggage and then I couldnt have come along. This way different parts of me will also see different parts of India, hahahaa. But man, I miss you guys so much. And by the way, out of all of you Jasmine is the best because she actually comes online when I'm online and doesn't go on the comp like 10-15 minutes after I've effing left. Goodness me people. I stay up late wating for you guys yet you go online even later. Whatever I still miss you all. I'm excited for the new year...

Which brings me to the next topic: New Year's Resolutions
1. Meet and SEE Karan.
2. Be fit.
3. Stop being so horny and dirty.

I think those are good enough. I'll add more later.


So that's all from me.

Merry Christmas everyone !

blasted

i miss my indian kids :(

Miss

What does it really mean? No one will ever truly know.

JASMINE, miss you so damn much.

Stop being so stupid.

Christmas in a few days.


this guy, he's reading my blog right now.
he's pretty cool. he knows who he is too :P


:D

Stardust

It only exists on one side of the wall.


Gosh, I can't begin to describe the day I've had. It hasn't been really been eventful but rather the emotions I've been having which have been changing like crazy.

Everytime I write one of these I seem to get distracted and well lose interest in even bother writing a blog. And so I've decided that I will just keep this New Post page open so that if I ever remember something It'd be open.

oh crap. jasmine, that's not how it works. you silly silly girl. you don't get angry and pissed off at someone and just because they make you laugh or smile it doesn't mean it's all good again. it just shows how weak you are and easy to...what's the word, thing, persuade...i don't know something like that and well yeah. and stop wanting him (and not in that way; LOL) so much. it is so stupid and well, frankly just plain stupid.

i really am in love with leighton meester. gosh she's hot. gosh, shes's so hot it's pissing me off.

Whoosh

I deleted Dear Kid Notes. I just ran out of inspiration. Or well my inspiration ran out on me. Gosh I hate this. I mean I thought things were finally and awesomely good then I find ways to magically ruin things. It's so stupid of me yet I persist to do things like this.

Oh well, theres another good thing gone.

Six Days

In recent times technology has been letting me down and it's very unfair. I'm meant to be able to work through such problems and well i totally just forgot what i was talking about because a spider threw me off. sigh...

Anyways i need to stop waiting all the time. And get a life too.

Hmmm, i need to come up with New Years Resolutions, even though they never get completed anyway.

Awesomeness.

define: awesomeness.

Awesomeness. n. - [aw-sum-ness] awesome asian that's slightly shorter than me who brings me joy and hate at the same time.

katrina you annoying person. i can't believe you are going overseas to like every other person is in this crazy school of ours. but whatever you are getting me sunglasses because i don't want to find out that i wasted my time trying on sunglasses for half an hour so you could check which one suits me and the fact that you made me try on a dress which showed my oh so yucky curves.

somehow you manage to make the boring lifeless things, such as the movie-as you have already mentioned- turn out to be great and make it not so boring and lifeless and i may be ignorant but i still listen to you, i just choose not to respond to annoy you back. but you love it.

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whatever.

katrina.

just.

come back safe.

and you are one awesome one.

AWESOMENESS.

THIS IS A HIJACKING. NOBODY MOVE.

AS EXPECTED, I've lost the interest to blog on my own account. As well as to write. As well as to bych.

Anyway,

I'm Jasmine's frenemy. It's a love, hate relationship. Hence the fr"enemy", and don't worry, I'm not making this shit up, it was on tv.


__ confessionals! : Jasmine, I'm sorry that I don't read your blog often. It's because you know, I'm awesome and I can read your fucking mind anyway.
Also, a fly went up my nose the other day and I think it did some voodoo as that nose hole... or whatever you call it is always running.
ALSO, I went out with Jasmine on Wednesday! I ALSO hijacked their get together and stole jasmine to watch new moon, which sucked balls, however, seeing Jacob half naked and so bloody adorable was worth it.

For example, here, I asked Jasmine to throw my Boost at the screen:

Bella: your leaving?
Eddie: Yes. *frown*
Bella: why?
Eddie: To leave.
Bella: really?
Eddie: yes
Bella: I can't believe this.
Eddie: YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT BYCH CAUSE JACOB IS SO MUCH HOTTER THAN I AM.Yes, I am.
Bella: *starts to sniff*
Katrina: Is she crying? Seriously? Seriously? Dude, she looks like she's having an asthma attack.
Jasmine: ... *ignores*
Katrina: *THROWS BOOST AT HER*

Anyway, Sorry Jas I couldn't make this a serious post. It's cause I'm kinda high on... Ribena atm.

Oh! OOOOH! I have an idea! I'll tell you what kind of person Jasmine is!


Jasmine is :

SOMEONEWHOIGNORESME someone who worships the ground I walk on,
SOMEONE WHO DOESNT LISTEN TO ME ... oookay.

She has long puffy hair, that she straightened, so now she has puffy straight hair. Also, she needs to learn to be meaner. NOT TO ME. But to other people. After reading bits of her blog she may seem like one of those people who paint their nails black and wear too much eye liner and have tats. However! I assure you, she's quite the opposite. she giggles too much and makes these really weird jokes that cause people to look at her in weirdness ( AHHH the things we have in common).

Also, she's sad when she really shouldn't be cause she's so fucking awesome and I'll miss her while I'm in the philippines.

Maybe tomorrow she'll find there's a window open in every corner, or that the wind whistles her name as she walks past. Because were blinded of these facts, with sheer ignorance, and defacement of the bitch that is life.

Today, we'll start living like tomorow, because the past will always be one step behind.


________Katrina :)

Night

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMSY !

miss you so much :)

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i love the night
and how it's so bright
it fills up my life.
the feeling of freedom
it's endlessness.

oh how i love the night.

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ones feeling doesn't leave for another person when they leave, it simply goes stronger. at times it brings fear for the person as if something is escaping them; a hole getting bigger in their mind and heart. this is what you've done to me...

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not seeing you
not knowing how you are
not being able speak with you
yet knowing that we will never be...

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age is nothing to me.
ít's simply a number that the ancient people put beside your name to remember how many punches they need to give you on your birthday.
so stop talking shit about how you are older than me because i really don't care. you're awesome and you can't do anything about it and i'm not gonna do anything about it now because i've grown too close and attached to you it's gonna hurt me one day...but now i'm just going to make the most of being with you...

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this feeling which is filling me up, amazing. complete and utter amazement. i never knew but jasmine i mean i was right. that person in the future will be lucky and many ways your imagination could never come up with. oh my just laughing to myself about this great finding. amazing, i swear. i do have a talent, a talent that i suppose may be useful...one day, in the near future, i hope not.

