just keep swimming

remember dory. from finding nemo.

yeah well, remember how she said

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.

I know it didn't actually have any meaning to it but i guess,

I could add a meaning to it now.

That would make me feel so much better.

But yeah.

Just keep swimming,

Basically it could have two meanings to it.

1: Keep trying, and trying.

But in my case I don't need that meaning.

So onto meaning 2: Move on with life.

Yeah. That's a good one.

Move on with life.
I realised yesterday when I came home, that I'm quite lucky in a way. But sometimes they're just not big events that I see it. For example yesterday, I was running late for school and like I was in extreme hurry to leave the house and I put my Jasmine necklace on. I came home and my mum's like where's your necklace? And i felt my neck for it and shit, it wasn't there. I was worried a lot, but then i realised I knew I hadn't lost it because then how would my parents know that it was missing and it's not like theyre gonna ask me a random question like that. So i was very relieved that I hadn't lost it and it was an expensive thing too which I really would have been in deep shit if my mum hadn't found it.

Another example is last friday, again, me being me, was running late for the bus again. But this time it was because I was being an idiot and walking as slow as I could to the bus stop and then I saw one the kids who catch my bus and he started running and i was like WTF. Then I got to the corner and I saw that the bus was there and lucky me, I hadn't missed the bus. But puffed out, because of my total unfitness.

One more. Today, i caught the train yeah. And i wanted to catch the normal train i would normally catch to be on time for the bus and so i ran to the station and i made it and lucky me, lara was there too so i had someone to catch it with. Along the way, other things occured which, apart from me, no one will really care about. Let's just say, I CHOSE THE RIGHT ONE. HAHA. and I made the bus and I got home early. As you can see there is luck with me. I just don't see it and use it well enough, or notice it.

New Life
Ok, when i say that. I don't actually mean like, suicide etc. Because firstly I'm scared of that. To prove it, I'm to scared to cut myself and I'm too scared of falling off sukhman's back even though it's only like 30cm off the ground. I couldn't even fall off the gym first gym step. Back to the subject, I think i need a new school again. With new adventures and new people. Something different. I need a change, yeah that's what I need. I'm fine with my family life right now, well maybe except for the fact most of them are in Philippines, but i'm coping.

Ok new TO DO LIST:

1. need a drastic change, can be anything
2. keep up my good organization skills and other school things
3. improve with my fitness
4. lose 5kg by 10 weeks

I think that list is good enough. Hmm, i wonder what day this blog will get posted. WEDNESDAYYY. Therefore the need of a new word for tomorrow will not count.

To describe how i am at the moment.

BORED

Off to sleep now. 12:13AM. Great job jasmine, late for bus again...

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