I want to be able to give myself a fresh start which includes removing this. I guess Blogger is the only safe place I can put it where I know in the future I'll be able to look back at all the things which has happened in the past. I sound like a massive tool but like anyone cares.
Monday, November 21, 2011
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Needed to Clean my Notes.
17/11/10
381A405A29B65A1D9C6210486A1E064554CFBBF531A3E14E9f0AA44DA253A639
It's time for the book to be updated again and it has come to my attention that I'm in the same position as I was before. On top of course. Haha. Moving on it's been a year since the book has last been updated (excluding the 69. text though) and since then a lot has actually happened. As i reminisce, I recall both the good and the well not bad but negative events which have occurred and during all those times there's be one man. One man with me the whole time. His name is...Jesus. Oh wait wrong book haha. I dont think I'm in the mood to go through all those events in detail and I will simply list the more significant times. This would probably include the times during indoor soccer, athletics carnival, walkathon, formal, graduation. And truly I can't continue with this because I must admit it will bring me to tears.
So back to the main subject sumeet. He's tall :) not a lot has changed, however he has managed to mature and become a...tranny. Duh. Once a tranny always a tranny. His still the same nice guy who are nice to women and tease them and Omgosh Fuck lost my train of thought. It was something about sumeet. Lol.
I have however found that we more common things than I previously thought. I found out that we both love bananas especially big ones. We like to eat it. Another similarity would have to be the love to stay up late at night doing absolutely nothing. Actually I don't like that, nor does he so that needs to be clarified. Uhmmm actually that's about it haha. We have nothing else alike and and omfg that fucking pubic hair on his fucking face. That definitely needs to be removed. It's longer than my cat's hair ;) LAWL.
Ohhhh I just thought of something. We've been closer than ever haha if you know what I mean.
This is failing. Back then I was still innocent and didn't know about all the dirty stuff and now all I'm thinking is I need some meat. Lol you gotta admit that's pretty good.
Just some words which need to be not forgotten:
Expect the unSEXpected
eJERKulation
He hates my rings.
If he had a Ring I wouldn't be complaining.
But then again it's not like he'd be using it as a weapon against me. Hahah :)
He's the biggest jerk I know but he's also ONE of the nicest guys I know. I'll put it this way, he's a great friend. I don't have many gay guy friends but he sure tops that list :p i really don't have much more things to say to him or about him. There's so many little random things, too many to mention and too lost in my head to bother writing it down or in my case typing.