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BTW, you're a FN FISHHEAD. I know you ain't reading this but might as well tell you anyway, cause one day you're gonna realise it and well that's not how you treat a man. LOL, no woman but still, so yeah. just wanted to tell you that.

i've realised that blogs about my day is simply useless to anyone who reads this and i've worked out that if i write something interesting like poetry or storys or stuff then people might actually want to read it..so yeah, these btw are messages to people BUT i ain't telling you who :P

ignore this please

how could i be so blind ?

of course. it was very predictable.

i just chose to ignore it.

gosh you idiot.

yeah, i don't know what's wrong with me but i just can't seem to ignore the fact that i like what i do even though it's wrong and even though i know that in the end i know that i will get hurt. plus the fact that it's quite stupid and a complete waste of time expecting something from someone whom i don't even know or even met. gosh how pathetic do i sound right now. i don't even know how i feel, confused whether i should be angry or sad. clearly i don't know.

12.11

I waited till it was the 14th to create this blog.


What a week. To begin this I must first mention that WOAH, it's been a week since I have blogged. Explaining the first line. And that's so crazy because it doesn't feel like it's been a week yet. Man how time flies. Well anyways it's been quite a hectic week, to tell you the truth - not really. Just a few events which occurred. No big deal. I think.

Monday was well, the usual - Monday. Something about it is wrong though. I can't quite remember but whatever.

Tuesday I was at school but did no work. That was a pretty long day. I hardly saw myself and it was her last day before she went off to the abyss. Exaggerated just a bit. To another country and will not be back till next month. It was also Variety Night and this saw me helping with the event. It felt really great that I was actually helping with something for once. It made me feel really good cause i was contrubuting to SOMETHING :D That was pretty awesome. I don't care what other people think, because it's the first one I've gone to. That was a long day because I didn't go home. My goodness this blog post seems so useless but whatevs. LOL, love it.

Wednesday was excruxiating but rather lovely because if I hadn't stayed home because i was sickkk.... I would have never met my friend Isai. Dude, that is amazing but I dont meet him till Saturday BUT theres a story to it.

Thursday- mufti day yeah yeah boring did nothing the whole say and got free milkshakes ROFL. fritz came over in the evening and we got crazy we took pics and made a rad dance clip :P

GRADUATION FRIDAY man it was horrible. most boring thing ever, random song that i did not understand why everyone was laughing and it was nowhere near emotional. did not shed a tear. maybe because you were trying so hard to hold it back oh shuttup you again this was another long day because i went home and left soon after because we were off to para. man was i in complete in utter pain after doing something for the first time. oh and i had dinner at dayummm I forgot what it's called. But it's one of those italian restaurants at parra with woodfire oven. stefanos pizza or something italiany. :P so goood.

saturday was uneventful until i received a text. im so annoyed but on the otherhand i was quite happy. anyways this guy whom ive been emailing for like 1 or 2 days (LOL not very long - lol, thats what she said :P) he was online and well i was on my phone obviously because it was still like 10 in the morning and well we were texting each other right and it was so awesome. like i dont really want to post what our conversations were about but trust me, it's rated NOT FOR BLOGS lol. and well that went on for 2 hours and the thing which annoyed me was the fact that im already on a $29 cap with $150 of credit and at the beginning of the day i was on $60 and at the end of our 2 hour texting session i was left with $2.18. I know. i spent so much and i wont be getting recharged until two weeks time which is like crazy because i love texting i really do and having no credit sucks to the max. CRAP but yeah. apart from that saturday was just normal.

sunday went drving pretty average. miss my friends though. especially now i dont have anyone to talk to about shit. yes i said shit because in theory it is shit, but not SHIT SHIT like shit shit if u get what i mean :P

so yeah thats my week. pretty unhectic. so yeah.
laters.

Early

This is crazy. I'm blogging too early. I'm just not quite in the mood and I find it quite odd that I am in fact blogging at 9.01PM. Ahhhh, things have just been crazy lately and well none of it involves me...which is a good thing but somehow isn't. I know what I'm talking about so it's all good. What to blog about. OH yeah.

People, please let me make my own decisions. Stop bugging me for everything. If I don't say yes then that means I didn't say YES and just leave me alone. If I say maybe or no that means NO. For goodness sakes. I think I'm allowed to make up my own mind.

Oh yeah one more thing I actually miss talking to Brenden man, good old times.Sigh* stupid stupid me.


that's all.


a paper falling to the ground made me scream....


i think you shud just eff off cz everytime i see or hear you or even near your presence of any kind it ticks me of. goodness im so aargh.

Don't.

There comes a time when you realise all that you have done wrong and how you truly regret those mistakes that you know you will never repeat. Yet somehow we manage to fool ourselves and believe that the things we do our right and forget that we've ever done them and lose sight of what we really need to do and begin focusing on what we want.

no more lies.

no more hatred.

no more backstabbing.

no nothing.

To move forward we must first believe that we are capable of doing so and this is a step we all must take.

I've been blogging quite late recently. Oh my :/

Just

Doesn't Mean Anything

...it never did.

Alicia Keys (2009)

S- not again

I have just found discovered something.

JASMINE HAS A NEW CRUSH !!!

lololol. obviously it's someone no one knows (that reads this blog) so that is why it's posted on here. so anyways i was looking through pictures of my friends' formal and well i knew him before...maybe...maybe not...but like he was different before and so was i and i didn't talk to anyone then. BUT now looking at his pics, MY GOODNESS he's so damn fineeeeee. the downside is, he's got a girlfriend, one of my friends from that school. sigh* oh well nothing wrong with looking at pics right.

do i really have to go through camp.
highlight: sleeping where possible.

downlight: not being able to sleep during the day.

could it have been better: wayyyyy better.

how did i feel: like something was missing, because there was.

GOSH-


jasmine you are despicable. stay away from me and your disgustingness. it's not morally right. and just because one believes its right doesnt mean everybody else does BECAUSE not everyone is as awesome as that special person...

aww shucks.
person sick.

and sometimes not knowing something is the best solution.

i vow to keep my cool no matter what.

RollercoasteD

Aha, thats my play on words.

the past two days have been somewhat rollercoastery.


idk.


hopefully my family has fun overseas.
and.
today was epic
in a way that wasn't EPIC.

hahahah.

no computer for two days D:
scary.

Single-

Recently I've found myself to be more happy and light-hearted. I've seen the positive in life and can't help but just smile at all the little thing. Don't get me wrong, life isn't perfect, there are still those days where nothing is going your way or people go out of their ways to annoy you BUT overall it's been pretty great. The possible reasons this is the case could be:
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D

LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.

Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.

my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.

Another blog-
kid.

Well...

I was planning to blog about something but I forgot about what so instead I'm going to dedicate this blog for all you bitches out there. I just have one thing to ask you...why? Like is it really necessary. I mean if you have a good reason then it's ok, but just because they annoy you or something like that, really, I don't find that acceptable at all. It's stupid and very immature. I know I can't talk because I too can be acused of this which is why I'm part of this too. Another thing why do people annoy other people. Like they're always in you're way and manages to ruin your day. It's pathetic. Completely.

