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shucks I never knew that it'd be this hard. I knew that it'd be a bit hard but because I'm on vacation it's like yeah it'll be all good but it doesn't work when only one half is trying or am I just trying too hard. or maybe I'm just wanting too much expecting more. I feel so stupid now and SAD as in the loser sad and not the emotion sad. like if you think about it it's like really? seriously? WTF?! that's like not right, not one bit. I am way over my head and need to take things slowly but I just can't help it. i wasn't forced into anything I was asked and things were checked but I really don't know. why am I so impulsive like this was never the plan yet somehow this happened and well now I really am not sure. the thing is this is what happened last time and maybe I should just not think about it so much and well if I did that then hopefully it just might last longer do you get what I mean? it just doesn't seem right for something to be over when it's
barely just started so that's it I'm just gonna try not worry about it then maybe I won't be so like this.
apart from this I really have nothing in my head. it's like taken over me completely but it just makes me so happy and I really don't want to forget everything. hehe. I miss you already. I really truly do and well I just want to talk to you right now because nothing else seem to matter to me without you here and I kinda feel stupid saying that because I know that you can't be here but still. I just want you here with me, beside me, in your arms... bahahahhahahaha that's hilarious !

hun

you are perfect in my eyes and I don know whether or not I should be believing the things you tell me or maybe I'm just blinded by the fact that someone, a real person is actually saying those things to me. I'm
quite grateful for you and you do make me happy, you presence, thinking about you makes me happy and you super hot voice, baby it's just so good. you make smile no matter what and I can't believe it's
been what a few days yet somehow you've grown so close to me it's quite unbelievable. ok so maybe I'm going over my head but this is what you've done to me and this is what I was afraid of. I was afraid
of falling for you and the things that come with liking someone. the sleepless nights and always wanting you around me. that's going to be so hard to. I just want to be in bed with you with your arms wrapped
around me keeping me warm from the cold weather (where you live of course not here, so hot here that I'll probably push you off the bed hahas) but you truly are amazing. I also can't believe that you'd
waste your credit (if you used ur cellphone that is) just to call me and hear my voice. I swear you are the only one who likes it and I would say the only one who doesn't make fun of it and mock me but you
did it yesterday so pfft.



I'm glad you exist :)


just, don't hurt me...

shuck !

I think he actually does like me, genuinely and he means everything he says... I mean I like him too but would it work? would I be able to keep my word?
jasmine and kattt check ur emails I have sent u email. lol yeah the reminder is really for Katrina cz I know she doesn't check her emails u lazy ass.
miss you both tho :)

now pout !

so today i went shopping and it was ok, I was more excited with getting my picture taken and the fact that I'm buying an Optus sim card so that I can text my friend and call him for free. But whateva.
uh I don't know what's wrong with me, I want to talk to my baby and everytime I do it just seems like he's busy even for me which I don't mind and when he does speak to me I'm not there and can't reply so he can't talk to me either. I really like him and well I don't know, plus he's hot I'll never get a hot guy to ever like me or think I'm hot and cute. plus something is wrong with me, I've had like 5 moments where I just wanted to burst into tears and it's all been because of them even though it's not my fault. it's not even my fault and I really don't know what's wrong with me. plus now I'm really tired and it's still very early. gosh!

waiting yet again

it sucks the holidays are over for everyone else, my friend is going back to uni/work and so no more talking day and night. it also sucks that my baby lives on the other side of the world and i don't know if he's real or if he's just bullshitting me becAuse I know real life people, "friends" who use me and that's so f*cked up. but I really do just want to talk to him. it really makes me wonder though why a hot looking model that's older go for a fat looking kid who doesn't even have a good personality. sometimes these people cry because it seems like they're all playing with me and lying to me just to get what they want. I don't know, I'm uber careful though but it's not that that I'm worried about. it's my ego and my confidence I don't want it shattered by people i don't even know.

damn, baby just come online already. I'm sorry I wasn't on the other day...

:(

Jasmine.

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phoaw

I think jasmine likes older young men.
interesting....

more about it later, heheh
I have a new awesome buddy
too bad he calls me bitch all the time
but I love it hehe

Jasmine.

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2010

first blog for the new year and well nothing. haven't really done anything exciting but ooh I had fun on New Year's Eve cause like we went swimming twice, once in the afternoon then again at night. then jaisen had V and we decided to drink it and so we were at the front full of energy taking pictures. Alyssa being so antisocial charry looking like she had a bit too much and sunshine complaining about every single thing we did and the fact that we left her out. damn it was good fun.

other things are, more people know about my uh let's call it hobby. quite weird but yeah doesn't matter cause like it's my problem and they shouldn't have asked me if it's that bad which trust me I doubt that it's that bad like it's something I would do of course. ahahahah.

two days since I've talked to my baby. actually I haven't talked to him since last year. awww that sucks oh well I hope he's partying like crazy and finally lost his uh well I still have mine but I hope he doesn't so that he doesn't have to wait for me or whatever his plans were. LOL

anywhome that's all think I might just play some games now.

Jasmine.

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