sundae yum

daylight saving ends.

wooo, another hour of sleep. so after weeks & weeks of only getting 5 hours of sleep, for once i got 8 (: But still had to wake up early to go church which i found was good and fun, but i was still sleepy. HAHA but then again, im always sleepy.

actually i don't feel like blogging now.

apart from that nothing interesting happened anyway except i finished my health assignment which i found really awesome cause I finally did it. Just have to do Italianooo and IST.

I missed out, by a big shot. I think, I must stop thinking about it. Hmmmmmm.

psht. im hungry.

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HAHA, i'm not laughing

Over and over again
cause it's all in my head...

I woke up this morning, up and ready to go swimming. Lately, waking up in a Saturday morning I've felt more enthusiastic about going swimming. I don't know why this is the case but it's a good thing. I got there and Julia was back. Yey? And because I was there early she asked if i wanted to join the early class and I did it, which meant i finished earlier. Woo, I could do all the things she said EXCEPT for the fact that I couldn't breathe, but that's just me. So yeah.

Now i'm at home and like I'm doing the first part of the Healthy Assignment which I find a complete waste of time because it is. So yeah. While looking for info I came upon this (http://www.reachout.com.au/default.asp?ti=1866) I thought it was a good website and it really gave me help on what was wrong with me.

Why I'm feeling crap:

• You have experienced one or several big or small stressful events or tough times.

So yeah. It may have been cause by one of the following:

• Family problems
• Relationship or friendship problems - breaking up with someone or fighting.
• Starting at a new school or job.
• Being a carer or living with someone with a mental or physical illness.
• Feeling bored or unstimulated, e.g. in the school holidays.
• Not eating well
• Not getting enough exercise
• Not getting enough sleep
• Illness - being sick, or fighting off illness, can make you feel run down and unwell
• Hormonal changes in females during your menstrual cycle can make you feel crap. This may happen a few days before you get your period and you may not make the connection immediately.

As you can see it's not all of it, it's a few of those reasons. I'm not going to go into detail into that but yeh. I'm going to admit it. I FEEL CRAP. And the only thing I can do about it which will work is to express my feelings, but that will cause me to feel more crap and make the whole everything worse. So i will just deal with it and keep my mouth shut. My happiness doesn't matter, just as long as everyone elses is fine.

And just to get things straight now, I'm not emo. I don't fucking cut myself or even listen to emo music. I don't even dress emo. So fuck off. I'm not fucking emo.

Must finish this.

laters,.
;]

p.s.

WORD FEELING OF THE DAY:
"CRAP"

FRIDAY DAY DAY

it was sunny today

and i was happy

Last day of school spirit week it was very excitingly fun and sunny and such a bludge. LOL, it began with commerce and i did work, sumarized work LOL and it was very funny and exciting then i realised i was hungry and totally out of it and that commerce wasnt really fun. HAHA. Do i have to go through my day. Like seriously. Right now, as in RIGHT NOW i realised something. But maybe i shouldnt include it in the blog because this is a public blog and thi is a very private thing. But i'm really happy and like totally getting ober him. HAHA. I don't know why I'm laughing but like whatever. But theres something else connected to that, that only a few people know the reason to. Like I only get over people a certain way, and yeah. If you really want to know ( YES, im talking to YOU ...) then ask me, I may tell. But then again, I probably already told you. So yeah.


WORD OF THE DAY:

"BUBBLY"

note: I hate lunchtimes, I figured out that this is the cause of the downturn of my very good moods, so think about what you're going to do or say to me, before you do, because it could be you that changes me.

I caught the train. Laugh out loud.

laters,.
;]

:P

What I Want:

1. a pretty beanie
one that fits me, with nice colours and preferably with a good design.

2. iPod speakers
I already have one but I need portable ones, so like if we have school events that we go out we I could bring my speakers and listen to the music, like everyone and not just me.

3. polaroid camers
i'm sick of the digital camera like its good quality and all but like it's not instant enough, plus i've always wanted a polaroid camera.

4. a new outfit
i don't care what outfit, i just need a new style. Like seriously, I don't even think I have a style. I just wear whatever and hoepfully it looks good.

5. shoes
nice shoes. and not formal ones.


MUST SAVE MONEY, otherwise I'll never be able to get any of these.


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More Rain

"Don't lie, it'll just make you cry"
I made that up, and it rhymes..


Today because of this stupid weather everyone's mood seems to be pretty gloomy. Actually I should just speak for myself but like, because I'm in this stupid phase again when the stupid weather is affecting how I am during the day.

Firstly today Mexican day and it wasn't a mufti day so I just stuffed it and like yeah. I got to school but yet wet and we had to take photos for a school brochure and I found it extremely retarded like why do we have to be walking, exactly?! Then first period was health which turns out we had to set up the hall for sport selection and I was just like YES! Because I really just wasn't in the mood to be Healthy. I chose Social Tennis with Ivy and Fiona and it turns out that Sukhman is doing it too, so at least if Ivy and Fiona give up I'll have someone else to play with. Hehee. My brother is so damn cool. SO yeah, and it turns out that I could take down an elephant. Hmmmm, i'll get back to that...