I want to cry.

I want to be happy.

Must you go,

And leave us.

The year's end is nearing and I kinda don't want it. I recall sometime last year my cousin, she got into year 12 and she put her facebook status as: The acronym HSC shits me hard. Now that I think about it, it does and I'm not even in year 12 yet and now I'm already getting quite anxious. I shouldn't be thinking about those things, JUST YET anyway. For now I must make the most of now because people are leaving, some coming back and others it may be the last time we see each other. That thought worries me because I've grown friendships with these people yet in a matter of weeks they will be gone, to a place where there will be different people, where they can have the opportunity they need. I really should just be happy for them. I know what it's like to go through such a thing and now reminscing about the past it's quite sad.

I LOVE YOU -

WHAT exactly does those three words mean. The moment they come out a person's mouth, the feeling, the emotion, what is it? The purpose of it. Is it real? Is it a joke? Or is this the answer to life. Love's meaning is quite endless in my opinion. But why say it...



I never knew just reading one things can cause me to question so many things. I love how the human mind works, it's curiosity about its surroundings and those around it. Just a fact of life, one that the whole population has learned to live and cope with; sometimes causing disagreements between two parties because they want it, they want it all.




to tell you the truth, i'm pretty sure no one understood that blog. like modernist poems, my blogs are in depth and have more meaning that what it may really seem. the only difference is, poets create artworks, masterpieces, unlike mine; words, words which create a mess, a mess which confuse people.






what has happened to me?



why have i changed. is this who i want to be, the person who will be me in the future. it may seem like i don't have a plan for the future and i have no aspirations and goals but like everyone else i have goals which i too want to achieve. things like having a family, a job and being able to support that family. a beautiful house with a nice car. i'm a normal person just like everyone else, but why do all of this? is it really necessary. necessary to ruin who you are as a person, the person who has been taught all the rights and the wrongs, a person who grew up with religious beliefs and expectations from the people around her. all of that gone, CRASH, because of ....

jasmine needs sleep-

later

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what else.

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music

mood

mysterious

mystical

magical

mighty

music

i need to get a life.



i love bus trips. oh how i miss the good old bus. 4625 ! the annoying little kids shouting the number as the bus approaches it's station. the talks, the moments, the good and the bad. now it's half of what was before and somehow it doesn't feel right but i know one day this will be the normal...

i love guys.

men.

boys.

whatever you want to call them. i just seem to click with them unlike women who i seem to have disinterest in them whatsoever. they're annoying attitudes and whinyness. gosh, i love men. one man in particular.




no, that last thing was a lie. i think this blog needs to end.



now.

Colors

I don't know.

What do you think?

Stupidity

My stupidity is quite endless. I don't know when to stop nor do I listen to others when they are telling me that what I'm doing is very stupid. oh well, right?


Clearly a great day. I don't know why but maybe because of two special people in my life. That or the fact that I'm just making excuses to bring the topic of me spending what's left of my savings. But overall a terrificly good day. Ahhh. I don't want to move on from this day but we must let go of the past. Once again, one of the good day's I've had in a while.

thank youuuuu :)
c'mon, you know who I am.. :P



i love presents. especially when they're from me. gosh i'm so awesome.




and DAMN IT people.
stop calling me dear.
seriously. it's not cool.
i dont mind kid, but dear?!?!?

Some people

stupid white kids.
they're such dickheads
well not all of them
just this one guy
gosh.
and it's all because i'm a stupid little asian
GOSH
i really do love indians right now
and jordan
AHHAHAHA, i swear i didn't forget his name


my blogs lately have been gay.
i want them to be not gay
but meh.
:P


I LOVE ♥

Fudge.

I just want to explode. But no.
I have to do italian first.




this will be fixed in 30 minutes.
from 8.07PM Aus time.


WOW. i'm so good with my timing. Actually went back on blogger 30 minutes like i said in the note above. Anyways just a few things. Firstly why are people so racist. I mean grow up it's the 21st century nobody cares what colour or race you are anymore. EVERYONE IS AN EQUAL. It even says so in the Human Rights thingy. Gosh. Secondly don't judge people by how they look. Once again this ties in with the whole racism thing. Like seriously grow the fuck up. UH, another thing JASMINE,....YOU GROW THE FUCK UP. Seriously you're practically older than all your friends yet you act like a stupid 5 year old and the things you do are so stupid that you should be ashamed of yourself. Seriously. It's time to just grow up.

Apart from that today was good.
saw kochie & bridie carter and other people which i don't know they're names nor they ever existed.
overall it was pretty good.


gosh, the rain loves me.


who calls someone because they're number was on a paper aeroplane?
not me.
i just text :P

BAHHAHAHHAHHA !

not again.

i can't believe it's gonna be that time of the month again. the two weeks of unhappiness and major bitchyness. and all i can do about it is play. gosh. i'm so hopeless.



driving is so uplifting
so is a few other things ;)

Disaster.

I don't think that was the word I was looking for but I can't be bothered coming up with the right one and well it starts with D same as the word I had originally thought of so it's close of enough. Am i right? Of course I'm right. I is always right. See, left doesn't have I in it. Bahahaha, get that ?

I can't believe even after the formal I'm still having an argument with my parents about who chose my dress. I know which dress I wanted and it was clearly not that one, but they continually say that I WAS THE ONE WHO CHOSE IT. gosh. I really don't want to complain because 1. it's a waste of my time 2. it's too late now and 3. no one really gives a shit anymore. I just wish that sometimes they'd listen to me. And I know for a fact that I'm not the only one with this problem and maybe if parents put themselves in their children's shoes they'd understand how they feel. I mean I've learnt to put myself in other people's shoes and because of that I treat people the way I feel the way they need to be treated. BUT WHATEVER. so much for anyone's opinion counts. it so doesn't.


After today. I don't know. It was really hot but the school day was pretty good. Uh, geo, stuff went down if you get my drift, commerce consisted of STEP & STAB recalling that i don't actually have commerce on my timetable for today :P, PE which turned into GARDENING 101 and sitting in the airconditioned room for half an hour and science where our table fell asleeep during the film, btw, LITERALLY. so as you can see it was better than staying at home and cleaning the house because there wasn't actually any thinking or writing done just chilaxing. AFTER SCHOOL things got even hotter. and it was on. Let's just say, while waiting at the bus stop at the bus station i was very happy and satisfied. hmm, doesn't sound right but whatever. ;)


i'm quite glad i can still make myself smile.

no i have to make brownies, cz i owe someone some.

i swear 90% of the time i'm correct, my thoughts, my opinions, the facts i know, they don't fail me. yet people continually deny what i say. well people SUCK ON THAT. gawd.

