Life, It Can Never Be How You Want it to Be

These past few days have been making me think. I guess it does help to be isolated from the world at times because then I could actually be myself and think about things and how they have been occuring lately. I don't know. I kinda feel happier right now, more lighter and less stress. Although theses holidays I have gained a lot of weight which I plan to lose soon by exercising daily, which I know will be a fail becauseI will forget or can't be bothered. But back to the subject, although I have gained a lot of weight I haven't had much pressure on how I look and appear especially around the house because no one here cares. No one will talk behind my back. My family I know they'll always be there for me no matter what. That's when it hit me. Why am I so scared of facing new people. I don't have to be the perfect stranger that they meet at a birthday party or at the mall. I could just be me and it doesn't matter what they think. As long as I have family, it's all good.

Things in life change all the time. I've noticed a lot of changes in everyone. Some changes may not be one that I like but what can I do. Nothing really. All I can do is sit back and watch because if I do anything it could become something worse than planned. Changes in my friends I've thought that maybe if that's what they want then good for them. I'll be the friend who'll just be there no matter who they are and what they do. Okay, well maybe not all the things they do. That could depend on what they do, but you get the whole idea.

I know this topic is kinda too out-there and not usually what I write about. But I've come to realise that my holidays have bee quite boring and not very eventful. Writing about a whole different topic has opened a whole new world to me and I like it. Only a couple more days till school and I'm quite excited though now that I am in year 10 in kinda scares me. So many exams and assignments. I know that I can do it. Anyone could, they just have to WANT IT. That's a good idea actually...

I WANT IT!

more than anyone else does.

Spending less time on the computer would also help me to accomplish this so I think I'm going to go now. Even though it's is just watching TV a change of scenery would still be good and healthy. That reminds me, I did exercise today. I lost 118 calories of doing 4 reps of 2.30minutes max, 1.30minutes min on the stationary bike. It felt good.

laters,..

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