21/11/10
1-107
1. Youre awesome
2. I'm awesome
3. You're hot & phattttt
4. Fuck yo mo
5. Gosh you are smart
6. I need to be taught
7. Still scared from the weather
8. I lost my toothbrush
9. Blog
10. Why are you sexy?
11. You make me laugh.
12. You love me cz you know im pretty awesome
13. Friday
14. I forgot
15. Haha
16. Im horny
17. Lol jk.
18. Need to mbate tho before period.
19. Shut up
20. 2+0=2
21. I hear something rustling
22. Days till yo bday
23: 2 girls + 1 cup
24: oh baby
25. Dance with me
26. I'd like a hug with no sweat or any form of contact
27. Fuck me
28. Tired already
29. Hurry up.
30. November 93: sexpot's bday
31. I want sexy clothes.
32. Does that mean i can wear you?
33. Not gonna fit.
34. Thats what she said.
35. Come here
36. No dont
37. Actually please :)
38. Be nice to me
39. As will i, 2 u
40. Its 10.51
41. Yr disgusting
42. Im doing pretty well.
43. You're kind.
44. You make me smile
45. You make me happy
46. You unsad me
47. You make me give u this face >:{
48. Why?
49. 20
50. Diamond
51. Ty for forcing me to study
52. You dont, but you make me feel bad
53. My fingers are dying
54. Still need to mbate
55. You need the same plan as me
56. Im whispering
57. I like boobies
58. Big ones
59. I'm horrible.
60. Yet you're "lovely"
61. Yes!
62. Screw me?
63. #17
64. I want my neck kissed
65. By a person
66. By a guy
67. That counts you out.
68. Omgosh omgosh. I actually thought of 68 points.
69.69
70. Stop lying
71. No
72. Seriously
73. Why do
74. You
75. Bother with me
76. My parents
77. Gave up ages ago
78. But they love me
79. Or
80. So I
81. Hope
82. Keep studying
83. I'm full
84. So is my mouth
85. I
86. Think this is pretty gay
87. But
88. Who cares
89. Don't you just
90. Love
91. Me
93. You're lovely
94. Not
95. Really
96. Stupid
97. Head
98. Needs to
99. Shave
100. I want you
101. Bad
102. If only you knew
103. It's quite
104. Sad
105. Actually
106. Doesn't matter.
106. You're probably the second closest thing to perfect.
107. Me being one.
THATS THE WHOLE LIST. I finished it last week, forgot to send it to you.
:)
23/11/10
Jasmine is daaaa very sexxy
14/6/11
We are talking about electrons in Chem ;)
Watching soft porn in English - pretty
Much , u can see people having sensual sex and then the chicks boobies.
17/6/11
x^2+(y-x^(2/3))^2=1
<3
21/7/11
I LOVE YOU.
I x^2+(y-x^(2/3))^2=1 JASmine
17/8/11
A poem by jasmine r sealtiel
Sitting in the library
I look outside
Seeing the rain, the cars
The people walking around
Yet in my mind
Is just one thing
It seems to stand out
What is this figure
So tall and might
The thing that could change my life
Wandering how it would be
Without this thing
In my sight
Looking back I feel
Joy and fear
Like a child eager to play
Though selfishness
Fill me within
Because this thing
This thing is mine
I do not wish to share
But show off with pride
Time has passed
Like a baby soon to be born
Now crazy is how I feel
At the window
Again I stare
Thinking about this thing
Reminding me
The luck I've been given
Now wanting to say
I love you Sumeet
I really do.
20/8/11
I have my formal dress. It's in season apparently. 20/8/11 6.39 pm
He gave me flowers as well. Like Omgosh! 6.06am
He asked me to the formal!!!!!!!! 16/8/11 - 6.05am
Having no twitter account is so weird. It's been like 5 days without it already! 9/8/11 - 7.54pm
Haven't talked to Sumeet much, at least I have been. He makes me feel better. 5:44
I've just been isolated from all social networking sites. Day 1-hallucinating already. 6/8/11- 5:43pm
I'm such a loser. 11:06
This is gay and boring, I can't believe I actually deleted twitter. RIP TWITTER ACCOUNT. 5/8/11-11:04pm
I think I just committed social suicide by deleting my twitter account. - 5/8/11-10:12pm
Sumeet - only for the Asian eyes of jasmine
30111993 ( wth that's not even a date)
6ft + a tiny bit more
6' + 1' (coz it's true) + 3' (coz ur tight)
Colour: green. Blue is nice too
Actress: Natalie portman,
Actor: Adrian gernier, jeremy piven
Movie: 3 idiots, black, fightclub, pirates, oceans
Tv: scrubs, friends ( how you doinnnn ;), HIMYM ( Barney all the way), entourage
Music: fuck you, laid, America fuck yeah, dirty little secret, get back ( remember when u were like Sumeet hi5, then I was like hi5 borat style but u moved ur hand away and were like GET BACK muthrrfuker u don't know me like that), gives you hell, mockingbird, ass like that, book of love
Food: lamb, mudcake
Chocolate: Ferrero rocher, jasmine rocher
Pizza topping: meatlovers? I love meat - i don't like meat lovers? Lol weird
Roles: teacher, doctor, maid, school girl, blindfold
Sport: cricket, tennis, soccer, nrl, afl,
Dream: to be sexier than bob
Sportstar: Roger Federer, tendulkar
Shirt: M-L
Pants: M
Notes:
Doesn't talk much unless forced too. Enjoys excersing and engaging in physical activity (including get it on with jasmine). Lies often. Doesn't drink soft drink. Doesn't like Asians. Prefers pork over chicken.