Epic.

Wasn't what I expected.

Possibly could have been better.

But good enough.

Satisfied.

Though I still think I looked scary/


Memorabubbles:
the food, the pictures, the last danceeess.
gotta love that...









it ws rigged.

i am going to cry

tonight.
well tonight is the formal and well...
i'm not gonna be the prettiest
nor the most gorgeous
or cutest.
i'm just going to be this insignifact person
attending a formal
a formal where all the other people
are gonna look their best and
be the best.

my mother keeps saying that i chose the dress
when i told her what i want
but she kept saying it makes you look fat
and doesnt look nice on you
it wasnt simple
it was nice.
it was what I WANTED
yet NOW, she says that i wanted this dress
that I CHOSE this dress
it's not fair
it is MY FORMAL
I'M THE ONE WHO'S MEANT TO BE CHOOSING EVERYTHING
it's not fair.

on top of that i did bad and bad things
too many in fact.
many of you know half of those bad things
and the other half
things i don't ever want to mention
because it's a disgrace to me
and to everyone else i know.

now i'm just bored.

Gosh Sukhman

Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Everyone Gosh Else Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman Gosh Sukhman




that pretty much sums up my day.

GOSH NO

like OMG today i had to do the dishes and it was like the end of the world. you know why... there was tomato sauce on the plates AND, don't forget the AND, and sweet chilli sauce :O. OMG, it was like ewwwy...



ah yes, there's my short story for today. thank you alyssa for that great inspiration for this story. well, the whole story LOL.



today was lovely. belive it or not i had fun, even though i didn't look it. just very tired. i wonder why? probably those late nights up. bahahhaha. a v. bad habit. and now that i think about it im pretty excited (though not completely) about the formal. too bad i don't get to sit with myself if you know what i mean which you do. but i'll just steal myself from him. bahahahha. this is only awesome if you gets what i mean.
BAHHAHHAA.
i feel so awesome :D


i love thee ankita :)

Yahoo does Answer

ok, this might sound retarded but i read yahoo answers and answer the questions people ask. BUT only because it's like reading FML and MLIA cept you have more of a variety and you know or well, you can tell if they're real stories or not. anyways the point of this blog is my browser is slightly retarded and whenever i go on the site it takes me to yahoo india. how that happened in the first place i dont know. but like i've made two friends of the site both of whom i have not told any personal information but like what really not irritates but makes me wonder is when they assume that i'm indian and they won't believe me that i'm not indian, no offence, i'm just saying what makes me so indian. like really ? i need to spend time with me own kind man. again no offence. just yeh. so yeah that. i'm apparantly indian to randoms. hmmm, not fascinating.



another late blog. 12.43PM


and yesterday on the bus. i saw a bird drop from the sky. nothing had hit it.
how odd.

Question Mark.

....

it's 1.03 in the morning.

now what heck am i doing still up.

V.

very.
very. very.
very. very. very.

that was the day.

----------

nothing lasts forever.

except for friends and families, or families and friends however you may want to look at it

----------

today was:

• fun
  
• exhilirating
• thrilling
• unexpected
• ticklish
• owww
• my golly
• handball
• friend

:)

it was hotttt tooo.

oh my. i was melting.

literally...kinda.

hehe, exam tomorrow
hoorah.

XXXD

--------------------------

i think luck may have just found me.

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Chi- Force, not G-Force

right now i would really love to blog but the problem is the thing i love the most doesn't have the same feelings towards me and plays with me for days on ends, as well as nights. it's gotten to a point where i'm considering to break the relationship i have with my love. but why do this to me. why now. i mean if you don't act like this to me maybe then  wouldn't be considering such horrid things. but no. you're being so unfair to me. like yesterday you were fine with me and today you seem to have a problem with me. why, oh why must you do this to me, i can no longer handle it and it's too much for me to bear. it's just not right and i want to live my life too.

OH MY GOSHNESS. this is really stupid.

the day has been quite odd. like really. it's been v. good but just v. odd. the school day, the events, the nothingness, the randomness, the everything about it. it's all been odd. good, BUT odd.





THAT IS IT.
i cannot put up with this.
will do proper later.
i love how i blog.
and it's continuous.
and you can expect a blog from me everyday
if not the day after
but the fact i never disappoint.
im so awesome.

19/20 is it ever good enough

i was just thinking to myself as per usual rather than doing someting productive, once again as per usual. back to  what i was saying, is what we do ever good enough. i mean why do we have such high standards of other people when sometimes even you can't live up to standards of other people and you complain endlessly of how unfair things are. i must admit, i do that. and i tell myself off countlessly because if there's one thing i don't like it's hypocrites and i am a hypocrite. though why can we never be good enough? is it because of something that we've done or do people simply dislike us to a point where you do anything to just make them leave you alone. i don't really know where i'm headed with this blog, but like life it's just going to keep going until something, or someone ends it. but that will be not now. i still want to continue. NOT BEING ON THE EFFING COMPUTER FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS HAVE BEEN HARD ON ME and i just gotta keep typing. otherwise i'm gonna eat someone.

there was something else on my mind which i just wanted to discuss but it's managed to escape me. sometimes i even manage to amaze myself with all the crazy jasmine things that i do. quite odd really.

it's time to let go. but that's not me. as in. i've already done that. it's your turn.

nothing lasts forever

my, my, that was the stimulus for english, but yes. nothing lasts forever and i think it's time that you let go of me too. i don't need to be your safety net anymore. you have another one now. plus you always have a backup anyway, though that sounds quite odd. but like i said, i dont need to be that safety net anymore but someone else is there so you can let go. trust me. and this way no one gets hurt. everyone is happy. i just want everyone to be happy so in the end i can get what i want. i'm sick of putting everyone in front of me (i dont always do that though, just in-a-way-metaphorically speaking) and i just want to be that person whom everyone wants to make sure is happy and satisfied and not have to worry about anything because people got it, they've handled it. but that can't happen and so my plan is to make everyone happy first and then because they're happy and no longer need to be any happier, they will realise i need to be happy too and treated the same way i have treated them, with love and care and with REALNESS. no fakeness no nothing that i dont want. i just want fairies and butterflies and rainbows.

WOWOWOWOOW !


i'm so out of it.
i need chocolate.
gawsh....



awww. damn it.
i miss you
talking to you endlessly
about anything
your jokes
my adventures
everything.
be there ...
for me.

