jas + mine

"SLEEPY"

I feel so good right now. I don't know why. Actually good and sleepy, Yes that's my word of the day. I woke up late again, but at least today I didn't nearly miss the bus. And it was Hip-Your-Uniform day and like of course i hipped my uniform cause what else was i meant to do. And my hair I did that too, and I realised that my hair has streaks in it, its not like obvious obvious but it does have it and hehe, i like my hair. I've done commerce so i'm not so busy right now. If only i could finish english today then maybe I could do other things and not have to be so stressed with all these other things, but yeah. Today was good, we had that history thing and it was funny, like part of its and some parts of it were real sad, and like the people are heaps good actors. Too bad i'm not like that. Then maybe I could act my way through high school. :P Uhm, yeah and in IST it was so random siting next to Geeth but like whatever. Today was good. If only that one thing hadn't ruined it. Stupid, uhm, wat was the reason again. Oh yeah, it happened a couple of times during the history show and twice during maths. FAR OUT. If only i was invisible. Actually that wouldn't make so much difference. HEHE. I was also told I have big calves, To me that's not a compliment but whatever right ? Anything else. Uhm can't think of any at the moment. Tomorrow is mufti and it's pick a decade day thing, so i'm just planning to wear some random thing because I can't be bothered dressing up for it, Like seriously you have a 1 in 500 of winning the prize plus it's onlly a $50 voucher. so who cares. Especially when I can take advantage of this day by making myself look good and actually take my time in doing so, so it doens't look like i'm some schoolgirl who doesn't know how to get herself ready for school.

Well that's a lot written today but it's so crap cause it's not in any sort of order, which is quite shocing for me because I would usually do things in the right order at least. So yeah.

laters,..
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JASMINE's DESCRIPTION WORD OF THE DAY

"ACCOMPLISHED"

description word of the day, which i forgot to post in the previous blog, my bad.
laters,...
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well done

i accomplished many things today
it feels good
:D


though i cant run at the moment because of my knee
and i dont want to it to get worse
so im giving it a break
but next week, bring it on

laters,..
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JASMINE :D

okay, basically, I need a new life.
nothing's wrong with my current one
but I think i stuffed it up.

I know I have another chance because no one is saying I can't therefore I'm going to try and use this opportunity to make good use of it. I will begin by exercising a lot more. And far out, I have so much adrenalin right now that while dad was using the computer I went outside to shoot some hoops 9pm at night. Then i get told to go inside and he says it's to noisy. And so I went to play FOOSEBALL with alyssa then he complains again and I'm just like WTF man. But yeah. Swiming was really fun this morning. I actually did like it, and I want LISA as my instructor, she's so nice and nicee... And yeah. then went to kuya bon's house and ate food and realised ooh i'm sleepy so i decided to walk home with Alyssa, I got home. I lay in bed. Then I feel asleep. HAHA. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. Anyways I'm really bored and right now I feel like going for a run but the fact that it's 11 pm at night and my knees are so fragile at the moment I can't. So I'm just doing commerce and hoorah. I've done so much today. I feel so good. Refreshed.

Actually each day, I will use one word. One word, to describe how I currently feel. And todays it's:

REFRESHED

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great

im on the computer 7.51 in the morning getting in the morning.
Im such an idiot.
Im gonna be late.

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giggles

i feel healthy today, more enthusiastic and happy about life and for once actually just me. That's a good thing. I'm not going to go on about my day. Here are the highlights though:

• JAP VISIT
• Ivy sneaking in the Jap Visit group
• enjoying italian :P
• PE; standing there and losing weight.
• having a splash @ lunch time with the classic human water fountain.
• and me uber bored in science (which ain't really a highight) and falling asleep

As you can see, it seem's like a normal day and did enjoy myself. I came home and shot some heaps and got pissed because I couldn't get any at one point then another I'd get them in. So more practise I guess. And OMG, it's so tiring like, i didn't expect it to be like that but whew, its so tiring. HAHA. SO yeah. Anything else. Oh yeah, I was going to collaborate song lyrics that I liked and make them into one thing that is suppose to be nice and since I can't be bothered to do commerce I will do it.

