ignore this please

how could i be so blind ?

of course. it was very predictable.

i just chose to ignore it.

gosh you idiot.

yeah, i don't know what's wrong with me but i just can't seem to ignore the fact that i like what i do even though it's wrong and even though i know that in the end i know that i will get hurt. plus the fact that it's quite stupid and a complete waste of time expecting something from someone whom i don't even know or even met. gosh how pathetic do i sound right now. i don't even know how i feel, confused whether i should be angry or sad. clearly i don't know.

12.11

I waited till it was the 14th to create this blog.


What a week. To begin this I must first mention that WOAH, it's been a week since I have blogged. Explaining the first line. And that's so crazy because it doesn't feel like it's been a week yet. Man how time flies. Well anyways it's been quite a hectic week, to tell you the truth - not really. Just a few events which occurred. No big deal. I think.

Monday was well, the usual - Monday. Something about it is wrong though. I can't quite remember but whatever.

Tuesday I was at school but did no work. That was a pretty long day. I hardly saw myself and it was her last day before she went off to the abyss. Exaggerated just a bit. To another country and will not be back till next month. It was also Variety Night and this saw me helping with the event. It felt really great that I was actually helping with something for once. It made me feel really good cause i was contrubuting to SOMETHING :D That was pretty awesome. I don't care what other people think, because it's the first one I've gone to. That was a long day because I didn't go home. My goodness this blog post seems so useless but whatevs. LOL, love it.

Wednesday was excruxiating but rather lovely because if I hadn't stayed home because i was sickkk.... I would have never met my friend Isai. Dude, that is amazing but I dont meet him till Saturday BUT theres a story to it.

Thursday- mufti day yeah yeah boring did nothing the whole say and got free milkshakes ROFL. fritz came over in the evening and we got crazy we took pics and made a rad dance clip :P

GRADUATION FRIDAY man it was horrible. most boring thing ever, random song that i did not understand why everyone was laughing and it was nowhere near emotional. did not shed a tear. maybe because you were trying so hard to hold it back oh shuttup you again this was another long day because i went home and left soon after because we were off to para. man was i in complete in utter pain after doing something for the first time. oh and i had dinner at dayummm I forgot what it's called. But it's one of those italian restaurants at parra with woodfire oven. stefanos pizza or something italiany. :P so goood.

saturday was uneventful until i received a text. im so annoyed but on the otherhand i was quite happy. anyways this guy whom ive been emailing for like 1 or 2 days (LOL not very long - lol, thats what she said :P) he was online and well i was on my phone obviously because it was still like 10 in the morning and well we were texting each other right and it was so awesome. like i dont really want to post what our conversations were about but trust me, it's rated NOT FOR BLOGS lol. and well that went on for 2 hours and the thing which annoyed me was the fact that im already on a $29 cap with $150 of credit and at the beginning of the day i was on $60 and at the end of our 2 hour texting session i was left with $2.18. I know. i spent so much and i wont be getting recharged until two weeks time which is like crazy because i love texting i really do and having no credit sucks to the max. CRAP but yeah. apart from that saturday was just normal.

sunday went drving pretty average. miss my friends though. especially now i dont have anyone to talk to about shit. yes i said shit because in theory it is shit, but not SHIT SHIT like shit shit if u get what i mean :P

so yeah thats my week. pretty unhectic. so yeah.
laters.

Early

This is crazy. I'm blogging too early. I'm just not quite in the mood and I find it quite odd that I am in fact blogging at 9.01PM. Ahhhh, things have just been crazy lately and well none of it involves me...which is a good thing but somehow isn't. I know what I'm talking about so it's all good. What to blog about. OH yeah.

People, please let me make my own decisions. Stop bugging me for everything. If I don't say yes then that means I didn't say YES and just leave me alone. If I say maybe or no that means NO. For goodness sakes. I think I'm allowed to make up my own mind.

Oh yeah one more thing I actually miss talking to Brenden man, good old times.Sigh* stupid stupid me.


that's all.


a paper falling to the ground made me scream....


i think you shud just eff off cz everytime i see or hear you or even near your presence of any kind it ticks me of. goodness im so aargh.

Don't.

There comes a time when you realise all that you have done wrong and how you truly regret those mistakes that you know you will never repeat. Yet somehow we manage to fool ourselves and believe that the things we do our right and forget that we've ever done them and lose sight of what we really need to do and begin focusing on what we want.

no more lies.

no more hatred.

no more backstabbing.

no nothing.

To move forward we must first believe that we are capable of doing so and this is a step we all must take.

I've been blogging quite late recently. Oh my :/

Just

Doesn't Mean Anything

...it never did.

Alicia Keys (2009)

S- not again

I have just found discovered something.

JASMINE HAS A NEW CRUSH !!!

lololol. obviously it's someone no one knows (that reads this blog) so that is why it's posted on here. so anyways i was looking through pictures of my friends' formal and well i knew him before...maybe...maybe not...but like he was different before and so was i and i didn't talk to anyone then. BUT now looking at his pics, MY GOODNESS he's so damn fineeeeee. the downside is, he's got a girlfriend, one of my friends from that school. sigh* oh well nothing wrong with looking at pics right.

do i really have to go through camp.
highlight: sleeping where possible.

downlight: not being able to sleep during the day.

could it have been better: wayyyyy better.

how did i feel: like something was missing, because there was.

GOSH-


jasmine you are despicable. stay away from me and your disgustingness. it's not morally right. and just because one believes its right doesnt mean everybody else does BECAUSE not everyone is as awesome as that special person...

aww shucks.
person sick.

and sometimes not knowing something is the best solution.

i vow to keep my cool no matter what.

RollercoasteD

Aha, thats my play on words.

the past two days have been somewhat rollercoastery.


idk.


hopefully my family has fun overseas.
and.
today was epic
in a way that wasn't EPIC.

hahahah.

no computer for two days D:
scary.