Blabb.

finally? or is it too soon to say that? i don't quite know but one thing's for sure. i'm v. happy & ecstatic that my holidays are beginning soon. not yet but soon. i love school certificate. the only time i can think for real without the worry of anyone else. hmmm. that didn't make sense at all but maybe that's what i'm trying to do. i need people to be smarter. i like having hidden messages. but that's for later.

i miss you all. i can't believe that i had to turn out like that. leaving you guys behind and when i really needed someone you've been there the whole time. i'm also v. thankful that you've noticed. i'm quite sure that no one else knows what i'm talking about and seriously stuff them because i'm pretty sure if they had noticed they would have told me by now and i love them even more. but i really do miss having you with me all the time. like circumstances have changed and so have i. the worst part it's been a change for the worst rather than for the better. i really do wish that one day we could have what we once had once upon a time. when things were good and fun was the only thing in my vocabulary. now i use words such as disappointed, gay, suck. those words aren't very nice, though truthful not what i want to be talking about. once again. thank you. i really do know who my friends are in this world. and im v. grateful for that. AND LMAO ! it's not even offensive. haha.

i have changed.

i miss going on the computer. i miss talking to people via instant messenger, both on yahoo and msn. i miss being able to be someone else and make up a whole new identity. i miss being on a totally different world. i miss the emotions. i miss the sleepless nights spent on the computer. i miss everything about the computer. i wish things were back to the good old days. and now...they can be.

i'm so good right now i'm going crazy with the computer i'm probably making record times with my awesome typing. this is probably the fastest i've typed EVER with hardly any typos which is like ... A W E S O M E

jasmine needs to go shopping:
- buy a dress
- buy jewellry
- book salon
- lose weight
ahahaha, i dont know what the last one has to do with shopping but whatever right? really i'm just happy.


should i ask or not?
should i bother or not?
am i even worth it?


ahhhh. i love you computer.
:D

SC

today has been v. uneventful

gosh sukhman. whyd u read it?



check out fresh new notes on DEAR KID NOTES.
i like em v. much :)

BITCH

define bitch;

-noun

1.	a female dog.

2.	a female of canines generally.

3.	Slang. a. a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman. b. a lewd woman.

4.	Slang. a. a complaint. b. anything difficult or unpleasant: The test was a bitch. c. anything memorable, esp. something exceptionally good: That last big party he threw was a real bitch.

  Now it's very obvious that, that definition is missing something and that is the following:

5.       a Jasmine S.


want to quote Kid: fantasy :)



yeah, there's no doubt about that. but at least i tell the truth and don't make stuff up. im not aiming this at anyone. just what someone told me today and gosh you're v. good at making me feel horribubble. oh well, i owe you. now they don't owe you.



today...was fricken awesome.
i did nothing.
at all.
just wasted time
and spent the day with the person who's the most awesome and meaningful to me. yet no one knows who that is but still. gosh, i'm not some dirty little girl though. no matter what my v. awesome friend tells you. that's all a lie. didn't read the whole context.

oh my.

:)

Sunshine.

sometimes i'm not glad that she's my sister but other times she just lights up my life. get that? anyways just wanted to post her name because it's so bright as in smart. woo! i'm on a roll with my effing awesome puns. anyways im off.

How

How come...

....I complain about my problems,
it's my fault.

...I ask my sister for help,
it's my fault.

...I help,
it's my fault.

...I have a problem with you,
it's my fault.

 ...I have to tell you everything cause you wanted to know and you get hurt,
it's my fault.

...I'm the one at fault,
when really it's your fault.

Dedicated to those who are simply blind and thick-headed.

My, after the conversations I had today I've not felt this good in a while. Actually I have, yesterday and the day before. Anyways my point is I was talking about how some people are just so thick-headed that they don't realise they're own wrong doings. Ok, so right now I don't really have a reason to have a go at these people but in the future when do they annoy me I probably would not be in the mood to talk about but rather than just get angry at them and stuff. So here's the deal. I'm going to summarize the things they do and ways they can overcome this...problem which they have.

What's wrong:

• people say you are doing something yet you don't realise
• you make a joke and hurt someone's feelings, yet you continue to laugh about it
• continuall talking about yourself when it's obvious no one cares
• you ignore the problems other people may have
• not everyone has to talk to you yet you manipulate them to
  

Ways to overcome the problem:

• observe other people and look at how they feel, their reaction to the things you say
• ask them if you are causing them problems
• be concerned in a way that you are not being overly sympathetic but in a good way
• just don't make small talk when it's clearly not needed
• be silent
  

This is just a summary of the overall thing but it gives the basic idea of the message. It also makes me feel better because I have said what I needed to say. Just that the other people need to do their part and be more considerate of others and see that other people have problems too and that sometimes you just need to see things in their shoes.


wannabe gangsta, soccer, rain, IST conversations, hitting people, running down high street. the day was somewhat awesome. no need to complain. i'm sorry to everyone which i have complained to and said some, well not particularly nice things. the fact that there are things which are worse than the problems I have it just makes me feel better about my life (sorry to you know who you people are). It's just now that I know my life is fine then it's all good. Gosh, hate talking about nothing.


i'm not a whore.

not said by sukhman (^that thing above)

GOSH SUKHMAN

best damn thing ever. so effing funny. CLICK




that's pretty much all I wanted to say.
:D

Complicated

Things are always different.

A new adventure everyday, is what many people believe.

Well I believe that to have any fun in life you gotta make it fun. And I believe that today was fun and well different. And that's different in a good way.


Just want to smile.
Especially about the rollercoaster.

Unfair.

The following two monologues are towards two different people. It is about a girl thinking about two people who she's unsure what they are to her. Basically it's just her talking to herself or in this case monologuing to herself. Enjoy. Uh, another thing, this is written in my language as in the way I speak because well that's how I speak and that's how I write and that's uh, how I make it interesting. Actually I don't think it's a monologue. Let's just call it a thingy. AHHAHA, a thingy.

Thingy #1

You don't spoil me. No matter how much you think you do, you truly and utterly don't. Although you are quite an awesome person. For once I can believe someone whom is new and different. Someone who lied about their age though. I still can't believe you'd do that just cause you thought you had the blood of an 18 year old pumping through your veins. But the things you do and say. It's very funny and I'm glad that well you Answered my question. Of course only you would know that but really I know your problem. And for the last time I'm not in love with you even though it may seem like it I'm just here as a friend just as you are towards me. I also know that you are in fact in love with her. I just don't see why you don't trust me that you can't tell me who she is or the fact that you complain to me about yourself and how you're opening up to me. It's ok. Really. Being able to open up to others is great because it allows you to release all those feelings which has been building up inside you. You don't want to explode from the overload of all the things which has causing you stress. Anyways off the topic (gosh, i do that in real life and my stories) back to the thingy (ahahha, thingy) oh my i have forgotten. Just stay awesome. And i believe in you. And I also believe that if you tried hard enough then maybe it could just happen. But what is my opinion. I'm just a kid.