"You're so beautiful, beautiful
beautiful, beautiful

I dedicate, this song to you,
this song to you
I dedicate, this song to
you,
this song to you

There’s nothing else I can say
I wish you never looked at me that
way
There’s nothing else I can say

When I First Met You
And There's Nothing That Can Break Us Apart
In Two'cause
All I See Is You"

HEHE, well as you can probably see I AM EXTREEMEMEELY bored, but shall stop this wasting of time and do some of my work, or read. hmmm.
yeah, I think I'll just continue wasting time. It's so much more fun.

Laters,..
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extremely bored

right now i'm really bored. and im not sure what i should do. here are my options:

• cry
• commerce
• english
• read
• sleep

but really. all i feel like is to cry. not because of anything now and no one has hurt me. Well no one but me. I don't know why i always do this. I think about the past and all the things which had occured, good and bad. And i think to myself, why can't think be like that now? Or why did that have to happen. Maybe I'm just keeping to much to myself at the moment. But i'm pretty sure i'm being open with all the things i say. It's not like all these things in the past have been holding me back from moving on. Or maybe i'm just thinking too much and that I should stop wasting my time and think about my future. But then I think again, and I'm just like OH SHIT ! Two years from now I'll be in year 12. why did time move so fast. A couple of years ago I was just a year seven and very noobish. More than I am now. Eager to learn and very curios with everything around her. Now, I've given up. Rebelled against some and others, forgotten. My life. I like it. I'm just hoping that I don't have to think and that I should just do. Do and no regrets. But then again. Ive done heaps of those things too. I feel like listing them so:

1. dye my hair, which actually does look nice
2. cut my hair, again it actually does look nice
3. pretend to be someone else and act like i'm ok. it's helped me cope i guess, and it's not like anyone has noticed. well not until they've read this.
4. things which can't be mentioned cause theyre rated R.
5. and hurting myself, emotionally. it doesnt really hurt, thats why i dont regre it, at all.

So yeah. I could think of many things which have happened to me; good and bad. I could name a lot just from today. But moving on from this. It's just so hard. I don't know what to expect. Maybe that's why people live their life as a game. They never know what to expect, and they never know what's going to happen to them, yet they still live it to the max. But I feel like I'm part of a domino line. Just like everyone else, and falls with everyone else, and doesn't know how to differ herself from everyone else except exclude herself from everyone and hide things...

On a positive note, today was better than i expected it to be. I had my history in class essay. Which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be and I managed to write more than I'd expected. I really just want to do better. Do the best I possibly can. But i've been holding things off. Ive been distracted. I shouldn't let things like that happen to me. I should be strong. *sigh. But i know, no matter what I do, i'm going to forget and fail, fail it all. Back to the positive note. Basketball was pretty fun. I didn't expect it to be as it was but it was fun. And walking to the station with Alyssa and the guys was so random. Fine but random and very, well let's just say it wasn't appropriate, especially that Alyssa was there. And somehow i still make a fool of myself when I was getting off the train and walking backwards up the stairs (not a good idea), didn't realise there was a step there and fell on my bottom right in front of everyone, where they could all see and laugh at me. Oh well. At least I can still make people happy, I haven't lost that ability yet. And when i do. That's when I should reconsider my life and do something with it. For now I'm good.

See I can end things on a positive note, which I guess is a good thing because I need to sleep happy and not crying. But now that I think about it i stil feel like crying. Again it's no ones fault. I really just do miss Philippines. I mean, I had a life there once too. And you can't expect me to just move on from it. I thought I had, but seeing them and talking to them, reminds me of the good 'ol times. Times when I was happy and nothing to worry about, times when I didn't have to try so hard speaing tagalog and everyone could understand me when I spoke in English, times when i fitted in easily, without trying so hard. Times when I was Jasmine,and just Jasmine with no one else to think about and none of this complaining being done...

I've done a lot today. My time was slower. 9.48. DAYUM. Hmm, it's ok I guess. I'm not gonna complain about this. I've done too much already.

Laters,..
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