I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight...
Sunday, June 12, 2011
What's Love
What's love, got to do, got to do, babe
What's love, it's about us, it's about trust,
So I've been really lazy recently and just haven't dont anything productive. I've no motivation to do anything and sometimes I feel like my life is complete waste of time. I can't even be bothered drinking anymore, ahha not that it's something I wanna do. Anyways, yeah I've been lazy and I've got a fair amount of assessments coming up which I really need to get a move on and start doing otherwise I can see my self dropping in me ranking and all that other shit that apparently matters. I feel so pessimistic now. I actually have no reason to be upset or sad so I'm not really. I'm just getting really stressed now, and the pressure of year 12 is actually starting to hit me now. I just don't appreciate people getting on my nerves especially when it's not even necessary. Are people stupid or something?
And you know what I found out yesterday. I have to do my English assessment on the Tuesday or on the Monday in front of the panel of teachers, all because I have TAFE on the Wednesday. I think all this English shit is stupid but then if I think about it, we only have to go through school once and my mood's just gone shitty. I hate these swings.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. i hate being in this. It's the most stupidest thing in the world, and yeah I finally get why she'd say no to him. It's all coming back. I feel even more stupid now.
STUPID
STUPID.
I wanna go out.
What's love, it's about us, it's about trust,
So I've been really lazy recently and just haven't dont anything productive. I've no motivation to do anything and sometimes I feel like my life is complete waste of time. I can't even be bothered drinking anymore, ahha not that it's something I wanna do. Anyways, yeah I've been lazy and I've got a fair amount of assessments coming up which I really need to get a move on and start doing otherwise I can see my self dropping in me ranking and all that other shit that apparently matters. I feel so pessimistic now. I actually have no reason to be upset or sad so I'm not really. I'm just getting really stressed now, and the pressure of year 12 is actually starting to hit me now. I just don't appreciate people getting on my nerves especially when it's not even necessary. Are people stupid or something?
And you know what I found out yesterday. I have to do my English assessment on the Tuesday or on the Monday in front of the panel of teachers, all because I have TAFE on the Wednesday. I think all this English shit is stupid but then if I think about it, we only have to go through school once and my mood's just gone shitty. I hate these swings.
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. i hate being in this. It's the most stupidest thing in the world, and yeah I finally get why she'd say no to him. It's all coming back. I feel even more stupid now.
STUPID
STUPID.
I wanna go out.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Do I Really Have To Say It
I didn't like today. Everything about it was just so negative. There was a negative vibe wherever I went, or maybe it was just me. I don't know actually. Fuck, I dont even want to rant. I just want to go to bed and cry and sleep and stay there forever. Yes, mr z I'm the type of person to give up and never care about something ever again.
AND you, for some reason you irritate me. You act like you don't read my blog and pretend that you don't know what's going on with me. IT'S SO FUCKING OBVIOUS. i wanna fucking break this laptop because it's just as shitty as me, and I'm not gognna get my assignment done. ew g4ewKUtlh,vkBnp/j
AND you, for some reason you irritate me. You act like you don't read my blog and pretend that you don't know what's going on with me. IT'S SO FUCKING OBVIOUS. i wanna fucking break this laptop because it's just as shitty as me, and I'm not gognna get my assignment done. ew g4ewKUtlh,vkBnp/j
No matter how hard I try, you keep pushing me aside...
Sunday, June 5, 2011
200:
two hundred days of...
friendship, happiness, pain, hairyness, caring, eating, sexytime, hairyness, hugging, kissing, relaxing, studying, bob, good times, bad times...
and love.
DUDE, yeah.
♥
friendship, happiness, pain, hairyness, caring, eating, sexytime, hairyness, hugging, kissing, relaxing, studying, bob, good times, bad times...
and love.
DUDE, yeah.
♥
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Example 9
I'd take a picture and show you my math book to show you example 9 but that'd just be sad and low and so much like Sumeet, and who would want to be like that guy. Like, seriously.
I'm really bored and I feel that I should be doing something fun. I really want to get my hair done, but I don't know what colour to do or what style it should be. My boyfriend says he likes my hair straight. I mean how late can this guy be seeing as I already rejected my mother's offer of letting me get my hair permanently straightened and yeah. I wanted to mention something else but I've forgotten now. I think it goes something like I need to get a job like as soon as HSC finishes cause there's so many things I want to do and get and right now, not even a month after my birthday I'm starting to go broke, already. Which I think is no fun at all. To make things worse of this sadness of not having money to buy stuff I want like food, there's assessments coming up. Not that I have much compared to everyone else but still! It's like pressure added on to myself. But the good thing is I know where I'm at in my grade and with little work, just very little I could improve so much more, but then again I'm happy where I'm at now so why should I bother? Hahah, of course I will continue to work hard. Especially when my boyfriend's not online to talk to me becaue frankly I'll just have nothing else to do except of course to study.