Thingy #2

It took me a while you know. A really long time actually. Which is why I'm asking. Why now ? Why after all the things I had gone through would you do that to me. It actually is pretty hard. Especially for me. You know all the things I had to go through. Yet I'm glad that after all that we're still friends. Pretty good friends. Which is why, DAMN IT, why are you causing me trouble. The signals, the signs, the message, whatever it is that you are trying to tell me it's al wrong. And you're very awesome. Great. Although not many people can see you that way I do I'm glad that I do. Because really you are one of the nicest persons out there. Just stop being so unfair and please...let me move on with my life.


GAH. That's like fail. I need to try harder. Next time ?

Smiley Wiley

I could not stop smiling today that it got to a point where i just had to laugh crazily in my head and resort to biting Sukhman. That obviously wasn't what happened today but the smiling was true.

There is not a lot of things I wanted to say today but if you are ever bored try this helpful website which provides you with great advice. I think so anyway. Enjoy :D

HELPFUL ADVICE WEBSITE

Destiny.

We just can't be seperated. Every second of every minute of everyday, we are always together. Afraid of being separated from one another. The pain it brings when it does happen. Licking it, tasting everysingle flavour it has created. It just turns me on... LOL


GOSH I LOVE CHOCOLATE.


really.

and in case you dumb idiots haven't realised that thing above was chocolate and not a person. laugh out loud. Ok seriously I'm messed up. Chocolate has messed my head up and i've been going crazy during the weekend not being able to resist the temptation of chocolate. That's so unfair though. The past two weeks I've been working so hard to flatten my oh so not flat stomach and because of Halloweeny it's gone to a waste and down the drain it all goes. sigh*



school tomorrow.




i made myself notes that i must show myself tomorrow.

rara wtf is wrong with you. seriously. sigh* im glad that you have that thing. That great persona. I don't know. There's something about you that i really think is quite awesome and stopping me from completely hating you. I'm also quite sure that you don't read this which is great because I dont really want to talk about this with you especially those conversations lately have been quite odd. Not odd, but odd because it's you. Ha, i'm glad no one knows what i'm talking about, nor who. And no people I'm not crazy and have an imaginary friend this is a real person, so don't be mean.



internet, my my, it's oh so gayyy.

it's working now.

i'm glad it is.

I am not...

i am not happy. i am simply ecstatic, joyous, over the moon, glad, full of life, but not happy. who am i kidding of course i'm happy because of many reasons many of which i wil not speak of.

MY WEAKNESS: sweet stuff.
yes, this statement or that fact is very much a fact and is my one true weakness. i cannot help but be a sweet tooth nor can i resist the temptation of the sweetness sitting on a desk waiting for me to reach it, unwrap it and slowly place it in my mouth as it melts. aah. the sweet taste of sweetness. gotta love that. it may no longer be a wonder why i at many times am of high energy at the most questionable times of life. this is of course aswered by the one thing that i have no control over. my addiction to the sweet taste of sugar and all the many poisons it has done to oneself's body as well as the image of this thing.

gotta love today.
halloween.
just take the lollies from sunshine.
:D



still having those random thoughts. really ? yes man. it's so hard to let go. even though people say it's v. easy it's actualyl v. hard and it's not like the problem has disappeared i've just hidden it and covered it from what it really is. can't complain though. theres people who have worse lives than i and although mine may suck i know it's not the end of the world and that im 100% sure off, for now anyway.

Tone: Poetry

Your past haunts you when you least expect it.
That's what I said to Jasmine moments ago.


But I'm joyous. And that's great.

Tell later.
make the most of now.


Purp. YOU ARE EFFING GAY. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THOSE THINGS.

Lotus

It's eating me away.

The guilt inside of me.

Yet, what have I done.

Did I do wrong against you.

Jasmine, Jasmine, Jasmine

You really have done it this time.

There's nowhere to go now

But forward.

Still, where that takes you

Is unknown.

MY: favourite word

Jasmine doesn't want this blog to be oh so boring and therefore has realised that she in fact needs to make it more interesting and suitable for the audience, whomever they may be. She will begin by speaking about her day and the main events which has occured. No, she cannot be bothered to do that and will instead create a story for those interested in reading it or disinterested in whatever else they may be currently occupied with.

A modern day girl sees the world as it. She lives by the rules of her parents and those around her. At times she may disobey these rules and go against everyone else, just like every other modern day girl. In her face it can be seen that she is filled with happiness yet something disturbs her within. Like in a cartoon where theres a devil on one shoulder and an angel on another, both showing her different paths. Confusion fills her and somehow, just somehow she listens to the little devil which manages to persuade her to the darker side. From that day on, she no longer saw the world as it, but rather than all the imperfections it had. She criticized people not caring for who they are and losing respect for everyone. She was out of control and yet she couldn't do anything about it. As the day ends and once she is in the comforts of her own room, her bed and everything which made up this different world where she could be whoever she wanted to be and couldn't be judge, whether it was good, or bad. She would cry herself to sleep at night, not wondering what she has done wrong but why no matter what she does it doesn't satisfy her, as if everything was wasted effort to ensure everyone's happiness and in the end caused her to relinquish as she could no longer do anything. She gave it all up, her family, her friends, her world...

my, my, my.

that's a disastrous story. i think i might stick to my normal blogs such as telling the whole world who probably don't care about how my day went and what i'd done throughout the day. at least i know that whatever i do write i can't be criticised because that is me and that's how i live my life.

boxing, i dont want to say it but I TOLD YOU SO (and not you PJ). I said it would be fun, but hey no one ever listens to me right, because i'm just me, what do i know. stupid stupid little grow who's meant to be mature and the person whom everyone looks up to as their role model. but no more complaining because i know that my complaints are useless in this world. i let it out in boxing. i was and still am tired but maybe it was worth it maybe it wasn't enough. i just want to keep punching something or throw something  or anything because clearly things are still the same. i'm still the same jasmine with the same jasminesss and yeah. i'm making my dad buy me boxing gloves now. take it out on him. even though he doesn't deserve it, my family is the last group of people i would blame for this state in which i'm in. so boxing, it was good.

do you remember my friend. his such a man. i mean his name even says that he's a man. well he's terrificly awesome and there's no doubt about that. maybe this friendship is v. awesome and i'm quite glad that it is what it is. anything that alters what this thing is/has could probably make things worse and right now that would be a bad thing. so yes. highlight of my day. having a man as my friend. well wouldn't that be your highlight too. i can't believe i'm so mean tho. i don't mean to be. i'm just trying to look out for him. maybe my ways aren't the right ways but i try.


I want to box right now.

i had dinner today. like not outside in a flashy restaurant or at some friend's house. just at home with the family. it was like any other day. but i don't know i just realised it. we talk at the table. that's what usually happens anyway. except when at least one person is not in the mood. then there's this silence which i wish just go aways but whatever it's nice. best part, teasing sunshine and getting her into trouble.