And
And
LOVES JASMINE BERY BERY VERY MUCH HEAAAAPS
also I kept snoozing ur alarm , coz i loved reading 'I love you sumeet'
:P
Jasmine profile
By Sumeet
160.9 - 5 ' 3"
Penis size: 12 x 10^-14 ( roughly an electron which she stole from Sumeet)
Fav scene: mum and daughters friend lesbian sexy time...erotic food tasting with some finger and pussy liking pie
Fav tv shows: gg ppg 90210 Neighbours popeye
Fav movies : no strings attached , V for vagina , alladin,
Role playscene: student, maid , teacher , blindfold with cuffs, bunny costume ,
Fav food: porn dumplings, fried chicken, spagetti, pancit, chocolate
Fav chocolate : max brenner, cadbury, hershays,
Boobie size: 36 Bs or 12 B
Actress: portman , kunis, johanson, alba,
Actor: kutcher, penn badgeley, Jake gyllenhall, guy from transformers , Adrian gernier James franco
Music: my boo, somebody to love, angel,
Singers: usher, Justin bieber, Joe Jonas,
29/8/11
You broke up with me, remember? I wasn't even good enough to be your best friend.
9/9/11
Sumeet loves you more
Jasmine is a slutty bob
3/10/11
Sumeet. Just so you know if circumstances had been different I would have actually written you a message, actually I was going to write you two but then you told me not to so I didnt. Anyways I actually don't know where to behind with you, the beginning I guess? But that's already written down...in your book. Ahaha I should finish it up after HSC like make it full pro and get it professionally published then give it to you a few years later. But what can I say? Most of my amazing memories have been thanks to you. You really truly have made me happy in more ways than one and you've changed me for the better, kinda...more like your better but not future boys aha but that's okay, I'll have you to thank in the future when I'm not pregnant by some what's it called the one night stands yeah that. You, make my day, you're the reason I want to wake up everyday (unless I'm dreaming a good dream of you), you're the reason school wasn't such a bad place anymore and you're the reason why I'm always on msn because even though we're just chatting it still feels like I'm close to you. And sometimes when my whole world feels like it's a mess, you're the reason why I wanna keep going. You make me try and not give up, to strive for the highest...wait that's PHS. You made everything better for me before we were a couple (which lead to our being a couple) you made everything better when we were together and even now, when you have no obligation to do so, you repeatedly try your best to make me happy and be there for me. I couldn't ask anymore from you...and after all that we've gone through together I feel like there's always going to be a part of us that's connected because we share that bond (co ordinate covalent bond that is) which I think is something special and something we can never forget. And the sex, boy oh boy. You're gonna be a hard one to top. You raised the bar. I think I've written plenty for now. And to sum eet up. Lol yeah to sum it up I love you and even though you're not mt boyfriend anymore, you're still that guy to me. The one who I can rely on, the one I can trust, the one who can make me happy and most importantly the one who can satisfy my. And I know one day we will eventually get over each other but I'd like to think that were still good friends then, whether were in relationships or not. I DEMAND RESPECT DAMN IT! Lucky I didn't write you a message otherwise I woulda just kept going lol. But I'm always here for you, talk to me, msn me, call me, text me, + me, skype me, Facebook me, shout to me and I'll be there because (damn can't think of the phrase) something something something.