I don't think I remember writing this. On the Women in Engineering Day, I was running to Central Station and like fast walked my way through the park and like right before it ends, some guy from one of the thousands of charities out there stops me and says Can I have your attention for a minute. Of course I said no, I have to catch the train but then he persisted so then I said fine and listen. At the end, he began saying you don't have to put much in, you only need to put in like $10 and that'll help alot of people. Oh so what's your occupation. I said student. And he said ahhh, do you have a part time job? And I said, uhmm, I'm a high school student. And his reply was, oh you have to be 21 to do this and he said sorry about that Thanks anyway and I couldn't help but LOL to myself on the way to the station. On the bright side he was somewhat attractive. I think it was cause he had nice eyes and I just stared at them the whole time. So yeah, that actually really made me happy. Like the fact that a guy thought I was older than my actualy age, instead of the usual I look younger than my actualy age which kinda gets annoying sometimes except when I have to pay fares for the train or bus or the first time I bought alcohol. People, I'm 18. Yeah.
So I really should start this math revision now. I'm partially happy because Abhi was there today and we went through the exam he gave us. He reminds me of Sumeet a lot. Maybe because he's good at math or maybe he looks like him. Probably just cause everything I think of I can manage to somehow relate to Sumeet. The guy I love most.
MATHTIME,
see that; instead of sexytime, I put math.
whatever.
I'm really bored and I feel that I should be doing something fun. I really want to get my hair done, but I don't know what colour to do or what style it should be. My boyfriend says he likes my hair straight. I mean how late can this guy be seeing as I already rejected my mother's offer of letting me get my hair permanently straightened and yeah. I wanted to mention something else but I've forgotten now. I think it goes something like I need to get a job like as soon as HSC finishes cause there's so many things I want to do and get and right now, not even a month after my birthday I'm starting to go broke, already. Which I think is no fun at all. To make things worse of this sadness of not having money to buy stuff I want like food, there's assessments coming up. Not that I have much compared to everyone else but still! It's like pressure added on to myself. But the good thing is I know where I'm at in my grade and with little work, just very little I could improve so much more, but then again I'm happy where I'm at now so why should I bother? Hahah, of course I will continue to work hard. Especially when my boyfriend's not online to talk to me becaue frankly I'll just have nothing else to do except of course to study.
I don't think I remember writing this. On the Women in Engineering Day, I was running to Central Station and like fast walked my way through the park and like right before it ends, some guy from one of the thousands of charities out there stops me and says Can I have your attention for a minute. Of course I said no, I have to catch the train but then he persisted so then I said fine and listen. At the end, he began saying you don't have to put much in, you only need to put in like $10 and that'll help alot of people. Oh so what's your occupation. I said student. And he said ahhh, do you have a part time job? And I said, uhmm, I'm a high school student. And his reply was, oh you have to be 21 to do this and he said sorry about that Thanks anyway and I couldn't help but LOL to myself on the way to the station. On the bright side he was somewhat attractive. I think it was cause he had nice eyes and I just stared at them the whole time. So yeah, that actually really made me happy. Like the fact that a guy thought I was older than my actualy age, instead of the usual I look younger than my actualy age which kinda gets annoying sometimes except when I have to pay fares for the train or bus or the first time I bought alcohol. People, I'm 18. Yeah.
So I really should start this math revision now. I'm partially happy because Abhi was there today and we went through the exam he gave us. He reminds me of Sumeet a lot. Maybe because he's good at math or maybe he looks like him. Probably just cause everything I think of I can manage to somehow relate to Sumeet. The guy I love most.
MATHTIME,
see that; instead of sexytime, I put math.
whatever.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Friday Friday Friday
Today is Jasmine's Birthday, tomorrow is Saturday and Sunday comes afterwards.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!
I hope she had a wonderful day.
Better than mine I hope. Not that mine was bad, but it definitely could've been better.
That's all.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!
I hope she had a wonderful day.
Better than mine I hope. Not that mine was bad, but it definitely could've been better.
That's all.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Classy, very classy.
So long story short I decided to perform intercouse in the toilets today. That's what happened in my dream. Gosh my dreams get dirtier by the day or night depends what time I'm sleeping.
Best girlfriend ever, that's me. I eat heaps, I talk heaps, I sleep heaps, I troll heaps. What more could this guy want. Hhaha, anyways on a much brighter and cleaner note I love Sumeet that I've even written a poem about him.
Sumeet
he doesn't care what I eat
he ain't neat
sorry sumeet
:P
i love him
hindi sya maitim.
that's is all
about sumeet-im
Hehe, sif not like that.
♥
I really need to study. I'm just glad you are.
Best girlfriend ever, that's me. I eat heaps, I talk heaps, I sleep heaps, I troll heaps. What more could this guy want. Hhaha, anyways on a much brighter and cleaner note I love Sumeet that I've even written a poem about him.
Sumeet
he doesn't care what I eat
he ain't neat
sorry sumeet
:P
i love him
hindi sya maitim.
that's is all
about sumeet-im
Hehe, sif not like that.
♥
I really need to study. I'm just glad you are.
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