I'm good at making stuff up.
Though I'm a miserable liar.

This day, has been quite even.

28th October.

Get it ?

dont ever again

no more asking me anymore questions and dont you dare give me any sympathy or any of that crap because i will tolerate it and do not, seriously  
DO NOT TELL ME WHAT TO DO WITH MY FUCKING LIFE

i am sick and tired of this school. i'm sick of the people who just waste my time telling me pointless things and i hate people who suck up to other people big time and people who are two faced. 

ive thought about it a lot and i dont have friends. i do but i dont. like no one that i can really rely on and be there for me whenever i need them and i dont know if it's me or what but that's really how i feel. it makes me cry thinking about it plus the fact that i have to lie to people just so that i will be left alone it's v. stupid but that's how i get through my day. on top of that i can't even maintain my studies. i manage to fail that too even though i dont have any friends. im so scared for my future that nothing will happen and i will be a complete failure with nothing. and it hurts. it does. it makes me cry, non stop. i try hard to live up to everyones standards but in the end i'm never good enough and i dont know why i waste my time doing things for other people when i can be doing things that could help me. but what good will that do anyway right? nothing. if things were different, it would be a fantasy. a utopia. but this is life.

but you know what the worst part is. i have nowhere to go.

are you all fucking happy now?

**excluding the two most awesome friends of mine plus one other special cockroach :P
KJK. :)

gotta love that

crazy
insane
hysterical

its all part of being a woman.

THINGS WHICH HAS/WILL MAKE ME INSANE

right now the only thing on that list is




TOWERS

f to the you to the CK.
:/

my, my, my

oh fudge apple.

everything is all wrong.
this means that EVERYTHING IS NOT RIGHT.
i didn't plan anything
except i had expected things to be different
you know where the princess gets her happy ending


i'm not going to say it again because this topic which i'm thinking of probably has a life of it's own because of its repetitiveness and that well and truly sucks you know. i dont like the idea of me thinking about it but everytime i do it kinda is the right answer although to myself i'm not making any sense. some people are right and some are just plain wrong. they are just selfish and sometimes can't see what a person is going through. maybe if people had tried to open their eyes and saw things the way i do, that way i get hurt and the way i see myself being totally something. this is such a complete waste of my time. but because i dont really have anything worth spending it on this is the most useful way to spend it. i don't even know why i bother sometimes.

towers you effing suck
i dont even know why i'm even doing this,
esp. when i know that i dont have to.

A Thousand Times Worse

Seriously?
i'm so annoying.
it's not funny.
what the hell is wrong with me.
see now i even said that word.
ai ai ai.
this is so not good.
at least i have the option to watch scrubs
which is what im doing right now
maybe chuck afterwards
just blabbing
idk
reallly really aargh ?
ok, thats so not cool
its 9.15
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
ah snap.

glad :D

really and truly am glad.
how lovely is it today.
ive done such a wonderful deed and made everyone happy including myself.
the real question is should i take this another step forward or would that just be too far. although it kinda is pointless as i've told myself over and over again but just that satisfied feeling is what i feed on and i like that feeling. hmmm. must wait for myself to come back and talk to me then.

oooh. oh so awesome.

Nyaks

i just needed this blog to be on top
:P

oh my,

it has come to my attention that lately i have been having trouble sleeping. that or the fact that i'm bored and i'm sick of my parents telling me what to do all day everyday and all night everynight. and so this is my rebellious plan against them. going on the comp late at night everyday talking to people because well i damn feel like it. what can they do, they're sleeping already, right?

so the thing is do i get attached too easily or maybe it just depends on the person. or the fact that i'm very reliant if that is even a word on other peopl. like i've just noticed that i have to many unecessary friends. that just sounded stupid. let me rephrase that. ok, i totally distracted myself and just lost my train of thought.

well done jasmine...

gosh, is it right to talk to people? i mean if people tell you to talk to people doesnt that mean your just listening to what they're saying, such as a peer telling you to talk to the new kid. oh gosh. i lost my train of thought again. and its because i changed windows not because im crazy in the head. LOL but something like that.

i love geography.

because i wanted to make sure that i wasn't being conned into anything i did some background check and i found out that uttar pradesh is in the north of india or somewhere thereabouts whilst bangalore is somewhere in the south of india. so now i'm really confused and need to do some more background checking. oh btw, im making this all up. im so effind bored. and btw again, the places a real. but thank gosh that sitch isn't. that would be creepy. wouldn't it?

ah, jasmine needs sleep.
right now it's 12.12.AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA.
yer, thats all.

ah shucks :)

simley wiley :D

damn it

damn it

damn it
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• damn it

damn it
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damn it

1. damn it

damn it
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ive emphasised on that two words a lot. because it's quickly falling apart.
oh gosh.

Crazy

oh really ?

yes.

i dont believe you.

well you have to now.

why?

because i said so.

and?

because i said so.

mhm. im not getting you...

i said so damn it.

ok :)

now what did you do that for.

because. i felt like it.

here we go again.

Aura

There was a time when i believed in a person's aura. And I guess I still do. Like I can kinda sense it and sometimes I can't but maybe I'm just making up all this mumbo jumbo shit, who cares. Anyways sometimes I feel that this aura that people have affect me greatly. With some people, it feels like they're aura is great and it encourages me to feel great. But yeah.

I don't know why I do these things but it makes me happy. I just hope I don't take it too far, like I always do.

Bestseller, Published in 2003

it's that time of the year again when everyone is in such a big rush to get their english work done. and by english work i mean ENGLISH. and by ENGLISH i mean wide reading. yes, that thing that our grade dreads so much but rather complains a lot when this problem could easily be solved by STARTING earlier, unless of course you are I and had no idea that this thing was due sometime in the near future. moving on...

...i have the right to do what i want whenever i want to because it's my life. i do not have to inform everyone of my choices because what i do results from my own actions and therefore no one else becomes involve in these situations.



MY LIFE, MY CHOICES

so stay the fuuuuccdge

Get Over It

Currently: Good Girls Go Bad Cobra Starship ft. Leighton Meester

LOVELY.
that's Katrina.

What is there to talk about? Usually I can write pages and pages of the most random stuff ever all just made up and now I'm just speechless and have no clue what to talk about. Is it just me or am I growing up and getting over everything and sick and tired of it. Really. I have no idea. I'm probably just being a random old me and doing what I always do. Be me. But who am I?

I went driving today, first time I drove with a passenger. It's s annoying how I get so distracted easily and like there, distracted again. But whatever. Driving it was fun. Although it wasn't a long drive, it was enough for me. Plus on the good side I got home @ 4 ! Woo. That's like so awesome because that's a whole hour earlier than the time I would have arrived home if I had caught the bus home. That makes me so happy.

