Apology is Not Good Enough

I am unbelievable, yet believable. 

Lol, that was lame but my point is I'm a disgrace and I don't deserve anything good that's been given to me, because all of it is a gift. I don't understand how someone like me, who was taught to grow up to be a pure, chaste young lady turned out to be who I am right now. I've lost my values and morals and I've let loose on everything that I believe in. I have little belief in the things around me. I don't know why but it's insane. I'm insane. I wouldn't be surprised if I end up in a mental hospital one day.

Us

I feel like crying.

No, I don't feel like crying. I feel like being with Sumeet right now. The past week has been pretty shit and empty, mainly because he wasn't there and made me feel complete. Yeah, as lame as it sounds, he truly does complete me, is what I think anyway.

15th August

Nothing special about today, you know just two exams. Fun, fun, fun exams as we established last night. Also it was really cold today. Not cold just cool. And I finally got a seat with the damn heater and wasn't freezing my ass off during the exam. Amazing.

Present: Take 2

So the one on Tumblr was pretty lame and so I've decided to simplify it and just get straight to the point. Hope you like.

Lack of Significance

So I've just had two English exams and a Chemistry exams so I thought I'd put my great english skills to use on this blog. Also exams are past so why is there a need to even talk about it. Basically I'm home right now and I have 3 days off school and I am contemplating on whethere I should study or not and how much will it really entertain me and will I actually be learning studying or wasting time studying. So with that in mind I'm simply deduced the possibilities and decided that I would just waste my time altogether because a forensic chemist it's my job to find evidence then deduce it so I can find if I'm guilty or not. Aha I sound so lame, on top of that it didn't even make sense one bit.

Five Letter Word

TRIALS, It's actually SEX letters but five sounds like a better number, actually seventeen is but that'd just make me look like an idiot. Anyways, my TRIALS or finals or yearly exams is in less than two days. It has gotten to me. Of course it has. And what am I doing? Blogging of course. It's just that time of the night where I cannot function or concentrate on what I'm doing. I'm a night person. Night person to partey and have fun. Aha, rarely happens, don't laugh. So I'll probably get over this phase, hopefully soon because I want to study bad. And tomorrow I will also study. Maybe at the library, if I can be bothered waking up early that is. If not, hello yet another unproductive day. Although I'm pretty sure it will be, because I'll be working my ass off for English to make my most favourite English teacher happy :) Yes I've decided that she is indeed the best English teacher I've had. Like no offence to my other teachers, but she's actually made me work my ass off. I don't think I've ever done as much work nor this much improvement in English. I'm quite amazed.

Pretty sexciting stuff.

Had a pretty random day today. I was feeling pretty scared and upset in the morning, but having a chat with Marisa up in the conference room at recess kinda made me feel better. Apart from that nothing much else happened except played soccer on the oval and played around a bit. If you know what I mean. Aha

I'm still pretty angry. But that's probably because I'm an angry person. I hold grudges and I have no patience. I think that's completely stupid. I also think I'm stupid. I wish I could bash my head against the wall and then suddely be the most perfect person ever. But sadly, it would probably, no just saying that statement makes me stupid enough. Wow jasmine, wow.