Love always your sexybum, lazybum, bob chose me over you, gorgeous lol, ex, fwb and friend...jasmine :)
27/10/11
17 nov library
30 nov birthday T
8 dec plaza
15 dec pool
30 dec didn't meet
1 jan ;D
17 jan movie
22 jan library
27 jan bowling
2 feb plaza
9 feb shopping
11 feb swimming carnival
14 feb valentines day
16 feb library
17 feb scuola
18 feb study dayte
23 feb stomach bug ;D
29 apr boys bathroom
2 may girls bathroom ;D
4 may shittest shit ever
6 may break
11 may shopping
2 jun girls bathroom ;D
28 jul drama rooms
2 aug disabled toilets T
30 aug conference room T
2 sep rm8&17 ;D
6/9 sep my room T
13(300) sep room 10 T
19 sep drama storage room ;D
18 oct lab 5
19 oct drama room
24 oct room 13
381A405A29B65A1D9C6210486A1E064554CFBBF531A3E14E9f0AA44DA253A639
It's time for the book to be updated again and it has come to my attention that I'm in the same position as I was before. On top of course. Haha. Moving on it's been a year since the book has last been updated (excluding the 69. text though) and since then a lot has actually happened. As i reminisce, I recall both the good and the well not bad but negative events which have occurred and during all those times there's be one man. One man with me the whole time. His name is...Jesus. Oh wait wrong book haha. I dont think I'm in the mood to go through all those events in detail and I will simply list the more significant times. This would probably include the times during indoor soccer, athletics carnival, walkathon, formal, graduation. And truly I can't continue with this because I must admit it will bring me to tears.
So back to the main subject sumeet. He's tall :) not a lot has changed, however he has managed to mature and become a...tranny. Duh. Once a tranny always a tranny. His still the same nice guy who are nice to women and tease them and Omgosh Fuck lost my train of thought. It was something about sumeet. Lol.
I have however found that we more common things than I previously thought. I found out that we both love bananas especially big ones. We like to eat it. Another similarity would have to be the love to stay up late at night doing absolutely nothing. Actually I don't like that, nor does he so that needs to be clarified. Uhmmm actually that's about it haha. We have nothing else alike and and omfg that fucking pubic hair on his fucking face. That definitely needs to be removed. It's longer than my cat's hair ;) LAWL.
Ohhhh I just thought of something. We've been closer than ever haha if you know what I mean.
This is failing. Back then I was still innocent and didn't know about all the dirty stuff and now all I'm thinking is I need some meat. Lol you gotta admit that's pretty good.
Just some words which need to be not forgotten:
Expect the unSEXpected
eJERKulation
He hates my rings.
If he had a Ring I wouldn't be complaining.
But then again it's not like he'd be using it as a weapon against me. Hahah :)
He's the biggest jerk I know but he's also ONE of the nicest guys I know. I'll put it this way, he's a great friend. I don't have many gay guy friends but he sure tops that list :p i really don't have much more things to say to him or about him. There's so many little random things, too many to mention and too lost in my head to bother writing it down or in my case typing.