I don't want to go through my day. Except in IST it was not ew, but I just really didn't expect it and I don't want to go back into it. Seriously. English, out narratives were due and like yeah. Then all we had to do was sit there and at least look like we were doing work, then Blackout. Yeah I know. It wasn't really scary cause the windows were open so there was natural light already there. Lunch was wet. And then history. Stupid teacher,I don't like you. The day went on, etc, etc, I really don't want to talk about it. I just woke up from short nap and I'm NOT feeling refreshed at all, just worse than before. So that's gay.

MOOD WORD OF THE DAY:

"INDEfFERENT"

and while you're at it, Read this:


Stress less
Need a reason to take time out? Studies have shown that stress is directly related to a bulging belly. When the brain is stressed, it produces cortisol, which heads straight to the stomach (where there's a high concentration of cortisol receptors) and activates fat-storage cells. Stress also lowers levels of oestrogen, the hormone responsible for womanly curves.


So yeah, that's why I don't study much, because if i do, then I get stressed then I'll get wrinkles. And I so don't want that.

Hmmmm, on more thing. Everyone seems to be so happy So I guess I should feel happy for everyone and that their lives are all good. Right now what I think shouldn't matter because it's not my place to be talking about anything. So yeah. Happy :D

I need a new song to listen to.

;]

just keep swimming

remember dory. from finding nemo.

yeah well, remember how she said

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.

I know it didn't actually have any meaning to it but i guess,

I could add a meaning to it now.

That would make me feel so much better.

But yeah.

Just keep swimming,

Basically it could have two meanings to it.

1: Keep trying, and trying.

But in my case I don't need that meaning.

So onto meaning 2: Move on with life.

Yeah. That's a good one.

Move on with life.
I realised yesterday when I came home, that I'm quite lucky in a way. But sometimes they're just not big events that I see it. For example yesterday, I was running late for school and like I was in extreme hurry to leave the house and I put my Jasmine necklace on. I came home and my mum's like where's your necklace? And i felt my neck for it and shit, it wasn't there. I was worried a lot, but then i realised I knew I hadn't lost it because then how would my parents know that it was missing and it's not like theyre gonna ask me a random question like that. So i was very relieved that I hadn't lost it and it was an expensive thing too which I really would have been in deep shit if my mum hadn't found it.

Another example is last friday, again, me being me, was running late for the bus again. But this time it was because I was being an idiot and walking as slow as I could to the bus stop and then I saw one the kids who catch my bus and he started running and i was like WTF. Then I got to the corner and I saw that the bus was there and lucky me, I hadn't missed the bus. But puffed out, because of my total unfitness.

One more. Today, i caught the train yeah. And i wanted to catch the normal train i would normally catch to be on time for the bus and so i ran to the station and i made it and lucky me, lara was there too so i had someone to catch it with. Along the way, other things occured which, apart from me, no one will really care about. Let's just say, I CHOSE THE RIGHT ONE. HAHA. and I made the bus and I got home early. As you can see there is luck with me. I just don't see it and use it well enough, or notice it.

New Life
Ok, when i say that. I don't actually mean like, suicide etc. Because firstly I'm scared of that. To prove it, I'm to scared to cut myself and I'm too scared of falling off sukhman's back even though it's only like 30cm off the ground. I couldn't even fall off the gym first gym step. Back to the subject, I think i need a new school again. With new adventures and new people. Something different. I need a change, yeah that's what I need. I'm fine with my family life right now, well maybe except for the fact most of them are in Philippines, but i'm coping.

Ok new TO DO LIST:

1. need a drastic change, can be anything
2. keep up my good organization skills and other school things
3. improve with my fitness
4. lose 5kg by 10 weeks

I think that list is good enough. Hmm, i wonder what day this blog will get posted. WEDNESDAYYY. Therefore the need of a new word for tomorrow will not count.

To describe how i am at the moment.

BORED

Off to sleep now. 12:13AM. Great job jasmine, late for bus again...

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SCHOOL SPIRIT WEEK ;]

this week is school spirit week, I only realized this now because i just looked at someone's blog, but like how can anyone forget that it is school spirit week. Maybe because of this horrible weather or maybe because of that fact that no one is in the mood to be having school spirit. But whatever it is, it's just so crap. This is my worst School Spirit Week yet and I don't like it. Especially today, because my hair wasn't even wacky because if i did anything it would just die because of the rain. Anyways enough of that. Far out, I'm so annoyed at my dad because he took so long on my computer yesterday that I was so sleepy and couldn't be be bothered wating for him to finish and AAARGH, so i missed one day of blogging which far out, i havent done yet. But now ruined. So yeah, but im all good now. OH wait, no im not. NOW i have to write about today AND yesterday. But actually I wont.

Basically it rained today and we had double periods. And like it was quite funny + boring + random + depressing + high on sugar (subway cookies)... I caught the early train with Lara at Kingswood and saw other people at the next stop. yeah, yeah... all the usual.

Yesterday, it was raining too. We had mufti though. I wore clothes. Someone looked hot ;) Dude, sukhman frgn piggybacked me. I was freaking out because I thought I was gonna fall, BUT I was NOT crying. So yeah. Uhm peer support is so over and i'm so happy about that. pe yesterday too, BEEP test. Didn't try then dodgeball i tried. Now my arms are aching. LOL, i deserved it. I observed intense flirting (haha, only I and jasmine know). Apart from that. Oh yeah and that night before yesterday. talking to pat on msn, and playing truth. It was effing disgusting and let's not ever speak of it again. NOT LOL !

laters,..
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WORD OF YESTERDAY: ANNOYED
WORD OF TODAY: JUMPY