I don't wish to complain anymore than I have today even though there's a lot more where this came from. I think just keeping things to myself is the easiest way to live my life maybe write in my diary haha but yeah I'm all good for now even though I still feel that things have changed majorly. I don't really, well not in the mood to discuss anything on this topic so like just smile and wave. I mean if it can work for penguins then a human would easily be capable of doing the same thing. And with a face like mine, no one can resist it :P

Party in the USA !

gusto ko kea mag punta doon. kaso alang pera tapos meron pa akong skwela. nakakainis talaga. pero, ano magagawa ko. ganito naman sa lahat nang tao.

there's ups...

...and downs.

sleeping: what i want to do

yesterday was clearly one of the best days ive had in a while. right, it didn't actually start out very well because i was in my far out why am i going out with my family today mood kinda things and like yeah. went shopping for a dress which was a complete fail because i didn't find a single one that i liked and yeah. afterwards we went to Stephano's in Parramatta which is a like an italian restaurant place with woodfire oven pizza. it was nice. but like one of the waitresses kept looking at my dad and i was just like wtf man. seriously. but whatever. good, great, brilliant day.


the day after was/is a major let down.
on top of that the bus is gay.



I DON'T CARE! so stfu.
esp. you alyssa

i find leighton meester pretty hot. and awesome. yeah.

Pizza Dough Recipe

I'm currently on a search for a dough recipe because im hungry and dad is sleeping because he has to go to work tonight and therefore i cannot wake him to take me to the shops to get pizza and so im searching for a nice pizza to make myself.


oh how things have changed...


Holidays:
- Gossip Girl
- Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle
- How I Met Your Mother
- The Golden Compass
- G-Force 3D
- St Trinians
- The Unborn

that's all of i've done these past holidays... great huh.

btw. im so gna beat alyssa in that dress making competition.

#300

firstly i'd like to congratulate myself for reach 300. quite insane really. how does one reach such a large number. to tell you the truth i have no idea but whatever right. so yes. happy 300th.

my day was what you call a good/bad day. it didn't exactly turn out as planned. we set out early in the morningt to go to the treetop adventure thingy in gosford and like we got there and it's awesome right but like the peoples there said you need a booking esp. on weekends and school holidays which today happened to be both. we left with disappointment because it was going to be fun.

after that we went to the entrance to go for a swim. the tide was high but it was low enough for us to be able to cross the water. as soon as we reached it though there were jellyfish and i despise jelly fish oh so much and so that ruined. we decided to go the pools and even those were close. luckily the little one was open but man was it cold. then soon it was forecasted to storm and so we decided to screw that and leave.

as you can see the day hadn't really gone to plan but whatever right? we had lucnh at this really nice chinese restaurant, i mean like the food was really nice. then we as in me alyssa and my mum went shopping for stuff because there was a sale and i bought myself a purple ball :D then we went to the festival thingy or whatever but like the rides were closing. luckily the carousel wasn't so we went on that. overall my day was awesome. even got to watch how i met your mother.

but yes.
excited for tomorrow.
buying materials for the dress.


GOODBYEE

what a week

since the last time i wrote to you a lot has happened.

...not really.

i can't be bothered going through the fine details and etc.
yesterday was fun.
the bucket.
the slide.
the river.
the water.

gosh i love swimming.
oh so much.

pictures of what i did get the chance to take a picture of.
:( no pictures.

damn it. the pictures wnt be square. they're lining with the text. fix it later. can't wait to make a dress and fully own alyssa. going out on monday how fun/boring. depends if jasmine comes. but will be with alyssa. hmmm :/

chips ahoy !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUKHMAN !

seems to be the only nice thing i can think of saying right now.

truly:

• a great day
• fun
• excitement
• sugartastic
• different
• awesome

yes, those words is pretty much how i would have to describe the day ive had. it's been quite eventful and turned out more that i had originally expected which i really don't care because it's a good thing. jasmine and anavi came over and was just on comp whilst i got ready. then left for gels's house. got there, people were there already. man i so can NOT be bothered talking about this. let the pictures speak for itself then?

oh, btw, went driving afterwards. luckily jasmine and anavi hadn't hitched a ride cause like i nearly, well let's just say it wasn't such a safe ride ;) and it's my first hour driving at night AS WELL as driving in the rain. kudos to me.



yer, it was AWESOME !
thanks gels.

Welcome Holidays

today is the beginning of a new era.


not literally. it just means that it's not the beginnnig of holidays and that's about it really. HAHA, so not funny. anyways gonna party tomorrow wearing curry clothes, or suit but i don't really know what it's called. jasmine and anavi coming, damn it have to clean up now. hmm what else. oh yeah. sukhman's presents. funny stuff man. im glad he doesn't read this because it was my idea. but my bad man. if you didn't expect it to turn out like that. plus i gave him lots of chocolate anyway so that practically makes up for it. hehe.


i like wrapping stuff.
because you know what.
im creative.
when i want to be anyway.

as well as that daniel tried to teach me how to kick the ball up so i can juggle it and man did i fail. it's so hard and i just couldn't do it and like it's so annoying because i was trying so hard and just couldn't kick the ball. gay, oh well i can practise at home with my basketball (cause supposedly, you can do that, hmmm). day was good. i just want to smile.


question: if the human eye can only see the colours of the rainbow but there are more colours which exist does this mean we can imagine it and how would it look?


jasmine, you're supposed to be completely and utterly over it but why do you act like that? you still try to live up to it's expectations yet you say that it no longer is. are you lying to yourself or are you really past it ? JUST TELL ME !


cge. buh-bye na ako.

that's fucking gay

thats fucking gay. to the max
it's just not fair.

why cant other people go.
if only the plans were made differently.
GAH!
it better be fun, otherwise it'd be such a waste of time and money.

aaargh !
thats so unfair.
that wasnt even the original plan.
why did it even have to be that ?!??!?!

hmph.
fcuk you people

yummy drink

it's so hot and like it's hot. LOL
so im drinking my ultimate drink which i made myself and it's nice and cool and sweet and perfect because it's enlightening my mood. But yes because i was outside beforehand and went for a twenty minute walk. Anywho it was to get the present for one of my few friends in this world but whatever that ain't interesting anyway.

Here's a question:
Is it shameful to unbutton your shirt in front of a couple of guys without actually opening the shirt like you keep it closed.

It was funny cause I found it on yahoo! answers. someone asked that questionLOL

pj ;)

hmm. glee tonight. i can finally watch it.
yey.

damn, towers :(

must wrap now..


does it mean one still has feelings for him?

sorry mr.

i apologize for the man who was mentioned multiple times in this blog and im sorry for any guilt ive caused you to feel >>

moving on >>


penn sure is one hotty ;)




HB ANGELICA. loveyah bumm.