Don't.

There comes a time when you realise all that you have done wrong and how you truly regret those mistakes that you know you will never repeat. Yet somehow we manage to fool ourselves and believe that the things we do our right and forget that we've ever done them and lose sight of what we really need to do and begin focusing on what we want.

no more lies.

no more hatred.

no more backstabbing.

no nothing.

To move forward we must first believe that we are capable of doing so and this is a step we all must take.

I've been blogging quite late recently. Oh my :/

Just

Doesn't Mean Anything

...it never did.

Alicia Keys (2009)

S- not again

I have just found discovered something.

JASMINE HAS A NEW CRUSH !!!

lololol. obviously it's someone no one knows (that reads this blog) so that is why it's posted on here. so anyways i was looking through pictures of my friends' formal and well i knew him before...maybe...maybe not...but like he was different before and so was i and i didn't talk to anyone then. BUT now looking at his pics, MY GOODNESS he's so damn fineeeeee. the downside is, he's got a girlfriend, one of my friends from that school. sigh* oh well nothing wrong with looking at pics right.

do i really have to go through camp.
highlight: sleeping where possible.

downlight: not being able to sleep during the day.

could it have been better: wayyyyy better.

how did i feel: like something was missing, because there was.

GOSH-


jasmine you are despicable. stay away from me and your disgustingness. it's not morally right. and just because one believes its right doesnt mean everybody else does BECAUSE not everyone is as awesome as that special person...

aww shucks.
person sick.

and sometimes not knowing something is the best solution.

i vow to keep my cool no matter what.

RollercoasteD

Aha, thats my play on words.

the past two days have been somewhat rollercoastery.


idk.


hopefully my family has fun overseas.
and.
today was epic
in a way that wasn't EPIC.

hahahah.

no computer for two days D:
scary.

Single-

Recently I've found myself to be more happy and light-hearted. I've seen the positive in life and can't help but just smile at all the little thing. Don't get me wrong, life isn't perfect, there are still those days where nothing is going your way or people go out of their ways to annoy you BUT overall it's been pretty great. The possible reasons this is the case could be:
- school's nearly over
- i have great friends (and two special ones; three; four; something like that)
- i have ancient friends (whom in a way are also great)
- i've found a way to overcome my boredom
- i feel more satisfied (wonder why...)
- life's just been lighter in recent times
- i'm sexy :D

LOL @ the last one. But yeah, that pretty sums up why I'm feeling great.

Apart from that I'm always changing my mind about things, or forgetting what I'm talking about or something just manages to distract me. Maybe it's just me but I love those distractions. Although I may be doing something important but my train of thought gets distracted it always leads me to something else which in a way is a good thing.

my, my...the things I do though. it's horrible and if anyone ever founds out I'm doomed and no one will ever be able to face me as the person I am now. people may not think so but that's because you don't know what I do and I'm going to make sure no one, NO ONE ever finds out. wait, someone might but that's because of something but yeah, something like that.

Another blog-
kid.

Well...

I was planning to blog about something but I forgot about what so instead I'm going to dedicate this blog for all you bitches out there. I just have one thing to ask you...why? Like is it really necessary. I mean if you have a good reason then it's ok, but just because they annoy you or something like that, really, I don't find that acceptable at all. It's stupid and very immature. I know I can't talk because I too can be acused of this which is why I'm part of this too. Another thing why do people annoy other people. Like they're always in you're way and manages to ruin your day. It's pathetic. Completely.

I want to cry.

I want to be happy.

Must you go,

And leave us.

The year's end is nearing and I kinda don't want it. I recall sometime last year my cousin, she got into year 12 and she put her facebook status as: The acronym HSC shits me hard. Now that I think about it, it does and I'm not even in year 12 yet and now I'm already getting quite anxious. I shouldn't be thinking about those things, JUST YET anyway. For now I must make the most of now because people are leaving, some coming back and others it may be the last time we see each other. That thought worries me because I've grown friendships with these people yet in a matter of weeks they will be gone, to a place where there will be different people, where they can have the opportunity they need. I really should just be happy for them. I know what it's like to go through such a thing and now reminscing about the past it's quite sad.

I LOVE YOU -

WHAT exactly does those three words mean. The moment they come out a person's mouth, the feeling, the emotion, what is it? The purpose of it. Is it real? Is it a joke? Or is this the answer to life. Love's meaning is quite endless in my opinion. But why say it...



I never knew just reading one things can cause me to question so many things. I love how the human mind works, it's curiosity about its surroundings and those around it. Just a fact of life, one that the whole population has learned to live and cope with; sometimes causing disagreements between two parties because they want it, they want it all.




to tell you the truth, i'm pretty sure no one understood that blog. like modernist poems, my blogs are in depth and have more meaning that what it may really seem. the only difference is, poets create artworks, masterpieces, unlike mine; words, words which create a mess, a mess which confuse people.






what has happened to me?



why have i changed. is this who i want to be, the person who will be me in the future. it may seem like i don't have a plan for the future and i have no aspirations and goals but like everyone else i have goals which i too want to achieve. things like having a family, a job and being able to support that family. a beautiful house with a nice car. i'm a normal person just like everyone else, but why do all of this? is it really necessary. necessary to ruin who you are as a person, the person who has been taught all the rights and the wrongs, a person who grew up with religious beliefs and expectations from the people around her. all of that gone, CRASH, because of ....

jasmine needs sleep-

later

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what else.

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music

mood

mysterious

mystical

magical

mighty

music

i need to get a life.



i love bus trips. oh how i miss the good old bus. 4625 ! the annoying little kids shouting the number as the bus approaches it's station. the talks, the moments, the good and the bad. now it's half of what was before and somehow it doesn't feel right but i know one day this will be the normal...

i love guys.

men.

boys.

whatever you want to call them. i just seem to click with them unlike women who i seem to have disinterest in them whatsoever. they're annoying attitudes and whinyness. gosh, i love men. one man in particular.




no, that last thing was a lie. i think this blog needs to end.



now.

Colors

I don't know.

What do you think?