21/11/10
1-107
1. Youre awesome
2. I'm awesome
3. You're hot & phattttt
4. Fuck yo mo
5. Gosh you are smart
6. I need to be taught
7. Still scared from the weather
8. I lost my toothbrush
9. Blog
10. Why are you sexy?
11. You make me laugh.
12. You love me cz you know im pretty awesome
13. Friday
14. I forgot
15. Haha
16. Im horny
17. Lol jk.
18. Need to mbate tho before period.
19. Shut up
20. 2+0=2
21. I hear something rustling
22. Days till yo bday
23: 2 girls + 1 cup
24: oh baby
25. Dance with me
26. I'd like a hug with no sweat or any form of contact
27. Fuck me
28. Tired already
29. Hurry up.
30. November 93: sexpot's bday
31. I want sexy clothes.
32. Does that mean i can wear you?
33. Not gonna fit.
34. Thats what she said.
35. Come here
36. No dont
37. Actually please :)
38. Be nice to me
39. As will i, 2 u
40. Its 10.51
41. Yr disgusting
42. Im doing pretty well.
43. You're kind.
44. You make me smile
45. You make me happy
46. You unsad me
47. You make me give u this face >:{
48. Why?
49. 20
50. Diamond
51. Ty for forcing me to study
52. You dont, but you make me feel bad
53. My fingers are dying
54. Still need to mbate
55. You need the same plan as me
56. Im whispering
57. I like boobies
58. Big ones
59. I'm horrible.
60. Yet you're "lovely"
61. Yes!
62. Screw me?
63. #17
64. I want my neck kissed
65. By a person
66. By a guy
67. That counts you out.
68. Omgosh omgosh. I actually thought of 68 points.
69.69
70. Stop lying
71. No
72. Seriously
73. Why do
74. You
75. Bother with me
76. My parents
77. Gave up ages ago
78. But they love me
79. Or
80. So I
81. Hope
82. Keep studying
83. I'm full
84. So is my mouth
85. I
86. Think this is pretty gay
87. But
88. Who cares
89. Don't you just
90. Love
91. Me
93. You're lovely
94. Not
95. Really
96. Stupid
97. Head
98. Needs to
99. Shave
100. I want you
101. Bad
102. If only you knew
103. It's quite
104. Sad
105. Actually
106. Doesn't matter.
106. You're probably the second closest thing to perfect.
107. Me being one.
THATS THE WHOLE LIST. I finished it last week, forgot to send it to you.
:)
23/11/10
Jasmine is daaaa very sexxy
14/6/11
We are talking about electrons in Chem ;)
Watching soft porn in English - pretty
Much , u can see people having sensual sex and then the chicks boobies.
17/6/11
x^2+(y-x^(2/3))^2=1
<3
21/7/11
I LOVE YOU.
I x^2+(y-x^(2/3))^2=1 JASmine
17/8/11
A poem by jasmine r sealtiel
Sitting in the library
I look outside
Seeing the rain, the cars
The people walking around
Yet in my mind
Is just one thing
It seems to stand out
What is this figure
So tall and might
The thing that could change my life
Wandering how it would be
Without this thing
In my sight
Looking back I feel
Joy and fear
Like a child eager to play
Though selfishness
Fill me within
Because this thing
This thing is mine
I do not wish to share
But show off with pride
Time has passed
Like a baby soon to be born
Now crazy is how I feel
At the window
Again I stare
Thinking about this thing
Reminding me
The luck I've been given
Now wanting to say
I love you Sumeet
I really do.
20/8/11
I have my formal dress. It's in season apparently. 20/8/11 6.39 pm
He gave me flowers as well. Like Omgosh! 6.06am
He asked me to the formal!!!!!!!! 16/8/11 - 6.05am
Having no twitter account is so weird. It's been like 5 days without it already! 9/8/11 - 7.54pm
Haven't talked to Sumeet much, at least I have been. He makes me feel better. 5:44
I've just been isolated from all social networking sites. Day 1-hallucinating already. 6/8/11- 5:43pm
I'm such a loser. 11:06
This is gay and boring, I can't believe I actually deleted twitter. RIP TWITTER ACCOUNT. 5/8/11-11:04pm
I think I just committed social suicide by deleting my twitter account. - 5/8/11-10:12pm
Sumeet - only for the Asian eyes of jasmine
30111993 ( wth that's not even a date)
6ft + a tiny bit more
6' + 1' (coz it's true) + 3' (coz ur tight)
Colour: green. Blue is nice too
Actress: Natalie portman,
Actor: Adrian gernier, jeremy piven
Movie: 3 idiots, black, fightclub, pirates, oceans
Tv: scrubs, friends ( how you doinnnn ;), HIMYM ( Barney all the way), entourage
Music: fuck you, laid, America fuck yeah, dirty little secret, get back ( remember when u were like Sumeet hi5, then I was like hi5 borat style but u moved ur hand away and were like GET BACK muthrrfuker u don't know me like that), gives you hell, mockingbird, ass like that, book of love
Food: lamb, mudcake
Chocolate: Ferrero rocher, jasmine rocher
Pizza topping: meatlovers? I love meat - i don't like meat lovers? Lol weird
Roles: teacher, doctor, maid, school girl, blindfold
Sport: cricket, tennis, soccer, nrl, afl,
Dream: to be sexier than bob
Sportstar: Roger Federer, tendulkar
Shirt: M-L
Pants: M
Notes:
Doesn't talk much unless forced too. Enjoys excersing and engaging in physical activity (including get it on with jasmine). Lies often. Doesn't drink soft drink. Doesn't like Asians. Prefers pork over chicken.
