Sunshine.

sometimes i'm not glad that she's my sister but other times she just lights up my life. get that? anyways just wanted to post her name because it's so bright as in smart. woo! i'm on a roll with my effing awesome puns. anyways im off.

How

How come...

....I complain about my problems,
it's my fault.

...I ask my sister for help,
it's my fault.

...I help,
it's my fault.

...I have a problem with you,
it's my fault.

 ...I have to tell you everything cause you wanted to know and you get hurt,
it's my fault.

...I'm the one at fault,
when really it's your fault.

Dedicated to those who are simply blind and thick-headed.

My, after the conversations I had today I've not felt this good in a while. Actually I have, yesterday and the day before. Anyways my point is I was talking about how some people are just so thick-headed that they don't realise they're own wrong doings. Ok, so right now I don't really have a reason to have a go at these people but in the future when do they annoy me I probably would not be in the mood to talk about but rather than just get angry at them and stuff. So here's the deal. I'm going to summarize the things they do and ways they can overcome this...problem which they have.

What's wrong:

• people say you are doing something yet you don't realise
• you make a joke and hurt someone's feelings, yet you continue to laugh about it
• continuall talking about yourself when it's obvious no one cares
• you ignore the problems other people may have
• not everyone has to talk to you yet you manipulate them to
  

Ways to overcome the problem:

• observe other people and look at how they feel, their reaction to the things you say
• ask them if you are causing them problems
• be concerned in a way that you are not being overly sympathetic but in a good way
• just don't make small talk when it's clearly not needed
• be silent
  

This is just a summary of the overall thing but it gives the basic idea of the message. It also makes me feel better because I have said what I needed to say. Just that the other people need to do their part and be more considerate of others and see that other people have problems too and that sometimes you just need to see things in their shoes.


wannabe gangsta, soccer, rain, IST conversations, hitting people, running down high street. the day was somewhat awesome. no need to complain. i'm sorry to everyone which i have complained to and said some, well not particularly nice things. the fact that there are things which are worse than the problems I have it just makes me feel better about my life (sorry to you know who you people are). It's just now that I know my life is fine then it's all good. Gosh, hate talking about nothing.


i'm not a whore.

not said by sukhman (^that thing above)

GOSH SUKHMAN

best damn thing ever. so effing funny. CLICK




that's pretty much all I wanted to say.
:D

Complicated

Things are always different.

A new adventure everyday, is what many people believe.

Well I believe that to have any fun in life you gotta make it fun. And I believe that today was fun and well different. And that's different in a good way.


Just want to smile.
Especially about the rollercoaster.

Unfair.

The following two monologues are towards two different people. It is about a girl thinking about two people who she's unsure what they are to her. Basically it's just her talking to herself or in this case monologuing to herself. Enjoy. Uh, another thing, this is written in my language as in the way I speak because well that's how I speak and that's how I write and that's uh, how I make it interesting. Actually I don't think it's a monologue. Let's just call it a thingy. AHHAHA, a thingy.

Thingy #1

You don't spoil me. No matter how much you think you do, you truly and utterly don't. Although you are quite an awesome person. For once I can believe someone whom is new and different. Someone who lied about their age though. I still can't believe you'd do that just cause you thought you had the blood of an 18 year old pumping through your veins. But the things you do and say. It's very funny and I'm glad that well you Answered my question. Of course only you would know that but really I know your problem. And for the last time I'm not in love with you even though it may seem like it I'm just here as a friend just as you are towards me. I also know that you are in fact in love with her. I just don't see why you don't trust me that you can't tell me who she is or the fact that you complain to me about yourself and how you're opening up to me. It's ok. Really. Being able to open up to others is great because it allows you to release all those feelings which has been building up inside you. You don't want to explode from the overload of all the things which has causing you stress. Anyways off the topic (gosh, i do that in real life and my stories) back to the thingy (ahahha, thingy) oh my i have forgotten. Just stay awesome. And i believe in you. And I also believe that if you tried hard enough then maybe it could just happen. But what is my opinion. I'm just a kid.

Thingy #2

It took me a while you know. A really long time actually. Which is why I'm asking. Why now ? Why after all the things I had gone through would you do that to me. It actually is pretty hard. Especially for me. You know all the things I had to go through. Yet I'm glad that after all that we're still friends. Pretty good friends. Which is why, DAMN IT, why are you causing me trouble. The signals, the signs, the message, whatever it is that you are trying to tell me it's al wrong. And you're very awesome. Great. Although not many people can see you that way I do I'm glad that I do. Because really you are one of the nicest persons out there. Just stop being so unfair and please...let me move on with my life.


GAH. That's like fail. I need to try harder. Next time ?

Smiley Wiley

I could not stop smiling today that it got to a point where i just had to laugh crazily in my head and resort to biting Sukhman. That obviously wasn't what happened today but the smiling was true.

There is not a lot of things I wanted to say today but if you are ever bored try this helpful website which provides you with great advice. I think so anyway. Enjoy :D

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Destiny.

We just can't be seperated. Every second of every minute of everyday, we are always together. Afraid of being separated from one another. The pain it brings when it does happen. Licking it, tasting everysingle flavour it has created. It just turns me on... LOL


GOSH I LOVE CHOCOLATE.


really.

and in case you dumb idiots haven't realised that thing above was chocolate and not a person. laugh out loud. Ok seriously I'm messed up. Chocolate has messed my head up and i've been going crazy during the weekend not being able to resist the temptation of chocolate. That's so unfair though. The past two weeks I've been working so hard to flatten my oh so not flat stomach and because of Halloweeny it's gone to a waste and down the drain it all goes. sigh*



school tomorrow.




i made myself notes that i must show myself tomorrow.

rara wtf is wrong with you. seriously. sigh* im glad that you have that thing. That great persona. I don't know. There's something about you that i really think is quite awesome and stopping me from completely hating you. I'm also quite sure that you don't read this which is great because I dont really want to talk about this with you especially those conversations lately have been quite odd. Not odd, but odd because it's you. Ha, i'm glad no one knows what i'm talking about, nor who. And no people I'm not crazy and have an imaginary friend this is a real person, so don't be mean.



internet, my my, it's oh so gayyy.

it's working now.

i'm glad it is.