19/20 is it ever good enough

i was just thinking to myself as per usual rather than doing someting productive, once again as per usual. back to  what i was saying, is what we do ever good enough. i mean why do we have such high standards of other people when sometimes even you can't live up to standards of other people and you complain endlessly of how unfair things are. i must admit, i do that. and i tell myself off countlessly because if there's one thing i don't like it's hypocrites and i am a hypocrite. though why can we never be good enough? is it because of something that we've done or do people simply dislike us to a point where you do anything to just make them leave you alone. i don't really know where i'm headed with this blog, but like life it's just going to keep going until something, or someone ends it. but that will be not now. i still want to continue. NOT BEING ON THE EFFING COMPUTER FOR 2 WHOLE DAYS HAVE BEEN HARD ON ME and i just gotta keep typing. otherwise i'm gonna eat someone.

there was something else on my mind which i just wanted to discuss but it's managed to escape me. sometimes i even manage to amaze myself with all the crazy jasmine things that i do. quite odd really.

it's time to let go. but that's not me. as in. i've already done that. it's your turn.

nothing lasts forever

my, my, that was the stimulus for english, but yes. nothing lasts forever and i think it's time that you let go of me too. i don't need to be your safety net anymore. you have another one now. plus you always have a backup anyway, though that sounds quite odd. but like i said, i dont need to be that safety net anymore but someone else is there so you can let go. trust me. and this way no one gets hurt. everyone is happy. i just want everyone to be happy so in the end i can get what i want. i'm sick of putting everyone in front of me (i dont always do that though, just in-a-way-metaphorically speaking) and i just want to be that person whom everyone wants to make sure is happy and satisfied and not have to worry about anything because people got it, they've handled it. but that can't happen and so my plan is to make everyone happy first and then because they're happy and no longer need to be any happier, they will realise i need to be happy too and treated the same way i have treated them, with love and care and with REALNESS. no fakeness no nothing that i dont want. i just want fairies and butterflies and rainbows.

WOWOWOWOOW !


i'm so out of it.
i need chocolate.
gawsh....



awww. damn it.
i miss you
talking to you endlessly
about anything
your jokes
my adventures
everything.
be there ...
for me.

Blabb.

finally? or is it too soon to say that? i don't quite know but one thing's for sure. i'm v. happy & ecstatic that my holidays are beginning soon. not yet but soon. i love school certificate. the only time i can think for real without the worry of anyone else. hmmm. that didn't make sense at all but maybe that's what i'm trying to do. i need people to be smarter. i like having hidden messages. but that's for later.

i miss you all. i can't believe that i had to turn out like that. leaving you guys behind and when i really needed someone you've been there the whole time. i'm also v. thankful that you've noticed. i'm quite sure that no one else knows what i'm talking about and seriously stuff them because i'm pretty sure if they had noticed they would have told me by now and i love them even more. but i really do miss having you with me all the time. like circumstances have changed and so have i. the worst part it's been a change for the worst rather than for the better. i really do wish that one day we could have what we once had once upon a time. when things were good and fun was the only thing in my vocabulary. now i use words such as disappointed, gay, suck. those words aren't very nice, though truthful not what i want to be talking about. once again. thank you. i really do know who my friends are in this world. and im v. grateful for that. AND LMAO ! it's not even offensive. haha.

i have changed.

i miss going on the computer. i miss talking to people via instant messenger, both on yahoo and msn. i miss being able to be someone else and make up a whole new identity. i miss being on a totally different world. i miss the emotions. i miss the sleepless nights spent on the computer. i miss everything about the computer. i wish things were back to the good old days. and now...they can be.

i'm so good right now i'm going crazy with the computer i'm probably making record times with my awesome typing. this is probably the fastest i've typed EVER with hardly any typos which is like ... A W E S O M E

jasmine needs to go shopping:
- buy a dress
- buy jewellry
- book salon
- lose weight
ahahaha, i dont know what the last one has to do with shopping but whatever right? really i'm just happy.


should i ask or not?
should i bother or not?
am i even worth it?


ahhhh. i love you computer.
:D

SC

today has been v. uneventful

gosh sukhman. whyd u read it?



check out fresh new notes on DEAR KID NOTES.
i like em v. much :)

BITCH

define bitch;

-noun

1.	a female dog.

2.	a female of canines generally.

3.	Slang. a. a malicious, unpleasant, selfish person, esp. a woman. b. a lewd woman.

4.	Slang. a. a complaint. b. anything difficult or unpleasant: The test was a bitch. c. anything memorable, esp. something exceptionally good: That last big party he threw was a real bitch.

  Now it's very obvious that, that definition is missing something and that is the following:

5.       a Jasmine S.


want to quote Kid: fantasy :)



yeah, there's no doubt about that. but at least i tell the truth and don't make stuff up. im not aiming this at anyone. just what someone told me today and gosh you're v. good at making me feel horribubble. oh well, i owe you. now they don't owe you.



today...was fricken awesome.
i did nothing.
at all.
just wasted time
and spent the day with the person who's the most awesome and meaningful to me. yet no one knows who that is but still. gosh, i'm not some dirty little girl though. no matter what my v. awesome friend tells you. that's all a lie. didn't read the whole context.

oh my.

:)

Sunshine.

sometimes i'm not glad that she's my sister but other times she just lights up my life. get that? anyways just wanted to post her name because it's so bright as in smart. woo! i'm on a roll with my effing awesome puns. anyways im off.

How

How come...

....I complain about my problems,
it's my fault.

...I ask my sister for help,
it's my fault.

...I help,
it's my fault.

...I have a problem with you,
it's my fault.

 ...I have to tell you everything cause you wanted to know and you get hurt,
it's my fault.

...I'm the one at fault,
when really it's your fault.

Dedicated to those who are simply blind and thick-headed.

My, after the conversations I had today I've not felt this good in a while. Actually I have, yesterday and the day before. Anyways my point is I was talking about how some people are just so thick-headed that they don't realise they're own wrong doings. Ok, so right now I don't really have a reason to have a go at these people but in the future when do they annoy me I probably would not be in the mood to talk about but rather than just get angry at them and stuff. So here's the deal. I'm going to summarize the things they do and ways they can overcome this...problem which they have.

What's wrong:

• people say you are doing something yet you don't realise
• you make a joke and hurt someone's feelings, yet you continue to laugh about it
• continuall talking about yourself when it's obvious no one cares
• you ignore the problems other people may have
• not everyone has to talk to you yet you manipulate them to
  

Ways to overcome the problem:

• observe other people and look at how they feel, their reaction to the things you say
• ask them if you are causing them problems
• be concerned in a way that you are not being overly sympathetic but in a good way
• just don't make small talk when it's clearly not needed
• be silent
  

This is just a summary of the overall thing but it gives the basic idea of the message. It also makes me feel better because I have said what I needed to say. Just that the other people need to do their part and be more considerate of others and see that other people have problems too and that sometimes you just need to see things in their shoes.


wannabe gangsta, soccer, rain, IST conversations, hitting people, running down high street. the day was somewhat awesome. no need to complain. i'm sorry to everyone which i have complained to and said some, well not particularly nice things. the fact that there are things which are worse than the problems I have it just makes me feel better about my life (sorry to you know who you people are). It's just now that I know my life is fine then it's all good. Gosh, hate talking about nothing.


i'm not a whore.

not said by sukhman (^that thing above)

GOSH SUKHMAN

best damn thing ever. so effing funny. CLICK




that's pretty much all I wanted to say.
:D