And
And
LOVES JASMINE BERY BERY VERY MUCH HEAAAAPS
also I kept snoozing ur alarm , coz i loved reading 'I love you sumeet'
:P
Jasmine profile
By Sumeet
160.9 - 5 ' 3"
Penis size: 12 x 10^-14 ( roughly an electron which she stole from Sumeet)
Fav scene: mum and daughters friend lesbian sexy time...erotic food tasting with some finger and pussy liking pie
Fav tv shows: gg ppg 90210 Neighbours popeye
Fav movies : no strings attached , V for vagina , alladin,
Role playscene: student, maid , teacher , blindfold with cuffs, bunny costume ,
Fav food: porn dumplings, fried chicken, spagetti, pancit, chocolate
Fav chocolate : max brenner, cadbury, hershays,
Boobie size: 36 Bs or 12 B
Actress: portman , kunis, johanson, alba,
Actor: kutcher, penn badgeley, Jake gyllenhall, guy from transformers , Adrian gernier James franco
Music: my boo, somebody to love, angel,
Singers: usher, Justin bieber, Joe Jonas,
29/8/11
You broke up with me, remember? I wasn't even good enough to be your best friend.
9/9/11
Sumeet loves you more
Jasmine is a slutty bob
3/10/11
Sumeet. Just so you know if circumstances had been different I would have actually written you a message, actually I was going to write you two but then you told me not to so I didnt. Anyways I actually don't know where to behind with you, the beginning I guess? But that's already written down...in your book. Ahaha I should finish it up after HSC like make it full pro and get it professionally published then give it to you a few years later. But what can I say? Most of my amazing memories have been thanks to you. You really truly have made me happy in more ways than one and you've changed me for the better, kinda...more like your better but not future boys aha but that's okay, I'll have you to thank in the future when I'm not pregnant by some what's it called the one night stands yeah that. You, make my day, you're the reason I want to wake up everyday (unless I'm dreaming a good dream of you), you're the reason school wasn't such a bad place anymore and you're the reason why I'm always on msn because even though we're just chatting it still feels like I'm close to you. And sometimes when my whole world feels like it's a mess, you're the reason why I wanna keep going. You make me try and not give up, to strive for the highest...wait that's PHS. You made everything better for me before we were a couple (which lead to our being a couple) you made everything better when we were together and even now, when you have no obligation to do so, you repeatedly try your best to make me happy and be there for me. I couldn't ask anymore from you...and after all that we've gone through together I feel like there's always going to be a part of us that's connected because we share that bond (co ordinate covalent bond that is) which I think is something special and something we can never forget. And the sex, boy oh boy. You're gonna be a hard one to top. You raised the bar. I think I've written plenty for now. And to sum eet up. Lol yeah to sum it up I love you and even though you're not mt boyfriend anymore, you're still that guy to me. The one who I can rely on, the one I can trust, the one who can make me happy and most importantly the one who can satisfy my. And I know one day we will eventually get over each other but I'd like to think that were still good friends then, whether were in relationships or not. I DEMAND RESPECT DAMN IT! Lucky I didn't write you a message otherwise I woulda just kept going lol. But I'm always here for you, talk to me, msn me, call me, text me, + me, skype me, Facebook me, shout to me and I'll be there because (damn can't think of the phrase) something something something.
Love always your sexybum, lazybum, bob chose me over you, gorgeous lol, ex, fwb and friend...jasmine :)
27/10/11
17 nov library
30 nov birthday T
8 dec plaza
15 dec pool
30 dec didn't meet
1 jan ;D
17 jan movie
22 jan library
27 jan bowling
2 feb plaza
9 feb shopping
11 feb swimming carnival
14 feb valentines day
16 feb library
17 feb scuola
18 feb study dayte
23 feb stomach bug ;D
29 apr boys bathroom
2 may girls bathroom ;D
4 may shittest shit ever
6 may break
11 may shopping
2 jun girls bathroom ;D
28 jul drama rooms
2 aug disabled toilets T
30 aug conference room T
2 sep rm8&17 ;D
6/9 sep my room T
13(300) sep room 10 T
19 sep drama storage room ;D
18 oct lab 5
19 oct drama room
24 oct room 13
It's all in the past now, I guess...
Monday, November 14, 2011
Sunbae
That means, older male friend or classmate? Doesn't really matter, just needed a nice sounding title.
Anyways in the TV show they say stuff like:
Ano ka ba, nakakainis ka. Akala mo madali lang ito kaso ang hirap, hirap talaga. Palagi ako nag-hihintay sayo kaso ikaw lang gusto mo lang gawin kung anuman hindi mo iniisip yung ibang tao. Dapat okay lang kung ibang tao ako kaso nga lang ako ito. Hindi na ba ako importante sayo. Ano ka ba.
Yeah overall it was a pretty great show. Even though I've watched it twice already.
Ji Hoo is cuter with short hair.
I've missed you.
Really need to get that out of my system.
Can't help it though if the guy says it.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Boys Over Flowers
More like boys over me, or boys on top of me, LOL. Actually it's just a Korean drama that I started watching again after already watching it a few months ago. But it's pretty cool.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Jas Whatever
So Sumeet, this video is well..just watch it. If you're anyone else...I'm not usually this ugly LOL, Sumeet's just awesome and doesnt care what I look, that and he turned Asian and can't see very well...so unless you're Sumeet (or Pj) I'd rather that you didn't watch it.
I don't know if there's any point in apologising since I said it 69 times in the video, but I'm sorry and this is the last you'll hear from me talking about this kinda shit. Like from now on, we're just gonna talk about toilet shit ahahahahah. So funny, laughing at my joke. LOL
Monday, October 10, 2011
Karma
"In popular usage in the West, karma is thought of simply as the good and bad things that happen to a person, a little like good and bad luck. - The literal meaning of the Sanskrit word karma is 'action', but karma as a religious concept is concerned not with just any actions but with actions of particular kind."
I was just reading Buddhist sexual ethics and found this profound and interesting.
HSC next week, there's no point in me ranting about it since probably every other HSC student already has, I mean WE GET IT, were all going through the same thing, you're no different from anyone else. Although if I was different, a good different that is, it would be nice, I would be unique...and I wouldn't be just another sheep duplicating everyones actions, thoughts and movements.
There's a lot going through my mind right now but I just want to be able to set it aside for a few weeks and focus on HSC. I do not need additional stress, I need to relax. I need to enjoy life and I need to do these exams. I cannot wait for the year to end. I cannot wait for New Year's Eve where I'll finally get a chance to set myself free. Heck I don't even need no party. I just want to be able to make my own decision and not to be forced to do things I clearly don't enjoy. I want to have fun with my life, with no trouble just excitement. And it begins next week. The exhilarating feeling which runs through your blood while doing an exam knowing that this can make or break you for the real world.
This is deep stuff. It feels like I got a knife and cut myself deep, releasing emotions suppressed in my body, my blood.
I can smell the fresh air, the sun, gazing straight at me as I lie on the green grass.
I was just reading Buddhist sexual ethics and found this profound and interesting.
HSC next week, there's no point in me ranting about it since probably every other HSC student already has, I mean WE GET IT, were all going through the same thing, you're no different from anyone else. Although if I was different, a good different that is, it would be nice, I would be unique...and I wouldn't be just another sheep duplicating everyones actions, thoughts and movements.
There's a lot going through my mind right now but I just want to be able to set it aside for a few weeks and focus on HSC. I do not need additional stress, I need to relax. I need to enjoy life and I need to do these exams. I cannot wait for the year to end. I cannot wait for New Year's Eve where I'll finally get a chance to set myself free. Heck I don't even need no party. I just want to be able to make my own decision and not to be forced to do things I clearly don't enjoy. I want to have fun with my life, with no trouble just excitement. And it begins next week. The exhilarating feeling which runs through your blood while doing an exam knowing that this can make or break you for the real world.
This is deep stuff. It feels like I got a knife and cut myself deep, releasing emotions suppressed in my body, my blood.
I can smell the fresh air, the sun, gazing straight at me as I lie on the green grass.
Monday, October 3, 2011
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